Girl facts :When you catch a girl glancing at you, she wants you to look back and smile
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When a girl bumps into your arm while walking with you, she wants you to hold her hand
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When she wants a hug, she will just stand there
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When you break a girls heart, she still feels it when you run into each other 3 years later
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When a girl is quiet, millions of things are running through her mind
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When a girl is not arguing, she is thinking deeply
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When a girl looks at you with eyes full of questions, she is wondering how long you will be around
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When a girl answers, "I'm fine," after a few seconds, she is not at all fine
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When a girl stares at you, SHE IS WONDERING WHY YOU ARE PLAYING GAMES.
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When a girl lays her head on your chest, she is wishing for you to be hers forever
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When a girl says she can't live without you, she has made up her mind that you are her future
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When a girl says, "I miss you,"no one in this world can miss you more than that
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When a girl is mean to you after a break-up, she wants you back, but she's scared she'll get hurt and knows you're gone forever



Guy Facts:When a guy calls you, he wants to be with you
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When a guy is quiet, he's listening to you.
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When a guy is not arguing, he realizes he's wrong
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When a guy says, "I'm fine." after a few minute he means it
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When a guy stares at you, he wishes that you would care about him and wonders if you do
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When your laying your head on a guy's chest, he has the world
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When a guy calls/texts/comments you everyday, he is in love
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When a (good) guy tells you he loves you, he means it
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When a guy says he can't live without you, he's with you till your done
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When a guy says, "I miss you,"he misses you more than you could have ever missed him or anything else.


Cool fact huh?

Didnt go to work today.. Had diarrhoea and vomittiin after last nite's dinner.. I ate somethin spicy on an empty stomach.. Doctor told me i had gastric flu.. Ate medicine.. So drowsy now.. Yawnnn... My sleepiness level is bout 70% now..

You see, i went to work yesterdae at bout noon.. Told dad i'll be going to work late.. I do ate my lunch kae bie?.. I ate egg n chicken sandwich.. Cause ayang got no appetite lar dear.. Aniwae, i gotta rush doin my work.. After work, i told dad i wanna go to e hair salon, wanna doll up my hair.. Told hubby haz.. He wants me to take a picture of it!.. I did it after dinner.. Then... Wah... My stomach realie hurts damn bad uh.. Felt nausea, like wanna vomit.. N somethin's churnin in my tummy.. Doll up, put some make up, wear a sweater.. Pose... Click! Save it.. Send to haz's email.. Off to e toilet! Bluuueeeek!! (vomits) Felt not so good.. Called hubby haz for comfort.. Aniwae, he went home to slp last nite n book in today.. So hapie!.. Told him i send my pics alreadi..

Then he says,

"Wow.... Stunning...... Hmmm... Ayang, very nice.. But maybe u shud "dress down" a bit?"

"Huh? Wad u mean?" i asked..

"I dont knoe.. Maybe its ur hair? Or ur pose? Or dat sweater? Its hot n sexy but... This is like a model photoshoot uh"..

Haiz... Okae... =( i did it all for u tau bie... Eventho, i was like kinda sick.. I still do it for u.. Nvm uh.. Hmmm.....

Well, since im not working, i can spend sometime wif haz.. Was just on the phone wif him just now.. U knoe wad? Apparently, this naughty and playful boy met some mishap.. U see, he was kinda hapie and excited goin to the pool for some army swimming session, i think.. Wad happen was, this hubbie of mine, jumped n splashed in e pool without realising wads beneath it.. In e end, he landed on some steps in the pool wif such force on the sole of his feet.. Tell me, do u feel geram or not? Aiyoh.....

Tsk.. Bie, u uh.. can u not be so playful not uh?... N u didnt say a prayer before goin inside or before u doin somethin.. See! See! now u cant even walk uh.. On crutches.. Wanna laugh, its not funnie.. But then.. It is a funnie accident.. Even ur OC laugh.. HurHur! Okae okae.. Ayang wont laugh kae.. Haiz... Bie, take care of urself lar pls.. How cam i not get worried bout u... =( Tahan e pain kae sayang? Ssssssssshhh.... Ayang here... Muacks.. Since ur havin mc for two days, today n tmr, i'll spend time wif u kae..

As of now he's in NUH doing x-ray n seeing a doc.. apparently its swollen n painful.. Hope everythin's fine.. Sayaaang abang... Abang strong!! Okae okae.. Gotta go.. Check up on him now.. He's waiting for my call..

Ps: God, i pray dat my haz will be fine.. Pls protect him from danger and harm.. Pls look over my hubbie.. Dont let him get hurt, if it has to be, i'd rather u lemme take his place..

Farz loves Haz on Tuesday.. 21st August 2007..

Dreaded poison in flesh

Wad a bomer.. Having to report back to camp.. The feeling is totally eating me.. I feel lyk shit.

I dun wanna go. For the first time in my whole life, i really feel like not wanting to come back..

Army took alot from me instead of me gaining from it. My back still hurts. N it takes away alot of my time, precious time.

When i was praying, i told God in my prayers, to make my dream come true.

