Random thoughts after CNY

I still have this monster inside my heart.

You want to know what?

I thought I dealt with it when I was studying about akhlak with Ustaz Abu Zaki.

Now I fear the monster is back again. This time its making me nuts.

"The sickness of the heart- Other than the greatest sickness of riak' (feeling greater than others), the next greatest sickness would be the sickness of jealousy," said Ustaz Abu Zaki.

The uneasiness. The overwhelming feeling of how people are 'above' me. The strong satanic emotion that twirls and swirls my rational brain. I can imagine how such feelings can cause even greater madness like the Iraq War and the constant backstabbing of neo-politics among great politicians. An utter shame I have become. I must act upon myself.

Work is sucky. CNY has brought no luck other than pure torture hearing the PRC talking like DFS is a market and smelling their smelly breath when they suddenly pop out of nowhere in front of you, open their big fat mouth and start, 'Ni hao shen sen... Wo..."

Wallau! Baunya bagaikan bangkai berkumbah najis.

Thinking back, these people, the PRCs, they are like the second Yahudis. They are subconsciously materialistic and their mosaic life is all based on who has the most expensive watches and shopping and buy things and gossip and stuff. They only care about money. Goodness. Although I msut admit there are some PRCs out there who loves peace and selfless in making a world a btter place for other people. Come on Hazlami, you're so bias, what you see at DFS is a mere 0.01% of the entire nation, and perhaps the ones shopping for OMEGA watches are the upper elite classes. Yeah, wadever.

But still, I always came back tired and still I have to balance between reading up materials, thinking of issues, play game, and squeeze that small amount of quantum space for myself to pause a thought about my ownself. I wish I can sit in a library and read quietly.

Oh ya, I might be going to Nepal with Alexis and ST this year. Its a cheap and fun adventurous getaway from life. I hope it does happen. Alexis is so into it. I just want to track up the plains and see the whole world split into two parts; the blue sky and the green earth. And since ST has experience in those regions (he is a nepalese after all) and all of us including Alexis (though she's a girl) are able to adapt to such rough conditions perhaps this would be a journey of a lifetime. I might even be able to write my thoughts in clear waters.

Speaking of this year, university admissions are coming up pretty soon. I must start building my portfolio.

Last but not least, I love God, Muhammad pbuh, mum, my family, Oasis, John Lennon, my close friends (Harold, Nisa, Arafat, Lil Killa, Taufik, Faiza n Fana, 4SIR family, Kamarul, Anuar, Khairi, Raffie, and many unspoken friends like the KL gang and AJ peeps), the guy at the mosque who found my wallet, the children of Palestine, my new friends in France and Bangladesh, the little chinese girl who wrote me a chinese character 'tree' and for giving me a kiss just now, the old apek who kept sweeping the floor outside DFS, my collegues in DFS esp Kak Shimah for the wonderful consistently-prompt food, ST for his stupid jokes, my godmother Ling, Eileen for her nonchalancy and wonderful spirit, Alexis and Sang Ah for the super friendship, the rest of the crew at DFS, Michael for lending me his guitar and many more unnamed personnel whom I believe have made my day.

Here's a happy song for you. :)

PS: If everyone is this happy, can the world rejoice and pause for a moment to hold hands and hug and kiss and put aside all differences and just love, wouldn't it be so good.....

my thoughts on the Muslim world.

These are my thoughts about the Muslim World. It might be completely incomprehensive but im working on it. I actually post this on facebook, on some cause that I joined. It actually invited me to many opportunities making Muslim friends from across the globe. I hope I can complete my essay on Palestine in time for submission to Karyawan insya'allah.


I would like to post a few pointers in discretion.
I understand many Muslims around the world are filled with emotions, unbearable anger towards Israel's attacks on Gaza.
According to a study by a scholar living in Gaza, she mentioned that 'the most troubling and frightening aspects of occupation..was its mundane, prosaic manner. For Palestinians, occupation was the ordinary-a way of lifetaht had to be lived defensively without recourse or appeal, wothout protection or choice, largely absent of accountability, predictability, rationality or control.'

