WE ARE IN!!!!

Wanna know sumting?

Nah, not telling ya..

Haha..

WE ARE IN!!!

What?

We are IN!!

In what!?!?!

WE ARE GOING THRU THE FINALS!!

What finals??

GEMA PUISI!!!!!!!! YAHOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That's right folks.

Anderson JC has made it. Actually, not AJC, but AJCMLDDS has done the impossible.

A week of preparation.

A week of pain and utter madness.

But yet again, we triumph as the host announced " MAKTAB RENDAH ANDERSON" as teh 2nd jc to enter finals..!

How lucky we are??!!!

Anyways, there were a few skewls i will like to mention..

I will like to congratulate PASIR RIS SEC SCH for their outstanding performance, and their courtesy to us when we are hold up in the holding area.

And to CEDAR SEC for their good performance, but yet lost due to some blardie skewls whom i dun think deserve to go in.. *thinking really hard who the hell the school is..hmm*

And to the rest of the skewl, includimg PIONEER JC, cuz my frens (INDRA and erm, i forgot the name ar, but i think its Nur Shahida Rani??) were part of the team, but lost cuz the TECHNICAL stuff there at NYJC sucks really bad.

Kk. enuf of the crap. Wanna hear the story!

We reach AJC like, 9am, but it was raining! Shit fark!

We had our last rehearsal before going to NYJC at 11am.

Btw, there's this cute lil gurl haha. Just wanna say it. Muahaha. She asked fer my number, and i was like going, what the hell? She was damn blardie preety, but the fact remains, she cud be my adeq uc.. i mean, her size and her face looks so the immature muahaha! Like im so mature! Get a LIFE!

We went to the holding rooms, where we spent the next few hours waiting and rehearsing our lines.

We were confident, yet, my heart tells me that i wasn't gonna make it.

Haha. SEDIH!!

We talked to the Pasir Ris Sec peeps, (i must admit, that PR gurl was damn hot for her age! muahaha! but sori, not interested! *winks*) then we proceed on wearing our costumes.

Damn, personally, i felt like shit. Of course, for one small reason.
I looked like HANG NADIM yet wif PANGIRAN eyes!

They put too much make up on me sae. Wakao!!

1.50pm, the NYJC gurl came in to take us to the stage.

Damn, i was freakign nervous. I hadta put in this tissue paper inside my ear so that i cud hear myself when i am singing. (oh btw, my best fren said i sound nice, thanks!! *winks*)

The final moment came. Stupid NYJC flopped the blardie technical thing. So not closing the curtains.

We hadta virtually walk on stage to get to the other side of the stage. DAMN, that was humiliating!

Bukak panggung was the best. Especially the part i and SALIHIN fought with our Shadow Plays. IT was a total naik semangat ar! Catchy.

Then, i spoke. I felt a bit comfortable uc.. Heng ar!

When SALIHIN rap, people were surprised uc! Come on! Nobody rapped!! And it was funny, cuz SALIHIN is a religious guy and he wasnt into rapping and stuff liddat. So ya, he did sound funny! Muahaha!

I know it was my turn to sing. I look at the floor to see my microphone.

Wakao! No mic sae!! I was like, shit, im farking dead!

But hey, i saw dis mic on a stand. So lil me covered my face with the SHADOW PLAY and took the mic. I pulled. Shit!!

THe stand was gonna drop! I was like pacing. Salihin had just finished his rap. My turn!

I hadta bend down and to sing so that i wun pull the tension too much.

Bcuz of the commotion, i sang abit to high den expected. So it was kinda hard to control the melody, especially if it's a traditional malay song.

But hey, quite disappointed with ma singing, but hey! I think i was the ONNIE one singing in traditional song, and cud pull thru beautifully u noe.. Hahaha!

But they say there is this guy from SP who sang better. Not Taufik Batisah lar. But i was challenged by that idea. So now, im picking myself up and try to learn as much as i can, to improve my singing..