Dat is to be with my farz, n spend time with her n our family.

Haish. SOC haven clear yet.

I dread doing it. It has always been lyk dis. Thou i dread it, i noe dat i can pass it, but still, its like the most toughest obstacle in the army.

The swing trainer brings back lots of memories.

But if i clear it once n for all, just one shot, i'd need not bother about it. EVER.

Till the day i collect my pink IC.

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To do list for the month of August, week 3 of the month.

1) report my back problem to my MO; but before that give Ariff a call and ask him for some advise

2) wanna make a dental appointment to extract my wisdom tooth (if i have) so that by next week i wud be able to extend my leave from monday

3) if there is SOC, clear it and face it like a true man

4) smoke out the whole week so that i wun get any arrows from anyone

5) clean up my locker

6) able to go home and slp at home n report back to camp the early morning

7) love farzanna more n more :) mwah!

8) try not to do anything stupid

9) ask around whether renewing of passport can be made in the weekend

10) get some stuff mizan owe me by this weekend

11) have fun as much as i possibly can with frens

Thats all. I miss you baby..

shh.... she is asleep now..

All for you honey..

Dear phoenix,

Gosh, im beginning to love her more and more..
and everytime she is not here, i feel the pain in my heart..
Is it true, that if you lost your first love, if your lucky, you could have the same feeling again with someone else?

Perhaps because she is the Chosen One? Is that why im feeling like im loving for the first time in my life? :)

Im loving it, all of it.. For my heart is complete now someone loves me more than ever.. :)

WHAT A SUPRISE!!

Haha.. got a great suprise today..

And it came at the wrong time [shh.. *smilez*]

Its our 5th minth anniversary, and all i thot was today is a special thursday haha..

My mum knock on the door, on the 16th August 07, 0910HRS, saying that there is someone outside the door for me..

I was on the phone with farz at the moment having our delightful privacy and i was kinda shocked cum pissed, but since the thot of the parcel im receiving today kicks in, I rushed out, only to find my mum in tudong receiving it..

I, with my unkempt hair n shorts n army singlet signed the paper.. i was freaking shock!

It didnt look like a parcel..

It had cold moisture on this big box with a word, 'SWEET SECRETS'.

My only thots was where is the parcel, is it in a cake box? haha. Idiot.

Den I open it infront of my mum n nasrun..

WOA!!

A CAKE!!!

WITH A PICTURE OF HER!!!

AND A SENTENCE!!!

"OUR SWEET MEMORIES"

"5TH MONTH ANNIVERSARY"

Aww.........

That like struck me deep down to the deepest deep deepedy heart of mine...

I wanted to cry but tahan hahaha..

Then my mum kept asking, i thot your birthday is in September?

That was a blow.

Cuz it stated there '5th month anniversary'.

Haha.. Oh oh...

Then I tried to cover up, but the whole family saw it already..

Mum said, "Happy Anniversary!"

Dad said, "Sedapnyer.. Kat maner dia beli? Gambar dia boleh makan ke tak?"

Hahaha...

Dian Farzanna binti Zainal

Welcome to the Zawawi Family!

Im so smitten n happy n jumpy n laughy n super duper go!!

Im so happy!!!

Thanks to my darling, ariff, ruz, n everyone!!

Now its my turn to return the favour..

Here are some pics of it, i'd sent more of it later..


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Dear phoenix,

I feel so touched n loved today..

Like someone is so lovely n sweet enough to sent me a cake planned for a month with a PICTURE of that lovely face which cost 69 bux not to mention the delivery n effort..

Never in my entire cosmos did someone buy me a cake.. Mum make cakes, or i buy them for the family..

But never someone special buying me a cake..

N dis is just our anniversary.. My birthday is coming!! Haha!!

My first time im looking forward to celebrate it!!

Cakess....

wee..

chocolate yummy delicious mushy gateau eyes rolling tempers flaring cakes!!

Wee...


big MMMMMMMMWAH!!!!





PS: I love you. Period. :)

Are guys that perfect enuf to understand gals then? Its okae lar.. Its a never ending debate that commenced centuries ago.. Yesterday, i was a bit upset.. Had a bloody day at work.. Dad brought me to his office n asked me to help him do his calculations plus accountings.. Great.. Haz went off with his buddy.. Glad to knoe that he's enjoying himself.. But he doesnt realise that, i was lookin forward to end my work n jus be wif him.. Talk on e phone n comfort me.. In the end, he was busy playin games, msged him but he asked me to slp first.. Fine enuf.. Since he didnt reply, thot i'd slp.. Msged him dat im slpin.. At bout 1130 plus, he called n msg me askin me to pick up my calls.. Felt one kind.. I dont wish to talk bout it.. Didnt realie went well last nite.. Couldnt even slp.. Ammar had wind in his stomach n he jus wants me not my sis or mum.. Fine, i'll take care.. Worse still, he kept crying n crying.. Was jus an emotional n mental torture.. Jus got 3 hrs of slp before im off for work..