To summed it all up, it clearly shows:
1) dehumanization of palestinians and israelis and its ravaging effects
2)the traumatization of children and the denial of youth
3) the etiology of violence in the Palestinian context and the radicalization of society
4)loss of ideology and creativity within the society and its consequences

Especially I would emphasized on point 4. By disengaging a society with creativity and ideology, it goes to show 2 things.
1) Israel's motives in occupying Palestine.
2) The lost of Muslim values around the Middle East region.

I let you all think about these two points.

Let us compare and contrast how Muhammad pbuh change the world and brought about his religion and faith to the people.

1) He has strong believers (companions) of either strong political influence or financial background.
2) He engages with the poor
3) He doesn't lie (many muslim rulers now do so)
4) He walks the talk (he does what he preaches)
5) His humble character
6) His forgiving methods in dealing with people
7) The unity among Muslims in protecting Muhammad in the battle of Uhud (they do not only protect Muhammad as a Messenger or a man, but also protect his ideas and faith)
8) The ability to be mediators in a conflict (many rulers do not do so, take a look at Egypt, siding the Israels in the peace talks)
9) Many of the Companions are wise men; they are of people with thirst of knowledge (Salman Al-Farisi)
10) Many practised what Muhammad has brought to them
11) Many loved Muhammad and each other (islamic brotherhood)

So they grew economically strong, socially united, and intellectually mesmerizing. Look at us now. Where is the thirst for knowledge? Where are the Muslims in helping the weak and the poor? I see many rulers with big cars and rich houses. But Saidina Omar Al-Khattab RA only had a house as high as his tip of his head, and a patched-up shirt, but still he was considered the Greatest Caliph in Islam, able to unify Islam in farthest regions and inspiring young Muslims to learn knowledge. He was poor in pocket, but rich in heart and knowledge. He engages well with the poor; he never allowed any Muslim governors to eat nice food or never eat at all if he sees a single man on the streets poor without food. While he encourage wealth and power, he also acknowledged the power of KNOWLEDGE to control it.

In that era where the Prophet pbuh spread islam, we can see phases of his journey that can be learnt and implemented.

1) Establishment of love and strongest of faith in Allah and the Rasul
2) Establishment of people of influence in the circle of Islamic Brotherhood
3) Establishment of control in ideas in a city (medina)
4) Establishment of unity among cities
5) Maintaining these Establishments with the Al-Quran, As-Sunnah and rational thinking (as per his last sermon)

These 5 phases show the importance of establishing an Islamic identity WITHIN AN INDIVIDUAL- fully embracing total Muslim; faith, trust, friendship, love, family togetherness, akhlak, ikhsan, and many more (These characteristic modules provide the strong foundation in the founding stages if Islam), followed by the Establishment of people of powerful interests- influential people like Omar Al-Khatab, Osman Al-Affan, Abu Bakr As-Siddiq, Abdullah ibn Saad and many more (These people gave great impact on the spread of Islam financially, socially and intellectually), followed by the Establishment of ideology and Islamic practices in a city (hijra' of the Muslims to Medina, and making Medina the center of Islamic Knowledge, Power, and Faith), followed by the Establishment of unified hearts among other nations (the control of Islamic Nations under one banner from Arabian lands across Syria extending to Africa) and thus maintaining it with love and faith. Faith for Allah, his Prophet, and the faith for the Islamic Ruler.

One must understand that Islam was unified by a single man, and with that the continuation of a single Caliphate system. However, the Caliphate system was weaken because of the Muslim ruler's favour of wealth and power unlike in comparisons to the first 4 Caliphs, and thus was abolished, and with that, the unity of the Muslim world.

We must advert back to that system again. It is proven by the Prophecies of the End of Times by the Prophet, when Jesus will come down from the heavens and unified the world with him, and his death will be a unifying moment for the Muslims as we pray in togetherness, and the continuation of it when Imam Mahdi is born to lead and maintain the Muslim people.

