Friday, October 30, 2009

Parting friend

I was in a grief mood.

Finally my track shoe who has served me very well for almost 5 years drew its last breath as I was preparing for yet another solitude journey to the darkness.

It was a heartbreaking moment for me.

I mean, it was like how the Strawhat Pirates had to part with Going Merry by burning the ship as it sailed silently after much adventures together due to a unforgiving damage sustained.

So I took the sole of the shoe, carved out the names that I myself etched upon its rubber surface, put it inside my pocket, and I ran.

Went past Teck Whye, bypass the SCDF building, onwards towards my old school at Hong Kah Primary School, stood there at the fence and ponder for a bit, before running at the whole stretch to Jurong, make a right turn to Chinese Garden and stop over to the lake.

It doesn't feel nice running with my army shoe- its kinda abit too tight and my feet feels like it is in some Nazi gas chamber or something.


It was nice to feel free again. And I know, my beloved shoe had to pass. I mean, all creations have 'fanaq' characteristics right? What is created is destroyed.

Thank you, my trusted friend, for that awesome mental 5 years of running. You made me realise that freedom is entrusted upon self, as long as you have the guts to wear them, and take off.

You taught me how to fly, when I feel desperately low.

See you in strawberry fields man. Love ya holmes.


Oasis- Im Outta Time

If I have to go..
In my heart you grow..
And that's where you belong.

Absolutely mental, 5 years. Im gonna run with you, just you and me, like old times, on the strawberry fields, past the Halloween bush, through the rainbow peels, and off to the Gate. :)

Thursday, October 08, 2009

folding the pages of destiny


In life, one must always remember the moments he has been through, gone through, and live through, despite the ups and downs.

I was being mental these couple of weeks, having rough memory glitches that reverberated in my strawberry brain. And it was the pre, present and post affairs of my ugly birthday that made a paradigm shift in my life.

I decided to be loving.

Exactly on the 5th October relatively 8.26am in the morn
ing, I was awakened by the thoughts of the meaning of love. And all it took was the nudging of this shrewd man with no hair.

Love is a circle.
It goes up and down, and all around.
Infinite in distance
Everlasting in time
No size can hold it
Even a tiny dot
Or a sphere the size of the sun
All orbiting in a circular blot

It is for everyone
be it the boat trees of summer
a day to remember
that love is for all

that is for all to recall


And for that, the monster in me murmured to salvation. And I felt so free.

I was flying, gliding, teleporting to a world beyond doubt, magical..

People are angry because the love. They work because they love. They cry because they love. They shake hands because they love. They fly because they love. Fishes swim because they love.

And thus, it is not the attributes of Akbar (Mighty) nor Ghafur (Forgiving) or Malik (All Powerful) but..

It is the Ar-Rahman nur Rahim (In the name of God, most Gracious, most Compassionate) that starts the clock of actions of all mankind and matter.

It is then translated to me, as Love.


And as I pushed the 6 boats that symbolises our love, it bobbed up and down against the ripples of the river, some upturned, others went on and on, the candle light burning within that paper boat became a beam of what we define love. However, a particular boat, which hold on to the dreams we share, went through the water drops. At first I thought that the boat will sink.

It went through, and still stayed a float.




Love is a circle.
It is meant to be that way.
mountains or any hurdle
it is for us to make it stay. :)

Enjoy my rendition of what I feel.


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