Shit still happen todae.. Decide to forget bout wad happen yesterday wif haz.. Try to get over it.. Work was like fuck today.. Everythin seems so wrg n i jus cant balance e accountin papers.. Is it because of my lack of slp? Or the unfinished biz? When work ends.. I thank God for it.. Lookin forward to be wif haz.. Misses him lots todae.. But he told me he's goin to jb wif his dad to visit a sick relative n so cant call me.. It was like a blow to me.. Its okae.. Nvm.. Keep calm.. Keep cool.. He needs to go.. Its alrite kae farz?..

Then i told him, the package's gonna come tmr morn.. He told me he has chalet.. Another slap on my face.. Thot wanna spend time wif him before he start work cuz i havent been wif him.. Fine, its okae.. Control.. Let him enjoy his time wif his frens.. Look, tmr is a special day n i wanna give him a surprise.. Its our 5th month anniversary.. N i tried to do sumthin sweet.. I thot dat day will fit cuz initially e chalet was supposed to start on tues n end on thurs.. Its like a god-send! i thot it'll worked out well.. He'll receive it wen he jus came back from chalet.. Wanna make him smile.. But... Last min, everythin is known and informed last min to me! .. Im in a foul mood now.. Nothing seems to work.. Didnt get to talk n haf a decent convo wif him for two days.. Yea so what? U say we talked everyday.. Try to understand dat i had a shit day n was lookin to be in ur arms for comfort.. But since u cant, its okae then..

Btw happy 5th month anniversary.. Dont see why it shud be kept as a surprise animore.. Everythin like goes haywire.. Im cranky now.. Need to slp.. I dont haf enuf slp.. Nite.. Take care..

Ps: Like i dont miss u.. I dont even knoe wad u understand if u dont understand bout me.. Kept sayin.. Tak tau uh.. Tak tau uh..

Farz was disappointed today 15 August 2007..

Take this ship n sail away..

I do not understand why.. Why must u be so?

I have to, u noe i have no choice in a lot of matters.. but haish.

I tried, again n again, but still, it remains a mystery to create something dat u believe.

The believe to have someone to be understanding and patient.

I noe that you had a hard time at work, but perhaps pushing me away was the least thing you cud do.

Why can't it be like, you tell me wad you face, n I'd be the listening ear. N in the end we share the burden n love each other, treasure each other more.

Its never impossible. Its hard. But its not impossible. Its probable. Only if we try.

I feel bad. N guilty. N i'll bring this guilt to wherever place i go. N even tmr when i wud like to pull my hair down after a month of duty n exercises to just chill by the beach w frens, laughing at jokes n singing by the guitar, i wun be enjoying all this.

Cause i'd bring this guilt. Guilt becomes pain. Pain becomes poison. Poison creates negative misconceptions. N hence becomes mistrust. Misjudgement. Miscommunication. Jealousy. Hatred. Anger. Pain. More pain.

Perhaps even though i've seen n been through it before, but its very unexpectated. and it wud get worse if both parties never do anything.

Just like what happen before.. The very dejavu..

I can feel, perhaps, taste the feeling again...

Wanna go into a ship n sail away to find my doom among great oceans.. :(

An outing worth remembering

Haha.. Yesterday night was super fun thanks to the likes of Mr Incredibe Hamizan haha.. It was lepak brudder, i called him he just woke up, den i ask him, "eh nk kluar tak?"

Apelagi ok set go!

We went to heeren's temankan dia beli jam fossil dia yg mahal nk mampos.. its like 160 bucks ah, n dat fickle-minded alien kept saying, "I shud have bought the other one." Frankly speakin, though his one is a flipping watch, n it can change its straps if u collect them, i still think the other one is nice haha..

So the two of us walked down the street of Orchard rd, looking for adventures like no other.. Went to pray at Al-Falah, den took pictures outside the mosque..

There's dis humongous poster outside the mosque depicting the Prophet Muhammad SAW principles, achievements both socially, economically and politically, philosophies n more. Great novelist like Jane Armstrong, philosophers like Gandhi, saying their positive views on how the Prophet had influence the modern day world with simplistic terms and ideas, logic n reason, of the submission to One God, the support for brotherhood and the Nation of Leagues etc. There is one saying that caught my attention; He doesn't bring his ideas with the blade of sword, but with simplistic methods that changed the world..

Haha.. Damn nice lar.. Diana msged me n asked me where i was, i told her i was at Al-Falah with Mizan.. den she was like, "Where got mosque in Orchard Rd?!"

The poster outside the mosque had the answer.

" 1400 years ago forewarned about the future of Human life and the Environment on Earth."

Hahaha, there was like a list of all the warnings during the Prophet's lifetime, n now it is already showing, kinda make the non-believers wonder ryt how true the messenger is..

There is a warning about this, n i told mimi n we laughed haha.. Semua org tau pe ade masjid kat orchard, ni nampak sah selalu lepak kat town tapi tk penah solat hahaha..

While waiting for that woman, we played the CALL OF DUTY 3 on XBOX 360 at HMV at The Heerens (mizan is a gamer, n i like games haha). Dia dah smpi, tapi kita buat endah je haha, basted giler seh, org tu tunggu lama kat bawah asek call my hp, n there were we playing the demo like nobody's business haha!

