All i could see now is the destruction of my creative mp4 dat wen to bits all cause my lil bro 'forgets' to remove it from his pants wen he went for his rock climbing practice..
Whole lot of shit worth of 3 years music downloading in there.
Darn. Hurt me so much to see it go away. But its ok.
Instead of me scolding him, i kept my distance and cool, and my dad did my job, and i swear it i didnt tell him anything.
Guess he either dig it out from his guilty face, or he is just plain Master Jedi.
As I look back at my ol lakai shoe box that contains the most treasured items I have in my life, it was a major wake up call for me- why can't I put away this feeling of self attatchment to a material?
Though yes, alot of them have sentimental values, like for an instance, the creative muvo sportsm i still have them in my drawer, and it still working after 3 years of service.
And I save up like 2mths worth of school money just to buy it.
Cards, letters, gifts, pictures, receipts, movie tix (like the LOTR marathorn) somehow have their own special moments.
I live in a life of moments. Moments that take my breath away. Moments that keep me strong. Moments that make me smile or laugh, or sadness.
Then came a picture of sorts in my head. Its like, I cant help it but realise that I tend to put 'things'- like music, small stuffs like receipts and that- as a memory trigger. For example, I hear this song called, "Hold on- Jet" and it reminded me of that time I sat at the seats of the stadium in AJC, looking over NYP from afar, after a training, it was the day after my birthday, first year, and the celebration was very sad. That time I was realli facing probs w Aish, and my studies, and my mind was aching from the stress and the pain. And so i sat there thinkin back how simple life can be if I could just sit there and do nothing but see the world change from a far.
Yup. And there is this birthday card by Nasir- he gave me when I was in sec 4, nearing my prelims. Its this round circular card that when i read it, i have to turn and turn the card. Haha. Thats like one of the sweet ones i get from a guy. Oh ya, and tis cd from a local artist who passed away, his name was Aden, and the song, "I believe in you", bren gave it to me, and i still got the small post it bren put it on the cd cover.
Brings back good ol memories.
I use to live a very simple life. So simple. Go mosque. Come back home read book, seldom hangout w frens, always alone yet having alot of frens. I have dis habit, its still in me, but now its seldom, though i like taking a walk at the SOC ground haha. Its like, walking alone, looking at the sky and the trees, and just smiling and talking to myself. Im not that crazy u noe, but its more of like, a reflective opportunity for me to make myself happy, and to learn from it.
And the habit of how i would look in the mirror and tell myself to calm down when something bad happen.
Come to thing of it, I was a nice person. :)
Now look at me.
Ppl backstabbing me, frens lie and cheat, ppl not appreciating the many small efforts that i put in for them, and i noe, its both myself and their fault.
And they just vanish. Vanish like, POOF!!
Shhesh, talk about being selfish, ryt din?
Tsk3.
But i stand firm on my ground. And all the oath taking and swearing and promises. I can forgive.
But i cannot forget. Never.
Never.
Oh ya, another important thing. Thanks to my love dian, who went thru all my up n downs, n mean ALL of it. I appreciate everything u did, so so much. U truly are. e beacon of light in my heart. I love you sweetie =) thanks for everything..
Sunday, November 25, 2007
Friday, November 23, 2007
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
Internet in the Army??
Haha, in my 2 years of service (or nearing) in the Army, I've never been to a place where u can use actual internet haha.
Hmm, so many things to say.
Its been very rough for the two of us. The 3rd Party issue came to an end when we manage to block her off, and with a couple of goodwill prayers, God will protect us from any black magic that hovers like an eagle eagerly watchful over its prey.
Ann Lim is over. Now comes the days of the Aftermath, and still I sense there is more to come till the final testiment. The final day that I'll go over there and end the physical barrier that is keeping us apart.
As from this story, and from the previous ones, I've learnt many.
1) Never put too much trust on others
2) Friends can either help you, or kill you
3) Have Faith only in God and blessing from your parents
4) Humans have many flaws and weaknesses
5) As shown in (4), humans tend to say 'I forgive you', but never forgiving
6) Humans at times of pressure show much reluctance to think in logic and are always overwhelmed by emotions that can even 'severe the unthinkable'
7) Love is never a protocol; it needs one
8) Understanding is inevitable without acceptance
9) Pain is only physical if we believe its physical
10) Woman are either tools of seduction, or warmth of comfort
Its like a washing machine ride for me, and now im still in the ripples of it, though approching the calmness, yet the irony it can approach to calamity.
But fear not for I have faith in the Lord and me.
Right now my only focus is farz's health. And her well-being.
Trying to juggle work family and personal stuff is like fighting in a quicksand; the more you move, the deeper you sink. And the irony?
Its not the weight that pulls you in, its the struggle.
So I cannot afford to panic nor letting the chaos break open. I must breathe. Breathe. And clear my mind.
So much hatred, so much anger, so much pain in me, and I either use to let i all out, or fret about it someday.
I now must face it like a man. Like a stalling tiger waiting to catch a glimpse of the blood that will drip. The shudder. The patience. The all-calmness. Waiting for the moment to grasp the opp not to be missed. Or else.
Haz, there is no else.
PS: I love you- so much
Haha, in my 2 years of service (or nearing) in the Army, I've never been to a place where u can use actual internet haha.
Hmm, so many things to say.
Its been very rough for the two of us. The 3rd Party issue came to an end when we manage to block her off, and with a couple of goodwill prayers, God will protect us from any black magic that hovers like an eagle eagerly watchful over its prey.
Ann Lim is over. Now comes the days of the Aftermath, and still I sense there is more to come till the final testiment. The final day that I'll go over there and end the physical barrier that is keeping us apart.
As from this story, and from the previous ones, I've learnt many.
1) Never put too much trust on others
2) Friends can either help you, or kill you
3) Have Faith only in God and blessing from your parents
4) Humans have many flaws and weaknesses
5) As shown in (4), humans tend to say 'I forgive you', but never forgiving
6) Humans at times of pressure show much reluctance to think in logic and are always overwhelmed by emotions that can even 'severe the unthinkable'
7) Love is never a protocol; it needs one
8) Understanding is inevitable without acceptance
9) Pain is only physical if we believe its physical
10) Woman are either tools of seduction, or warmth of comfort
Its like a washing machine ride for me, and now im still in the ripples of it, though approching the calmness, yet the irony it can approach to calamity.
But fear not for I have faith in the Lord and me.
Right now my only focus is farz's health. And her well-being.
Trying to juggle work family and personal stuff is like fighting in a quicksand; the more you move, the deeper you sink. And the irony?
Its not the weight that pulls you in, its the struggle.
So I cannot afford to panic nor letting the chaos break open. I must breathe. Breathe. And clear my mind.
So much hatred, so much anger, so much pain in me, and I either use to let i all out, or fret about it someday.
I now must face it like a man. Like a stalling tiger waiting to catch a glimpse of the blood that will drip. The shudder. The patience. The all-calmness. Waiting for the moment to grasp the opp not to be missed. Or else.
Haz, there is no else.
PS: I love you- so much
Saturday, October 27, 2007
The distraught in my head.
The terror.
I feel so down.
I feel alone.
The pain of past haunts me yet again.
And now my pride and joy of being a commander is all gone like the wind- the injury that I had 2 mths back single-handedly killed my soul.
"Chao keng..." The look in those eyes of my men doubting my ability to lead again now my pride has gone. So far the only loyal one that never fades in my eyes, is just my beloved 2IC, my 2SAW Pte to be LCP Fahmi, my good friend Sufian MG Commander, 2SG Taufik my best buddy, and all time favourite till the end buddy Saifuddin who himself felt how i feel-he got himself injured during an exercise that fractured his right thumb.
Loyalty is getting slim. It is the pride of being a commander dat strived me to where i once have been. Now its all over.
Though i manage to capture the hearts of the clerks who would certainly help me to write a good testimonial for my ORD, and the few good soldiers who share the same fate as me- shunted aside though we fought many exercises for the company. Yet now its like game over for us. And im treated like not a commander now. But i braved the shores by still being there for my men, my platoon. Though i shunt myself away from my platoon mates, i seek shelter from the shadows, trying to close my eyes and tell myself that everything is going to be absolutely fine. I made plans, but not the right time yet to initiate. Now all i could do is wait, in a pool of disappointment, sadness.
I feel so used ryt now. Like a fucking prostitute. Not just at work. Even my best friend. Haish.
The anger in me is so huge. I let some of it out at farz, the fact that she couldnt calm my monster down and still never learnt the previous mistakes she has made and the many pacts and promises she have yet trying to uphold. I cannot blaim her for my own mistakes. It is I, and I alone. And so I know I have to solve this on my own.
As I venture in the darkness again, the old past haunts me. Its like dejavu- going through the motion of being used and taken advantaged of put me down to the deepest hallow.
I want to be brave. I need a friend. A friend that can pat me on the back and smile at me and say, hey, everything is going to be fine. Be strong.
I hate my encik. I have a plan to destroy him completely. He will know that messing around with his loyal soldier has its negative side to the situation.
Ryt now, i feel useless.
I need an instant, suprising shocking but happy cheering up ryt now.
(now that i say this, i wonder if anyone could bring me out for an ice cream)
I hate me. I hate. Hate. :((
The terror.
I feel so down.
I feel alone.
The pain of past haunts me yet again.
And now my pride and joy of being a commander is all gone like the wind- the injury that I had 2 mths back single-handedly killed my soul.
"Chao keng..." The look in those eyes of my men doubting my ability to lead again now my pride has gone. So far the only loyal one that never fades in my eyes, is just my beloved 2IC, my 2SAW Pte to be LCP Fahmi, my good friend Sufian MG Commander, 2SG Taufik my best buddy, and all time favourite till the end buddy Saifuddin who himself felt how i feel-he got himself injured during an exercise that fractured his right thumb.
Loyalty is getting slim. It is the pride of being a commander dat strived me to where i once have been. Now its all over.
Though i manage to capture the hearts of the clerks who would certainly help me to write a good testimonial for my ORD, and the few good soldiers who share the same fate as me- shunted aside though we fought many exercises for the company. Yet now its like game over for us. And im treated like not a commander now. But i braved the shores by still being there for my men, my platoon. Though i shunt myself away from my platoon mates, i seek shelter from the shadows, trying to close my eyes and tell myself that everything is going to be absolutely fine. I made plans, but not the right time yet to initiate. Now all i could do is wait, in a pool of disappointment, sadness.
I feel so used ryt now. Like a fucking prostitute. Not just at work. Even my best friend. Haish.
The anger in me is so huge. I let some of it out at farz, the fact that she couldnt calm my monster down and still never learnt the previous mistakes she has made and the many pacts and promises she have yet trying to uphold. I cannot blaim her for my own mistakes. It is I, and I alone. And so I know I have to solve this on my own.
As I venture in the darkness again, the old past haunts me. Its like dejavu- going through the motion of being used and taken advantaged of put me down to the deepest hallow.
I want to be brave. I need a friend. A friend that can pat me on the back and smile at me and say, hey, everything is going to be fine. Be strong.
I hate my encik. I have a plan to destroy him completely. He will know that messing around with his loyal soldier has its negative side to the situation.
Ryt now, i feel useless.
I need an instant, suprising shocking but happy cheering up ryt now.
(now that i say this, i wonder if anyone could bring me out for an ice cream)
I hate me. I hate. Hate. :((
help
Its coming back.. I could feel it.. Its been away for months.. Yea, the monster.. I could feel its coming, haunting me again.. I hate it when he went back to camp.. He kinda changed.. It was not like dis wen we were together for the months that he was home.. I could feel the difference.. He was that wadeva kinda man, albeit couldn't be bothered.. His words was sharp and cold.. I do feel terguris.. Perhaps its due to the probs he's facin at work.. Im tryin to be there for him.. I have been prayin that things will go well for him.. Tsk.. Its unlike the months he was at home.. I feel liberated.. We enjoyed each other's company, though we do have a few hiccups here and there.. But it was so blissful.. Till he went back.. N he went back to his old self.. Im trying hard to be there for him.. I knoe its hard, e probs he's facin in camp n all.. Yesterday, last nite was like gave me a synopsis.. Im beginning to feel and have the fear to face the monster again.. Its imminent coming.. Is it just me? Why can't i do wad he wants e to do.. Am i dat useless?.. Dat stupid?.. When things go wrong, i dunno how to react.. Dunno wad to say.. Dunno wad to do.. My mind suddenly feel like its empty.. The fear is there.. N im feelin scared.. Im feelin so useless rite now.... N i cant shake it away.. Oh God.... I won't fear if ur here wimme... =( Please dun let it happen... I pray n beseech u Almighty God.. Mama, help me pls?... I need u...
Sunday, October 21, 2007
Tak ku rasakan lagi
Hangatnya rasa rindu
Tak ku rasakan lagi
Indahnya hidup ini
Telah habis rasa
Cinta di Hati
Yang menyelimuti diri
Tak kan lagi belai lembut tubuhmu
Tak kan lagi sentuhan bibir manismu
Tak kan lagi satu di dalam dirimu
Ku merindumu........
Oh kasihku dengarlah seruanku
Oh pintaku jangan lupakan diriku
Jadikanku kisah manis dalam hidupmu
Kau kekasihku......
God, I miss her so ever so much..
Hari raya has been a good and bad exp for the both of us. But be without fear dian, for our ultimate goal is more than this..
You will recover, and I promise you I will go there and see you..
I will.. abang promise..
Oh Allah, protect her.. :)
Hangatnya rasa rindu
Tak ku rasakan lagi
Indahnya hidup ini
Telah habis rasa
Cinta di Hati
Yang menyelimuti diri
Tak kan lagi belai lembut tubuhmu
Tak kan lagi sentuhan bibir manismu
Tak kan lagi satu di dalam dirimu
Ku merindumu........
Oh kasihku dengarlah seruanku
Oh pintaku jangan lupakan diriku
Jadikanku kisah manis dalam hidupmu
Kau kekasihku......
God, I miss her so ever so much..
Hari raya has been a good and bad exp for the both of us. But be without fear dian, for our ultimate goal is more than this..
You will recover, and I promise you I will go there and see you..
I will.. abang promise..
Oh Allah, protect her.. :)
Saturday, October 13, 2007
Eid Fitr
Allahuakhbar.. Allahuakhbar.. Allahuakhbar..
Lailahailallahu Allahuakhbar.. Allahuakhbar Wallillah Ilhamd..
Allahuakhbar.. Allahuakhbar.. Allahuakhbar..
Allahuakhbar Kabirau Walhamdulillahikathirau Wasubahanallahibukratau Waasila..
Lailahailallah Hualaya'budu Ila Iya Humukhlisi Nalahuddin..
Walaukarihal Kafirun.. Lailahailallahhu ahda.. Sodaqowa'da.. Wanasarawa'abda..
Wa'ahazajundahu Waahzamalwahda..
Lailahaillahu Allahuakhbar.. Allahuakhbar Walilailhamd..
I woke up hearing the takhbir over the radio.. The day is finally here.. The holy month of Ramadhan has ended and Muslims are celebrating Eid Fitr.. Unlike others, i feel saddened and my heart feels heavy though its not the first time im celebrating Eid overseas.. This time round, i could really feel the difference.. Im saddened that Ramadhan is over.. Dunno why.. My Ramadhan was full of challenges.. There were times i couldnt fast cause i had to undergo treatment and hafta eat my medicines.. I feel sad that my Ramadhan has ended and knowing that i have not completed my fast.. The month of ibadah and atonement is over.. I pray that God has accepted the ibadah that i've done.. I pray that God will accept my din..
To my family, i would like to say my heartfelt thanks and appreciation for being there for me in this time of darkness.. I love you dad, mum, kak suz, kak ruz, abang arif, baby amir, baby amaar and lastly baby sheila.. You have brighten up my life.. Encouraging me to recover and be positive.. I will try to fight what im facing rite now..
Abang sayang.. Im sorry i cant celebrate Eid with you in Singapore.. I feel so alone here without you.. Im trying to be okae.. Im just so full of emotions now.. I miss you and love you sayang.. I know that you have done so much for me.. Praying in the middle of the night and reading the quran for me.. I love you so much sayang.. Though you can choose to live a life of your own, being with someone else who could be with you physically and yet we have stood strong for 7 months and insyallah more to come.. I cant express what im feeling for you.. If not for you abang, i think i wont be here anymore.. You gave me the strength and the will to carry on with life.. You have made my life complete.. God bless our love.. Abang, ampunkan ayang jikalau ada kesalahan andainya ayang tersinggung perasaan abang.. Sayang, send my regards to ur parents whom i haf regarded as my own, not forgetting abang hasanul, najiy and nasrun.. I love you and all..