But we were doing good! The judge complimented us on our entertaining value,and our concept plus our fresh idea of putting a SHADOW PLAY cum MAK YONG as our skit. Hahaha! Go AJMLDDS!!

Wanna thank a few people from the bottom of my heart..
1) My GEMA PUISI team!! FARNA, SULI, MUNI, SHAHILAH, SHAHEEDA, SALIHINRIDHUAN, ZUK!! *muackz*

2)The helpers!! HAMIZAH and ATIQAH who were so sweet in making us lunch and snacks!! And thanks for the time guys!! *winks*

3) CIKGU JAM and EHM! For making it cum true!

4) My MLDDS peeps for all the support.

5) My bestfren, NADIAH ANAK BASIRON who touched me so much wen she came to see me perform!

6) To this special fren of mine who gave me the invisible support with just an sms! *winks* Study ya.. hehehe..

7) To all frens and my family for their understanding and support!

And to my adeqs!! GOOD LUCK FOR TMR!!! OLEVELS!!

I LOVE YAL!! I will doa you all aite.. I'll try to be there with yal aite..!

Peace!! =)

He's still preety occupied, with Gema, Gema, Gema Puisi.. Muahaha!

I have 7minutes to say wad i wanna say not because im going to DIE or what but i'll be seeing my Maths teacher MR SIAO (dunno how to spell your name lar, cher, but muahaha, u rawk!)..

He'll be teaching me some Maths hahaha. See how pathetix i am.

Got lotsa things to say. But dunno how to put it in words.

One word can sum it all.

STRESS.

Yupz. Modafarking stress.

Tired. Damn. My head is like spinning like washing machine. I dunno whether i can survive this. Muahaha.

Tadi pagi jer dah kene marah ngan cikgu chem sial kepala babi nan chib*i suntet anat kuntet jolok kambing!

Isap gua nyer lolipop TM ar, muahaha.

Kk. Just wanna say, i miss ma adeqs. MIRA, AIN, NONI.

Miss my BROTHER, MUHD HASANUL ARIFIN.

Miss my best friends. NAD, KAMARUL, NAS, BREN

Miss my beloved cuzzie, FARHANAH MULIADI.

Miss my soccer peeps.

Miss my lil friends at the Social Group.

Miss MAMA and PAPA.

Miss you. (who?? muahahaha. Like Real. This is just for fun ar hahaha. Buat scandal sikit.)


Hey, at least im enjoying myself.

To adib, take care aite. Ko jgn jalan byk2. Siak je, nanti patah lagi mampos aku muahaha.

Erm, what else ar..?

Oh ya, PLEASE DO COME AND SUPPORT ANDERSON JUNIOR COLLEGE MLDDS in GEMA PUISI ARTISTIK!!

Cuz i'll be... erm.. not suppose to say aniting, muahaha!

*tired, but today is very nice cuz sumting nice yet simple happen*

ps: Senyap je org tu, dah tak msg aku.. Sedih..

Is it me??

Had a counselling session just now with beloved Mrs Josephine Liaw..

"Hazlami, i know deep inside the mess you are what i call a decent sweet person who likes to help others. But surely, you must know that sometimes your limits are limited, and learning to say NO shows true courage of a man."

That is sweet, more like too sweet.

Haha. Hazlami and his Merepekizm TM.

But what she say was quite true.

I never said NO to no one, no matter how tired or how sick or how bz or how shitty and crappy modaf*cka i am feelin', but still, lil haz took da heat.

But guess what?

I got into deep shit.

Tipah tertipu tertipu tipu tetipah.. .. (Tipah tertipu - RUFFEDGE!!! *Gua syg sam lu man!!*)

Muahahaz..

And to think of it, i do suck at helping ryte.

I help, but i get ppl into deep shit as well.

So, Hazlami Anak kepada Zawawi, keturunan JAWA will lika do a public apology..

Im sorry..

1) To those i've hurt with ma laser mouth or actions, cuz i wunt do any killin' and no bad intentions beb..

