I LOVE SHOPPING!!!

i may sound like a metrosexual, maybe i am, hmm..

but den again, i love shopping!!

oh, ade kondisi lar, dat is, keluar ngan pompuan TAK BENGAP lar.. haha..

yg knows wad to buy, and got her objectives ryte. If not, wah! total lost in stamina lar, hahaha.

But den again, im actually enjoying the fun i had wif my dearest sista, aIn*.

Met pat bugis dulu (eh, sori lambat ar.. tapi i made it up ryte? blanja makan kan? sedap? tak sedap pi balek eh, hahaha!) den jalan2 tu find..

AJ IDOL outfit..

Eh, i must wear nice2 u noe, to get support and votes hahaha. Hope i get enuf votes to get the status. Wan the prize soooooo much!!!

Anyways, bought dis nice shirt and belt, after dat go to TIMES Bookshop pat Suntec City. Beli buku untuk adek2 pat umah, tu burn my voucher i got from last year's Award's Day at CCKSS. So yah, bought lotsa stationeries. Haha.

It was fun lar, especially the parts where i tease my adek, haha. Aku sukenah kacau dier, tk tau apasal. Muke dier cam cute kalo aku kacau dier hahaha.

Klar. Nak buat hmwrk pastu nyanyi jap pastu makan obat, TIDO!!!!

To NoNi: Sori gurl for making u upset and making u wait. I hope u can forgive me. I'll make up fer ya aite!!! Cheers!!! SORI AGAIN..=\

Dear me,

Ok, take care of urslef aite.More things to come ur way. Hold on aite. Just hold on. Smile, and laugh, and pray to the Lord. He Loves you. Always. May u rest in peace someday.

Don't panic, start breathing..

AJ idols is very near. Its like, this friday??

And im like, not doing anything??

And im like, still sick??

And im like, coughing blood??

And im like, very tired??

Hahaha, reasons after reasons, but hey, its a big show.

Even LIME magazine is going to cover us, i think. On the day, we're gonna have REAL make-up artiste!! WTH!!??!!

Not to mention the prize winnings. I heard its a HANDPHONE.. WOOOOOOO...

Hahahaha, nt dat im bragging my voice is nice and like i can win, but im really starting to panic. There's gonna be like rehearsals and jammin's and stuff liddat. Hectic i tell you.

But the prize is worth it. So i'll try my very best and wun let my frens down.

"VOTE FOR ME, HAZLAMI, S3. AND REMEMBER, SWAY AND STAY HIP HOP COOL AND HAPPENING WITH ME, HAZLAMI."

Haha, my slogan for the publicity. Mcm taik, hahahaha, hey come on! Im jus a normal student, and i go onnie to entertain others, well, other than the glory and prize and fame, hahahahaha

Anyways, i was like in a rush to catch the train that was leaving the station. I was fumbling with my EZ LINK card, my notes and my shoe bag as i dashed up the escalator.

Without even choosing the doors, i entered the one most near me.

Guess wad? I saw this familiar face of a guy that has a particular resemblance of a dear fren i knew. It was aish's brother. Muke samer dok. I was shock shit lar, mcm kene struck by lightning gitu, dier tegur as in pull his eyebrows, and i was like smiling back with a tinge of tiredness and shock shittiness.

I thot i was abit sombong in a way i didnt talk to him. So i made up by bidding goodbye. Hahaha, idiot me. Always idiot me.

Dear me,

Suddenly a tsunami crashed on my head. I was like, not hurt nor happy nor pain. Just numb. Like even those happy moments we shared together came back to my stewpug head of mine, i just stared in blankness. I know, u still keep something in you that no one can ever imagine. Something no one can ever accept.

Defeat. And u accepted it with pride ad acknowledging your very flaws and weakness. And even so, i know you still blame yourself for wad had happened, despite wadever ppl mite say, i know you wud say, "Its my fault."

And you moved on. Not entirely. Moved on with the acceptance of defeat. You know you cannot forget her. Never cud. Never will. You didnt want to forget her.

"Even if you're not mine here, in Thereafter, you'll be mine. And God is All Merciful and Kind."

The fact still remains.

"I will be right here waiting for you..."

and you shall see..

"Dan di suatu masa.. Di hari yg indah.. Ku hulur tanganku.. Lalu kau, terima.."

Peace.

Differemce btwn LOVE and LIKE

Got this article from a source, very interesting:

Difference between the one you like
and the one you love

In front of the person you like, your heartbeats faster n goes crazy~
But in front of the person you love, you gethappy.

