[BoReD, sAd..]

dis suck man.. sitting like a duck at home.. hearing PUTERI GUNUNG LEDANG song, the one MNASIR sing feat SITI NURHALIZA..

makes me sad.. dunno why.. i share the lyrics of the song wif ya.. hmm..

Cinta datang
Tanpa diundang
Seumur masa tercipta

Dia datang bagai sakti Bagai menyaksi mekar
Kembang pagi ooooohhh

Cinta datang
Dengan senyuman
Panasnya membakar mentari

Wajah yg tergambar
Tak akan terpudar
Dari hati insan yg fana ini
Fana ini...

Tak mungkin mentari
Akan terus sembunyi

Tiada sempadan
Tak bisa kulewati

Jika ini hakikatnya
Aku serahkan jiwa & ragaku
Menantimu walau sengsara
Jika ini ketentuannya
Jika ini hakikatnya
Aku serahkan jiwa & raga
Jika ini ketentuannya
Kau kan jadi milikku
Jua...

see the lyrics.. haish.. its like, the love btwn HANG TUAH and legendary PUTRI GUNUNG LEDANG is so unconditional.. so love.. so much.. so deep.. why can't i have such fate.. maybe im facing the same thing.. but the other party isn't willing.. its like 'Menantimu walau sengsara
Jika ini ketentuannya', just f*ckin wait.. haish..

i dun deserve such deep love.. where in the blue hell wud sumone love me dat much, till she was willing to die, to receive the curse, where any person wud die if he shud see her.. even the lover cudnt see her, like how HANG TUAH experienced.. haish.. it makes me feel like shit.. like a born loser..

i hope, i pray, dat wen i close my eyes.. i see the person who wud bring the curse out of me.. the love so willingly.. so unconditionally given..

yupz.. dats the thing im seeking in life.. unconditional love.. haish...

i dun deserve a thing..

hate myself..

burn, just die..

my poem.....

Life is short, time is precious..
Treasure the stars wif upmost intentions
the heart that beats so fine, may finally end
in ppl's glory, shall it stand

the heart that beats, may soon end
just like the wind blows the sand

the heart that beats, shall sleep in slumber
excruciating, in pain, in hunger
of sumting, no one cud ponder
life is short, time is running
once the last sands trickles out, melt away the tears
for angles have come, never shall you fear

Light up the darkness, has she not done
for the heart datbeats, shall never come
smile and laugh, puts the heart in silent bliss
and wad there is, the love cud give
is the trust and friendship, dire of thy warmth
the art of giving is wad the heart shall question
to itself, for it grows reckless in thirst
of thee sincere, pure love, fellowship and care
wad's there is there, tink again
there might be no tomorrow...

bubyee...=(