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-Hazlami
25 Feb 2008
2.30pm

The ultimatum is out.

"It is simple. You want her to fight and live, bring me there this instance. You want her to give up and die, ignore this."

Im just pissed and sick and tired of everything, it became so complicated. What is it, what's so hard to carry out dian's wishes, or her last wish? What's so hard of carrying out a person's will? Is it god damn hard? get the no's and make a few calls and its all done ma..!

An example would be:

My men calls me up and say, "Sgt Haz, aku tkde duit nak bayar mak aku nyer obat, bleh pinjam 50? Aku dah ada duit aku kasi ko balik,"

I'd say ok, wait first cuz im praying. About 10 min later I slowly make my way down towards the LRT to the ATM Machine, press a few no's, print out a receipt, and hey presto, all done. A simple TRANSACTION.


Why is it so hard? You got the numbers ryt, why arent you transferring the god beloved money? Ariff msged all of yo to sent me there ryt? When was the dateline?

It was THURSDAY, what day is it today?

Monday.

I gave you 3 days, 60 hrs full to do a simple task so that I can buy the tix. Immediately. Is this is fucking plot to buy time or what? Is she realli sick over there? or sumting else happened?

That 3 days I wondered and worried and bit my fingernails. It was horrible. It was sickening. Not doing anything.

And that ruzanna. What the hell is she thinking? All I say was," What happened? How bad is it?"

From this statement any mother son can infer that I care and im worried. And what rep did I get?

Some fucked up reply and a whole bowl of piss. And for what? What the FUCK did I do?

I swear to God that if this is a set up, they will pay for all the stress that im facing. But if its not, then I must say they are stupid enough not to understand the whole situation.

Enough said. I don't want to say bad things anymore. I just want to see my dian. My dian. Dats all. And if you ppl are stopping me, then im sorry.

Im sorry.

As I finished the last episode of Heroes Season 2 Volume 1, thots of me flying like Nathan or break-in people's minds is way too cool for a soon-to-be-21 me.

"I like my secrets, I just tot I could share it with someone."

"You are a good person. Don't let the thought of guilt eat inside you."

"We cannot be like God. If it is fate, then we have to go through it."

Some words that I pick up in that whole vol. Nice..

I enjoy the show, im a great fan of Heroes. Especially that hero. *winks*

And oh, if I could choose what powers I wanna have, I'd rather be Peter Petrilli.

WHY? Cuz he has ALL the powers you can ever imagine, and I can RULE the WORLD. Fly here and there, stop time, blast ppl wif either electric shock or radiation, heal without ANY SCAR, read and use minds, and so much more.

Training regime for MR HAZLAMI PETRELLI:

1) Fly to an unknown place to train my powers.
2) Stop time and grab as many food and comforts I need for my training
3) Trust no one, not even my own fren
4) Train train and train! Till I can stop time and manipulate all the powers I can, extend my mind-reading range to like 2KM radius so even SNIPERS planning to bust my head open cannot do so, even which if they cud my brain wud just grow back and he wud wish he wasnt even born

Goals:

1) Be as powerful as I can at my limits and more.
2) Set a system to protect all the supers
3) Gather all of them and shake hands to absorb their powers, make a list, and then make a notebook of directives for me to noe what kind of powers I do have, the best is to suck in the ability to think fast
4) Have breakfast at New Mexico, den tea at Paris, Lunch at Vietnam, Dinner at London, den Nightsnack at Iceland to see the Aurora Lights
5) Most impt of all, dun trust anyone



Cool huh?

My Chemical Romance Lyrics
Cancer Lyrics

This is dedicated to all the cancer patients in the world..

I know how you people feel, and I pray that the world prays for you, and let your journey in seeing the beauty of life remains true..

It doesn't matter whether the body is weak, or the tube is painful, my dear..
It doesn't matter whether you feel cold from the wind or the air con..
It doesn't matter whether the sound of the beeps from machines bothers your slumber..
It doesn't matter whether the results are out..

Its about the heart that keeps beating to the sounds of the world trembling..

Its about the beautiful smile that captures the momentous aroma around you..

And it doesn't matter if you feel alone..

Cuz im here, and im sure there are many many others around the world feel your pain..

Do it for God, for the world, and imagine yourself flying high in the air seeing the world bleeding from spoils of war and fanatical ideologies to poverty and fatigue to women and child abuses to petty crimes and arguments from families..

now close your eyes and shut yourself from that world, for you are now in your own war against your enemy, and fly...

Bowling was fun yesterday. And God I manage to score the highest I can ever score in my whole history of playing bowling since sec 1.

2 strikes+ 3spare+ cuple of points = 145 points!

And when I glance at the lane 3rd to my right....

This bugger scored 146 points at his 6th frame?!

