im sick. very sick. n so is farz.

got 2 days attc. now resting at home.

wanna sleep now. :(

Wah, on duty is no joke seh..

Nasib baik aku cuti sampai dis sun! Wee! Akhirnya dapat gak aku pakai baju kurong pi masjid.. Dah lamer tak kunjung rumah Allah pat chua chu kang..

I use to do dat when i was in sec sch, my school just beside the mosque ma, so everitym got time i go n pray n relax my mind n be with God..

Betul cakap bapak aku, dahulukan akhirat, dunia akan ikot.. Mcm your mind is utter relax mode everytime you are with God or thinking of Him, perhaps its just the insignificant being of us by nature that we feel in happiness or in state of calmness wen we think or believe that someone or something is sheltering us, the ultimate being dat we believe wud help us in many ways..

thats why i believe faith and religion is very important. Islam- the submission, the way of life..

Speaking of guidance, i hope that i'd be able to talk to her dad or sumting, tell him not to go back overseas when they come back in september, luck is on my side, since there is Ramadhan in september, perhaps God is realli wif me..

She needs my presence, n spiritual presence.. N thats why she needs to stay here in spore, sana mana ada org soleh.. Im not talking about prayers at home with alot of people, dats 'umum', meaning its for the general public.. but for 'khusus', we need people, who prays all the time, zikr and salawah everyday, who understands and submit themselves totally to God, that is to say, para solihin.. orang soleh in spore masih ada, there is Syed Abbas, and there is more, ppl who preaches the way of truth and zikr not like for the public like in the mosque, but khusus..

Maulid.. dat is wad she needs.. Sultan wali-wali Jalaludin Hasan once said, "Those who bring maulid to their houses, will receive great prosperity, and peace in the mind and heart, and wen they die, they die at ease with the will of God."

How possible is this, 'maulid', a recitation or more like a remembrance to the Prophet Muhammad SAW so powerful in the eyes of God?

The prophet is 'rahmatillil alamin' - blessing to all universe..

He is the one closest to God.. His Messenger, and when the day comes, he would give the 'syafa'ah' to us to help us to reach paradise..

Dats why remembering him is remembering God himself..

Allah huma solli ala muhammad...

God says His salawah to the prophet..

Its like a 3-in-1 prayer, forgiveness, zikr to God, and pay respect to Muhammad SAW..

My last entry for this blog...

Cant seem to understand him...

Dont knoe wad he wants...

Cant seem to satisfy his needs...

Dont feel appreciated...

Cant seem to make it last...

I tried... N i tried... N i tried again... Tryin my best...

From tryin to make it better... It got worse instead...

But nothin seems to work out...

Wanting more... But never appreciates me...

So much for livin in moments...

Yea, livin in moments of hurt......

Im hurt... So hurt... Damn hurt...

Thanks for everythin....

May the Lord takes me into His care...

Farzanna the Fallen....

Amongst the freaks who create tension in my blog, i guess i forgot to update on the things around me.

1) EX SEMANGAT BERSATU was so tiring, it drains the eyebags out of me, especially zeroing the 120 plus styrs and mini-me (i dunno how to spell them haha) a day before the actual exercise

2) TODAY IS YOUTH DAY!!! DEN WAD THE FISH IM DOING?! GOING BACK TO CAMP AND ALL!! I SUPPOSE TO BE AT HOME ON OFF!!!

3) Happy Birthday to Dad MR ZAWAWI BUANG, his 46th birthday, and my lil bro Najiy his 13th birthday. May Allah bless our family wiv luck and prosperity.

4) I wun be booking out dis weekend cz i have a 2NTM duty. So anything jz gimme a beep.

5) My back is injured after a fray wiv the trees in the Lim Chu Kang forest swamp area, and now i think got possibility of a temporary downgrade wee!

6) I hate my encik.

7) Got an offer to go alaska for training but i reject cz the fact that 11 days off in lieu is given to those not going is a much better incentive!

8) Im gonna miss home! n my bed!

9) Farz, pls use the blog, ignore the freaks, jz continue to blog, dis is our way of communication kae? i noe its hard for the both of us, but we gotta stay together to work things out, especially now you're in Australia. Come back in August!! Maybe we can puasa together hehe!!

10) I love you farz


Dats all. Toodles!