In front of the person you love, winter seems like spring.
But in front of the person you like, winter is just beautiful winter.

If you look into the eyes of the one you like,you blush.
But if you look into the eyes of the one youlove, you smile.

In front of the person you like, you can't say everything on your mind.
But in front of the person you love, you can.

In front of the person you like, you tend to getshy.
in front of the person you love, you can show your own self.

You can't look straight into the eyes of theone you like.
But you can always smile and stare into the eyes of the one you love.

When the one you like is crying, you end up comforting.
But when the one you love is crying, you cry with them.

The feeling of like starts from the ear.
But the feeling of love starts from the eye.

So if you stop liking a person you used to like, all you need to do is cover your ears.But if you try to close your eyes, love turns into a drop of tear and remains in your heartforever.

Dat touched me alot..

Indispensible me..

Wad a heck week!!

First, i got my lil baby toe dislocated and broken.

Secondly, hmwork belambak nak mati

Thirdly, I HAD TO ACT IN AJC DRAMA!!! Wth!
Baru nak escape, skali si Hafiz tu ckp, "Eh haz, mane semuer budak laki? Pupus eh?"

Musibat benar.. Aku kenelar masok untuk kebahgiaan semuer org.. Harap2 dpt watak yg senang lar..

Niari ade QUIZ FAMSA di wdlands ar.. Hahaha, Hafizah ajak, aku pun cam, huh? ade ke? Tanye lar aku pat anak Zawawi lagi satu, dier ckp ade..

Pegi jelah, ckp abg aku.. Anyways, Hafizah ade pe, so hahahahahaha!

Oh ya, Kepada anda yg bermulut HAPAK dan BUSUK bagaikan bodek anda yg tak penah cukur rambut dan tk penah cuci, harap maklum bahawa kebolehan saya adalah dari ALLAH SWT dan dgn kebolehan inilah saya akan menghiburkan kawan2 saya yg saya hargai. Anda mempunyai hati yg busuk, kerana kata NABI MUHAMMAD, "orang yang dengki itu ALLAH akan memberikan sifat dengki yg meluak2 sampai dia tidak sedar akan sifat keburukan yg juga ada pada syaithan. Malahan, ALLAH akan tambah lagi sifat2 mahmumah, tetapi amat malangnya saya rasa anda tidak tahu maknanya kerana ceteknya ilmu pengetahuan, dan ini dapat saya tahu kerana akhlak anda yg lebih buruk dari haiwan dalam zoo. Seperti anda maklum, saya ingin mengucapkan jutaan terima kasih kerana telah mengisi kocek pahala saya.

Seperti kata seseorang filasafah, "Org yg dengki sebnarnya cemburu akan kebolehan, dan tidak dpt menerima kebenaran."

Anyways, insyaAllah, i'll perform during the finals, and like wad hafizah wud say, jgn kesah pasal ape org kata..

Hahahahahahahahahaha, I wun let my frens down, and i'll sing my very best, even if i look like a toad, as if?? hahaha, aku rase muke aku lebih hensem darik muke pengutuk tu, pasal aku rasekan, dier jelus, aku rase dier gemuk lar, pasal tulah dier nk badan yg slim.. Mat, relak sua ar!! muahahahaha!

Peace.

I was told today dat the AJ Idol finalist are required to sing two songs each of different genres.

Wad the hell????

Im in band too...!

Let's do a bot of maths aite.

Band=2 songs.
Solo=2 songs + 1song for finale which is I DREAM by Taufik.

Hafizah's prediction of me singing I DREAM really do come true. Bohohohohohohoho.

Im gonna be like so tired, so shagged. SO many rehearsals.

And i just have the worst week in my life. Not gonaa write anything here though.

Im still sick and i think its gonna be a v long way to recovery. (HELP ME BEST FREN!!!)

Most probbaly i'll be singing a ballad - Unbreakable by Westlife and an RNB solo I Swear. But i was thinking of singing An Jing, dat shud drive the Chinese gurls mad, muahaha.

Den not to count the band performance. More jamming i can predict. More shouting and screaming. Hope Ambrish choose a less straining song for me to sing say.

Erm, then got dry run this tuesday sae. Tmr je kene gif song and lyrics to sing. Pelan2 kayuh lar ehk, student council. I really need the time off.

Hmm, wad else ehk?

Oh ya, i got a few dates dis week. Bohoho.

Suppose to enjoy dates rite, but hey, im A GUY!!! I'll be the one who pays the shit..!