And I tot Hasan Azhari's swan-like bowling style cud beat this guy.

He practically ROLL the ball without any sound! And the way he rolls it, its like he was dancing..

Guess I need to brush up on my basics hahaha! Well, I ain't a bowler....

Oh ya, I pack my army stuff to clear my cupboard and army stash yesterday too. Its a size of 2 duffle bags haha. Thats like army shopping to me. I even brought back cylume sticks in case there is a blackout at my house haha. And my LBV and old SBO. Gosh, I was hoping I'd get my own room, cz if i were to have one, I would make an 'old memoirs in army' of sort at a lil corner of the room. Put a stand and hang my LBV with helmet plus a pack 7 field pack ready for mobilization (there, I told you BMTC INSTRUCTORS suck, they don't get to do fun stuff like this, all they do is shout and fuck recruits, but they themselves are fuck tup, I tink that if they were to come in a unit, and there's a UIP ryt, I make sure they cry cuz I'll be there fucking them left right centre till there's no tomorrow for them. Ask them to go outfield, and do Ops Order w all the maps to be done and REAL planning, I'd doubt their capabilities. Henceforth, they are just junk, trust me, dats why SISPEC sent fuckup trainee to BMTC, cz they arent ready to do the real shit haha). And the good news is that I may get 400 bux preety soon as a late birthday present for myself alone, cz I'll be clearing my IPPT dis year haha! Good, just keep conditioning myself for now..

After going for that briefing, I realise that ORD aint the end to it all. Its the 10 YEAR CYCLE that is the NEXT BIG THING. For people like my bro who got posted to some shit HQ, I got posted to some battalion, ACTIVE BATALLION, u see..

Unless....

1) Im hospitalised
2) I migrate
3) I have the balls to say, "FUCK YOU!" to the COA and refuse to go back (go jail lar)

I don't mind doing the IPPT. GOD, EVEN IF YOU PASS, YOU GET 100 BUX!! Thats like eating ice cream while running hahahaha!


Well, life goes on I guess. Im not sure what Im gonna do after I ORD. Either I fly to australia and see farz, or go w my frens to DUNNO where, or find a job.

Find a job.

In Singapore you can never be like the Hot Rod guy. Just goof around and yet have all the money in the world. Here, you have to keep working till you get cancer or sumting and the bills will haunt u and u'd just die out of stress. Be like the Hot Rod guy, and you die out of boredom. What great life...

If I were to migrate, where wud I go.... Hmm...

As the Saints, go marching in...

Song Listening

-Hey there Delilah, Plain White T's-

Im ORDing very very soon, ard 3 more days till the big day.

I kinda feel very sad about it, feel like as thou the memories of how I go thru it all and manage to survive the outcome got ripped out off my chest.

I remember singing this song with my guys back in bunk.

Im gonna miss my platoon mates especially wanpee and izhar for all the things we went thru.

My pc LTA Wei Jie.

My ps 1SG Willy choo, i still think ur the best PS i ever met.

My platoon men.

My section: Andrew, Legend, Fahmi (thou ur my cousin, I still think your the best loyal men I have other than Legend), Faiezad (where the fuck are u), Danial Tan Lye Poh (bring me to Amber you shithead!)

My Alpha men. (esp Cpl Hasan Azhari for being my cab buddy, and Syafiq, for understanding me)

Best Buddy Din and Taufik.

Alpha Commanders : Sufian, Hong Ji, Willip, De Liang, Wei Siang, Chansiri, Ben, Fairuz Black, Coy Medic Hasyali

Encik and OC.

40th ASLC Specs of 4SIR to name a few.

Faruq, Tzul, Maricar, Asyur, Iskandar aka Wak, Fazdly, Mamat, Daniel Wang, Ong Mian Li and the rest not mention I thank you.

4oth ASLC Batch at Sispec

Echo Pltn 2 section 1

Ezzudin, Luqman, Mat Noor Khan, Maricar, Wei Jie, Mike, Guo Chen, China man and his fren, Narendren.

39th BSLC Batch

Delta Pltn 4

Idafi, Tiger, best buddy, and many more. Not to mention the cina mamat whom I just met at the ORD ICT Function at Jurong Camp, good job getting yourself in 3Guards.

BMTC

Scorpion Pltn 3 section 1

And to the rest that made me the man im standing now.

To the PC's and warrant officers.

1wo Amran, 2wo Eddie, 2wo Teo (CSM ECHO), ur the best.

1SG Vincent Goh (echo sect1 instrutor), 1SG Sim (delta sect1 instructor), 3SG Fairuz (Scorpio Pltn 3section 1 instructor). Thou have guided me to be the best i am.

To my mum and dad for all the prized advices that made me wise.


With pride I lead.




And not to forget, yaee, who is always a step behind me thru my whole journey.....