Ya Allah, ampunkanlah dosa-dosa yang telah aku lakukan..
Ku memohon keampunanmu dengan tangan yang penuh dengan dosaku..
Aku mohon ampun atas segala kesalahan yang telah ku lakukan..
Ya Allah, maafkan aku kerna mengatakan kau kejam semasa kau mengambil kembali
Ibu kandungku Allahyarhama Siti Sarah Abdullah @ Elena Emtrud Wilheim Guderian..
Maafkan aku kerna mengatakan kau kejam pabila kau memberikan aku kesakitan..
Terimalah keampunanku Ya Allah..
Andainya dikau hanya menerima keampunan hanya dari insan yang suci
Apa pula nasibku aku ini yang kerdil lagi daif..
Hanya kepada dikau ku sembah dan ku pinta pertolongan..
Ya Allah, telah banyak dikau kurniakan aku..
Kepandaian dan kebijaksanaan sehingga aku mencapai Ijazah Darjah Utama..
Rezki yang meluas yang aku gunakan untuk menolong mereka yang miskin..
Keluarga dan sahabat yang selalu meyayangi aku..
Cintaku yang suci dengan insanmu bernama Mohammad Hazlami..
Tetapi kesemuanya ini bukan milikku Ya Allah..
Ia pemberian dikau.. Milik dikau..
Telah aku rasai nikmat kebijaksaan, rezki, kesayangan dan cinta
Andainya kau ingin mengambilnya dari ku, aku redha Ya Allah..
Andainya kau inginku kembali bersamamu, aku redha Ya Allah..
Hanya ku pohon doa restu dan keampunanmu Ya Allah..
Aku redha Ya Allah...
Dian love Hazlami.. So much.. Now and forever..
Wednesday, October 03, 2007
Post Saddam Era.. How is Iraq now without Saddam?
December 29.. The date Saddam Hussein was sentenced to death? Firstly, i had a burning question in my mind.. And i think that each and every one of us should ask ourself..
First, should Saddam die? Let's weigh the justification of the death sentence.. The Vatican has even revealed that the Pope has condemned the death sentence given to the Iraqi court against Saddam Hussein.. The Pope reiterates that capital punishment such as death goes against the teachings of the Roman Catholic Church.. Pope Benedict XVI’s prelate for justice related issues and a former Vatican envoy to the United Nations, commented that Saddam Hussein’s execution would punish "a crime with another crime" and expressed hope that the sentence would not be carried out..
Iraq’s highest court rejected Saddam's Hussein’s death appeal for the massacre of 148 people in Dujail, in northern Iraq, in 1982. The court sentenced that the former president is to be hanged within 30 days.. Contrary to popular belief that the death sentence was motivated and influenced by the hawks in the White House who is hell bent in getting vengeance.. This doesnt mean that all its administration staffs shared the same belief..
Former US Attorney General Ramsey Clark denounced the Iraq Special Tribunal's death sentences against Saddam Hussein in a press conference.. General Ramsey Clark served on Saddam Hussein’s defense team during the trial.. He warned that ter consequences of executions will create a multiplier effect causing greater violence thus worsening the situation in Iraq.. Saddam Hussein and his defendants were held under American custody at Camp Cropper, an American military prison near the Baghdad airport.. General Ramsey Clark commented that if Saddam and his defendants were turned over to the Iraqi authorities, they would face torture and death.. It is without doubt that the nature of the trial is biased..
Iraqi Prime Minister Maliki has repeatedly said that Saddam's execution must take place within that year.. It seems that the Iraqi law provides mandatory death sentenc to be carried out within fifteen days of the final judgment.. There was no attempt to prove that the recent trial was anything other than a staged trial.. As General Ramsey Clark said, it represented "victor's injustice, victor's justice being an oxymoron." The implications of execution are simply dire.. The Pentagon announced that violence in Iraq was at an all time high prior to the death sentence.. General Ramsey Clark also compared on the parallels between Vietnam and Iraq.. What a contrast.. Is it because the war was ideologically different? Vietnam war was about fighting communism.. While Iraq was a war of masculine chest-beating ego war against a Christian nation to a Muslim country?
Saddam Hussein collaborated with the United States in launching the 1980 war with Iran.. But then Saddam being the ego person he is, never subjected Iraq as a puppet government of the US unlike the regimes of Jordan, Kuwait or Saudi Arabia.. Was Saddam hanged because he stood up to US? Many claim that the US occupation was illegal and had no authority to try or convict Saddam.. It was waged without the UN mandate.. Some argue that real trials for "crimes against humanity" would have the Bush administration officials and Pentagon Generals as the defendants..
To the indigenous people of Iraq who were terrorized and imprisoned by Saddam Hussein, hate is a mild word when asked how one feels towards Saddam Hussein.. Some simply cannot erase from the memory of terror.. The sheer horror when there was an unexpected knock on the door or an unknown telephone call.. The biggest lesson Saddam taught was the existence of evil. For those who live in democratic and free countries, the concept of evil has purpotedly ''gone".. Much of the world is unable to understand because they have never experienced sheer evil.. This was Saddam.. His face was everywhere possibly erected.. Be it in the walls, billboards or statues.. He was everywhere even in your dreams..
In a Friday sermon, a Shiite Imam at a mosque in the Shiite holy city of Najaf describes the execution of Saddam as God's gift to Iraqis.. He said that Saddam has killed millions of Iraqis in prisons and in wars with neighbouring countries.. The preacher also says the former Iraqi leader is responsible for mass graves, and prays that God will take revenge on Saddam.. But we got to understand the current standoff between the Shiite and Sunni sects.. Under Saddam who is a Sunni, the Shiites were oppressed.. Sunni was favoured though they were a minority.. Now, the Shiites suddenly rediscover their voice and naturally used their freedom of speech..
Human Rights Watch however has a different take.. They viewed that the Iraqi government should not implement the death sentence against Saddam Hussein, which was imposed after a deeply flawed trial for crimes against humanity.. It was first reported by an Iraq’s national security adviser that they should have conducted a thorough legal review of the verdict and then announced its findings.. Imposing the death penalty, indefensible in any case, is especially wrong after such unfair proceedings.. That a judicial decision was first announced by Iraq’s national security advisor underlines the political interference that marred Saddam Hussein’s trial..
The trial only builds the belief of the Iraqi Sunnis who loved Saddam that Saddam Hussein was not given a fair trial and that Saddam died as a matyr..
The United Nations opined that every appeal judgment taken up by the courts of law should be a lengthy and complex decision making process that requires careful study.. There were a number of concerns as to the fairness of the original trial, and there is a need to assure that these issues have been comprehensively addressed..
The Prime Minister of Italy Romano Prodi: "While I don't want to minimize the crimes committed by Saddam Hussein, and the ferocity with which he governed during his regime, and while respecting the autonomy and legitimacy of Iraq institutions, I must express the Italian government's, and my personal, firm opposition to the death sentence."
I would like to say that i envy those western nations who stood up against the US and differs their view from them.. It is just the opposite of what we Muslims perceived.. It is not necessarily true that all western christians plot together to subject the world under them.. Least, what the EU, UN has done was commendable.. But their hands were tied to stop the US adamant attitude towards Iraq..
Personally, I believe that Saddam Hussein did not receive a fair trial.. His execution is a war crime and an act of murder.. Why should I believe any of the claims made against Saddam Hussein when nearly every claim used to justify the invasion of Iraq have all proven to be false? There were no weapons of mass destruction in Iraq.. Saddam Hussein never conspired with the al-Qaeda terrorists who planned the World Trade Center attacks.. Iraq was never a threat to America.. It is simply a weak nation after the economic embargoes that the UN Security Council imposed on.. Lastly, what threat does the US faced from Iraq? Its military though one of the largest in the Middle East is in shambles and incapable of defending itself.. Unlike its other neighbours such as those friendly to the US who has supremacy in military power and Iran who indigeneously build up its own modern armed forces.. Can you see this perceived threat that the US has protrayed to its Middle East allies? Who benefits in the end? The US of course.. I also do not believe that Americans who backed the war above and beyond the lies that justified the war really cared about freeing the Iraqi people.. The court established by the United States military occupation of Iraq is also illegal and has no jurisdiction to prosecute anyone. It’s a sham, so much so that everyone knew Saddam Hussein would be convicted and sentenced to death..
When the judge at the court expressed sympathies for Saddam Hussein, he was immediately removed, which also proves that the purpose of the court, like the purpose of the Iraq invasion, was never about justice or rights, but about politics.. Saddam Hussein should be prosecuted before the International Criminal Court in the Hague where other international leaders have been charged, prosecuted and convicted on the powerful foundation of the International Rule of Law.. Or, brought before an International Tribunal set up under the auspice of the United Nations as was Slobodan Milosevic..
Saddam Hussein was not sent to the Hague, nor was an International tribunal convened because Bush cannot guarantee a conviction or death sentence there.. It might also open questions about Bush’s conduct of inquiry in Iraq.. If Saddam Hussein can be prosecuted for quelling a rebellion against his regime, cannot President Bush therefore be prosecuted for violating international law? Why should American soldiers in Iraq face war crimes charges be held accountable but not Bush? I believe far more war crimes have been committed in Iraq, but we have only chosen to prosecute those that are unavoidable and clear for all to see.. What about the BlackWater Securities which is a private security agency that kills civilians in an apparent "misfire"? There is also one more legal issue that is being ignored by the court in Baghdad.. If we are to accept the assertions that the war in Iraq is legal, then Saddam Hussein SHOULD be a prisoner of war.. His murder is a violation of the Fourth Geneva Conventions, that we have already ignored in the US conduct in torturing and mistreatment other prisoners.. Regardless, sentencing Saddam Hussein to death is a violation of international law.. But killing him is an immoral act tantamount to murder.. All of these violated principles and laws may one day come back to haunt us as Americans..
The timing of the death sentence was also carried out in a stupid way.. It was done before the start of the Muslim holiday of Eid al-Adha.. The Iraqi officials have said that their government would be loath to carry out an execution during the Eid festival, and have suggested that it would not take place until the holiday ends next week.. Perhaps it was pressured by the US to hasten his death sentence.. According to Iraqi laws, the convicted person has the right to see family within 24 hours before the death sentence was carried out.. Saddam Hussein said good-bye to his two brothers.. This makes sense from a security perspective.. Hang Saddam before the Eid al-Adha holiday begins under the cover of darkness and then unexpectedly announce it at dawn..
Other than that.. If Saddam Hussein murdered civilians in 1982, then why is Donald Rumsfeld, representing President Reagan, shaked hands with Saddam in 1983? The Reagan administration and its special Middle East envoy, Donald Rumsfeld, did little to stop Iraq developing weapons of mass destruction in the 1980s, even though they knew Saddam Hussein was using chemical weapons "almost daily" against Iran..
BUT WHY THE DISCREPANCIES NOW?
US support for Baghdad during the Iran-Iraq war as a bulwark against Shi'ite militancy has been well known for some time, but using declassified government documents, the Washington Post provided details in 2002 about Mr Rumsfeld's role, and about the extent of the Reagan administration's knowledge of the use of chemical weapons.. Furthermore, in 1988, the Dow Chemical company sold $1.5m-worth (£930,000) of pesticides to Iraq despite suspicions they would be used for chemical warfare. Hyprocrisy at its best?
Saddam's death will only serve to polarize more moderate Muslims.. It will not make them fear the US, England or Israel even more so..
Islamic terrorists embrace death.. They do not fear it.. So who is the US punishing?
What distinguishes military from the Islamic terrorists that we fight is the military cherishes life.. Yes, in war the military can be more barbaric using pyschops as good if not better than the enemy by hanging blood dripping heads on wooden sticks.. But is it appropriate to place Saddam's head on a wooden stick then? Will video of his hanging decrease conflict or increase it in the Middle-East? If it is so, it backfired.. the video showed the deathmen tounting him, cursing him, being rough with him, even spitting at him.. This is not justice.. It is revenge and vengeance..
Isnt it better that Saddam died of a heart attack, AIDS, a stroke or other "natural causes" in jail.. It worked for Yasser Arafat, it could work for Saddam Hussein isnt?..
George?.. Tsk3.. You're a naughty naughty boy..
Hurhur.. Do i make a good defence lawyer? Do i?! Do i?! =p
Dian loves Hubby Haz and makes him proud! Muacks1!
First, should Saddam die? Let's weigh the justification of the death sentence.. The Vatican has even revealed that the Pope has condemned the death sentence given to the Iraqi court against Saddam Hussein.. The Pope reiterates that capital punishment such as death goes against the teachings of the Roman Catholic Church.. Pope Benedict XVI’s prelate for justice related issues and a former Vatican envoy to the United Nations, commented that Saddam Hussein’s execution would punish "a crime with another crime" and expressed hope that the sentence would not be carried out..
Iraq’s highest court rejected Saddam's Hussein’s death appeal for the massacre of 148 people in Dujail, in northern Iraq, in 1982. The court sentenced that the former president is to be hanged within 30 days.. Contrary to popular belief that the death sentence was motivated and influenced by the hawks in the White House who is hell bent in getting vengeance.. This doesnt mean that all its administration staffs shared the same belief..
Former US Attorney General Ramsey Clark denounced the Iraq Special Tribunal's death sentences against Saddam Hussein in a press conference.. General Ramsey Clark served on Saddam Hussein’s defense team during the trial.. He warned that ter consequences of executions will create a multiplier effect causing greater violence thus worsening the situation in Iraq.. Saddam Hussein and his defendants were held under American custody at Camp Cropper, an American military prison near the Baghdad airport.. General Ramsey Clark commented that if Saddam and his defendants were turned over to the Iraqi authorities, they would face torture and death.. It is without doubt that the nature of the trial is biased..
Iraqi Prime Minister Maliki has repeatedly said that Saddam's execution must take place within that year.. It seems that the Iraqi law provides mandatory death sentenc to be carried out within fifteen days of the final judgment.. There was no attempt to prove that the recent trial was anything other than a staged trial.. As General Ramsey Clark said, it represented "victor's injustice, victor's justice being an oxymoron." The implications of execution are simply dire.. The Pentagon announced that violence in Iraq was at an all time high prior to the death sentence.. General Ramsey Clark also compared on the parallels between Vietnam and Iraq.. What a contrast.. Is it because the war was ideologically different? Vietnam war was about fighting communism.. While Iraq was a war of masculine chest-beating ego war against a Christian nation to a Muslim country?
Saddam Hussein collaborated with the United States in launching the 1980 war with Iran.. But then Saddam being the ego person he is, never subjected Iraq as a puppet government of the US unlike the regimes of Jordan, Kuwait or Saudi Arabia.. Was Saddam hanged because he stood up to US? Many claim that the US occupation was illegal and had no authority to try or convict Saddam.. It was waged without the UN mandate.. Some argue that real trials for "crimes against humanity" would have the Bush administration officials and Pentagon Generals as the defendants..
To the indigenous people of Iraq who were terrorized and imprisoned by Saddam Hussein, hate is a mild word when asked how one feels towards Saddam Hussein.. Some simply cannot erase from the memory of terror.. The sheer horror when there was an unexpected knock on the door or an unknown telephone call.. The biggest lesson Saddam taught was the existence of evil. For those who live in democratic and free countries, the concept of evil has purpotedly ''gone".. Much of the world is unable to understand because they have never experienced sheer evil.. This was Saddam.. His face was everywhere possibly erected.. Be it in the walls, billboards or statues.. He was everywhere even in your dreams..
In a Friday sermon, a Shiite Imam at a mosque in the Shiite holy city of Najaf describes the execution of Saddam as God's gift to Iraqis.. He said that Saddam has killed millions of Iraqis in prisons and in wars with neighbouring countries.. The preacher also says the former Iraqi leader is responsible for mass graves, and prays that God will take revenge on Saddam.. But we got to understand the current standoff between the Shiite and Sunni sects.. Under Saddam who is a Sunni, the Shiites were oppressed.. Sunni was favoured though they were a minority.. Now, the Shiites suddenly rediscover their voice and naturally used their freedom of speech..