2) To those whom i've let yal down, especially my fellow classmates, EXCO's!! (I love yal!), Cikgu Jam, Ms Sab, my sub tutors, my friends out there whom i've disappointed..

3) To MAMA and PAPA.. I have let you down by not cherishing and see your unconditional love.. I thot u love ABANG more than me.. Cuz im slow and stupid and all.. But MAMA and PAPA syg amie lebih dari dorang, like MAMA ckp,

" Amie nak tau, mama rasa sedih sekali, macam kene panah, pasal amie tak nmpak kasih syg mama pat amie. Amie nak tau, mama syg amie lebih dari abg, dari adeq2.. Kaulah yang aku tatang bagai minyak yg penuh.. Pasal mama tau, amie SELALU tolong mama, walaupun bagaimana penat pun, amie tetap ringankan tangan untuk tolong mama.. Amielah yg mama boleh harap.. Adeq2 kau semua tengok kau sebagai abg besar dier org.. Kalau mama sakit ke, penat ke, amie nanti urut belakang mama, atau peluk mama untuk kasi semangat untuk mama teruskan menunaikan tanggungjawab mama sebagai isteri.. Bapak kau, syg kau lebih dari sesiapa.. DIer slalu ajak kau pegi maulid atau majlis zikir pasal dier tau, dengan berkat maulid atau zikir, dapat engkau menjadi seorang yg mampu teruskan keluarga kita.. Ingat tak, semasa engkau pengsan di luar rumah, bapak kau sakit2 sanggup pikul kau macam bayi, angkat kau ke klinik, angkat kau ke ambulance.. Walaupun dier dah tak kuat lagi.. Sanggup amie hancurkan hati mama.."

Oh im crying ryte now in the library.. Im not that strong, u c..

Haish.

Maafkan amie, mama. I want you to know that, no matter what happens, i'll pray fer ya so that we can live happily in Paradise in AFTERLIFE.. We together.. Just us..

WIth abang.. With Nasrun and Najiy.. It will be so happy.. Just us..

Tears still flow from my beady eyes.. Cannot control.. Ader budak india nie asek ngok aku, asal jer si Melayu nie menangis.. Muahaha..

=D, i fell better now..

Peace.

GeMa PuIsI, HeRe ComEs hAz-Laaaaaa-Mi!!

Haish.

GemA is taking a toll outta me.

At first it was kinda fun.

Now its stress.

After the "THING" (Not gonna mention here, there mite be sum jacko poopers here, muahaha) happened, im in constant stress and pressure.

Ni salah lah. Tak sedaplah. Apelah. WAD THE FUCK!!

haiyo. Useta let go of my frust to close people. But they too seem to disappear.

Haz, sumtimes you cannot rely on people too much.

Geuss i'll hafta 'walk alone' (Boulevard of Broken Dreams)

Haish.

Dear phoenix,

The pain is growing. I now my time is coming. Soon, later, not sure. Im not fearing it, man, but waiting at the edge of sumitng terrible is more scary. I can still feel the pain in me. Everytime must go toilet. Haish.

Hey, but i think let;s just put it aside and help others, shall we??

Make them happy, make them cheer up, lend a listening ear, make jokes and laugh..

WHo knows? Kal ho naa ho..

HAHAHA.. That was a joke phoenix, now come on and laugh!

Haish. I now dis suck.

Amie sayang mak. Amie sayang bapak. AMie sayang Abang. Amie sayang adiks. Amie sayang semua.

Cuma, waktu berputaran. Bimbang tak berkesempatan.

Haish.

I'll see ya in heaven, i hope.

Metamorfosis di dalam tubuh yang gersang..

Heya muh niggers! Wassup!

I feel a change in me, after the counselilling session today..

It changed and realised me of an awareness i shud be aware of last year..

Im not who i am..

Not last year, not yesterday.. But Today, i am myself..

No longer the stoopid sunnoffabitch i usedta be..

No longer the big egoistical airhole i was..

No longer the show off guy..

But today, im just me..

Hanging out wiv ma frens..