We must be unified based on the 5 phases of establishment first before we can be stronger to withstand it. There is no use in pointing fingers at to whom is responsible for the weakened stature of the Muslim world. The Prophet mentioned that there is no more other wars except for the fight of An-Nafs. He already has foreseen that we will fall in the influence of our an-nafs. He saw that we will break apart because of our an-nafs. He emphasized the strengthen of one's individual hearts FIRST and at TOP PRIORITY.

May God help us all. Ameen.

Some facts to share. I would like to thank brother Bunyameen from Maldives to share his knowledge on this crisis.

The figures are speaking themselves very loudly. We are unable to listen.
Some thoughts:

Demographics:
o World Jewish Population: 14 million
o Distribution: 7 M in America
5 M in Asia
2 M in Europe
100 thousand in Africa
o World Muslim Population: 1.5 billion
o Distribution: 1 billion in Asia/Mid-East
400 M in Africa
44 M in Europe
6 M in the Americas
o Every fifth human being is a Muslim
o For every single Hindu there are two Muslims
o For every Buddhist there are two Muslims
o For every Jew there are 107 Muslims
o Yet the 14 million Jews are more powerful than the entire 1.5 billion Muslims

Why?

Here are some of the reasons:

Movers of Current History:
o Albert Einstein Jewish
o Sigmund Freud Jewish
o Karl Marx Jewish
o Paul Samuelson Jewish
o Milton Friedman Jewish

Medical Milestones:
o Vaccinating Needle: Benjamin Ruben Jewish
o Polio Vaccine: Jonas Salk Jewish
o Leukaemia Drug: Gertrude Elion Jewish
o Hepatitis B: Baruch Blumberg Jewish
o Syphilis Drug: Paul Ehrlich Jewish
o Neuro muscular: Elie Metchnikoff Jewish
o Endocrinology: Andrew Schally Jewish
o Cognitive therapy: Aaron Beck Jewish
o Contraceptive Pill: Gregory Pincus Jewish
o Understanding of Human Eye: G. Wald Jewish
o Embryology: Stanley Cohen Jewish
o Kidney Dialysis: Willem Kloffcame Jewish

Nobel Prize Winners:
o In the past 105 years, 14 million Jews have won 180 Nobel prizes whilst 1.5 billion Muslims have contributed only 3 Nobel winners
Inventions that changed History:
o Micro- Processing Chip: Stanley Mezor Jewish
o Nuclear Chain Reactor: Leo Sziland Jewish
o Optical Fibre Cable: Peter Schultz Jewish
o Traffic Lights: Charles Adler Jewish
o Stainless Steel: Benno Strauss Jewish
o Sound Movies: Isador Kisee Jewish
o Telephone Microphone: Emile Berliner Jewish
o Video Tape Recorder: Charles Ginsburg Jewish

Influential Global Business:
o Polo: Ralph Lauren Jewish
o Coca Cola Jewish
o Levi's Jeans: Levi Strauss Jewish
o Sawbuck's: Howard Schultz Jewish
o Google: Sergey Brin Jewish
o Dell Computers: Michael Dell Jewish
o Oracle: Larry Ellison Jewish
o DKNY: Donna Karan Jewish
o Baskin & Robbins: Irv Robbins Jewish
o Dunkin Donuts: Bill Rosenberg Jewish

Influential Intellectuals/ Politicians:
o Henry Kissinger , US Sec of State Jewish
o Richard Levin, PresidentYaleUniver sity Jewish
o Alan Greenspan , US Federal Reserve Jewish
o Joseph Lieberman Jewish
o Madeleine Albright , US Sec of State Jewish
o CasperWeinberger , US Sec of Defence Jewish
o Maxim Litvinov , USSR Foreign Minister Jewish
o DavidMarshal , Singapore Chief Minister Jewish
o Isaacs Isaacs, Gov-GenAustralia Jewish
o Benjamin Disraeli, British Statesman Jewish
o Yevgeny Primakov, Russian PM Jewish
o Barry Goldwater , US Politician Jewish
o Jorge Sampaio, President Portugal Jewish
o Herb Gray, Canadian Deputy - PM Jewish
o Pierre Mendes, French PM Jewish
o Michael Howard, British Home Sec. Jewish
o Bruno Kriesky, Austrian Chancellor Jewish
o Robert Rubin , US Sec of Treasury Jewish