Saturday ngan Blue-Eyed White gurl (hahaha, i manage to get hold of her muahaha.. skill tak??)
Thursday nite ngan budak cine nie darik skola aku tknk bilang muahaha.
Friday nite ngan budak melayu nie yg dari JC lain, mampos!

Seriously, nasib baik i have a LOVING BROTHER whom i can ask for HELP. You know, financial help, hahaha. Hey, his earning shit ma, so muz share wimme. Next time i earning shit, i share wiv him oso lar, hahaha. Cumone, his my BIG BROTHER, and the BEST one lar, hahaha. Untong aku dpt abg cam dier.

And im realli interested wiv this gurl in my skewl. In fact, there's two of them. One, my dear fren DIANA knows bout it, another a ML J1 gurl. She very the sweet lar, muke dier cute satu mcm ar. Walaupon like Khairul says, ima PAEDAPHILLE (spelling ok?? hmm..), but WADEVER!! Budak tu nk gi umrah lagik plak tu! Baik giler. Dah lar alim, baik lagi, cute lagi, abang aku pon ckp dier cute, dier pon nak angkat dier, tapi sori ehk, aku dulu ar, pi buat bende army dulu muahahaha!

Hmm, wad else to blog ar? Ya, actually i dun like to kutok org di blog, itupon i'll not do it to the extend of being insensitive to others or wad. But im really sori to you-know-who aite, i hafto say wad i gotta say. Its a must. Lagi baik bilang dari making it go to bad waters ryte?

Sori. Sepuloh jari menadah meminta kemaafan.

K, wanna study liao. Imma in the library ryte now. Doing hmwork hahaha, sedih!

Dear me,

Yesterday was a horrible day. Its a good thing a gd fren is there to lend ya a listening ear. The thought of those words that she wrote down in the letter, and how you read them out loud to nad, it was a very brave and noble thing to do. You fought wad nobody cud do. Where nobody cud accept the fact dat you actually didnt moved on.

Those words still lingers in my head. Her picture, the most beautiful piece i sketched, is still in my drawer. It doesnt belong to me anymore. SHud i give it back to her??

Peace.

HAZ= AJ IDOL???

He walks in as the song was played on the system..

His heart beat franatically as the crowd goes wild..

"HAZ!!! HAZ!!!! WOOOO!!!"

He smiled, and sang.

Wild applauses, screamings, and lots of encouragement filled the air. The house was crazy. He brought the house down, apparently. Even he couldnt hear himself. The judges were shocked. Some are smiling, others awed by his charismatic approach.

He sang, "Everday i love you" by Boyzone.

The part came when he sang, "If i ask will you, say yes.."

The crowd went, " Yes!!! YES!!!! YES HAZ!!!!"

There's this gurl apparently jumped up to her feet and gave lots of flying kissess.

The banner writing H.A.Z floated about in the crowd.

Time has come. Judges comments.

"When, you came in and sang, the first thought that come in my mind was, is it played from a record??"

"You are wonderful."

"The way you moved about the stage somehow plays well with your coat. You are a charmer."

And the crowd went wild. He smiled, said thank you, waved the crowd and went off the stage.

I forgot.

"Haz, you are the AJ IDOL!"

That was the one comment i would say, FOOOSHIOOOO!!

Am i happy?

Of course man. I even got 2 roses, one from my beloved 'fan club', and from this anonymous person muahahaha.

Tried to find her after the show, but haiya, left early ma, so nvm!!

Haha. It was a night to remember!!

Saturday afternoon: An sms was received.

It reads: "Im glad to say that you are in the finals."

WOHOOOO!!

To my fans and supporters, i wun let you down.

Smile with the grove guy. =)

up for some waffles anybody?

Wad a waffer..

Today seriously is the most slackiest day in my life.

Tak bersmgt langsung sae. Old habits dah dtg balik ni. Shit

My whole body is aching due to NAPFA test yesterday. ANd i was like half dead lar by the time i met up with my lil sisters at Causeway Point. Nasib baik pass, takyah masok NS siang2 muahahaha. Summore, no Afternoon PE and its gonna be games!! Woohoo..

They wanted to eat waffles, so i go lar. Sedap jugak sae, and they were crapping about how i couldn't eat properly due to the fact that im born without table manners. Muahaha.

But still, i was half dead. Seriously. I do crapped abit, but heck it, i was like a zombie floating amongst the delicious people i cud gorge upon.

Sheesh, summore the hmwork is piling, yet none effort is made to counter such threat.