Dah jumpe, temankan dia pi SMU where she got sum meeting, den suddenly we got lost haha! We thot like nk check out SMU kan, skali sesat all thanks to mizan ah, haha.. we walked like forever, till we saw the National Library.. Mak datok, we at bras basah rd lar, dekat bugis! Kata nak pegi the Cathay sey haha.. so we decided, fuck it, we go see2 at bugis.. den we took a train back to city hall, n go to the lan shop beside burger king and played Battlefield haha till lyk, 11.30pm?

There was a few hiccups with my girlfriend regarding dat, cuz i was too engrossed with playing games dat i didnt msg my gurl, n she was kinda mad at me.. argue abit, but hey, takde argue tkde cinta pe haha..

I saw the 700 express bus and gave a run. Mizan ensued, but at the brink of taking it, he stop me and say let it go. I was at shits end. WTF?! skali he say, eh we can take the night rider pe..

den i say lar, ade ke kat sini?? i dunno any bus stop for my area ah, accept for somerset there. Takkan nk jalan all the way there. Conflicting ideas lead to total catastrophe. Hahaha! Lepak siot.

At last we gamble take the mrt. Hoping shit dat the end at Jurong the mrt to the west line is waiting for us. Thank god it waited.

So we talked n talked. He dropped off at Bukit Batok. Then i was thinking, now like 12.30, ade ke LRT?!

Naseb baik LTA pandai tak bengap.. Last train to the area is well-versed and followed up with the timings of both LRT n MRT. Pandai...

Got home, bath, check mail, n sleep.... ZzZzZzZzZzZz



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Next day woke up with a pain at the head. Suddenly got an idea of lepaking at mizan crib, since his parents not ard, can play his computer haha!

Word of Wisdom: There are something gals can never understand about guys.. Alienation. Period.

-haz misses farz on 150807 @ 1238HRS

I do not know why, but im feeling so sad today.. I thought waking up from a sleep wud put it all away, but even in dreams it haunts me like the devil..

N wen i woke up, i switched on the com n my fingers typed in, 'Shine on- Jet'.

Playing such a sentimental sad song early in the morning makes ur heart bleed.. But I wanted it, i think, let it bleed, let it feel the overwhelming pain, its been so long since u never felt this pain before..

Everytime tears start to well up in my eyes i fight them, not wanting to let it out. Is that ego? Or just strength?

Im none but a poor soul, imperfect, stained piece of cloth dat where a layer of white paint is used to put the stain away.. I try my very best in being there for her, at her very moment where she needs me.. But I don't know what she wants from me.. It was simple- be with me, i need you. Maybe im not good in cheering people up.. Haish.

So sad. So sad. So so sad.

:(

-haz

Those Promised Paradise.

(Stories of the Sahabah)

by Noura Durkee.

Had read this book sent to me by my dearest bro, Abang Arif who's in S'pore.. Thankiu! Well, at least i have somethin to do while hubby haz is busy at work.. Muacks! Okae, this book is adapted by Noura Durkee, an American.. I'd dare say that she's a learned western woman scholar in Islam.. She and her husband became Muslims in 1970 while in Jerusalem.. For the love of Islam, she studied Arabic and Islamic Culture at Um Al-Qura University in Makkah and attended the Kamel Ibrahim School of Islamic Calligraphy in Alexandria in Egypt.. A writer and a lecturer on subjects on muslim education, comparative education and social life in Islam.. She and her husband founded a mosque on 10 1/2 Charlottesville Street, US.. Would jus like to share on wad i've read, the stories of Rasulullah's Sahabah.. There's 21 Sababahs in her book (volume one).. But i'll jus pick a few to share.. Here goes..

Saidina Abu Bakr As-Siddiq

This most honoured of the sahabah was a well known and well liked merchant of Makkah.. For years, he had been seeking a better religion and way of life than he found among his relatives and tribe.. He was not satisfied with Judaism and Zoroastrianism and Christianity that sometimes he encountered among the other traders.. He refused to believe in idol worship.. He, and a few others kept looking for the original Way of Makkah, the Way of Ibrahim (A.S.)

When he learned that his good friend Muhammad ibn Abdullah has been selected by Allah as his Prophet, Abu Bakr believed him immediately and without question. He held fast that belief always, im everythin that Rasulullah said and did.. He brought people to Islam through his absolute conviction, and he gave his life, his fortune and his family to the service of Islam and Rasulullah..

Throughout his life, Abu Bakr was Rasulullah's best friend.. Whenever Rasulullah needed anything, he tried to supply it.. As Islam grew, others were eager to serve and to help, but Abu bakr remained Rasulullah's closest companion.. He was the chosen one to make the difficult escape from Makkah to Madinah with Rasulullah.. He was the one who undertook the leadership of the Muslims after Rasulullah's death.. He was known as "As-Siddiq" which means the great witness if the truth.. He was a truth teller and truth seeker..