Global Media Influential:
o Wolf Blitzer, CNN Jewish
o Barbara Walters, ABC News Jewish
o EugeneMeyer , Washington Post Jewish
o Henry Grunwald, Time Magazine Jewish
o Katherine Graham , Washington Post Jewish
o Joseph Lelyeld, New York Times Jewish
o Max Frankel, New York Times Jewish

Global Philanthropists:
o George Soros Jewish
o Walter Annenberg Jewish


Why are they powerful? Why are Muslims powerless?
Here's another reason. We have lost the capacity to produce knowledge.

o In the entire Muslim World (57 Muslim Countries) there are only 500 universities.
o In USA alone, 5,758 universities
o In India alone, 8,407 universities
o Not one university in the entire Islamic World features in the Top 500 Ranking Universities of the World
o Literacy in the Christian World 90%
o Literacy in the Muslim World 40%
o 15 Christian majority-countries, literacy rate 100%
o Muslim majority - countries , None
o 98% in Christian countries completed primary
o Only 50% in Muslim countries completed primary.
o 40% in Christian countries attended university
o In Muslim countries a dismal 2% attended.
o Muslim majority countries have 230 scientists per one million Muslims
o The USA has 5000 per million
o The Christian world 1000 technicians per million.
o Entire Arab World only 50 technicians per million.
o Muslim World spends on research/development t 0.2% of GDP
o Christian World spends 5 % of GDP

Conclusion:
o The Muslim World lacks the capacity to produce knowledge

Another way of testing the degree of knowledge is the degree of diffusing knowledge.

o Pakistan 23 daily newspapers per 1000 citizens
o Singapore 460 per 1000 citizens
o In UK book titles per million is 2000
o In Egypt book titles per million is only 17

Conclusion:
o Muslim World is failing to diffuse knowledge

Applying Knowledge is another such test.
o Exports of high tech products from Pakistan is 0.9% of its exports
o In Saudi Arabia is 0.2%
o Kuwait , Morocco and Algeria 0.3%
o Singapore alone is 68%

Conclusion:
o Muslim World is failing to apply knowledge


A video clip dedicated to the children and the men and women of Palestine. Once I have the monetary funds and knowledge, I promise you, I'll go there and share your pain. May God bless my journey. Ameen.

My journey to the Holy Grail.

Three reasons why I post my thoughts today.

1) My brain is hiccuping with terms and words about Islamic Revivalism, Contemporary Islamic Intellectualism, Islamism, Gulen movement, Kemalism, etc etc. I think I read too much.

2) Gadis Melayu anjuran TV9

3) Zionist pigs

As mentioned above, yesterday I spent nearly 5 hours locked up in my room reading. It is amazing how my brain feeds up 5 hours of information. It has been 3 years since my brain endure such rigorous workout. Usually if 5 hours is subjected to either reading novels or playing games, my brain says its leisure. But 5 hours reading books about the Rise of Islamic Contemporary Intellectualism?? Goodness. Some terms were even clueless to me. I have to check it out on the internet to find out more. I never knew there were so much information I didn't know about the world. I was drawn by how fellow scholars put there heart and soul, and literally, soul (sentence to death by the noose) in order to spread islamic intellectualism to the world eversince the World War 2, and the decolonization of Arab Nations. It is also encouraging learn about the sudden collapse of brotherhood and unity among fellow Arab Nations, Arab Muslims and Non-Arab Muslims, and Muslims as a whole against the West. The relationship between these people brought about a major response- the fall of Palestine in the hands of Zionist pigs.