Human Rights Watch however has a different take.. They viewed that the Iraqi government should not implement the death sentence against Saddam Hussein, which was imposed after a deeply flawed trial for crimes against humanity.. It was first reported by an Iraq’s national security adviser that they should have conducted a thorough legal review of the verdict and then announced its findings.. Imposing the death penalty, indefensible in any case, is especially wrong after such unfair proceedings.. That a judicial decision was first announced by Iraq’s national security advisor underlines the political interference that marred Saddam Hussein’s trial..
The trial only builds the belief of the Iraqi Sunnis who loved Saddam that Saddam Hussein was not given a fair trial and that Saddam died as a matyr..
The United Nations opined that every appeal judgment taken up by the courts of law should be a lengthy and complex decision making process that requires careful study.. There were a number of concerns as to the fairness of the original trial, and there is a need to assure that these issues have been comprehensively addressed..
The Prime Minister of Italy Romano Prodi: "While I don't want to minimize the crimes committed by Saddam Hussein, and the ferocity with which he governed during his regime, and while respecting the autonomy and legitimacy of Iraq institutions, I must express the Italian government's, and my personal, firm opposition to the death sentence."
I would like to say that i envy those western nations who stood up against the US and differs their view from them.. It is just the opposite of what we Muslims perceived.. It is not necessarily true that all western christians plot together to subject the world under them.. Least, what the EU, UN has done was commendable.. But their hands were tied to stop the US adamant attitude towards Iraq..
Personally, I believe that Saddam Hussein did not receive a fair trial.. His execution is a war crime and an act of murder.. Why should I believe any of the claims made against Saddam Hussein when nearly every claim used to justify the invasion of Iraq have all proven to be false? There were no weapons of mass destruction in Iraq.. Saddam Hussein never conspired with the al-Qaeda terrorists who planned the World Trade Center attacks.. Iraq was never a threat to America.. It is simply a weak nation after the economic embargoes that the UN Security Council imposed on.. Lastly, what threat does the US faced from Iraq? Its military though one of the largest in the Middle East is in shambles and incapable of defending itself.. Unlike its other neighbours such as those friendly to the US who has supremacy in military power and Iran who indigeneously build up its own modern armed forces.. Can you see this perceived threat that the US has protrayed to its Middle East allies? Who benefits in the end? The US of course.. I also do not believe that Americans who backed the war above and beyond the lies that justified the war really cared about freeing the Iraqi people.. The court established by the United States military occupation of Iraq is also illegal and has no jurisdiction to prosecute anyone. It’s a sham, so much so that everyone knew Saddam Hussein would be convicted and sentenced to death..
When the judge at the court expressed sympathies for Saddam Hussein, he was immediately removed, which also proves that the purpose of the court, like the purpose of the Iraq invasion, was never about justice or rights, but about politics.. Saddam Hussein should be prosecuted before the International Criminal Court in the Hague where other international leaders have been charged, prosecuted and convicted on the powerful foundation of the International Rule of Law.. Or, brought before an International Tribunal set up under the auspice of the United Nations as was Slobodan Milosevic..
Saddam Hussein was not sent to the Hague, nor was an International tribunal convened because Bush cannot guarantee a conviction or death sentence there.. It might also open questions about Bush’s conduct of inquiry in Iraq.. If Saddam Hussein can be prosecuted for quelling a rebellion against his regime, cannot President Bush therefore be prosecuted for violating international law? Why should American soldiers in Iraq face war crimes charges be held accountable but not Bush? I believe far more war crimes have been committed in Iraq, but we have only chosen to prosecute those that are unavoidable and clear for all to see.. What about the BlackWater Securities which is a private security agency that kills civilians in an apparent "misfire"? There is also one more legal issue that is being ignored by the court in Baghdad.. If we are to accept the assertions that the war in Iraq is legal, then Saddam Hussein SHOULD be a prisoner of war.. His murder is a violation of the Fourth Geneva Conventions, that we have already ignored in the US conduct in torturing and mistreatment other prisoners.. Regardless, sentencing Saddam Hussein to death is a violation of international law.. But killing him is an immoral act tantamount to murder.. All of these violated principles and laws may one day come back to haunt us as Americans..
The timing of the death sentence was also carried out in a stupid way.. It was done before the start of the Muslim holiday of Eid al-Adha.. The Iraqi officials have said that their government would be loath to carry out an execution during the Eid festival, and have suggested that it would not take place until the holiday ends next week.. Perhaps it was pressured by the US to hasten his death sentence.. According to Iraqi laws, the convicted person has the right to see family within 24 hours before the death sentence was carried out.. Saddam Hussein said good-bye to his two brothers.. This makes sense from a security perspective.. Hang Saddam before the Eid al-Adha holiday begins under the cover of darkness and then unexpectedly announce it at dawn..
Other than that.. If Saddam Hussein murdered civilians in 1982, then why is Donald Rumsfeld, representing President Reagan, shaked hands with Saddam in 1983? The Reagan administration and its special Middle East envoy, Donald Rumsfeld, did little to stop Iraq developing weapons of mass destruction in the 1980s, even though they knew Saddam Hussein was using chemical weapons "almost daily" against Iran..
BUT WHY THE DISCREPANCIES NOW?
US support for Baghdad during the Iran-Iraq war as a bulwark against Shi'ite militancy has been well known for some time, but using declassified government documents, the Washington Post provided details in 2002 about Mr Rumsfeld's role, and about the extent of the Reagan administration's knowledge of the use of chemical weapons.. Furthermore, in 1988, the Dow Chemical company sold $1.5m-worth (£930,000) of pesticides to Iraq despite suspicions they would be used for chemical warfare. Hyprocrisy at its best?
Saddam's death will only serve to polarize more moderate Muslims.. It will not make them fear the US, England or Israel even more so..
Islamic terrorists embrace death.. They do not fear it.. So who is the US punishing?
What distinguishes military from the Islamic terrorists that we fight is the military cherishes life.. Yes, in war the military can be more barbaric using pyschops as good if not better than the enemy by hanging blood dripping heads on wooden sticks.. But is it appropriate to place Saddam's head on a wooden stick then? Will video of his hanging decrease conflict or increase it in the Middle-East? If it is so, it backfired.. the video showed the deathmen tounting him, cursing him, being rough with him, even spitting at him.. This is not justice.. It is revenge and vengeance..
Isnt it better that Saddam died of a heart attack, AIDS, a stroke or other "natural causes" in jail.. It worked for Yasser Arafat, it could work for Saddam Hussein isnt?..
George?.. Tsk3.. You're a naughty naughty boy..
Hurhur.. Do i make a good defence lawyer? Do i?! Do i?! =p
Dian loves Hubby Haz and makes him proud! Muacks1!
Sunday, September 30, 2007
US Presidential Election 2008
Do you know that fourty percent of Americans have never lived when there wasn't a Bush or a Clinton in the White House? You get what im trying to say? You see, the Bush and the Clinton family are the most influential political families of the United States. The Bush belonged to the GOP Republican party while the Clintons are with the Democrats. In the coming US Presidential Election, Senator Hillary Rodham Clinton (Bill Clinton's wife) is hoping to take another four or eight more years of "Clinton" era. As it is, she is increasingly becoming more favourable as the Democrats main candidate and by God, her political war chest is pulling in huge donations for her presidential campaign. So are we gonna have to see a Bush-Clinton-Bush presidential pattern which has already held sway for nearly two decades?
The influence and dominance of the two families in the US Presidential races is unprecedented. (The closest comparisons are the father-son presidencies of John Adams and John Quincy Adams, whose single terms were separated by 24 years, and the presidencies of fifth cousins Theodore Roosevelt and Franklin Roosevelt, whose collective 20 years as President were separated by a quarter-century. Assuming Senator Hillary Clinton were to be elected in the coming elections and manage to get herself re-elected for a second term, the Americans could just be facing 28 years in a row with the same two families governing the United States. If we were to add the former President George Bush Senior's terms as vice president, that would mean a 36 years straight with either a Bush or Clinton in the White House.
Hence for 116 million Americans, there has never been a time when there wasn't a Bush or Clinton in the White House, either as president or vice president. But then, does a nation of 303 million people really have only two families qualified to run the White House? To be their President? But well, there does seem to be concerns about the possibility of giving "the two dynasties" another four or eight years. Is this what democracy is? Surely i dont think this is what democracy means. Wouldnt it be fundamentally healthier if we broadened the zone of candidates who could make it to the top? But this seems to be impossible, since the Clintons and Bushes have built up strong "brand" recognition for their names. Just as the Kennedys did in an age of promise cut short by assassination, making it harder for newcomer wannabes to compete for the poilitical presidential race.
How long could this dynastic dynamic play itself out? If this is bound to continue, i think its best that the Americans and the world keeps an eye on both the Bush-Clinton childrens. For now, there's always presidential brother Jeb Bush, the former governor of Florida. His oldest son, George P. Bush, is considered likely to carry the family's political tradition into the next generation.
What say you for if there's a possibilty of a Bush-Bush ticket for 2012? Ouch...
Dian_Farzanna loves Hubby Haz.. Muacks! =)
The influence and dominance of the two families in the US Presidential races is unprecedented. (The closest comparisons are the father-son presidencies of John Adams and John Quincy Adams, whose single terms were separated by 24 years, and the presidencies of fifth cousins Theodore Roosevelt and Franklin Roosevelt, whose collective 20 years as President were separated by a quarter-century. Assuming Senator Hillary Clinton were to be elected in the coming elections and manage to get herself re-elected for a second term, the Americans could just be facing 28 years in a row with the same two families governing the United States. If we were to add the former President George Bush Senior's terms as vice president, that would mean a 36 years straight with either a Bush or Clinton in the White House.
Hence for 116 million Americans, there has never been a time when there wasn't a Bush or Clinton in the White House, either as president or vice president. But then, does a nation of 303 million people really have only two families qualified to run the White House? To be their President? But well, there does seem to be concerns about the possibility of giving "the two dynasties" another four or eight years. Is this what democracy is? Surely i dont think this is what democracy means. Wouldnt it be fundamentally healthier if we broadened the zone of candidates who could make it to the top? But this seems to be impossible, since the Clintons and Bushes have built up strong "brand" recognition for their names. Just as the Kennedys did in an age of promise cut short by assassination, making it harder for newcomer wannabes to compete for the poilitical presidential race.
How long could this dynastic dynamic play itself out? If this is bound to continue, i think its best that the Americans and the world keeps an eye on both the Bush-Clinton childrens. For now, there's always presidential brother Jeb Bush, the former governor of Florida. His oldest son, George P. Bush, is considered likely to carry the family's political tradition into the next generation.
What say you for if there's a possibilty of a Bush-Bush ticket for 2012? Ouch...
Dian_Farzanna loves Hubby Haz.. Muacks! =)
A Relationship Guide - By Md Hazlami
I begin with the words, "In the name of God, the Most gracious, Most merciful."
Relationships can be very tough. Socio-habits of the human has always proved to have certain natural characteristics, which means to say the phrase ,"Go with the flow" is inevitably true. Humans were born to socialise, expanding its social circle to full potential. With reasons like political prowess, economical benefits, personal gain n etc, humans are bound to face such sooner or later in life. No matter how they try to run away from the inevitable, it is by nature that we would someday have this thought of settling down and start a family.
Being independant or the excuse to remain a single status is a mere concept of running away from commitments, phobias, stories of the past and etc. But even so, though they might feel independance is equal to liberation- the freedom to many close-knitted commitments and sorts- the fact still remain. How long do you want to wait?
In my life, I have seen many relationships crumble, and even experience it for myself. The excruciating pain, cuppled by the sudden lost of a special friend, with many reasons that'll just hurt you more, the anxiety that can bring you to the verge of self-destruction or even death. However, by studying the past, we learn. Humans and the past bear constant co-relationship that enables man to understand. Man cannot learn without making mistakes. The use of two atomic bombs proved man then that the use of such weapons of mass destruction is so violent and the need for diplomatic resolution is immediate. That war is costly. Such demonstrates the ability of man to grasp the hidden knowledge of God. Thou I must admit while some men are learnt, few fail to see the concept or patterns that intertwines the very balance of nature itself.
I see life as a balance. A universal pattern. A constructive idealistic form, yet subtle, viscous. And in order to understand life, these patterns need to be known. And learning the past helps in making such anomilies.
A relationship is a like a house with many pillars. Pillars represent foundations, and each foundation stands on roots of factors. Love is the key to opening the house. Home deco is the interesting things that spices it up- beautifies the love that we share.
Love is simple. Yet sophisticated. How is it so?
Love is a word. Love for God, family, religion, special ones, friends, nature, humans. Love therefore isnt a subset- its a full circle, and inside it are the balances of life we must appreciate. Each love is important. We cannot give full love to a person, for it would unbalance the balance. Loving yourself is the key to loving God, thus from there lies the pattern. Henceforth, loving thyself is the ultimate love that everyone must achieve.
Loving thyself is not being selfish, more rather understanding how important are you to the balance of life, to the family that bore you, to the friends that accompanied you. With understanding comes the natural love that acts as a light in us, an Eldar star that shines in times of darkness and crisis. With such comes acceptance, or the muslim term we use, redha,
things that comes into our way- obstacles or thorns in the journey towards loving the One God- won't affect us thoroughly. Instead, we accept, or if not, we learn to. Learning is the first step, its like a baby trying to walk on its two feet. Balancing is hard, but with lots of perseverance, determination, and luck, the baby finally walks.
Loving thyself, hence, is a major constructive idea to the path of acceptance, in which hence the root of all love. Learning yourself, respecting your body, mind and soul, is relevant in our journey to understand the fulfillments of Love.
PS: I love you dian. :)
Relationships can be very tough. Socio-habits of the human has always proved to have certain natural characteristics, which means to say the phrase ,"Go with the flow" is inevitably true. Humans were born to socialise, expanding its social circle to full potential. With reasons like political prowess, economical benefits, personal gain n etc, humans are bound to face such sooner or later in life. No matter how they try to run away from the inevitable, it is by nature that we would someday have this thought of settling down and start a family.
Being independant or the excuse to remain a single status is a mere concept of running away from commitments, phobias, stories of the past and etc. But even so, though they might feel independance is equal to liberation- the freedom to many close-knitted commitments and sorts- the fact still remain. How long do you want to wait?
In my life, I have seen many relationships crumble, and even experience it for myself. The excruciating pain, cuppled by the sudden lost of a special friend, with many reasons that'll just hurt you more, the anxiety that can bring you to the verge of self-destruction or even death. However, by studying the past, we learn. Humans and the past bear constant co-relationship that enables man to understand. Man cannot learn without making mistakes. The use of two atomic bombs proved man then that the use of such weapons of mass destruction is so violent and the need for diplomatic resolution is immediate. That war is costly. Such demonstrates the ability of man to grasp the hidden knowledge of God. Thou I must admit while some men are learnt, few fail to see the concept or patterns that intertwines the very balance of nature itself.
I see life as a balance. A universal pattern. A constructive idealistic form, yet subtle, viscous. And in order to understand life, these patterns need to be known. And learning the past helps in making such anomilies.
A relationship is a like a house with many pillars. Pillars represent foundations, and each foundation stands on roots of factors. Love is the key to opening the house. Home deco is the interesting things that spices it up- beautifies the love that we share.
Love is simple. Yet sophisticated. How is it so?
Love is a word. Love for God, family, religion, special ones, friends, nature, humans. Love therefore isnt a subset- its a full circle, and inside it are the balances of life we must appreciate. Each love is important. We cannot give full love to a person, for it would unbalance the balance. Loving yourself is the key to loving God, thus from there lies the pattern. Henceforth, loving thyself is the ultimate love that everyone must achieve.
Loving thyself is not being selfish, more rather understanding how important are you to the balance of life, to the family that bore you, to the friends that accompanied you. With understanding comes the natural love that acts as a light in us, an Eldar star that shines in times of darkness and crisis. With such comes acceptance, or the muslim term we use, redha,
things that comes into our way- obstacles or thorns in the journey towards loving the One God- won't affect us thoroughly. Instead, we accept, or if not, we learn to. Learning is the first step, its like a baby trying to walk on its two feet. Balancing is hard, but with lots of perseverance, determination, and luck, the baby finally walks.