In the early days of Islam, many people refused to believe Rasulullah.. They called him a madman, a poet, a liar.. Even his new Sahabah who had accepted the faith, did not always believe everything.. One night Rasulullah experienced Mi'raj, during which he saw and experienced many marvellous things, before returning to Makkah.. In the morning he told people about this.. Many of them could not believe it.. How could a man travel so far in one night? Impossible! They thought it must be a dream or an tale.. Some people went to Abu Bakr and told him what Rasulullah was saying about his journey and asked him what he thought.. He simply said "If he said it, it's true.. Why are you surprised? He tells me that news comes to him from Heaven to earth in one hour of the day or night and i know he is speaking the truth.."

Once while Rasulullah was praying in Makkah, one of the kuffar named Uqbah came and put his sheet around Rasulullah's neck and squeezed it tight.. Abu Bakr came quickly and pulled Uqbah away and said "Do you intend to kill a man just because he says, 'My Lord is Allah' and has brought clear signs from your Lord?"

Along with the other early Sahabah, Abu Bakr's life was so closely intertwined with that of Rasulullah that his story is one long history of the growth of Islam.. Ammar remembered, "I saw Allah's Messenger and there were none other with him but five slaves, two women and Abu Bakr." From that, he went to being the leader of hundred of thousands of Muslims..

Abu Bakr is remembered for being the gentleman, polite and generous.. He is also remembered for the unshakeable love for Rasulullah and even more of Allah.. Abu Bakr used to read the Quran in public, his reading was so heartfelt and sincere that it brought people to Islam.. As a result, the leaders of the Quraish forced him to confine his reading to his own garden beside his house.. However, people could hear his voice over the garden wall, greatly frustrating the Quraish..

If Rasulullah said something was true, that was all the proof needed for Abu Bakr.. If Rasulullah said something should be done, Abu Bakr would see it done, no matter what.. Rasulullah appreciated his friendship and service and rewarded him in many ways.. One of the greatest rewards was his gift of companionship and time.. He visited Abu Bakr's house nearly everyday.. When it came time to emigrate to Madinah, Abu Bakr asked permission to go.. Rasulullah suggested that he wait, as he might have a companion.. Abu Bakr knew what he meant and had two fast camels put on a good diet in preparation for the trip..

On the day the two men left, A'ishah, Abu Bakr's daughter, saw Rasulullah coming at an unusual hour.. She saw her father get ready and watched the two flee from Makkah.. They came upon a cave, within which they hid, staying there for three days.. At one point of time, their pursuers came as close as the entrance to the cave.. Seeing their feet, Abu Bakr was frightened and alarmed, because he feared for Rasulullah's life.. He assured him "What do you think of two persons, the third of whom is Allah?" Indeed Allah showed them the paradise on the backwall of the cave, as if it opened oout into the garden and all fear was gone.. The trackers went away as well.. The next day, they proceeded on the way to Madinah..

Once Rasulullah said, ''The person who had favoured me most of all, both with his companionship and wealth is Abu Bakr.. If i were to take a closest friend other than my Lord, i would take Abu Bakr, but what connects us is Islamic brotherhood and friendliness.. All the gates of the masjid should should be closed except the gate of Abu Bakr.. Likewise when a woman asked Rasulullah what she should do if she came backto him and found him gone (dead).. he replied, "If you should not find me, go to Abu Bakr"..

One day, Umar and Abu Bakr had a quarrel and Umar refused to accept Abu Bakr's apologies.. Abu Bakr went to Rasulullah to ask for forgiveness for his quarrel.. The sahabah was careful to resolve even the smallest of matters, because of their fear of Allah.. So, Rasulullah asked Allah to forgive him twice.. Then Umar appeared searching for Abu Bakr to forgive him.. Rasulullah looked angry eventhough Abu Bakr said the fault was more of his.. Rasulullah said, "Allah sent me to you people, but you said, 'You are telling a lie,' while Abu Bakr said 'He has said the truth' and consoled me with all his resources." Then Rasulullah said twice, "Wont you then give up harming my companion?!" After that, nobody ever dared harmed Abu Bakr..

Almost daily, Abu Bakr and his wife Umm Ruman welcomed Rasulullah into their home.. Their little daughter, A'ishah, knew him as the most respected and beloved friend of the family.. When Rasulullah's dear wife Khadijah died, he became very lonely.. Someone suggested that he marry A'ishah.. They were engaged when she was young and married later.. Abu Bakr was Rasulullah's father-in-law as well as his closest friend..

Once Amr ibn al-'As asked the prophet, "Who is the most beloved person to you?" Rasulullah replied "A'ishah." He then asked, "Among the men?" Rasulullah replied, "Her father.."

Rasulullah loved Abu Bakr very much.. Once he was describing how people would be called from the many different gates of the Garden if they did different things, such as fasting or praying.. Abu Bakr asked, "Will anyone be called from those gates, O Rasulullah?" "Yes" replied Rasulullah, "and ihope you will be among those, O Abu Bakr."