Referring to today's berita harian, 16th January 2009, page 12 of Komentar, the author Mr Raja Zarith Idris argue that the slaughter in Palestine is not about religion. He based his argument upon the fact that the conflict was brought upon by the continuation of Israel presence in Palestinian land since the Arab war in 1967, and the continuance of pressure from the US and Israel on their economy and politics since Hamas won the election proposed by the US over Fatah. If we could trace back to history, it all began with a religious fanaticism of the Christian Europe. Quoting from Wikipedia, "..religion-driven military campaigns waged by much of Christian Europe against external and internal opponents. Crusades were fought mainly against Muslims, though campaigns were also directed against pagan Slavs, Jews, Russian and Greek Orthodox Christians, Mongols, Cathars, Hussites, Waldensians, Old Prussians, and political enemies of the popes.[1] Crusaders took vows and were granted an indulgence for past sins." It is imperative to understand the underlaying truth, that the bloodshed started from Europe. When the 1st Crusade attacked the Muslim-based Jerusalem, the won and the slaughtered almost all of the Muslim inhibitants in Jerusalem. When the Muslims gain unity and strength in 1187, Saladin, great ruler of Egypt, send a wave of relentless attack on the remnants of the French Army, and regain back what was rightfully theirs.

One may argue on the motives of the Zionist Jews on palestinians at present against the numerous recorded history on how Jews and Muslims- inhabitants of Jerusalem, fought side by side against the French Army in the first crusade, and they died together as they were massacred when the French took over. Even the World War Two event was fuelled by the Europe's campaign against Seminitism. So the question is- What are the motives of the Zionist against weak Muslims now?

Im on my personal journey to uncovering the truth, where politics and power is overlayed by ambitious religious-driven sentiments. What drives men mad to kill another man? What makes the Muslim World weak and fabled as compared to the Caliphate Era where the Muslim Kingdom triumph with knowledge, power, and military strength? What motives do the US government hold in support of Israel against the weak Palestinians?

I must mention that we cannot blaim the Hamas for blasting rockets that sparked the onslaught. They were panicking- supplies to feed their people are narrowed even further with a tunnel, and of course, embargoes on its economy as well. And I must further emphasized that Hamas is NOT a militant party. How can they be streotyped by the West as militant or even worse, terrorist? They are a political party who won the elections fairly through democracy that was proposed by America. They are the only force that has the will to fight for their homeland. It is easy for Majusis and Kafrs to point the finger at them, and calling them militants, and believing naively by the continued propaganda of the West through media.

Ok I think that sums up point one and three haha.

Now for Point 2. hehe.

Siapa bilang gadis melayu tak menawan....

Kaoz, lawa bangat sih cewek2 Melayu. Hehehe.

Aida won, and it opened my eyes to the woman of Malaya. Truly astoundingly beautiful. Ok, im referring to Malaya, as in Malaysia, not Singapore haha! Singapore Malay girls, maaf kata, sorry to say, is like a prawn in the ocean as compared to these pretty intelligent beings. They are smart, pretty, and above all, carries the MALAY characteristics of a True Malay Woman- full of softness, beauty WITHIN, and adherence to Malay tradition of adab, tatasusila and of course, the knowledge of Duniawi and Ukhrawi.

Maner la minah tudung yang hot dan lawa dan pandai dan lembut macam dorang pat sini eh.....

Ade kot, must be in some university la.

Taken from a dialog between my mum and me when watching the Gadis Melayu TV9 yesterday night.

"Aduh mak lawanyer dorang. Mm.. Ni kalau dapat pinang best ni mak."

"Lawa eh dorang. Aina tu pandai jawab soalan para juri eh?"

"Mak mak, kalau adik (me) umur cam 27 takde makwe berkenan, skali terpandang orang macam Aina tu, Mak pilah minang untuk org hehehe.. Malula nak tanye nombor."

"Eh eh kau ni, belum kerja betul2 nak kahwin."

"Yelah, tap ni scenario dah ade kerjaya. Ok, mak nak adik pilih yang perempuan macam Aina ke, macam Melayu tak pakai tudung tapi kerja, atau minah Jepun muallaf yang pelembut?"

"Aina la!"

Consider done! Hahaha! Pikir balik, my mum have alot of contacts with friends and stuff. Manerla tau dapat minah Al-Irsyad ke yang pandai pergi UKIM ke bleh berbual bahasa Arab. Wow!

Senang je, just sent my mum to minang the girl. With my looks so handsome, and my talents, surely she won't reject. Im everyone mum's favourite. Almost all aunties that I have met or mum's friends or collegues would say," If I have a daughter I'd marry her to you!". Haha. And if she is truly Gadis Melayu, pasti patuh atas pilihan ibu kan kan? Hahahaha!