Loving thyself, hence, is a major constructive idea to the path of acceptance, in which hence the root of all love. Learning yourself, respecting your body, mind and soul, is relevant in our journey to understand the fulfillments of Love.
PS: I love you dian. :)
Saturday, September 29, 2007
Some issues for you to think off.. =)
The blood of Buddhist monks beaten by soldiers loyal to Yangon ran red yesterday at the Ngwe Kyar Yan monastery. Protestors assembled there were mowed down by troops in the city, killing several on the spot.
Yet amid the chaos and the carnage, an old man dared to face down the army, shouting: "You eat food given to you by the people. Yet you kill people and you kill the monks." He spoke for a nation of 50 million who are feeling desperately poor. People feel that they have enough and they have little left to lose, after an era of military rule that dates back to 1962. Isnt this time for civilian to hold the reins of government afer nearly 40 years of military government?
General Than Shwe's incompetent junta triggered the saffron revolution led by monks that the army is now trying to crush. The junta has raised prices last month on items of basic necessities such as fuel, gas, chicken, eggs and cooking oil. This makes people who earn less than US$1 a day driven to desperation in a country blessed with oil, gas, minerals and timber. Where then has the national revenue gone too? The pockets of the ruling military generals of course!According to some Myanmar's officials, during the wedding of General Than Shwe's daughter recently. it was a lavishly affair possibly costing US$ 50 million.
Myanmar's revered Buddhist monks are aminously aware of the citizens suffering. Saffron and red robed monks have been leading crowds of up to 100,000 people in the largest protests since 1988.
What do people want? Freedom for Myanmar's democratic icon Novel Peace Laurette Aung San Suu Kyi, who won a 1990 election only to be declared invalid by the ruling junta. She was then cast aside and was practically held under house arrest.
The people of Myanmar wanted democracy. However Myanmar's democrats can expect little support locally since the ruling junta continues to hold a tight rein around the country. Internationally, little was done except economic sanctions and ocassional public dressdown. The United Nations Security Council has urged "restraint." The United States has imposed and stiffened economic sanctions. Canada, which shuns the junta, has denounced the army's brutal violence. But countries with real sway over Myanmar's junta which is China, India and Russia are doing business as usual.
China is believed to have a great influence over Myanmar, a fact that was denied by China. Undeniably, both countries have been cosy in bilateral, trade and military relations since they both shared communist ideologies. India is Myanmar's western neighbour and both countries have excellent ties. Myanmar has cooperated and acceded to India's request to help them solve their insurgent problems who seeks refuge in Myanmar's jungle, a favour that was much appreciated by India. Another heavyweight is Russia, who has given much support to the military regime.
China and Russia who are permanent members of the United Nations Security Council has effectively blocked US and European efforts to have the Security Council condemn and sanction the junta. China and Russia instead urged restraint on all sides. India prefers national reconciliation, a hope that is very obscure unless the junta is willing to give up its hold on power .
Ultimately, the Myanmar people, armed only with begging bowls for alms and sheer relentless courage, will prevail over this darkness that plagues the clouds of Yangon. This defiance of the junta shames the 3 quartets who have been supporting Myanmar namely, India who claims to be the world's largest democracy. Russia who continues to cast a blind eye on the violence and injustice. And it no doubt gives Myanmar's unelected master's aka China nightmares.
Dian_Farzanna loves Hubby Haz..
Yet amid the chaos and the carnage, an old man dared to face down the army, shouting: "You eat food given to you by the people. Yet you kill people and you kill the monks." He spoke for a nation of 50 million who are feeling desperately poor. People feel that they have enough and they have little left to lose, after an era of military rule that dates back to 1962. Isnt this time for civilian to hold the reins of government afer nearly 40 years of military government?
General Than Shwe's incompetent junta triggered the saffron revolution led by monks that the army is now trying to crush. The junta has raised prices last month on items of basic necessities such as fuel, gas, chicken, eggs and cooking oil. This makes people who earn less than US$1 a day driven to desperation in a country blessed with oil, gas, minerals and timber. Where then has the national revenue gone too? The pockets of the ruling military generals of course!According to some Myanmar's officials, during the wedding of General Than Shwe's daughter recently. it was a lavishly affair possibly costing US$ 50 million.
Myanmar's revered Buddhist monks are aminously aware of the citizens suffering. Saffron and red robed monks have been leading crowds of up to 100,000 people in the largest protests since 1988.
What do people want? Freedom for Myanmar's democratic icon Novel Peace Laurette Aung San Suu Kyi, who won a 1990 election only to be declared invalid by the ruling junta. She was then cast aside and was practically held under house arrest.
The people of Myanmar wanted democracy. However Myanmar's democrats can expect little support locally since the ruling junta continues to hold a tight rein around the country. Internationally, little was done except economic sanctions and ocassional public dressdown. The United Nations Security Council has urged "restraint." The United States has imposed and stiffened economic sanctions. Canada, which shuns the junta, has denounced the army's brutal violence. But countries with real sway over Myanmar's junta which is China, India and Russia are doing business as usual.
China is believed to have a great influence over Myanmar, a fact that was denied by China. Undeniably, both countries have been cosy in bilateral, trade and military relations since they both shared communist ideologies. India is Myanmar's western neighbour and both countries have excellent ties. Myanmar has cooperated and acceded to India's request to help them solve their insurgent problems who seeks refuge in Myanmar's jungle, a favour that was much appreciated by India. Another heavyweight is Russia, who has given much support to the military regime.
China and Russia who are permanent members of the United Nations Security Council has effectively blocked US and European efforts to have the Security Council condemn and sanction the junta. China and Russia instead urged restraint on all sides. India prefers national reconciliation, a hope that is very obscure unless the junta is willing to give up its hold on power .
Ultimately, the Myanmar people, armed only with begging bowls for alms and sheer relentless courage, will prevail over this darkness that plagues the clouds of Yangon. This defiance of the junta shames the 3 quartets who have been supporting Myanmar namely, India who claims to be the world's largest democracy. Russia who continues to cast a blind eye on the violence and injustice. And it no doubt gives Myanmar's unelected master's aka China nightmares.
Dian_Farzanna loves Hubby Haz..
Friday, September 28, 2007
Haiz.. Wad a long day for me, went for my hospital medical review wif my dad.. Then visited my mum in her ward.. Met my new baby sis.. She looks adorable.. Dad say she has my eyes and she resembles me when i was a baby.. Dad gave me the honour of naming her.. Wow! Somethin i neva do before sia.. So u prepared for it? Okae, i named my new baby sis Sheila Adella.. Nice isnt it? =) Welcome to the family dear..
Well, after dat long day i was very tired and shagged to the max.. Kinda depressed too, dunno why.. Missed my hubby lots too but there's nothing much i can do except to wait for everythin to be over.. But i can look forward to spendin time with him since he's gettin 3 more weeks of medical or hospitilisation leave..
While he was breakin his fast, i was out at the balcony.. Kinda haf my own personal time, reviewin on wads been happenin to me, some sort of lookin back on my life all this while.. Lotsa stuffs runnin thru my mind.. There's lotsa wad ifs n wad nots... I hope everythin goes well for me.. Insyallah..
Well, i tried to keep myself busy n distract myself from thinkin too much.. Did a bit of readin on wads happenin in the news.. N god, there's lotsa stuffs happenin in e world.. Allow me to indulge more on my readings if u dun mind..
One news dat caught my attention is the current situation whereby the monks are staging n organising demostrations and protests.. Firstly, before we jump to conclusions, lets disect and study the histroy of Myanmar..
Myanmar which is also known as Burma and is officially known as the Union of Myanmar.. By its geographical area itself, Myanmar is one of the largest country in SouthEastAsia.. Myanmar has an extensive porous border shared by China on the north, Laos on the east, Thailand on the southeast, Bangladesh on the west, and India on the northwest, with the Andaman Sea to the south, and the Bay of Bengal to the southwest..
Myanmar was colonised as a colony of United Kingdom during the British colonial era.. It got its independence from the United Kingdom on 4 January 1948 as the “Union of Burma”.. On 18 June 1989, the military-led "State Law and Order Restoration Council' adopted the name “Union of Myanmar”. Which was recognised by the United Nations but ironically not recognised by the United States and the United Kingdom..
Sao Shwe Thaik was its first President and U Nu its first Prime Minister.. Like the United Kingdom, although albeit distinct a bicameral parliament was formed, consisting of a Chamber of Deputies and a Chamber of Nationalities.. In 1962, General Ne Win led a coup that toppled the civilian government of U Nu.. He roughly ruled for 26 years and pursued socialist policies under of the "Burmese Way to Socialism".. Over the years of military rule, there was a mass exodus of citizen unrest over the dwindling economy and brutal political oppression by the military government.. This led to massive pro-democracy protests and demonstrations better known as the 8888 Uprising, famously organised by students.. In this event, hundreds of such demonstrators were massacred by the security forces..
Till now, Myanmar remains under the military control of the "State Peace and Development Council.". Currently Myanmar is headed by Senior General Than Shwe.. There were sporadic calls for the return of civilian rule and democracy to Myanmar.. As of 22 September 2007, the Buddhist monks in Myanmar have withdrawn spiritual services from all military personnel in a symbolic move that is seen as very powerful in such a deeply religious country as Myanmar. The military rulers seem at a loss as to how to deal with the demonstrations by the monks as using violence against monks would incense and enrage the people of Myanmar even further, almost certainly prompting massive civil unrest and perhaps violence. However, the longer the Junta allows the protests to continue, the weaker the regime looks. The danger is that eventually the military government will be forced to act rashly and doing so will provoke the citizenry even more. Some international news agencies are referring to the uprising as a Saffron Revolution.. Let the revolution begins...
Dian Farzanna loves Hubby Haz...
Well, after dat long day i was very tired and shagged to the max.. Kinda depressed too, dunno why.. Missed my hubby lots too but there's nothing much i can do except to wait for everythin to be over.. But i can look forward to spendin time with him since he's gettin 3 more weeks of medical or hospitilisation leave..
While he was breakin his fast, i was out at the balcony.. Kinda haf my own personal time, reviewin on wads been happenin to me, some sort of lookin back on my life all this while.. Lotsa stuffs runnin thru my mind.. There's lotsa wad ifs n wad nots... I hope everythin goes well for me.. Insyallah..
Well, i tried to keep myself busy n distract myself from thinkin too much.. Did a bit of readin on wads happenin in the news.. N god, there's lotsa stuffs happenin in e world.. Allow me to indulge more on my readings if u dun mind..
One news dat caught my attention is the current situation whereby the monks are staging n organising demostrations and protests.. Firstly, before we jump to conclusions, lets disect and study the histroy of Myanmar..
Myanmar which is also known as Burma and is officially known as the Union of Myanmar.. By its geographical area itself, Myanmar is one of the largest country in SouthEastAsia.. Myanmar has an extensive porous border shared by China on the north, Laos on the east, Thailand on the southeast, Bangladesh on the west, and India on the northwest, with the Andaman Sea to the south, and the Bay of Bengal to the southwest..
Myanmar was colonised as a colony of United Kingdom during the British colonial era.. It got its independence from the United Kingdom on 4 January 1948 as the “Union of Burma”.. On 18 June 1989, the military-led "State Law and Order Restoration Council' adopted the name “Union of Myanmar”. Which was recognised by the United Nations but ironically not recognised by the United States and the United Kingdom..
Sao Shwe Thaik was its first President and U Nu its first Prime Minister.. Like the United Kingdom, although albeit distinct a bicameral parliament was formed, consisting of a Chamber of Deputies and a Chamber of Nationalities.. In 1962, General Ne Win led a coup that toppled the civilian government of U Nu.. He roughly ruled for 26 years and pursued socialist policies under of the "Burmese Way to Socialism".. Over the years of military rule, there was a mass exodus of citizen unrest over the dwindling economy and brutal political oppression by the military government.. This led to massive pro-democracy protests and demonstrations better known as the 8888 Uprising, famously organised by students.. In this event, hundreds of such demonstrators were massacred by the security forces..
Till now, Myanmar remains under the military control of the "State Peace and Development Council.". Currently Myanmar is headed by Senior General Than Shwe.. There were sporadic calls for the return of civilian rule and democracy to Myanmar.. As of 22 September 2007, the Buddhist monks in Myanmar have withdrawn spiritual services from all military personnel in a symbolic move that is seen as very powerful in such a deeply religious country as Myanmar. The military rulers seem at a loss as to how to deal with the demonstrations by the monks as using violence against monks would incense and enrage the people of Myanmar even further, almost certainly prompting massive civil unrest and perhaps violence. However, the longer the Junta allows the protests to continue, the weaker the regime looks. The danger is that eventually the military government will be forced to act rashly and doing so will provoke the citizenry even more. Some international news agencies are referring to the uprising as a Saffron Revolution.. Let the revolution begins...
Dian Farzanna loves Hubby Haz...
Wednesday, September 26, 2007
Musim Salju
Dedaun masa berputar sayapnya
Halus bertaburan bagai permata salji
Ku sapu titisan embun dari daun itu
Sayu
melihat wajahmu gemersik purnama rindu
Ku anyam sebaris kalimah
Lalu ku hembus ia irama memori cinta
Dari hati ke sebutir benih
Dari benih itu berputik kasih
Dengan megah pepohan berdiri indah
Namun tiada sundus seperti dahulu
Setiap kali ku lihat dedaun bertaburan ke bumi
Setiap kali ku kutip dedaun mati tak berlagu
Air mata mengalir tak reti henti
Bakawali yg jauh dari sisi
Namun kesejukan musim membeku segala
Ku menanti akan senyuman suriamu kejora abadi...
walaupun ia sejuta tahun lamanya..
-haz
Halus bertaburan bagai permata salji
Ku sapu titisan embun dari daun itu
Sayu
melihat wajahmu gemersik purnama rindu
Ku anyam sebaris kalimah
Lalu ku hembus ia irama memori cinta
Dari hati ke sebutir benih
Dari benih itu berputik kasih
Dengan megah pepohan berdiri indah
Namun tiada sundus seperti dahulu
Setiap kali ku lihat dedaun bertaburan ke bumi
Setiap kali ku kutip dedaun mati tak berlagu
Air mata mengalir tak reti henti
Bakawali yg jauh dari sisi
Namun kesejukan musim membeku segala
Ku menanti akan senyuman suriamu kejora abadi...
walaupun ia sejuta tahun lamanya..
-haz
Well, yesterday was quite a day.. Managed to gave two wonderful surprises to hubby haz.. It was his 20th bdae.. Sweet bdae =).. Firstly, i ordered him a cake of course.. A nice huge pure chocolatey cake that i'll knoe he will love.. Other than that, i wanna give him another pleasant surprise!! Was thinkin hard wad is it.. Cologne? Hmm.. I wan him to use it onlie wif me.. Hurhur! Bouquet of flowers? Hmm.. God, dat will be somethin totally new for him! Personalised bdae cards? Hmm.. Quite a good option.. But i wan sumthin different.. Realie different.. Was practically ransackin my brains.. Seiving thru my history column to see wad did he say he liked or would wanna have.. Aha! Eureka! He eva mentioned dat he would love to eat a apple struddle! Yea! So i was on the net, n did an online order for a nice warm apple struddle from Renaldo's.. =) Hubby was pleasantly surprised n im so glad i make him so happy n upbeat on his bdae.. He told me it was his best bdae ever.. More to come baby.. More to come.. Hurhur! =)
Up next, oh yea! I had my first phone conversation wif his mum! So nervous! Hurhur! I was feelin hot n blushin lar.. Haz msned me sayin "the daughter in law is talkin to mum.." Hurhur! It was a nice one.. She gave some words of comfort n advice.. But overall, i think she likes me! Hurhur.. Nice.. His dad seems to be approvin me being known in e family.. He likes my surprises, my cakes n my struddles.. Goodie! My scorecard so far? "A-" grade.. Hurhur!
I love you dear.. So much.. =)
Why is there more new lovers now..
Savour the night and indulge yourselves..