Much later, when Islam was growing and the Muslims of Madinah wanted to make the Hajj to Makkah, Abu Bakr proved himself again.. The Muslims had travelled peacefully as afar as Hudaibiyah, a valley near Makkah.. The Makkans said they would fight them if they proceeded further.. After days of waiting and negotiation, a truce was written and signed.. To many Muslims, the truce seemed to be a defeat to Rasulullah.. He seemed to have given in on a lot of points and because of this, the Muslims were very upset.. Umar was very upset and went to Abu Bakr to talked about it.. Abu Bakr calmly said.. "Hold to his stirrup, for by Allah, he is right!" Of course, the truce of Hudaibiyah turned out to be one of the greatest benefits to the Muslims.. It led to years of peace during which many people could travel Makkah safely.. It eventually led to the conquest of Makkah and the satisfaction of all the Muslims' demand.. Abu Bakr understood and rightly trusted Rasulullah..

Towards the end of Rasulullah's life, he became too ill to lead the prayer.. He told A'ishah to ask Abu Bakr to lead the people in prayer, but she said, "O Rasulullah, Abu Bakr is a very sensitive man, not strong of voice and much given to weeping when he recites the Quran..'' Rasulullah repeated firmly, "Tell him to lead the prayer.." A'ishah then suggested that Umar should take his place.. "Tell Abu Bakr to lead the prayer.." A'ishah tried to get help from Hafsah, but Rasulullah silenced them both.. "Tell Abu Bakr to lead the people in prayer.. Let the blamer find fault, and let the ambitious aspire.. Allah and the believers will not have it otherwise.. " Many believe that in his choiceof Imam, Rasulullah chose his successor..

Abu Bakr's even and compassionate manner often saved the peopple from extremes.. This was best demonstrated when Rasulullah passed away.. All of Madinah was in turmoil adn the people did not know what to do.. Abu Bakr was in the other end of the city when Rasulullah seemed to be better, died.. He came quickly on horseback and found Umar insisting to the people that Rasulullah was not dead.. He had misinterpreted a verse of the Quran and believed that Rasulullah could not die before them all.. Abu Bakr went ti his house,and drew back his cloak that had covered Rasulullah's face.. He gazed at him, kissed him and said, "Dearer than my father and my mother, you have tasted death which Allah ahs decreed for you.. No death after that shall ever happen to you.." He drew the cloak over his face again and went out to the people

"Gently Umar!" he said, "Hear me speak!" the people began to hear Abu Bakr praised Allah saying,

"O people who has worshipped Muhammad, indeed, Muhammad is dead.. And who has worshipped Allah, indeed, Allah is living and does not die.. Muhammad is but a messenger, adn messengers before him have passed away before him.. If he die or be slain, will you then turm upon your heels? Who turns on his heels will thereby do no hurt to Allah and Allah will reward the thankful.." (3:144)

The people heard this verse which had been revealed after the battle of Uhud and it was as if they never heard it before.. Umar said afterwards, "When i heard Abu Bakr recite that verse, i was so astounded that i fell to the Earth.. My legs could not carry me.. I then knew that Allah's Messenger had died.."

Soon after Rasulullah's death, the Ansar decide to hold a new chief from among themsleves.. Hearing of this Abu Bakr, Umar and Abu Ubaidah went to them.. They found the Ansar praising themselves as the fighting force of Islam and talking of choosing a leader from among themselves.. Abu Bakr spoke to the people.. He complimented the Ansar on their greatness in supporting and defending Rasulullah adn the immigrants.. However, he tried to explain to them that in the present situation, the Arabs would never accept anyone who is not Quraish to lead them, because the Quraish were regarded as the best and noble clan of the Arabs.. He said that the Ansar were the ministers and the advisors and one from the Quraish must be the leader..

The Ansar said, "No, by Allah, we wont accept this.. There must be a ruler from us and one ruler from you.." Abu Bakr replied, "No, we will be the Rulers, and you will be the ministers.. I offer you one of these two men, pledge your allegiance to whichever you will".. An argument began, but Umar quickly said, "O Ansar, dont you know that the Messenger of Allah ordered Abu Bakr to lead the prayer?" They replied "We know it!".. "Then which of you willingly take precedence over him?!" shouted Umar.. "Allah forbid that we should take precedence over him!" said the Ansar..

Umar grabbed the hand of Abu Bakr and gave his allegiance to him.. "Our chief and the best among us and the most beloved of all of us to Allah's prophet.." Abu Ubaidah, the other sahabah, and everyone in the room came one after another and gave their pledge to him as well except Sa'ad who had hoped to be the new leader..

After the funeral of Rasulullah, Abu Bakr made a formal acceptance of the Khilafat:

"O people! I have been chosen as your ruler, but i have no claim to be the best among you.. Obey me only when i do good, but if i go astray, put me on the right path.. Truth is honesty, and lying is dishonesty.. The weakest of you is the strongest to me, as long as i havent restored his rights from others.. In the same way, the strongest of you is the weakest to me so long as i havent taken away from the rights of others.. You should keep in mind that the nation which gives up the struggle in the path of Allah becomes wretched and disgraceful to Allah.. When the evil deeds are everywhere in a nation, then Allah puts it to grief.. You are to obey me only when i obeyed Allah and His Messenger.. If i disobey Allah and His Messenger.. Then it shall not be required for you to obey me.."