Now must focus on myself. Gain more knowledge, gain more experience, gain more akhlak, insya'allah, God would give me a girl as beautiful as Aina. As my wife of course. Not some dating girl or flirting girl or spare tyre or scandal.

But a wife.

Maryam! Your mission is to get me a tudong girl. Now! Hehehe.
Waduh. So pretty. Nombor bleh kasi? Hehehe.

Gadis Melayu takkan hilang di dunia (Malay Woman won't extinct in this world)

Hahaha!

New Year Covenant

"Anyone who has never made a mistake has never tried anything new." -Albert Einstein

I would like to begin my new year with this quote by a famous mathematician in the world, Sir Albert Einstein.

As I rummage into this already dampened brain for clues as to what to write, I realised that celebrating the new year is not just about enjoying it, but perhaps in a more higher derivative, embracing it with full of hopes and unfulfilled dreams. I succumbed myself in deeper thought, as I look towards my living room window. 2008 was generally a sucky period for me. Although I must say what you lose is what you gain, I prefer seeing my 2008 in a mess. And thus concludes the quote I chose to begin my 2009.

Instead of blabbering about what I want to do, how about I post myself a series of questions.

How was your 2008?

Bad.


Was 2008 memorable?

Depending on how negative and how positive you view it.


What do you mean negative?

I have increasingly indulged myself into pessimism. If not for faith, family, friends, and frequent 'One Piece' episodes, I'd dwelled even further into the sea of negativity.


Can you roughly list for me the negative/bad things that has happened in 2008?

1) Failure to enter to university this year with my batch due to my stupidity in planning.
2) Failure to leave NS with that amount of credibility and confidence as how I walked out of SISPEC
3) Failure to save Dian Farzanna's live which then caused her to die in April 2008 and thus brought about a series of traumatised events.
4) Failure to help the community who are most in need due to my irregularity in work shifts.
5) Failure to learn and grasp Japanese well.
6) Failure to make myself happy after Dian's death.
7) Failure to please my parents.
8) Failure to collect enough money to last me 2 years in uni dis year.
9) Failure to spend time for myself and indulge myself in research and books.
10) Failure to understand myself.
11) Failure to give myself another chance to love.
12) Failure to give people chance to understand. (Magician Disappearing Act Theory)
13) Failure to keep up with religious learning.
14) Failure to clean up the mess that I have made.
15) Failure to achieve something in year 2008.


Well, that's a long list of failures. Im interested in number 11 and number 15. Care to explain?

Regarding number 11, I tried my best to offer myself a chance. However, much to my dismay, whenever something bad or unexpected props up, I keep blaming myself and not having the determination to go all the way and treat it like a challenge. I couldn't help but kept thinking about failing to keep up to her promises, and why I should stay single till I die, and how I cannot replace a close friend that has been there for me listening to EVERYTHING that has happened in my life. When a bad event unfolds, or a certain strain of rebuff exist, there isn't any emotion to outwit these negativities and thus I further drowned myself into a rollercoaster.

As for number 15, I must admit im very ambitious. I feel jealous everytime I see people with cars and having a certain social status that permits him/her to attain such wealth and a sense of pride. And here I am scanning stupid cards and talking rubbish japanese to customers. I want to do more. To do things. Great things. I was sitting in a mosque back when I was sec 4. A wise man sat beside me and told me I have a problem. Curious by his sudden shocking claim, I asked why. He mentioned I could do great things in life if not for my inapt to grasp myself in times of turmoil. Yes, I admit I am a sensitive creature and thus actions made by me are a mere example of influences of the environment around me. So he took my head in his soft palms, and prayed, and kissed my forehead. He smiled and left. Since then I told myself I was born to do great things in life. My strength is based upon the courage and determination of others. I am exactly like Peter Petrelli. I gain power from others, not taking them away from people, and in fact able to contribute what I have. I saw how my big brother scored in his O'level. And so I looked up to him, and always tell myself I can do better. Yes I am playful too. And I enjoyed my childhood innocent life of mere soccer, running, studying, games and such. And still I believe I achieved something that year. But look at me now. I achieve nothing. And so I hope this year when I enter uni, im all geared up for it. I made mistakes to conquer my fears. I am ready for my honours. I am ready to be the best. And thus, able to do great things in life.