Up next, oh yea! I had my first phone conversation wif his mum! So nervous! Hurhur! I was feelin hot n blushin lar.. Haz msned me sayin "the daughter in law is talkin to mum.." Hurhur! It was a nice one.. She gave some words of comfort n advice.. But overall, i think she likes me! Hurhur.. Nice.. His dad seems to be approvin me being known in e family.. He likes my surprises, my cakes n my struddles.. Goodie! My scorecard so far? "A-" grade.. Hurhur!
I love you dear.. So much.. =)
When I think of youI think bout our love..
When the earth bloomed with spring..
Where the sky seemed so white..
And the misty dew of the morning lay still..
Oh, and i'll remember this..
And I always will..
Why is there more new lovers now..
Feelin funkin high..
Doing what we would have done..
For i know that i love you..
And it's a part of me and you..
Lo' you lovers, wherever you're..
Lo' you lovers, wherever you're..
I pray that you'll stay true..
For i've been thru' what you're goin thru'..
I've been in love like you..
Dont fake, be who you're and follow your star..
Dont fake, be who you're and follow your star..
Be brave, faithful and true..
Love one another, like you've never love before..
I've been in love like you..
Savour the night and indulge yourselves..
Go into a romantic trance..
Why is love so beautiful and true?
For it's one of God's handiwork..
Oh don't cry you lovers, just dont be..
Don't cry because because i'm alone..
Well cant you see that im happy tonite..
I've had my share of love..
I've had a love of my own..
And i will love him so...
Dian_Farzanna loves Hubby Haz.. =)
Ystd was my bdae!
25th September 2007 marks the end of my TEEN-anger era and blossom the new adulthood twen-TY life..
Still one more step to total complete 21 years of age, when a man cums on full fledge dogfighting species!
Tk caya plak aku dah masok 20, tua nye aku haha..
Tapi muka tetap maintain muda, yelar, pakai awet muda pe hahaha! *slaps forehead*
Aku nye janji sempena hari bahgia ini ialah:
1) More wiser
2) Perangai tk mcm budak2
3) Dengar kata ibu bapa
4) Kuat ibadah kpd Allah
5) Kuat semangat pabila ujian melanda
6) Jadi manusia yg dicontohi masyarakat
7) Jadi hubby yg bertanggungjawab atas honey nya hehe!
8) Kemas bilik aku dgn lebih rapi lagi
9) Kumpul duit untuk masa hadapan
10) Beli gue nyer ELECTRIC GUITAR masa musim Krismas complete dengan amplifier power
11) Beli perabot2 yg sepatotnya untuk me-revamp bilik aku yg tonggang tebalik
12) Tidak memboros
13) Teruskan tabiat gaya hidup sihat
14) Berbakti kpd keluarga
15) Tau selok-belok perjalanan di Orchard
16) Atur hidop aku agar masa depan aku taklar tersasar dari matlamat 2011 aku
17) Bersabar lebih banyak
18) Berkhidmat pada negara (ni susah sedikit, aku pasti tk lama lagi aku khianat ni janji muahaha)
19) Menjinakkan diri dengan hobi membaca buku (aku ni memang pemalas orgnyer!)
20) Meninjau hidup aku luar dari mainstream hidup org singapura (untuk masa depan aku)
Haha, itulah dia, DUA PULUH janji sempena hari lahirku yg ke DUA PULUH! SYABAS!
Back to ystd.
Ystd honey had arranged for me the bestest bdae i EVER had in my whole life. Sumpah, aku tk penah menyambut hari lahir aku dgn hadiah, haha, sedih kan?
I was so shocked i became like numb for a while, den the smile came in late with a bit of tears here n there *awwwww*.
Pd tepat pukul 1215hrs, I receive a bdae cake with her pic on it from dis apek hahaha!
Nice right? Told ya..
And it taste so nice my family had second helping!!
(oh, and i had my third filling at midnight hehe, shhh!)
The cake is complete with loads of nice finger licking mouth watering chocolate, thou there is no wafers like the first, but its still unique as the layers are all packed with nice yummy chocolate!
Then the nxt suprise came ard 1530hrs.
I was looking at this long box of dunno wad things as i signed the papers.
Wondering wads inside *thinking naughtily hehe* I braved myself for another deep into the pool of excitement!
Jeng jeng jeng!!
APPLE STRUDDLES!!!!!
Its sSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSOOOOO yummy!
The sugar frost are so nice! :))
Its from this shop I've never been at Renaldo's!
25th September 2007 marks the end of my TEEN-anger era and blossom the new adulthood twen-TY life..
Still one more step to total complete 21 years of age, when a man cums on full fledge dogfighting species!
Tk caya plak aku dah masok 20, tua nye aku haha..
Tapi muka tetap maintain muda, yelar, pakai awet muda pe hahaha! *slaps forehead*
Aku nye janji sempena hari bahgia ini ialah:
1) More wiser
2) Perangai tk mcm budak2
3) Dengar kata ibu bapa
4) Kuat ibadah kpd Allah
5) Kuat semangat pabila ujian melanda
6) Jadi manusia yg dicontohi masyarakat
7) Jadi hubby yg bertanggungjawab atas honey nya hehe!
8) Kemas bilik aku dgn lebih rapi lagi
9) Kumpul duit untuk masa hadapan
10) Beli gue nyer ELECTRIC GUITAR masa musim Krismas complete dengan amplifier power
11) Beli perabot2 yg sepatotnya untuk me-revamp bilik aku yg tonggang tebalik
12) Tidak memboros
13) Teruskan tabiat gaya hidup sihat
14) Berbakti kpd keluarga
15) Tau selok-belok perjalanan di Orchard
16) Atur hidop aku agar masa depan aku taklar tersasar dari matlamat 2011 aku
17) Bersabar lebih banyak
18) Berkhidmat pada negara (ni susah sedikit, aku pasti tk lama lagi aku khianat ni janji muahaha)
19) Menjinakkan diri dengan hobi membaca buku (aku ni memang pemalas orgnyer!)
20) Meninjau hidup aku luar dari mainstream hidup org singapura (untuk masa depan aku)
Haha, itulah dia, DUA PULUH janji sempena hari lahirku yg ke DUA PULUH! SYABAS!
Back to ystd.
Ystd honey had arranged for me the bestest bdae i EVER had in my whole life. Sumpah, aku tk penah menyambut hari lahir aku dgn hadiah, haha, sedih kan?
I was so shocked i became like numb for a while, den the smile came in late with a bit of tears here n there *awwwww*.
Pd tepat pukul 1215hrs, I receive a bdae cake with her pic on it from dis apek hahaha!
Nice right? Told ya..And it taste so nice my family had second helping!!
(oh, and i had my third filling at midnight hehe, shhh!)
The cake is complete with loads of nice finger licking mouth watering chocolate, thou there is no wafers like the first, but its still unique as the layers are all packed with nice yummy chocolate!
Then the nxt suprise came ard 1530hrs.
I was looking at this long box of dunno wad things as i signed the papers.
Wondering wads inside *thinking naughtily hehe* I braved myself for another deep into the pool of excitement!
Jeng jeng jeng!!
APPLE STRUDDLES!!!!!
Its sSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSOOOOO yummy!
The sugar frost are so nice! :))
Its from this shop I've never been at Renaldo's!
Its so nice..
Then buka posa I adalah busy org tu asek msg I "cepat! =p", haish, org aderlah sebok dgn memasak NASI AYAM (aku tau masak ler!) org tu asek ckp je, hahaha, jgn marah har..
All finish, I n sum help from the lazy ones laid the table, just in time for the maghrib azan.
Only got a small space for the struddle, tu pon I cut it into half, then I microwave it haha.
That's a bad move i must say, for the apple sauce inside melted hahaha!
My dad ate it like makan nasi hahaha! But the comments are all the same - absolutely super!
After terawih, I cut the cake and served them, my dad ate them without any comment AT FIRST cuz he was busily watching tv (guys duh *slaps forehead*). After the tv show, he secretly went in for second helping hahaha!
Nice...
Then we talked on the phone, u n I, it was very nice ayg, so touching..
:) I OWE YOU BIG TIME GURL!!
PS: I love you more than ever!
Then buka posa I adalah busy org tu asek msg I "cepat! =p", haish, org aderlah sebok dgn memasak NASI AYAM (aku tau masak ler!) org tu asek ckp je, hahaha, jgn marah har..
All finish, I n sum help from the lazy ones laid the table, just in time for the maghrib azan.
Only got a small space for the struddle, tu pon I cut it into half, then I microwave it haha.
That's a bad move i must say, for the apple sauce inside melted hahaha!
My dad ate it like makan nasi hahaha! But the comments are all the same - absolutely super!
After terawih, I cut the cake and served them, my dad ate them without any comment AT FIRST cuz he was busily watching tv (guys duh *slaps forehead*). After the tv show, he secretly went in for second helping hahaha!
Nice...
Then we talked on the phone, u n I, it was very nice ayg, so touching..
:) I OWE YOU BIG TIME GURL!!
PS: I love you more than ever!
Thursday, September 20, 2007
For You
- I adore you.
- I am infatuated with you.
- I appreciate you.
- I can't live without you.
- I can't stop thinking about you when we're apart.
- I cherish you.
- I dream of you.
- I live for our love.
- I love being around you.
- I need you by my side.
- I need you.
- I respect you.
- I value you.
- I want a lifetime with you.
- I want you.
- I worship you.
- I yearn for you.
- I'm a better person because of you.
- I'm blessed to have you in my life.
- I'm devoted to you.
- I'm fond of you.
- I'm lost without you.
- I'm nothing without you.
- I'm passionate about you.
- I'm thankful for you.
- I'm yours.
- Me and you. Always.
- My love is unconditional.
- Our love is invaluable.
- Take me, I'm yours.
- The thought of you brings a smile to my face.
- Ti tengu cara (to female) or Ti tengu caru (to male).
- Together, forever.
- We were meant to be together.
- You are a blessing in disguise.
- You are an angel from God.
- You are like a candle burning bright.
- You are my crush.
- You are my dear.
- You are my everything.
- You are my one and only.
- You are my reason for living.
- You are my strength.
- You are my sunshine.
- You are my treasure.
- You are my world.
- You are precious.
- You are the light of my life.
- You are the reason I'm alive.
- You bring happiness to rainy days.
- You bring joy to my life.
- You cast a spell on me that can't be broken.
- You complete me.
- You drive me wild.
- You fill me with desire.
- You fill my heart.
- You give me wings to fly.
- You had me from hello.
- You hold the key to my heart.
- You inspire me.
- You intoxicate me.
- You lift me up to touch the sky.
- You light my flame.
- You light up my life.
- You make me hot.
- You make my heart skip a beat.
- You make my world a better place.
- You mean the world to me.
- You motivate me.
- You rock my world.
- You seduce me.
- You set my heart on fire.
- You simply amaze me.
- You stole my heart.
- You sweeten my sour days.
- You turn my world upside down.
- You're a dream come true.
- You're a gem.
- You're a twinkle in my eye.
- You're absolutely wonderful.
- You're all I want.
- You're as beautiful as a sunset.
- You're beautiful.
- You're charming.
- You're enchanting.
- You're heavenly.
- You're my angel
- You're one in a million.
- You're priceless.
- You're sexy.
- You're the apple of my eye.
- You're the best thing that ever happened to me.
- You're the best.
- You're the diamond in the rough.
- You're the one for me.
- You're the one I've always wished for
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
I hope she comes back soon..
N in healthy condition..
Cuz im just going from sad to depression lately, but alhamdulilah, its good to be a muslim having God by ur side to calm things down..
Its like a total blow for the both of us, she having to suffer, me having to wait in agony, its like a shithole n we're dropping in a bowl of shithole.
Im a type of guy that sets goals in life. One of them was that she wud be back here to see me in Sept.
N its not just the disappointment that kills, its the way we went thru it together..
Ayg u can never compare what ruz n mizan is sharing..
He do not need to wait that long to hear ruz voice.
I waited for 3mths.. But i still waited..
The sacrifices both of us put across the table was an amazing feat.
I know i have to be strong, last night i put down my guard, n see ayg, see.. I cannot be weak.. I can never be..
You have me to share your sadness with, but me? I cannot affort to do so, cz u need me more, n for that i shall sacrifice my own feelings for you..
I wanna put aside everything of me n just focus on u, to make u feel happy, to be there for you wen u need me n all..
As for me, well, i have God ayg.. I have myself n God, n i think its enuf dat way.. Until there comes a time when you're strong enuf den I'll be able to share what i really feel, deep down there in the deepest parts of my emotions..
You're the best ayg, you gave me hope, the ability to believe in loving a person once again, you put a smile on my face everytime we talk over the phone, sharing words of comfort..
You're the source of my inspiration, I never felt so happy before..
You're the one ayg, I will never give up on you, never..
We share so much, so much joy n pain, I must admit that it is tough, but i love you, and i really really do, deep down there, i just do..
We have to be patient, we have to, for God, our family, us..
Im always here to love you, n listen to you, share with you what you feel..
You've been the bestest friend, gf, wife ever, ayg, EVER..
I shall hold my promises by my stride..
Do recover kae.. Pray alot, eat healthy, do what i told you, insya'allah you'll be back home wimme..
So that you can bake cookies for hari raya at my house with mum..
Mum wanna see you.. She kirim doa dan sayang..
Loads of hugs n kisses..
-bie
PS: I love you
N in healthy condition..
Cuz im just going from sad to depression lately, but alhamdulilah, its good to be a muslim having God by ur side to calm things down..
Its like a total blow for the both of us, she having to suffer, me having to wait in agony, its like a shithole n we're dropping in a bowl of shithole.
Im a type of guy that sets goals in life. One of them was that she wud be back here to see me in Sept.
N its not just the disappointment that kills, its the way we went thru it together..
Ayg u can never compare what ruz n mizan is sharing..
He do not need to wait that long to hear ruz voice.
I waited for 3mths.. But i still waited..
The sacrifices both of us put across the table was an amazing feat.
I know i have to be strong, last night i put down my guard, n see ayg, see.. I cannot be weak.. I can never be..
You have me to share your sadness with, but me? I cannot affort to do so, cz u need me more, n for that i shall sacrifice my own feelings for you..
I wanna put aside everything of me n just focus on u, to make u feel happy, to be there for you wen u need me n all..
As for me, well, i have God ayg.. I have myself n God, n i think its enuf dat way.. Until there comes a time when you're strong enuf den I'll be able to share what i really feel, deep down there in the deepest parts of my emotions..
You're the best ayg, you gave me hope, the ability to believe in loving a person once again, you put a smile on my face everytime we talk over the phone, sharing words of comfort..
You're the source of my inspiration, I never felt so happy before..
You're the one ayg, I will never give up on you, never..
We share so much, so much joy n pain, I must admit that it is tough, but i love you, and i really really do, deep down there, i just do..
We have to be patient, we have to, for God, our family, us..
Im always here to love you, n listen to you, share with you what you feel..
You've been the bestest friend, gf, wife ever, ayg, EVER..
I shall hold my promises by my stride..
Do recover kae.. Pray alot, eat healthy, do what i told you, insya'allah you'll be back home wimme..
So that you can bake cookies for hari raya at my house with mum..
Mum wanna see you.. She kirim doa dan sayang..
Loads of hugs n kisses..
-bie
PS: I love you
Tuesday, September 18, 2007
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR SWEET DIAN!
Woa.. dah besar lar dia.. haha.. no more sweet seventeen, dah kira mature 18, dah tkbleh manja ngan dad lagi ler nmpknyer muahahaha!
tkpe, manja dgn abg ok haha!
May you grow wiser, stronger, more responsible, cheery, happy, more beautiful (she is alr beautiful, wad more i wan?! *slaps forehead*) and most important of all..
Achieve what ever you want in life.
My advise?
1) Stay optimistic syg
2) Smile more (but not at other guys)
3) Healthy Lifestyle
4) Tkmau merajok lagi, skrg dah jadi kakak tau hehe
5) Before you even do something, think of the consequences on you, me, your family, and friends
6) Selfless in many times, but few selfishness is a good thing too
7) Stay focus on every obstacle we face, and do NOT use emotions to tackle it; instead use logic and rational thinking
8) Before you blast at me (hehe, abg memang notti, mestilah asek kene marah) ingat Tuhan dulu kae, ingat Istighfar dahulu, dah calm down baru kiter talk
Last but not least, tkmau garang banyak sgt k, kekadang org asek kene marah je tk bagus bukan begitu? :D
I must admit, dis past few weeks was a turmoil for u n me. But we can do it, if we stick together as a team, and be patient in whatever we do.