Therein, this kind and compassionate man, whose own daughter found him too soft hearted and soft spoken took over the leadership of the Muslims.. (as narrated by the book itself..)

Ps: I love you dear.. Hope your read this sweetheart.. Muacks..

Farz loves Haz on 120807...

Jus watched NDP with darling Haz.. He watchin tv at home, while im watchin it online.. Quite a spectacular success there, i must say.. Although its a bit irritating cuz the video download streaming means i onlie watch wad had happen a sec or two later.. Missed Singapore.. =(

Dear dear, thanks for watchin wimme yea?.. Muaacks.. Sayaang abang.. Love u so much..

Still cant stop laffin from wad we talked earlier.. The kitchen n cookin thingy.. Hurhur.. How can u smoke me on cookin sayang?.. I knoe it best lar.. Hurhur.. Confidently he say, put this n dat, ingredient by ingredient.. Until.... The daun pandan thing! U blew ur cover!! Hurhurhur.. Abang abang... Cute lar u.. Muacks.. Okae okae.. I keep quiet.. =p *still giggles*

Ps: Okae, i wont restrict u fm the kitchen lar.. But remember, dats my domain.. =p
You can cook lar kae.. But tell me first b4 u cook can? Need to standby some po-chai or charcoal pills for u n me.. N Pepsi? For the love of God.. Dont buy the pepsi chicken recipe from my darling.. Hurhur!! ABANG, I LOVE U!!!

Farz loves Haz on the day of the Independence of S'pore.. 090807.. Yet Again.. =)

National Day

Happy birthday Singapore!!

Let the flags fly!

Woops, i aint seeing any flags among my estate here in Bukit Panjang. That's a pity.

We are having a big birthday bash at Marina Bay! Damn cool, i tried to bid the tix but it was all sold out.. Wish i cud see it, its v nice u see, once in a lifetime at a floating bay.. The only time i've been to a parade was during my 5th year in primary sch.

Last year, me aizuddin ain and syafiq not to mention pilot lover salihin went opp cliford pier to see the fireworks at the Padang that year.

Kinda cool to see the planes.. wish i was among them, but yeah, im a malay, n so the chances are as slim as my groin hair hahaa!

Love u darling!! mwah!

PS: I LIKE COOKING kae!! Who say cannot cook chicken with pepsi har? Soon after dis publish i hope the pepsi company wud buy my idea of a chicken pepsi recipe.

WHO WANTS TO TASTE IT?

Im back.. Just had a phone convo with hubby haz.. Yea, i have brought it to the next level of communication since im ready now.. Have been callin him everyday actualie.. N i think he kinda get addicted to it.. Hurhur.. Kinda funny actualie thinkin bout our very first convo.. At that time, i jus got discharged from hosp.. My throat was still sore, cause of the tube that they force down my throat to help me breathe when i was in coma.. Wad happen was my throat was very sore that i kinda lost my voice and it was very very hoarse.. I didnt think bout that actualie wen i called him.. Wen i called, haz thot it was a prank call and was negatively affected hearing a hoarse voice.. Bloody hell.. Hurhur.. Yea, but all is well now.. He says i have a sweet and "serak basah" voice which he apparently loved it.. Now then abang say! Hmpf!..

Well, i kinda promised hubby haz that i'll continue bloggin no matter wad happens, few days ago.. Kinda miss bloggin "phoenix" too.. Saaayang dia.. So here goes.. Lots of stuffs have happen actualie in this lull period of hiatus.. Hmm.. For starters, there'll be a new addition to the family.. Mum and Dad will be adopting a pair of baby twins! Nice uh!... I have been taking care of em since like a month ago? Have been very attached to em vice versa.. Its kinda sad that their parents chose to give em away.. They're my neighbours actualie.. Husband an aussie, while the wife a pan-asian.. Apparently, they said it "came at the wrong time".. WTH.. We're talkin bout two young souls here.. Cmon lar.. Tsk3..

So wad happen was, they had to be outta town, so me n my sis kinda volunteered to take care of em.. So cute, they neva fail to make me smile.. =) As long as im around, i'll take care of my babies.. Hope the adoption process is fast enough.. Damn those paperworks.. Hurhur.. Well, life has been kinda well with those two gems.. Deeply in love with them.. Okae, lemme introduce my new loved ones.. The first one is baby Aaron (Its Amir now).. Meaning thriving, prosperous, a leader "Amirrul Mukminin", born a minute and three secs later, introducing baby Abrams (now Aamar).. Meaning intelligent, great builder.. Actualie, takin care of these two is damn tiring and demanding lor.. I kinda feel haggard takin care of these two lil monsters.. Luckily we can take turns to watch over them.. For eg, I'll take care of them in the day and my sis will take care of them at nite, while my other sis will be used as standby.. Doing the dirty work, diapers n poo etc.. Yuck! Hurhur.. It rotates liddat.. But lemme tell you wad i personally feel, its worth it.. Since the parents cant be bothered bout them.. I'll take care of it.. Like wad my dear haz said, they're like a piece of white cloth.. N its upbringin will add colours to it.. If we do well, it'll either be a great piece of colourful fabric or it will either be a rug of dirt.. Takin care of those two realie puts me in a world of motherhood sia.. Everythin is bout babies n babies n babies.. Shagged... But, i loike! Hurhurhur..