Ok, so could you list out breifly the achievements you would want to achieve this year?

1) Get a good start in university.
2) Settle down with my community programme.
3) To be a better man.
4) To be wiser and mature in thinking despite having a 17 year old face. (bla bla bla.)
5) To be able to start my first book entitled, "The Rose, The Angel, And Me - A completely incomprehensive biased thesis about life."
6) To be able to give myself a chance to love.
7) To be able to write a thesis about the issue on freedom v/s love.
8) To be able to make my parents proud.
9) To be able to sustain financially without any help (as always)
10) To be able to have a determination like Straw hat luffy.


Interesting. number 10 is interesting.

Yes. Im intriuged by his nonchalant attitude about danger, and yet already have set inside his heart the determination to win despite his foes being stronger than him. I never mentioned about it at work. Recently my collegue went to Thailand for a short holiday, and she got everyone a small keychain of sorts. I got this small pirate doll with a blue hat. Kaizoku Ouja. Consider that coincidence? Or fate? hehe.


Indeed. Im curious as to how are you going to deal with 'rebuffs' in near future?

Well, I'd tell Harold about it. I'd tell mum about it. I'd tell my big brother about it. I'd share it with a couple of closed friends about it. Gaining a conclusive obejective point of view is divine. And it further elevates divinity by praying to God for guidance. And tell myself, I have no fear in disappointments. Every mistake is a point to learn. It'll make me stronger, and I'll achieve what I want to achieve if god permits it ameen.


This tactic of yours. Is it workable?

Everything is possible if you believe.


So this year, in 2009, honestly, how do you comment about Dian's death?

No comments. I'd take her in my stride, knowing that she'd want me to be happy.



I have thus acknowledged the basic sacred covenant in my mind. Mistakes are steps to victory. Never must I fear to make mistakes. There are many opportunities out there for the taking. Never give up on an opportunity. Embrace and not retaliate. Love and not hate. Submit and not give in. Understand and not tolerate. Smile and not frown. Breathe and not drown. Haste, and not waste. Dream and not dwell.

And a footnote. I have made incredible friends who have and yet proven themselves to be the best. The brotherhood. Faiza. And a long lost sweet childhood best friend Nisa. Not to forget my old buddies who has always been there and will be there. Taufiq, Azhari, Alpha commanders. May our memories of strong brotherhood be together binded in faith and kindership. To my family, mum and dad, for having faith and unconditional love for me. To my two little brothers whom I loved so dearly and to whom I put faith and confidence. To my big brother Hasanul for his knowledge and leadership in leading me. To his girlfriend whom I've yet to meet formally. (dun hurt him if you do darn it hehe) To the long lost friends who have shaped me and touched my heart one way or another. To my future university friends may we help each other in our quest to be the best, and also to enjoy undergraduate life hehe. To the Palestinians may you peservere in this times of identity crisis. And ultimately I raise this glass of sincerity to myself.
May you have the strength and courage to push on.

To Muhammad PBUH, I'd make you proud.

And.

To God.

Bless my soul. And hers. And those mentioned above.


And excerpt from my book.


"Bie?"

"ye sayang. Whats up?"

"Are you afraid of death?"

I paused. Perhaps hesitating an answer.

"Yes. And No." Probably the safest answer.

"Bie, I am not afraid."

I paused again. I fear the event that would inevitably unfold.

"And I shall wait for you there at the Gardens of Paradise. Find me ok?"

Tears dripped like the morning dew. The sound of the takbir from the radio echoed through my house. "Make haste, pray your subuh. Now its Aidilfitri." Mum bellowed.

"Insya'allah I will." I put down the phone. A fleeting moment emerged like an eagle hungry for its meal. Death is fear.

Got this from an email.