Laughing, smiling.. Even Farna NOW noticed my sweet smile..

My sweet smile has come back!! For heavens sake!! I am back!!

The old hazlami, the one dulu2 time cckss tu..

Onnie in a diff package now.. hahaha.. if u get what i mean..

Tried to adopt many styles, but now, i finally see myself as the original me..

Original Me.. BIG WORDS you know..

And.. Not only that..

There was a catalyst to it.. That further enhanced the process of reverse osmosis..

There's this person whom i saw on Monday. Jeng Jeng Jeng!!!!

She was sitting beside me, yanoe. During Mass Civics.

This preety gurl. She kept looking at me, you see.

So lil shitty pissy me locked eyes wif her.

AND..

Today, when i was practising on stage, and she was practising badminton in the Hall, she looked at me and gave this..

this..

AWESOME BLARDY SMILE THAT MELTED THE SHIT OUTTA ME!!

Hahahaks.. I dunno..

But i think im virtually floating in air ryte now..

Imma asking my chinese best buddy, lil John ta help me..

Coz "Usher" has the voice to make your booty go 'THOMP!'.. muahaha..

Miss my bro, my cuzzie,my bestfren, my adeqz, my CCKSS gang bola man..

And, thank you guys.. For all the support.. I noe i let you down last time.. Now, i won't, cuz i'll try my very best to do it yar..

And to that special person.. Hope ya tak berjahitan ar.. hahahaha..

Peace.

Vday..!

This is fer my frenz who undoubtly are my "Fan Club" (hahaha, weird huh?)..

Open the sound system aite, my speaker like fark ar..

I dedicate this song to yal.. This is fer ya..

Remember, that i'll always appreaciate ya..

And dun forget, im joining this year's Talentime, so be there aite..

ENJOY!!

Manager
Hazlami Pte Ltd


And not to forget, this is to my good bestest frens in my life.. and to you too, my beloved cuzzie! Muaksz!

Lamer siut dah tak blog.. Things at heart..

Wassup man!

Siallah. Com masih rosak so immat AJ library typing beside Khairul Azhar Bin Khalid.

Haha.. Kiter ngah slacking sambil menikmati keindahan tuhan,

Ape dia kak??

Ngah ngok friendster lah, ader satu minah JAMBU TAHAP MAKSIMUM SIOT!! Namer dier aku tak tau ah. Tapi nanti gua post pat blog ar ehk? Kahkahkah!

Haha. Tu Khai nyer..

Haish.

Penat siak. Lepas nie ader Gema Puisi. But guess what????

Got Great NEWS beb..!

Last Thursday, 3 February 2005, was a turn in my life. At last, somethings that made my day.

Thursday, if you ask, suck lar. Long periods. Go home like 6.30pm. Ader GP remedial. Merepek siot. Tapi, darlink aku Kak Nana brightened up my day when she sent me a message thru friendster. Love ya!!

K ah, aku ngah line up makan ar. Si khairul ckp, "Eh, aku nak tu satu." He was pointing at the macaroni dishes (Cik tu masak dah muak siot! Kahkahkah. Brani aku kutok dier pat sini. Imagine dier tau pasal blog2 nie). So, lil did hazlami the great know that he presumes Khai wanted the macaroni.

I bought TWO farking plates. Si bengap tu ckp, "Aku nak fillet lah, bukan mee tu setan!"

Siallah.

Tu dah buat aku cam nak snap. $1 burn bodoh!

Takpe ah. Ade hikmah.... Meh aku citekan..

Ngah aku line up, si makcik kantin asked me to sing. I say, i got know mood ar, cik. Haiyo. I noe i sing nice lar, haha. Jual mahal plak.

Den suddenly, a group of chinese gurls (Year 2 lar) went to join the queue, led by none other than MS DIANA, (You understand what i say or not? Im writing in English for your sake you know? Thank me later.. Kahkahkah *fer ya info, she cannot speak Melayu*)

She menyampuk (or intervene the dialogue session). "Eh, haz can sing An Jing! Sing lah." (btw, An JIng means shut up, in chinese, a song sang by Jay Chou)

The group of gurls were like, in disbelief kinda look. How in a blue hell can a Malay guy sing Chinese??