Blardie. Im sick.

Summore, tmr is my auditions!!! Both band and solo!! Shit lar.

I dun have any karaoke song for EVERYTHING I DO, I DO IT FOR YOU sae, confirm unimpressive to bait the judges in letting me in.

Haish. SOS!!!

Very the anxious ar. And i think im going to be sick. Ni mesti mira nyer pasal, hmph! (hehehe, main2 jer, muahaha..)

Im blogging in the library, and people ard me seem to do some work..

ME???

Playing solitaire is one of the hobbies i wud do to kill time.

Oh ya, cuz i'll be having lunch wif the BLUE-EYE-WHITE Dragon, muahaha. But fuckit. She brought along the mat lar. Nak meramai2 kan majlis kate org gitu. Shit.

Hmm, so i must be myself and the gentleman sweet hazlami. If she likes it, then heck it. If she doesnt and go for the mat, den heck it too, coz i dun gif a f*ck. Hahahaha, attitude rabakz nyer.

Miss playing soccer. Miss watching movie. Miss mugging. Anybody up to gif me a tight chalengging kick up my ass?? Den pls call, 1800-Kickmepleasehazlami aite.

Hahaha. Crap.

Peace.

We're THE CHAMPAGNES and will sing for you STAND BY ME by OASIS..

Haha.. yesterday was really fun..

Never had such fun for like wad? SInce Gema??

Oh yeah, for those lil shitholes who dunno or blur cock, Anderson Junior College MLDDS lost gallantly in the Gema Puisi Artistik 2005 organised by some modaf*ckin organisers who just can't organise an event.

Take an example, having QUALIFIED and PROFESSIONAL judges who HAVE SUFFICIENT EXPERIENCE in the area is very significant, coz i'll determine the best winner of all. But what the fuck?

We lost not because of our script, but cuz the farking judges dunno how to choose. Instead, they asked for an opinion from an MI instructor, and his suggestions were taken into account.

THey you go, the winners are : WEST SPRING, SP, and TPJC. Fucklar. Bullshitlar.

Mite as well put GEMA TALENTIME, cuz SP was doing like some Rock Band shows. OR should i say, GEMA BROADWAY, cuz most of them follow Broadway style. No Malay THeatre. Haiyo.

So i'll shall say sori to all that i have offended on Saturday. That was so childish of me. But wad the heck? haha.

Went for Band Practice yesterday, cuz our auditions wud be like, erm, Thursday?? So i brought along my darlink Ain wimme.

After singing, it really felt much better. Onnie my voice starts going zoinky. Shitlar, i have my solo category on Thursday too!

I'll be singing, "Everything i do, i do it for you" by Brian Adams. Cool huh?

So after that, since my sweetie pie followed, i treated her by going town!

WAH, so long never go town sae. We walked here and there, haha.

Had snacks from the OLD CHANG KEE, which i seriously think the foods there are super nice lar. (maybe still got pig essence?? hahahaha, thats y it's nice..)

Hoho, so shud i ask, did i enjoy myself?

Of course! I was myself lar, and long time i've never keep in touch with myself. Somehow she keeps myself in me, hahaha.

There's this gurl who wants to recruit models uc. So she saw us, and she APPROACHED ME (not you Ain, muahaha). She asked whether we're interested to join the model agency. SHe declined quickly. But me??

Goodness. I got MODEL SUBSTANCE!! (cam betol je, muahahahaha)

So, yes, to couple it of, i had the fun of my life.

You're the best, Ain.

Peace.

(the Blue-Eye-White gurl just talked to me, and omigod, im like going bonkers!! muahahaha. Damn, her eyes are like so cute.)

:D

Numb

iHateMyself

Disappointed and tired.

Both in love and the things i do.

Wanna say sori to all for letting my team down.

It was me. I didnt put enough effort.

The confidence level was high, but after what happened last night, i finally realise that my dreams can never come true.

Cried my eyes thru the journey home. When i passed the mama shop, i saw cans of Mocha Coffee Nestle.

Drank like 12 cans of them at the garden near my block. Vomited myself thru the process. Felt so high. Den i went home.

Couldnt sleep at all. The thought of being a monkey that failed to come true haunted my sleep. I went down to 7 Eleven at 3am in the morning to buy another 6 cans of Mocha Coffee. Was screaming my lungs farking out afterwards.

Pretended to sleep after that.

Moral of the story? Fuck me. Hate me.

Coz im hazlami. Loser.

Sori. Peace