Something is freaking bothering me in the middle of the night.

Wassup with anwar ibrahim seh. Stop it la, i can see you deep into your beady eyes.

I do not wish to see Malaysia end up to be a Republic country, it is Malay-sia, so the Malays shud be in control. Im not trying to be racist or what, but China is controlled by chinese, France by French, England by English, why must there be some other race that would take up the space in the Parliament of Malaysia?

Look at Penang, dah sokong PKR, skrg dah menyesal pasal apparently the Chinese who are in control there now is implementing a new system that doesn't support Malays.

I am not discussing the issue of Malays in need of support of the government. Who doesnt? Look at China back then, it was a communist country- hence, the people and the government do help each other. Why is it when it comes to the Malays, it becomes an issue of laziness and bla bla bla?

The fact remains. It is a Malay country, so dun try to take it away from them. You are causing a great deal of havoc in the country. Do not be influenced by neighbouring countries like Singapore. here it is a totally diff situation. We are sufferring silently. So please la, stop it can or not.I'd delve in this matter more when I find some time to blog.

Anyways, this song damn nicela. Its like im really saying it face to face to my mum.

Mengapa kanta ini masih berkaca
Sedangku telah pun terima di dalam redha
Segala kepahitan
Pengalaman menjadi penawar
Mengejar impi ke pintu Syurga

This is totally true, me and my big dreams but yet struggling to fulfill one. And only my mum would see how I'd really suffer. And seeing those silent tears that filled her eyes when I told her how Im trying really hard to sustain and help the family.

Duhai bonda
Bilakah akan ku kecapi kasturi
Penebus maruah
Dan semangat lama

When oh when mama.. when can I find the path to achieving my dreams? to see you proud of me again, like how i made you proud with my olevel results? where can i find such strength and power?

Mengapa sinar neon dan gedung indah
Kotaraya yang menjanjikan sejuta rasa
Sejuta haruman
Kini menjadi penjara jiwa
Ku yang merindukan ketenangan

True mama, this life is a prison. Life that doesn't begets me from true happiness. Life that doesn't offer us much room for comfort. You have to struggle so much for me. For us. Oh mum...

Duhai bonda
Hari-hariku kini berlalu
Bagaikan bahtera
Tanpa layar dan kemudi

Oh mama.. I feel lost, so lost in this world of lies.. Only your unconditional love that'll be that guiding star..

Bonda
Akhirnya terbongkar jua rahsia
Tangisan dan gurindam
Keramat kasih sayangmu

At last I see your sacrifice, your hidden tears and laughter. It is in this moment that I see your strength, that'll make me just cry, making me feel soft and vulnerable without you.

Bonda
Saat dan pertemuan semula
Kita kali ini
Akan ku abadikan
Keramat kasih sayangmu

So the conversation that we had, the hugs and salams, doas and kisses, I will never forget them mama. I wun.

Oh! bonda
bonda

Darn. I really really love my mum.

Thanks mum. For everything.
I love my famlay. They are soo cool! :D