Then i open my big mouth and let out a few nodes and antinodes (Superposition, stab Physics hahaha).

Guess what? They were starstruck. They gasped. Their eyes shined like the twilight.

And guess the result?

Hazlami has found himself a fan club.

Tak kelakar lah setan!

Tak bedeklah setan!

You think i want it ar? Im humble you know.. Chey.. (in his heart he yearns for more.. hahaha)

Got this gurl say, "I am the president of Haz fan club." ANd they argue over me. Yessa!!!! (Sekali sekaler pompuan gaduh pasal i orait you!)

However.. .. .. ..

There was ONE. THe ONE. THe ONly ONE. (You are my only, my only one... *Only one- Yellowcard*)

This gurl. HOT! SUPER HOT! Suara steam kodok macam nak kene isap lolipop AJ aku yang limited edition.

HOT! Thats the only word i can express. ANd she say... "Eh guys, look over there..! That's my boyfriend!" And with that cutiest smile she got, wiht those preeety dimples, she flashed me this sweet smile that turned my stomach over and out!!!

God! Habis aku!

Im going nuts man. And to think of it, im just this stoopid jerk with stoopid ugly hair. And stoopid shoe, with stoopid face.

Hey, once in a lifetime man. Tak penah bender cenggini terhappen di dalam hidop gua.

Updates on her?? *Hush* Not telling hahahahaahahahahaahahahaahahahaahha...

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Next!

She gave me this red band, PLAYER dok!

Haish, im so like going nuts..!

This is fer ya.. .. ..

Day after day, time pass away..
And i just can't, get you out my mind.
Nobody knows. I hide it inside.
I keep on searching, but i can't find..

The courage to show..
To lettin' you know..
I never felt so much love before..
And once again, i thinking about..
Taking the easy way out..

But if i let you go, i will never know
What my life would be, holding you close to me..
Would i ever see, you smiling back at me...
How would i know..

If i let you go.. .. ..

Hahaha, thot of singing this to ya. Im singing it in library with Khairul know. Hahaha.

Kaez, gotta go now.. Miss ya my best frenz. Kak nana too! And yes, not to forget, Ain! =D

NOTE: My bro just came back from NS. He got lotsa GHOST stories to tell.. Wooooo (haha, like im scared, hahaha) Later i tell yal aite!

In my deepest thoughts, shall the Phoenix Reborn..NOT!!!

Haha.. its me again..

Blog pat skola siak, my com kena screw by bloodhounds, worms, shit, airholes and stuff liddat..

So dah kire 3 FARKING weeks i never chat wiv no one at all.

Yups, laddies and gentlemen, 3 weeks of no chatting.

Juz sittin' in my room doing homework, tutorials, assignment, TYS, self study and stuff liddat.

Fuck.

I am beginning to feel a change in me.

A sudden surge of metamorfosis that will change my life forever.

A sudden spur of everlasting complex movement that will revolutionised the world around me.

Yes folks, the truth must be told and retold.

Im a mugger!!

Shit man, where is the slacking shit airhole hazlami???

Skrg, aku blajar cam siak. Dulu, haha, lect pon. Now, tak gi lect cam tak berak satu minggu.

Imagine keeping your shit in your arse for a week.

Damn.

No life man.

Okaylar, perhaps a couple of me frenz like Khairul wud change the crowd abit, talking bout gurls (dun wanna giv yal any example, its confidential cuz onnie we boys wud understand) and how hot they are (shit ryte, im becoming a farking airhole, can sumbody beat the shit out of me???) and stuff liddat.

And ya, im doing fine now wiv my work, kinda happy bout it cuz finally, THE ROCK HAS COME BACK.. .. .. (stop it lar, perasaan the rock plak. Badan cam chopstick nak perasaan batu. Muahaha)

haish. I miss my frenz. Tak lupa, kawan baik aku, nadiah anak basiron, wahahaha.