1. BERDOA
2. BERIKHTIAR
3. BERTAWAKAL
4. BERSABAR
Follow dis 4 B's and Insya'allah, God will help us.
May God bless us with all the happy thing in this world.
On the serious note;
I know its hard for u, wanting to be ok n wanting to come back to see me n all. I know it breaks your heart that you cannot celebrate your birthday wimme. But hey, im not dat kind of a bdae person see. So we can always celebrate a belated one. We can celebrate together with my bdae or we can have a separate one! See? Its simple, just think optimistic, smile at it, pray hard, n have faith, that God is Almighty, and only He knows the true meaning behind all His Doings.
:D
Smile alot ayg! Happy Birthday!!
I love you! Many2 kisses!
On the lighter note;
160907- I run out of ideas, cuz i planned a romantic getaway proposal in front of *ahem, SECRET!!* , but the plan was ruin cuz she haven cum back yet. So I told ruz to do a project for me. Bought her a big box with scented pot pourri inside, a small teddy bear n a rose, with a note dat says the box isnt empty, but is filled with a lot of kisses n love! Haha! Original me..
Kinda think of it, i AM romantic waaaad... *winks* :)
PS: Cannot wait to fetch you from the airport!! YEAH!!!!!! *jumps in air*
Nana dah nak balik, nana dah nak balik, nana dah nak balik, nana dahnak balik...................
Woa.. dah besar lar dia.. haha.. no more sweet seventeen, dah kira mature 18, dah tkbleh manja ngan dad lagi ler nmpknyer muahahaha!
tkpe, manja dgn abg ok haha!
May you grow wiser, stronger, more responsible, cheery, happy, more beautiful (she is alr beautiful, wad more i wan?! *slaps forehead*) and most important of all..
Achieve what ever you want in life.
My advise?
1) Stay optimistic syg
2) Smile more (but not at other guys)
3) Healthy Lifestyle
4) Tkmau merajok lagi, skrg dah jadi kakak tau hehe
5) Before you even do something, think of the consequences on you, me, your family, and friends
6) Selfless in many times, but few selfishness is a good thing too
7) Stay focus on every obstacle we face, and do NOT use emotions to tackle it; instead use logic and rational thinking
8) Before you blast at me (hehe, abg memang notti, mestilah asek kene marah) ingat Tuhan dulu kae, ingat Istighfar dahulu, dah calm down baru kiter talk
Last but not least, tkmau garang banyak sgt k, kekadang org asek kene marah je tk bagus bukan begitu? :D
I must admit, dis past few weeks was a turmoil for u n me. But we can do it, if we stick together as a team, and be patient in whatever we do.
1. BERDOA
2. BERIKHTIAR
3. BERTAWAKAL
4. BERSABAR
Follow dis 4 B's and Insya'allah, God will help us.
May God bless us with all the happy thing in this world.
On the serious note;
I know its hard for u, wanting to be ok n wanting to come back to see me n all. I know it breaks your heart that you cannot celebrate your birthday wimme. But hey, im not dat kind of a bdae person see. So we can always celebrate a belated one. We can celebrate together with my bdae or we can have a separate one! See? Its simple, just think optimistic, smile at it, pray hard, n have faith, that God is Almighty, and only He knows the true meaning behind all His Doings.
:D
Smile alot ayg! Happy Birthday!!
I love you! Many2 kisses!
On the lighter note;
160907- I run out of ideas, cuz i planned a romantic getaway proposal in front of *ahem, SECRET!!* , but the plan was ruin cuz she haven cum back yet. So I told ruz to do a project for me. Bought her a big box with scented pot pourri inside, a small teddy bear n a rose, with a note dat says the box isnt empty, but is filled with a lot of kisses n love! Haha! Original me..
Kinda think of it, i AM romantic waaaad... *winks* :)
PS: Cannot wait to fetch you from the airport!! YEAH!!!!!! *jumps in air*
Nana dah nak balik, nana dah nak balik, nana dah nak balik, nana dahnak balik...................
Thursday, September 06, 2007
wee!!
Haha..
So happy today..
N sad abit too..
I went to the orthopaedics today, to see a specialist at the Jurong Medical Centre. The appointment was around 2.30pm, so i left late (as usual) ard 1.15pm, took a taxi instead, den upon reaching there I and the taxi driver had a few laughs (we got lost! summore at Jurong tau! mak datok..).
Jurong Medical Centre is freaking HUGE!
Took the lift (lalalalala) to level three to Clinic G, General and Orthopaedic Surgery.
There I meet this ancient doctor (kinda make him look like Dumbledore hehe) and he surveyed my leg, took lots of test, physio n stuff..
Guess what? 3 weeks extended of MC!
God, im gonna rot in my room, but at least its in my room not in camp! :D
Hmm.. Now must do a to do list.. maybe I'll think of something n I'll post it here.
Besides, Ramadhan is coming, so I can have ample rest yet able to do my ramadhan in one piece, unlike last year I did the last bit in Taiwan..
Now I can wait till my baby comes back from australia.. wee!!
Thursday, August 23, 2007
Girl facts :When you catch a girl glancing at you, she wants you to look back and smile
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When a girl bumps into your arm while walking with you, she wants you to hold her hand
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When she wants a hug, she will just stand there
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When you break a girls heart, she still feels it when you run into each other 3 years later
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When a girl is quiet, millions of things are running through her mind
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When a girl is not arguing, she is thinking deeply
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When a girl looks at you with eyes full of questions, she is wondering how long you will be around
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When a girl answers, "I'm fine," after a few seconds, she is not at all fine
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When a girl stares at you, SHE IS WONDERING WHY YOU ARE PLAYING GAMES.
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When a girl lays her head on your chest, she is wishing for you to be hers forever
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When a girl says she can't live without you, she has made up her mind that you are her future
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When a girl says, "I miss you,"no one in this world can miss you more than that
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When a girl is mean to you after a break-up, she wants you back, but she's scared she'll get hurt and knows you're gone forever
Guy Facts:When a guy calls you, he wants to be with you
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When a guy is quiet, he's listening to you.
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When a guy is not arguing, he realizes he's wrong
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When a guy says, "I'm fine." after a few minute he means it
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When a guy stares at you, he wishes that you would care about him and wonders if you do
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When your laying your head on a guy's chest, he has the world
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When a guy calls/texts/comments you everyday, he is in love
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When a (good) guy tells you he loves you, he means it
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When a guy says he can't live without you, he's with you till your done
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When a guy says, "I miss you,"he misses you more than you could have ever missed him or anything else.
Cool fact huh?
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When a girl bumps into your arm while walking with you, she wants you to hold her hand
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When she wants a hug, she will just stand there
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When you break a girls heart, she still feels it when you run into each other 3 years later
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When a girl is quiet, millions of things are running through her mind
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When a girl is not arguing, she is thinking deeply
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When a girl looks at you with eyes full of questions, she is wondering how long you will be around
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When a girl answers, "I'm fine," after a few seconds, she is not at all fine
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When a girl stares at you, SHE IS WONDERING WHY YOU ARE PLAYING GAMES.
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When a girl lays her head on your chest, she is wishing for you to be hers forever
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When a girl says she can't live without you, she has made up her mind that you are her future
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When a girl says, "I miss you,"no one in this world can miss you more than that
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When a girl is mean to you after a break-up, she wants you back, but she's scared she'll get hurt and knows you're gone forever
Guy Facts:When a guy calls you, he wants to be with you
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When a guy is quiet, he's listening to you.
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When a guy is not arguing, he realizes he's wrong
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When a guy says, "I'm fine." after a few minute he means it
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When a guy stares at you, he wishes that you would care about him and wonders if you do
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When your laying your head on a guy's chest, he has the world
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When a guy calls/texts/comments you everyday, he is in love
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When a (good) guy tells you he loves you, he means it
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When a guy says he can't live without you, he's with you till your done
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When a guy says, "I miss you,"he misses you more than you could have ever missed him or anything else.
Cool fact huh?
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
Didnt go to work today.. Had diarrhoea and vomittiin after last nite's dinner.. I ate somethin spicy on an empty stomach.. Doctor told me i had gastric flu.. Ate medicine.. So drowsy now.. Yawnnn... My sleepiness level is bout 70% now..
You see, i went to work yesterdae at bout noon.. Told dad i'll be going to work late.. I do ate my lunch kae bie?.. I ate egg n chicken sandwich.. Cause ayang got no appetite lar dear.. Aniwae, i gotta rush doin my work.. After work, i told dad i wanna go to e hair salon, wanna doll up my hair.. Told hubby haz.. He wants me to take a picture of it!.. I did it after dinner.. Then... Wah... My stomach realie hurts damn bad uh.. Felt nausea, like wanna vomit.. N somethin's churnin in my tummy.. Doll up, put some make up, wear a sweater.. Pose... Click! Save it.. Send to haz's email.. Off to e toilet! Bluuueeeek!! (vomits) Felt not so good.. Called hubby haz for comfort.. Aniwae, he went home to slp last nite n book in today.. So hapie!.. Told him i send my pics alreadi..
Then he says,
"Wow.... Stunning...... Hmmm... Ayang, very nice.. But maybe u shud "dress down" a bit?"
"Huh? Wad u mean?" i asked..
"I dont knoe.. Maybe its ur hair? Or ur pose? Or dat sweater? Its hot n sexy but... This is like a model photoshoot uh"..
Haiz... Okae... =( i did it all for u tau bie... Eventho, i was like kinda sick.. I still do it for u.. Nvm uh.. Hmmm.....
Well, since im not working, i can spend sometime wif haz.. Was just on the phone wif him just now.. U knoe wad? Apparently, this naughty and playful boy met some mishap.. U see, he was kinda hapie and excited goin to the pool for some army swimming session, i think.. Wad happen was, this hubbie of mine, jumped n splashed in e pool without realising wads beneath it.. In e end, he landed on some steps in the pool wif such force on the sole of his feet.. Tell me, do u feel geram or not? Aiyoh.....
Tsk.. Bie, u uh.. can u not be so playful not uh?... N u didnt say a prayer before goin inside or before u doin somethin.. See! See! now u cant even walk uh.. On crutches.. Wanna laugh, its not funnie.. But then.. It is a funnie accident.. Even ur OC laugh.. HurHur! Okae okae.. Ayang wont laugh kae.. Haiz... Bie, take care of urself lar pls.. How cam i not get worried bout u... =( Tahan e pain kae sayang? Ssssssssshhh.... Ayang here... Muacks.. Since ur havin mc for two days, today n tmr, i'll spend time wif u kae..
As of now he's in NUH doing x-ray n seeing a doc.. apparently its swollen n painful.. Hope everythin's fine.. Sayaaang abang... Abang strong!! Okae okae.. Gotta go.. Check up on him now.. He's waiting for my call..
Ps: God, i pray dat my haz will be fine.. Pls protect him from danger and harm.. Pls look over my hubbie.. Dont let him get hurt, if it has to be, i'd rather u lemme take his place..
Farz loves Haz on Tuesday.. 21st August 2007..
You see, i went to work yesterdae at bout noon.. Told dad i'll be going to work late.. I do ate my lunch kae bie?.. I ate egg n chicken sandwich.. Cause ayang got no appetite lar dear.. Aniwae, i gotta rush doin my work.. After work, i told dad i wanna go to e hair salon, wanna doll up my hair.. Told hubby haz.. He wants me to take a picture of it!.. I did it after dinner.. Then... Wah... My stomach realie hurts damn bad uh.. Felt nausea, like wanna vomit.. N somethin's churnin in my tummy.. Doll up, put some make up, wear a sweater.. Pose... Click! Save it.. Send to haz's email.. Off to e toilet! Bluuueeeek!! (vomits) Felt not so good.. Called hubby haz for comfort.. Aniwae, he went home to slp last nite n book in today.. So hapie!.. Told him i send my pics alreadi..
Then he says,
"Wow.... Stunning...... Hmmm... Ayang, very nice.. But maybe u shud "dress down" a bit?"
"Huh? Wad u mean?" i asked..
"I dont knoe.. Maybe its ur hair? Or ur pose? Or dat sweater? Its hot n sexy but... This is like a model photoshoot uh"..
Haiz... Okae... =( i did it all for u tau bie... Eventho, i was like kinda sick.. I still do it for u.. Nvm uh.. Hmmm.....
Well, since im not working, i can spend sometime wif haz.. Was just on the phone wif him just now.. U knoe wad? Apparently, this naughty and playful boy met some mishap.. U see, he was kinda hapie and excited goin to the pool for some army swimming session, i think.. Wad happen was, this hubbie of mine, jumped n splashed in e pool without realising wads beneath it.. In e end, he landed on some steps in the pool wif such force on the sole of his feet.. Tell me, do u feel geram or not? Aiyoh.....
Tsk.. Bie, u uh.. can u not be so playful not uh?... N u didnt say a prayer before goin inside or before u doin somethin.. See! See! now u cant even walk uh.. On crutches.. Wanna laugh, its not funnie.. But then.. It is a funnie accident.. Even ur OC laugh.. HurHur! Okae okae.. Ayang wont laugh kae.. Haiz... Bie, take care of urself lar pls.. How cam i not get worried bout u... =( Tahan e pain kae sayang? Ssssssssshhh.... Ayang here... Muacks.. Since ur havin mc for two days, today n tmr, i'll spend time wif u kae..
As of now he's in NUH doing x-ray n seeing a doc.. apparently its swollen n painful.. Hope everythin's fine.. Sayaaang abang... Abang strong!! Okae okae.. Gotta go.. Check up on him now.. He's waiting for my call..
Ps: God, i pray dat my haz will be fine.. Pls protect him from danger and harm.. Pls look over my hubbie.. Dont let him get hurt, if it has to be, i'd rather u lemme take his place..
Farz loves Haz on Tuesday.. 21st August 2007..
Sunday, August 19, 2007
Dreaded poison in flesh
Wad a bomer.. Having to report back to camp.. The feeling is totally eating me.. I feel lyk shit.
I dun wanna go. For the first time in my whole life, i really feel like not wanting to come back..
Army took alot from me instead of me gaining from it. My back still hurts. N it takes away alot of my time, precious time.
When i was praying, i told God in my prayers, to make my dream come true.
Dat is to be with my farz, n spend time with her n our family.
Haish. SOC haven clear yet.
I dread doing it. It has always been lyk dis. Thou i dread it, i noe dat i can pass it, but still, its like the most toughest obstacle in the army.
The swing trainer brings back lots of memories.
But if i clear it once n for all, just one shot, i'd need not bother about it. EVER.
Till the day i collect my pink IC.
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To do list for the month of August, week 3 of the month.
1) report my back problem to my MO; but before that give Ariff a call and ask him for some advise
2) wanna make a dental appointment to extract my wisdom tooth (if i have) so that by next week i wud be able to extend my leave from monday
3) if there is SOC, clear it and face it like a true man
4) smoke out the whole week so that i wun get any arrows from anyone
5) clean up my locker
6) able to go home and slp at home n report back to camp the early morning
7) love farzanna more n more :) mwah!
8) try not to do anything stupid
9) ask around whether renewing of passport can be made in the weekend
10) get some stuff mizan owe me by this weekend
11) have fun as much as i possibly can with frens
Thats all. I miss you baby..
shh.... she is asleep now..
All for you honey..
Dear phoenix,
Gosh, im beginning to love her more and more..
and everytime she is not here, i feel the pain in my heart..
Is it true, that if you lost your first love, if your lucky, you could have the same feeling again with someone else?
Perhaps because she is the Chosen One? Is that why im feeling like im loving for the first time in my life? :)
Im loving it, all of it.. For my heart is complete now someone loves me more than ever.. :)
I dun wanna go. For the first time in my whole life, i really feel like not wanting to come back..
Army took alot from me instead of me gaining from it. My back still hurts. N it takes away alot of my time, precious time.
When i was praying, i told God in my prayers, to make my dream come true.
Dat is to be with my farz, n spend time with her n our family.
Haish. SOC haven clear yet.
I dread doing it. It has always been lyk dis. Thou i dread it, i noe dat i can pass it, but still, its like the most toughest obstacle in the army.