Well, last two days my sis kinda asked me if i would wanna do sum charity work, n guess wad? We're playin soccer with the Aussie's National Women Soccer Team for charity! Hurhur! I loike! Kinda miss playin soccer.. Could still remember me playin for Enfield Ladies Football club when i back was in UK.. Well, i was excited but was kinda like nervous cause i felt like i lost touch in soccer.. After a few dribbles at home, some shots and leg juggles.. Im ready! I played forward while Ruzanna played centre-back cum striker and Suzanna played defender.. I managed to score the opening goal after Ruz gave me this beautiful header.. Let it fall on my chest, fall back n at the half volley (kicking the ball just after it bounces off the pitch), i just whacked that ball thru the goalie.. I scored sia.. Hurhur! The cheers was like loud uh.. I felt so good u knoe! Could see my parents cheering,, Hurhur.. So paiseh.. Bet my mum would go like talkin to the person next to her "Dats my daughter! Dats my daughter!" The final score was 2-1 after a penalty shootout.. We won.. But.. Nah, its just a friendly.. Was awarded the "Most Promising Individual Award" though.. After that, needless to say the sudden surge of popularity, hugs n kisses from guys n gals.. I never layan the guys much, jus smiled, look down n walk away.. Not like my hubby haz... Go n layan some minahs.. Hmpf... Merajuk uh!! He challenges me to play soccer with his soccer team wen im back.. Bring it on dear.. Then he told me "But we play topless tau, tak pakai baju.." So? I wear my sports bra uh.. Blek!! =p

Oh yea.. U knoe, haz was kinda like taken aback from me? Hurhur.. Suddenly we talked bout education n stuffs.. I think he was askin nasrun if he had done his homework n u knoe he told me he missed skul n studyin n stuffs.. Some serious convo uh.. So, he told me his skul life n he asked bout mine i think.. So i just tell him uh that i was in UWC.. Went thru the advanced stream.. Did my A levels and studied Eng, Math, Comb Science (Physics and Chem), Literature, French, Spanish, Geog and History and i graduated at 15.. At the same time, i started my distant learning degree, my first yr in music.. After i graduated from UWC, i went to London and got my musical and fine arts degree at the age of 17.. He went like.. "WAD?! U DID A LEVELS AT 15?! How many subjects u take?! 9?! Kaoz.. Abang 7 subjects nak pass dah terkial-kial".. Hurhur! Then he goes again.. "U mean u got ur degree at 17?! Wad?! I thot u jus had ur A levels!Kaoz, ayang play soccer, dah dapat degree pun! OMG! Im damn lucky uh.."

Blah blah blah.. Hurhur.. Damn cute lar he.. Alar, if i can do it, so can u dear.. Im not a whizkid or child prodigy.. Maybe jus blessed i guess.. Takmo tension kae dear? Muacks... Sayaaang dia..

Hmm.. Wad else.. Oh ya, yesterday we went for the S'pore National Day Gathering at the City Hall.. Loads of Singaporeans were there, in jubilant National Day mood.. You knoe, its an irony that, we dont appreciate S'pore much when we're back there?.. But when we're away for quite a while or somethin.. Nothing beats living in S'pore baby.. Its clean, low crime rate, efficiency etc.. Well, the grass looks greener at the other side but not necessarily green.. Onlie then u'll miss S'pore.. Haiz.. Well, i was honoured to be invited to play the National Anthem on the piano during the event.. Kinda feel honoured.. Emotions starts to fill me in when i played.. Missing my loved ones back home.. =( I loved all of you wherever you are..

N guess wad, talkin bout music, a good fren of mine from Russia, Ms Anna Vinnitskaya has won The Queen Elisabeth Music Competition 2007 (named after Queen Elisabeth of Belgium not dear old Eliz of UK! Hurhur).. What i knoe is, it was a founding member of the World Federation of International Music Competions.. Its considered as one of the most prestigious, but also one of the most difficult in existence.. Kinda like the Olympics of Music.. Gotta knoe her when she was on a visit in London back then.. Lemme see.. Wad i knoe is, the Queen Elisabeth Music Competition is devoted to violin, piano, music composition and singing too.. Talk bout American Idol or Singapore Idol?.. Nothing beats this competition sia.. Its every musician's dream to clinch that award.. Its my dream too.. But wow.. Its kinda near impossible.. We'll see.. Congrats Anna.. How i wish it was FarzANNA.. Hurhur.. Well its okae.. Its alright.. Im happy for you..

Okae.. Hmm.. Dat shud be enuf for now.. Tired seh type.. Hurhur.. Tata!

Ps: Abang, later watch NDP wimme kae sayang? I'll go online and watch! Muacks!

Farz loves Haz on the day of the Independence of S'pore.. 090807..