Dah lamer tak jumpe. Maner tak, always hang out at skewl. GO home late around 5 to 6pm. Straight go home, eat, talk to parents, play game, sms gdnite to 'certain people (not gonna mention, muahaha, but seriously, nuting much lar.. no surprises.. hahaha), then do homework, watch tv, sleep, wake up, read lect, bath, shit, eat, go skewl (nie part best sikit..)

You wanna noe why i like the part of going skewl but dread the return??

Firstly, my SWEEEEEEEETTTTTT MUMMY (I LOVE YOU!!!!!) will say ," Blajar baik2 tau sayang.. Mama doakan kamu aite??" So sweet..

Next, i'll like, do a huff and puff and run all the way to the lrt cuz late.

Then, i'll see along the way this CUTE gurl, (i think sec 2 ar, my cckss jr) walk past me, and i wud usually smile at her for no reason whatsover!!?!! But she smile back lar. (suspens jugak, ingatkan dier ingat aku nie stalker ke ape..). Her eyes are SOO GORGEOUS!

Then, as i take the lrt, i'll see this funny looking chap nak stab hip hop tapi kasot rabakz! (chey, riak ar, nak tunjuk kasut limited edition LAKAI dier)

Then, as i walk towards the mrt, the moment has come..

Budak swiss tu.

Tak jambu, tak jumbu, tapi entah knapa budak sehensem (muahaha, muka cam tongsampah aderlah) aku nie nak angkat budak cenggitu. Tapik abg aku ckp she is nice ma. Farna pon cakap gitu. So aku go wifda flow ler. haha.

Dah sampai skola, slalu stab action ngan Khairul, salah satu kengkawan aku yang GEREK.

Pastu, ngok Si "Minah Tak mandi" (taknak reveal dier, hahaha, tapi dier cinoneh tau). Yang stab minah melayu tapi cam tak mandi, hahaha.

Mcm Khairul ckp, "Ee! Geli sial! Mcm sial. Confirm belum mandi. Dari jauh aku dapat raser kebusukan dier. Chey!! Hahaha"

Den i'll say, " Siak jer kau nie. Dier suker kau kot. ASek pandang kau jer. Nak lalu cakap ngan aku excuse me, tapi lalu kau pegang bahu kau, haha, confirm suker kau"

Like always, he'll flip the birdie (Maki lar, or shud i say, gimme the middle universal finger)

And you noe what???

Fark. I have this freakin stalker in skewl.

Ade kebende aku nampak namer aku "I Love HAzlami forever" pat table luar library.

Ade kebende aku nampak surat cinta pat dlm TYS aku, semasa aku letak my books outside library.

Is this a prank!!?!?! Siallah.

Haish. TO the gurl, fat hope mate, cuz hazlami has just told you to kiss his black ass (not black eh, brown, muahahaha)

To my adeq2, gua rindu samer lu ar!!!

To my mummy and daddy, thanks for understanding me. You guys are GREAT!!. (for your info, my parents had met up wiv ma principal. Dey discuss a few issues, turns out to be better!! Yipee!)

To my ehm, may god bless you (cuz one fine day you'll fine haz on your doorsteps saying, Hi, do you wanna buy a cup of milk??)

To my bro, hey, be strong aite. Look on the bright side. You get to shit in the forest. You get to talk dirty. Hahahahaha.

Oh ya, not to forget.

Wanna say sumting close to my heart.

"Never cud imagine, life without you. From the moment you walk into my world. Never knew how aloving flame cud burn. But losing you has forced me to learn. That we can't change the way we feel inside. And every try at love never turns out right. We both know, its better if we just let it go.."

And yes, i know that i have to let go of my past. But still, hazlami tetap hazlami.

And nothing except the Almighty cud change that.

And that remains.

Love, fate, destiny.

Im not fated for them.

For i am hazlami.

And that is the way it is.