The swing trainer brings back lots of memories.
But if i clear it once n for all, just one shot, i'd need not bother about it. EVER.
Till the day i collect my pink IC.
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To do list for the month of August, week 3 of the month.
1) report my back problem to my MO; but before that give Ariff a call and ask him for some advise
2) wanna make a dental appointment to extract my wisdom tooth (if i have) so that by next week i wud be able to extend my leave from monday
3) if there is SOC, clear it and face it like a true man
4) smoke out the whole week so that i wun get any arrows from anyone
5) clean up my locker
6) able to go home and slp at home n report back to camp the early morning
7) love farzanna more n more :) mwah!
8) try not to do anything stupid
9) ask around whether renewing of passport can be made in the weekend
10) get some stuff mizan owe me by this weekend
11) have fun as much as i possibly can with frens
Thats all. I miss you baby..
shh.... she is asleep now..
All for you honey..
Dear phoenix,
Gosh, im beginning to love her more and more..
and everytime she is not here, i feel the pain in my heart..
Is it true, that if you lost your first love, if your lucky, you could have the same feeling again with someone else?
Perhaps because she is the Chosen One? Is that why im feeling like im loving for the first time in my life? :)
Im loving it, all of it.. For my heart is complete now someone loves me more than ever.. :)
Thursday, August 16, 2007
WHAT A SUPRISE!!
Haha.. got a great suprise today..
And it came at the wrong time [shh.. *smilez*]
And it came at the wrong time [shh.. *smilez*]
Its our 5th minth anniversary, and all i thot was today is a special thursday haha..
My mum knock on the door, on the 16th August 07, 0910HRS, saying that there is someone outside the door for me..
I was on the phone with farz at the moment having our delightful privacy and i was kinda shocked cum pissed, but since the thot of the parcel im receiving today kicks in, I rushed out, only to find my mum in tudong receiving it..
I, with my unkempt hair n shorts n army singlet signed the paper.. i was freaking shock!
It didnt look like a parcel..
It had cold moisture on this big box with a word, 'SWEET SECRETS'.
My only thots was where is the parcel, is it in a cake box? haha. Idiot.
Den I open it infront of my mum n nasrun..
WOA!!
A CAKE!!!
WITH A PICTURE OF HER!!!
AND A SENTENCE!!!
"OUR SWEET MEMORIES"
"5TH MONTH ANNIVERSARY"
Aww.........
That like struck me deep down to the deepest deep deepedy heart of mine...
I wanted to cry but tahan hahaha..
Then my mum kept asking, i thot your birthday is in September?
That was a blow.
Cuz it stated there '5th month anniversary'.
Haha.. Oh oh...
Then I tried to cover up, but the whole family saw it already..
Mum said, "Happy Anniversary!"
Dad said, "Sedapnyer.. Kat maner dia beli? Gambar dia boleh makan ke tak?"
Hahaha...
Dian Farzanna binti Zainal
Welcome to the Zawawi Family!
Im so smitten n happy n jumpy n laughy n super duper go!!
Im so happy!!!
Thanks to my darling, ariff, ruz, n everyone!!
Now its my turn to return the favour..
Here are some pics of it, i'd sent more of it later..
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Dear phoenix,
I feel so touched n loved today..
Like someone is so lovely n sweet enough to sent me a cake planned for a month with a PICTURE of that lovely face which cost 69 bux not to mention the delivery n effort..
Never in my entire cosmos did someone buy me a cake.. Mum make cakes, or i buy them for the family..
But never someone special buying me a cake..
N dis is just our anniversary.. My birthday is coming!! Haha!!
My first time im looking forward to celebrate it!!
Cakess....
wee..
chocolate yummy delicious mushy gateau eyes rolling tempers flaring cakes!!
Wee...
big MMMMMMMMWAH!!!!
PS: I love you. Period. :)
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
Are guys that perfect enuf to understand gals then? Its okae lar.. Its a never ending debate that commenced centuries ago.. Yesterday, i was a bit upset.. Had a bloody day at work.. Dad brought me to his office n asked me to help him do his calculations plus accountings.. Great.. Haz went off with his buddy.. Glad to knoe that he's enjoying himself.. But he doesnt realise that, i was lookin forward to end my work n jus be wif him.. Talk on e phone n comfort me.. In the end, he was busy playin games, msged him but he asked me to slp first.. Fine enuf.. Since he didnt reply, thot i'd slp.. Msged him dat im slpin.. At bout 1130 plus, he called n msg me askin me to pick up my calls.. Felt one kind.. I dont wish to talk bout it.. Didnt realie went well last nite.. Couldnt even slp.. Ammar had wind in his stomach n he jus wants me not my sis or mum.. Fine, i'll take care.. Worse still, he kept crying n crying.. Was jus an emotional n mental torture.. Jus got 3 hrs of slp before im off for work..
Shit still happen todae.. Decide to forget bout wad happen yesterday wif haz.. Try to get over it.. Work was like fuck today.. Everythin seems so wrg n i jus cant balance e accountin papers.. Is it because of my lack of slp? Or the unfinished biz? When work ends.. I thank God for it.. Lookin forward to be wif haz.. Misses him lots todae.. But he told me he's goin to jb wif his dad to visit a sick relative n so cant call me.. It was like a blow to me.. Its okae.. Nvm.. Keep calm.. Keep cool.. He needs to go.. Its alrite kae farz?..
Then i told him, the package's gonna come tmr morn.. He told me he has chalet.. Another slap on my face.. Thot wanna spend time wif him before he start work cuz i havent been wif him.. Fine, its okae.. Control.. Let him enjoy his time wif his frens.. Look, tmr is a special day n i wanna give him a surprise.. Its our 5th month anniversary.. N i tried to do sumthin sweet.. I thot dat day will fit cuz initially e chalet was supposed to start on tues n end on thurs.. Its like a god-send! i thot it'll worked out well.. He'll receive it wen he jus came back from chalet.. Wanna make him smile.. But... Last min, everythin is known and informed last min to me! .. Im in a foul mood now.. Nothing seems to work.. Didnt get to talk n haf a decent convo wif him for two days.. Yea so what? U say we talked everyday.. Try to understand dat i had a shit day n was lookin to be in ur arms for comfort.. But since u cant, its okae then..
Btw happy 5th month anniversary.. Dont see why it shud be kept as a surprise animore.. Everythin like goes haywire.. Im cranky now.. Need to slp.. I dont haf enuf slp.. Nite.. Take care..
Ps: Like i dont miss u.. I dont even knoe wad u understand if u dont understand bout me.. Kept sayin.. Tak tau uh.. Tak tau uh..
Farz was disappointed today 15 August 2007..
Shit still happen todae.. Decide to forget bout wad happen yesterday wif haz.. Try to get over it.. Work was like fuck today.. Everythin seems so wrg n i jus cant balance e accountin papers.. Is it because of my lack of slp? Or the unfinished biz? When work ends.. I thank God for it.. Lookin forward to be wif haz.. Misses him lots todae.. But he told me he's goin to jb wif his dad to visit a sick relative n so cant call me.. It was like a blow to me.. Its okae.. Nvm.. Keep calm.. Keep cool.. He needs to go.. Its alrite kae farz?..
Then i told him, the package's gonna come tmr morn.. He told me he has chalet.. Another slap on my face.. Thot wanna spend time wif him before he start work cuz i havent been wif him.. Fine, its okae.. Control.. Let him enjoy his time wif his frens.. Look, tmr is a special day n i wanna give him a surprise.. Its our 5th month anniversary.. N i tried to do sumthin sweet.. I thot dat day will fit cuz initially e chalet was supposed to start on tues n end on thurs.. Its like a god-send! i thot it'll worked out well.. He'll receive it wen he jus came back from chalet.. Wanna make him smile.. But... Last min, everythin is known and informed last min to me! .. Im in a foul mood now.. Nothing seems to work.. Didnt get to talk n haf a decent convo wif him for two days.. Yea so what? U say we talked everyday.. Try to understand dat i had a shit day n was lookin to be in ur arms for comfort.. But since u cant, its okae then..
Btw happy 5th month anniversary.. Dont see why it shud be kept as a surprise animore.. Everythin like goes haywire.. Im cranky now.. Need to slp.. I dont haf enuf slp.. Nite.. Take care..
Ps: Like i dont miss u.. I dont even knoe wad u understand if u dont understand bout me.. Kept sayin.. Tak tau uh.. Tak tau uh..
Farz was disappointed today 15 August 2007..
Take this ship n sail away..
I do not understand why.. Why must u be so?
I have to, u noe i have no choice in a lot of matters.. but haish.
I tried, again n again, but still, it remains a mystery to create something dat u believe.
The believe to have someone to be understanding and patient.
I noe that you had a hard time at work, but perhaps pushing me away was the least thing you cud do.
Why can't it be like, you tell me wad you face, n I'd be the listening ear. N in the end we share the burden n love each other, treasure each other more.
Its never impossible. Its hard. But its not impossible. Its probable. Only if we try.
I feel bad. N guilty. N i'll bring this guilt to wherever place i go. N even tmr when i wud like to pull my hair down after a month of duty n exercises to just chill by the beach w frens, laughing at jokes n singing by the guitar, i wun be enjoying all this.
Cause i'd bring this guilt. Guilt becomes pain. Pain becomes poison. Poison creates negative misconceptions. N hence becomes mistrust. Misjudgement. Miscommunication. Jealousy. Hatred. Anger. Pain. More pain.
Perhaps even though i've seen n been through it before, but its very unexpectated. and it wud get worse if both parties never do anything.
Just like what happen before.. The very dejavu..
I can feel, perhaps, taste the feeling again...
Wanna go into a ship n sail away to find my doom among great oceans.. :(
I have to, u noe i have no choice in a lot of matters.. but haish.
I tried, again n again, but still, it remains a mystery to create something dat u believe.
The believe to have someone to be understanding and patient.
I noe that you had a hard time at work, but perhaps pushing me away was the least thing you cud do.
Why can't it be like, you tell me wad you face, n I'd be the listening ear. N in the end we share the burden n love each other, treasure each other more.
Its never impossible. Its hard. But its not impossible. Its probable. Only if we try.
I feel bad. N guilty. N i'll bring this guilt to wherever place i go. N even tmr when i wud like to pull my hair down after a month of duty n exercises to just chill by the beach w frens, laughing at jokes n singing by the guitar, i wun be enjoying all this.
Cause i'd bring this guilt. Guilt becomes pain. Pain becomes poison. Poison creates negative misconceptions. N hence becomes mistrust. Misjudgement. Miscommunication. Jealousy. Hatred. Anger. Pain. More pain.
Perhaps even though i've seen n been through it before, but its very unexpectated. and it wud get worse if both parties never do anything.
Just like what happen before.. The very dejavu..
I can feel, perhaps, taste the feeling again...
Wanna go into a ship n sail away to find my doom among great oceans.. :(
An outing worth remembering
Haha.. Yesterday night was super fun thanks to the likes of Mr Incredibe Hamizan haha.. It was lepak brudder, i called him he just woke up, den i ask him, "eh nk kluar tak?"
Apelagi ok set go!
We went to heeren's temankan dia beli jam fossil dia yg mahal nk mampos.. its like 160 bucks ah, n dat fickle-minded alien kept saying, "I shud have bought the other one." Frankly speakin, though his one is a flipping watch, n it can change its straps if u collect them, i still think the other one is nice haha..
So the two of us walked down the street of Orchard rd, looking for adventures like no other.. Went to pray at Al-Falah, den took pictures outside the mosque..
There's dis humongous poster outside the mosque depicting the Prophet Muhammad SAW principles, achievements both socially, economically and politically, philosophies n more. Great novelist like Jane Armstrong, philosophers like Gandhi, saying their positive views on how the Prophet had influence the modern day world with simplistic terms and ideas, logic n reason, of the submission to One God, the support for brotherhood and the Nation of Leagues etc. There is one saying that caught my attention; He doesn't bring his ideas with the blade of sword, but with simplistic methods that changed the world..
Haha.. Damn nice lar.. Diana msged me n asked me where i was, i told her i was at Al-Falah with Mizan.. den she was like, "Where got mosque in Orchard Rd?!"
The poster outside the mosque had the answer.
" 1400 years ago forewarned about the future of Human life and the Environment on Earth."
Hahaha, there was like a list of all the warnings during the Prophet's lifetime, n now it is already showing, kinda make the non-believers wonder ryt how true the messenger is..
There is a warning about this, n i told mimi n we laughed haha.. Semua org tau pe ade masjid kat orchard, ni nampak sah selalu lepak kat town tapi tk penah solat hahaha..
While waiting for that woman, we played the CALL OF DUTY 3 on XBOX 360 at HMV at The Heerens (mizan is a gamer, n i like games haha). Dia dah smpi, tapi kita buat endah je haha, basted giler seh, org tu tunggu lama kat bawah asek call my hp, n there were we playing the demo like nobody's business haha!
Dah jumpe, temankan dia pi SMU where she got sum meeting, den suddenly we got lost haha! We thot like nk check out SMU kan, skali sesat all thanks to mizan ah, haha.. we walked like forever, till we saw the National Library.. Mak datok, we at bras basah rd lar, dekat bugis! Kata nak pegi the Cathay sey haha.. so we decided, fuck it, we go see2 at bugis.. den we took a train back to city hall, n go to the lan shop beside burger king and played Battlefield haha till lyk, 11.30pm?
There was a few hiccups with my girlfriend regarding dat, cuz i was too engrossed with playing games dat i didnt msg my gurl, n she was kinda mad at me.. argue abit, but hey, takde argue tkde cinta pe haha..
I saw the 700 express bus and gave a run. Mizan ensued, but at the brink of taking it, he stop me and say let it go. I was at shits end. WTF?! skali he say, eh we can take the night rider pe..
den i say lar, ade ke kat sini?? i dunno any bus stop for my area ah, accept for somerset there. Takkan nk jalan all the way there. Conflicting ideas lead to total catastrophe. Hahaha! Lepak siot.
At last we gamble take the mrt. Hoping shit dat the end at Jurong the mrt to the west line is waiting for us. Thank god it waited.
So we talked n talked. He dropped off at Bukit Batok. Then i was thinking, now like 12.30, ade ke LRT?!
Naseb baik LTA pandai tak bengap.. Last train to the area is well-versed and followed up with the timings of both LRT n MRT. Pandai...
Got home, bath, check mail, n sleep.... ZzZzZzZzZzZz
________________________________________
Next day woke up with a pain at the head. Suddenly got an idea of lepaking at mizan crib, since his parents not ard, can play his computer haha!
Word of Wisdom: There are something gals can never understand about guys.. Alienation. Period.
-haz misses farz on 150807 @ 1238HRS
Apelagi ok set go!
We went to heeren's temankan dia beli jam fossil dia yg mahal nk mampos.. its like 160 bucks ah, n dat fickle-minded alien kept saying, "I shud have bought the other one." Frankly speakin, though his one is a flipping watch, n it can change its straps if u collect them, i still think the other one is nice haha..
So the two of us walked down the street of Orchard rd, looking for adventures like no other.. Went to pray at Al-Falah, den took pictures outside the mosque..
There's dis humongous poster outside the mosque depicting the Prophet Muhammad SAW principles, achievements both socially, economically and politically, philosophies n more. Great novelist like Jane Armstrong, philosophers like Gandhi, saying their positive views on how the Prophet had influence the modern day world with simplistic terms and ideas, logic n reason, of the submission to One God, the support for brotherhood and the Nation of Leagues etc. There is one saying that caught my attention; He doesn't bring his ideas with the blade of sword, but with simplistic methods that changed the world..
Haha.. Damn nice lar.. Diana msged me n asked me where i was, i told her i was at Al-Falah with Mizan.. den she was like, "Where got mosque in Orchard Rd?!"
The poster outside the mosque had the answer.
" 1400 years ago forewarned about the future of Human life and the Environment on Earth."
Hahaha, there was like a list of all the warnings during the Prophet's lifetime, n now it is already showing, kinda make the non-believers wonder ryt how true the messenger is..
There is a warning about this, n i told mimi n we laughed haha.. Semua org tau pe ade masjid kat orchard, ni nampak sah selalu lepak kat town tapi tk penah solat hahaha..