Audzubillahisami'il alimimina syaithonir rajim


بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

In the name of Allah, The Compassionate, The Merciful

ﺍﻠﺴﻼﻡ ﻋﻠيكم

Jangan Sambut 1 Januari!! (New Year) .. Nauzubillah. Buat renungan bersama

Kuliah Maghrib yang disampaikan oleh saudara Zulkifli Nordin .
Dibawah ini adalah intipati kuliah beliau yang sempat disalin. ..

Diantara lain, beliau mengupas ayat 120, surah Al-Baqarah, mafhumnya :-
"Orang-orang Yahudi dan Nasrani tidak sekali-kali akan bersetuju atau suka kepadamu (wahai Muhammad) sehingga engkau menurut ugama mereka yang telah terpesong itu). Katakanlah (kepada mereka): "Sesungguhnya petunjuk Allah ugama Islam itulah petunjuk yang benar". Dan demi sesungguhnya jika engkau menurut kehendak hawa nafsu mereka sesudah datangnya (wahyu yang memberi) pengetahuan kepadamu (tentang kebenaran), maka tiadalah engkau akan peroleh dari Allah (sesuatupun) yang dapat mengawal dan memberi pertolongan kepada mu." [002.120] http://www.quranflash.com/en/quranflash.html
http://www.usc.edu/schools/college/crcc/engagement/resources/texts/muslim/quran/002.qmt.html

Beliau juga menyebut hadith Rasulullah SAW yang berbunyi, lebih kurang :
UmatKu dilalaikan tanpa disedari seperti semut hitam diatas batu hitam dimalam yang gelap. Siang ia Islam, malam ia kufur; dan siang ia kufur, malam ia Islam. Yahudi & Nasarah yang tidak redha akan Islam kita akan menggunakan apa saja cara untuk menyesatkan kita. Sekarang mereka menggunakan cara yang begitu halus sampai kita sendiri tidak sedar yang kita telah mengikuti mereka. Tengok saja disekeliling kita ... Contohnya, haribulan. Berapa ramai yang tahu bahawa cara tarikh Masehi ini ada kaitannya dengan tuhan mereka?

21hb Ogos 2002 AD. Apa maksud AD dibelakang? Makna AD ialah "AnnoDomini" bahasa Latin yang bermaksud "Anno" ialah aku/saya dan"Domini" ialah tuhan dilahirkan. Jadi 21hb Ogos 2002 boleh diertikan sebagai"... beberapa hari setelah tuhan aku dilahirkan. "Nauzubillah ... . Insaflah kita kerana secara halus kita mungkin termasuk dalam kategori umat Nabi Muhammad SAW seperti diatas. Sebab tulah kita dianjurkan supaya beristighfar selalu.

Bila sampai 31 Disember, berapa ramaikah umat Islam yang meraikan tahun baru? Tetapi sedarkah mereka bahawa telah difatwakan oleh Sheikh-ul-Azhar, Sheikh Tantawi, Sheikh Yusof Al-Qardhawi dan Ulama2 contemporary bahawa menyambut 31Dis. bererti menyambut ulangtahun hari jadi tuhan Yahudi dan Nasarah? Bagi mereka yang tidak tahu, hukumnya fasik, tetapi bagi mereka yang tahu (kita sekarang sudah tahu) hukumnya ialah MURTAD. Nauzubillah.

Sesungguhnya yang baik itu adalah dari Allah S.W.T dan yang kurang serta salah dan silap adalah dari kelemahan saya sendiri.

Wallahualam. Dapatlah kiranya dipanjangkan, Insya-Allah kita semua akan diberikan hidayah.

Berpesan-pesanlah kita, walaupun dengan sepotong ayat...

Come to think of it, i did hear Sheikh Tantawi's speech somewhere in the Berita Harian but I forgot when. Something about the obligations of a Muslim in celebrating the New Year.

I suppose many Muslims out there do, one way or another. I think it all depends on the niat.

To me, i dun celebrate, but I reflect. And somehow or rather, I took it in a relax way knowing that it is yet another year to face.

I shall blog about my resolutions and the nostalgic events of 2008, be it globally, socially, politically, or least, personally.

May Allah bless me. And the children of Palestine.

Ameen.