While waiting for that woman, we played the CALL OF DUTY 3 on XBOX 360 at HMV at The Heerens (mizan is a gamer, n i like games haha). Dia dah smpi, tapi kita buat endah je haha, basted giler seh, org tu tunggu lama kat bawah asek call my hp, n there were we playing the demo like nobody's business haha!
Dah jumpe, temankan dia pi SMU where she got sum meeting, den suddenly we got lost haha! We thot like nk check out SMU kan, skali sesat all thanks to mizan ah, haha.. we walked like forever, till we saw the National Library.. Mak datok, we at bras basah rd lar, dekat bugis! Kata nak pegi the Cathay sey haha.. so we decided, fuck it, we go see2 at bugis.. den we took a train back to city hall, n go to the lan shop beside burger king and played Battlefield haha till lyk, 11.30pm?
There was a few hiccups with my girlfriend regarding dat, cuz i was too engrossed with playing games dat i didnt msg my gurl, n she was kinda mad at me.. argue abit, but hey, takde argue tkde cinta pe haha..
I saw the 700 express bus and gave a run. Mizan ensued, but at the brink of taking it, he stop me and say let it go. I was at shits end. WTF?! skali he say, eh we can take the night rider pe..
den i say lar, ade ke kat sini?? i dunno any bus stop for my area ah, accept for somerset there. Takkan nk jalan all the way there. Conflicting ideas lead to total catastrophe. Hahaha! Lepak siot.
At last we gamble take the mrt. Hoping shit dat the end at Jurong the mrt to the west line is waiting for us. Thank god it waited.
So we talked n talked. He dropped off at Bukit Batok. Then i was thinking, now like 12.30, ade ke LRT?!
Naseb baik LTA pandai tak bengap.. Last train to the area is well-versed and followed up with the timings of both LRT n MRT. Pandai...
Got home, bath, check mail, n sleep.... ZzZzZzZzZzZz
________________________________________
Next day woke up with a pain at the head. Suddenly got an idea of lepaking at mizan crib, since his parents not ard, can play his computer haha!
Word of Wisdom: There are something gals can never understand about guys.. Alienation. Period.
-haz misses farz on 150807 @ 1238HRS
Monday, August 13, 2007
I do not know why, but im feeling so sad today.. I thought waking up from a sleep wud put it all away, but even in dreams it haunts me like the devil..
N wen i woke up, i switched on the com n my fingers typed in, 'Shine on- Jet'.
Playing such a sentimental sad song early in the morning makes ur heart bleed.. But I wanted it, i think, let it bleed, let it feel the overwhelming pain, its been so long since u never felt this pain before..
Everytime tears start to well up in my eyes i fight them, not wanting to let it out. Is that ego? Or just strength?
Im none but a poor soul, imperfect, stained piece of cloth dat where a layer of white paint is used to put the stain away.. I try my very best in being there for her, at her very moment where she needs me.. But I don't know what she wants from me.. It was simple- be with me, i need you. Maybe im not good in cheering people up.. Haish.
So sad. So sad. So so sad.
:(
-haz
N wen i woke up, i switched on the com n my fingers typed in, 'Shine on- Jet'.
Playing such a sentimental sad song early in the morning makes ur heart bleed.. But I wanted it, i think, let it bleed, let it feel the overwhelming pain, its been so long since u never felt this pain before..
Everytime tears start to well up in my eyes i fight them, not wanting to let it out. Is that ego? Or just strength?
Im none but a poor soul, imperfect, stained piece of cloth dat where a layer of white paint is used to put the stain away.. I try my very best in being there for her, at her very moment where she needs me.. But I don't know what she wants from me.. It was simple- be with me, i need you. Maybe im not good in cheering people up.. Haish.
So sad. So sad. So so sad.
:(
-haz
Saturday, August 11, 2007
Those Promised Paradise.
(Stories of the Sahabah)
by Noura Durkee.
Had read this book sent to me by my dearest bro, Abang Arif who's in S'pore.. Thankiu! Well, at least i have somethin to do while hubby haz is busy at work.. Muacks! Okae, this book is adapted by Noura Durkee, an American.. I'd dare say that she's a learned western woman scholar in Islam.. She and her husband became Muslims in 1970 while in Jerusalem.. For the love of Islam, she studied Arabic and Islamic Culture at Um Al-Qura University in Makkah and attended the Kamel Ibrahim School of Islamic Calligraphy in Alexandria in Egypt.. A writer and a lecturer on subjects on muslim education, comparative education and social life in Islam.. She and her husband founded a mosque on 10 1/2 Charlottesville Street, US.. Would jus like to share on wad i've read, the stories of Rasulullah's Sahabah.. There's 21 Sababahs in her book (volume one).. But i'll jus pick a few to share.. Here goes..
Saidina Abu Bakr As-Siddiq
This most honoured of the sahabah was a well known and well liked merchant of Makkah.. For years, he had been seeking a better religion and way of life than he found among his relatives and tribe.. He was not satisfied with Judaism and Zoroastrianism and Christianity that sometimes he encountered among the other traders.. He refused to believe in idol worship.. He, and a few others kept looking for the original Way of Makkah, the Way of Ibrahim (A.S.)
When he learned that his good friend Muhammad ibn Abdullah has been selected by Allah as his Prophet, Abu Bakr believed him immediately and without question. He held fast that belief always, im everythin that Rasulullah said and did.. He brought people to Islam through his absolute conviction, and he gave his life, his fortune and his family to the service of Islam and Rasulullah..
Throughout his life, Abu Bakr was Rasulullah's best friend.. Whenever Rasulullah needed anything, he tried to supply it.. As Islam grew, others were eager to serve and to help, but Abu bakr remained Rasulullah's closest companion.. He was the chosen one to make the difficult escape from Makkah to Madinah with Rasulullah.. He was the one who undertook the leadership of the Muslims after Rasulullah's death.. He was known as "As-Siddiq" which means the great witness if the truth.. He was a truth teller and truth seeker..
In the early days of Islam, many people refused to believe Rasulullah.. They called him a madman, a poet, a liar.. Even his new Sahabah who had accepted the faith, did not always believe everything.. One night Rasulullah experienced Mi'raj, during which he saw and experienced many marvellous things, before returning to Makkah.. In the morning he told people about this.. Many of them could not believe it.. How could a man travel so far in one night? Impossible! They thought it must be a dream or an tale.. Some people went to Abu Bakr and told him what Rasulullah was saying about his journey and asked him what he thought.. He simply said "If he said it, it's true.. Why are you surprised? He tells me that news comes to him from Heaven to earth in one hour of the day or night and i know he is speaking the truth.."
Once while Rasulullah was praying in Makkah, one of the kuffar named Uqbah came and put his sheet around Rasulullah's neck and squeezed it tight.. Abu Bakr came quickly and pulled Uqbah away and said "Do you intend to kill a man just because he says, 'My Lord is Allah' and has brought clear signs from your Lord?"
Along with the other early Sahabah, Abu Bakr's life was so closely intertwined with that of Rasulullah that his story is one long history of the growth of Islam.. Ammar remembered, "I saw Allah's Messenger and there were none other with him but five slaves, two women and Abu Bakr." From that, he went to being the leader of hundred of thousands of Muslims..
Abu Bakr is remembered for being the gentleman, polite and generous.. He is also remembered for the unshakeable love for Rasulullah and even more of Allah.. Abu Bakr used to read the Quran in public, his reading was so heartfelt and sincere that it brought people to Islam.. As a result, the leaders of the Quraish forced him to confine his reading to his own garden beside his house.. However, people could hear his voice over the garden wall, greatly frustrating the Quraish..
If Rasulullah said something was true, that was all the proof needed for Abu Bakr.. If Rasulullah said something should be done, Abu Bakr would see it done, no matter what.. Rasulullah appreciated his friendship and service and rewarded him in many ways.. One of the greatest rewards was his gift of companionship and time.. He visited Abu Bakr's house nearly everyday.. When it came time to emigrate to Madinah, Abu Bakr asked permission to go.. Rasulullah suggested that he wait, as he might have a companion.. Abu Bakr knew what he meant and had two fast camels put on a good diet in preparation for the trip..
On the day the two men left, A'ishah, Abu Bakr's daughter, saw Rasulullah coming at an unusual hour.. She saw her father get ready and watched the two flee from Makkah.. They came upon a cave, within which they hid, staying there for three days.. At one point of time, their pursuers came as close as the entrance to the cave.. Seeing their feet, Abu Bakr was frightened and alarmed, because he feared for Rasulullah's life.. He assured him "What do you think of two persons, the third of whom is Allah?" Indeed Allah showed them the paradise on the backwall of the cave, as if it opened oout into the garden and all fear was gone.. The trackers went away as well.. The next day, they proceeded on the way to Madinah..
Once Rasulullah said, ''The person who had favoured me most of all, both with his companionship and wealth is Abu Bakr.. If i were to take a closest friend other than my Lord, i would take Abu Bakr, but what connects us is Islamic brotherhood and friendliness.. All the gates of the masjid should should be closed except the gate of Abu Bakr.. Likewise when a woman asked Rasulullah what she should do if she came backto him and found him gone (dead).. he replied, "If you should not find me, go to Abu Bakr"..
One day, Umar and Abu Bakr had a quarrel and Umar refused to accept Abu Bakr's apologies.. Abu Bakr went to Rasulullah to ask for forgiveness for his quarrel.. The sahabah was careful to resolve even the smallest of matters, because of their fear of Allah.. So, Rasulullah asked Allah to forgive him twice.. Then Umar appeared searching for Abu Bakr to forgive him.. Rasulullah looked angry eventhough Abu Bakr said the fault was more of his.. Rasulullah said, "Allah sent me to you people, but you said, 'You are telling a lie,' while Abu Bakr said 'He has said the truth' and consoled me with all his resources." Then Rasulullah said twice, "Wont you then give up harming my companion?!" After that, nobody ever dared harmed Abu Bakr..
Almost daily, Abu Bakr and his wife Umm Ruman welcomed Rasulullah into their home.. Their little daughter, A'ishah, knew him as the most respected and beloved friend of the family.. When Rasulullah's dear wife Khadijah died, he became very lonely.. Someone suggested that he marry A'ishah.. They were engaged when she was young and married later.. Abu Bakr was Rasulullah's father-in-law as well as his closest friend..
Once Amr ibn al-'As asked the prophet, "Who is the most beloved person to you?" Rasulullah replied "A'ishah." He then asked, "Among the men?" Rasulullah replied, "Her father.."
Rasulullah loved Abu Bakr very much.. Once he was describing how people would be called from the many different gates of the Garden if they did different things, such as fasting or praying.. Abu Bakr asked, "Will anyone be called from those gates, O Rasulullah?" "Yes" replied Rasulullah, "and ihope you will be among those, O Abu Bakr."
Much later, when Islam was growing and the Muslims of Madinah wanted to make the Hajj to Makkah, Abu Bakr proved himself again.. The Muslims had travelled peacefully as afar as Hudaibiyah, a valley near Makkah.. The Makkans said they would fight them if they proceeded further.. After days of waiting and negotiation, a truce was written and signed.. To many Muslims, the truce seemed to be a defeat to Rasulullah.. He seemed to have given in on a lot of points and because of this, the Muslims were very upset.. Umar was very upset and went to Abu Bakr to talked about it.. Abu Bakr calmly said.. "Hold to his stirrup, for by Allah, he is right!" Of course, the truce of Hudaibiyah turned out to be one of the greatest benefits to the Muslims.. It led to years of peace during which many people could travel Makkah safely.. It eventually led to the conquest of Makkah and the satisfaction of all the Muslims' demand.. Abu Bakr understood and rightly trusted Rasulullah..
Towards the end of Rasulullah's life, he became too ill to lead the prayer.. He told A'ishah to ask Abu Bakr to lead the people in prayer, but she said, "O Rasulullah, Abu Bakr is a very sensitive man, not strong of voice and much given to weeping when he recites the Quran..'' Rasulullah repeated firmly, "Tell him to lead the prayer.." A'ishah then suggested that Umar should take his place.. "Tell Abu Bakr to lead the prayer.." A'ishah tried to get help from Hafsah, but Rasulullah silenced them both.. "Tell Abu Bakr to lead the people in prayer.. Let the blamer find fault, and let the ambitious aspire.. Allah and the believers will not have it otherwise.. " Many believe that in his choiceof Imam, Rasulullah chose his successor..
Abu Bakr's even and compassionate manner often saved the peopple from extremes.. This was best demonstrated when Rasulullah passed away.. All of Madinah was in turmoil adn the people did not know what to do.. Abu Bakr was in the other end of the city when Rasulullah seemed to be better, died.. He came quickly on horseback and found Umar insisting to the people that Rasulullah was not dead.. He had misinterpreted a verse of the Quran and believed that Rasulullah could not die before them all.. Abu Bakr went ti his house,and drew back his cloak that had covered Rasulullah's face.. He gazed at him, kissed him and said, "Dearer than my father and my mother, you have tasted death which Allah ahs decreed for you.. No death after that shall ever happen to you.." He drew the cloak over his face again and went out to the people
"Gently Umar!" he said, "Hear me speak!" the people began to hear Abu Bakr praised Allah saying,
"O people who has worshipped Muhammad, indeed, Muhammad is dead.. And who has worshipped Allah, indeed, Allah is living and does not die.. Muhammad is but a messenger, adn messengers before him have passed away before him.. If he die or be slain, will you then turm upon your heels? Who turns on his heels will thereby do no hurt to Allah and Allah will reward the thankful.." (3:144)
The people heard this verse which had been revealed after the battle of Uhud and it was as if they never heard it before.. Umar said afterwards, "When i heard Abu Bakr recite that verse, i was so astounded that i fell to the Earth.. My legs could not carry me.. I then knew that Allah's Messenger had died.."
Soon after Rasulullah's death, the Ansar decide to hold a new chief from among themsleves.. Hearing of this Abu Bakr, Umar and Abu Ubaidah went to them.. They found the Ansar praising themselves as the fighting force of Islam and talking of choosing a leader from among themselves.. Abu Bakr spoke to the people.. He complimented the Ansar on their greatness in supporting and defending Rasulullah adn the immigrants.. However, he tried to explain to them that in the present situation, the Arabs would never accept anyone who is not Quraish to lead them, because the Quraish were regarded as the best and noble clan of the Arabs.. He said that the Ansar were the ministers and the advisors and one from the Quraish must be the leader..
The Ansar said, "No, by Allah, we wont accept this.. There must be a ruler from us and one ruler from you.." Abu Bakr replied, "No, we will be the Rulers, and you will be the ministers.. I offer you one of these two men, pledge your allegiance to whichever you will".. An argument began, but Umar quickly said, "O Ansar, dont you know that the Messenger of Allah ordered Abu Bakr to lead the prayer?" They replied "We know it!".. "Then which of you willingly take precedence over him?!" shouted Umar.. "Allah forbid that we should take precedence over him!" said the Ansar..
Umar grabbed the hand of Abu Bakr and gave his allegiance to him.. "Our chief and the best among us and the most beloved of all of us to Allah's prophet.." Abu Ubaidah, the other sahabah, and everyone in the room came one after another and gave their pledge to him as well except Sa'ad who had hoped to be the new leader..
After the funeral of Rasulullah, Abu Bakr made a formal acceptance of the Khilafat:
"O people! I have been chosen as your ruler, but i have no claim to be the best among you.. Obey me only when i do good, but if i go astray, put me on the right path.. Truth is honesty, and lying is dishonesty.. The weakest of you is the strongest to me, as long as i havent restored his rights from others.. In the same way, the strongest of you is the weakest to me so long as i havent taken away from the rights of others.. You should keep in mind that the nation which gives up the struggle in the path of Allah becomes wretched and disgraceful to Allah.. When the evil deeds are everywhere in a nation, then Allah puts it to grief.. You are to obey me only when i obeyed Allah and His Messenger.. If i disobey Allah and His Messenger.. Then it shall not be required for you to obey me.."
Therein, this kind and compassionate man, whose own daughter found him too soft hearted and soft spoken took over the leadership of the Muslims.. (as narrated by the book itself..)
Ps: I love you dear.. Hope your read this sweetheart.. Muacks..
Ps: I love you dear.. Hope your read this sweetheart.. Muacks..
Farz loves Haz on 120807...
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