Hey look, in a few hours comes New Year!!
Let me share wiv ya sum stuff in my head. (of course, it is full of crap and shit, plus the vomits of bad cabbage and carrots, Y.U.C.K)
Thoe shalt be...
1) A responsible exco member to MLDDS, and pledge loyalty to it (despite me being the "VIRUS" -buat cam Dr Evil tau, ngan jejari2 dier wakakakaka-, who doesnt respect others at all!! wakaka)
2) Responsible and caring brother and son to the family
3) Smiler who always and make fun of others (Y.E.S!!)
4) A charmer who will catch many fish in the pond (pakai recorder adeq aku, pi tiup pat satu korner pat Geylang Serai, wahaha, jgn lupe letak duit ha...)
5) Responsible student who NEVER skips lectures and tutorials and NEVER talk back to fellow teachers of AJC (like real, dis revelation is S.T.U.P.I.D -talk about being the top student for Spelling in primary 1, wakaka-)
6) A good friend to others who needs a friend, and not let the Beast inside me to go thrashing people's doors (haha, talk about privacy, wakaka)
Thou shalt do..
1)good deeds, and don't Kutok org lain (hahaha, dats an irony)
2)my homeworks, and go thru sessions for my cure with full of hopes and pride
3) Sajaks dat wud mesmerize any soul who reads them (haha, L.I.K.E-R.E.A.L)
4) Kutok org nyer pakaian, lebih2 lagik mats and minahs, and bebudak tak Original
5) not do, but TRY to dgr ckp org (im a Naughty Boi, wakakaka)
6) Dance Hip-Hop, and sway like Taufiq Batisah, ma IDOL!! *love him*
7) Love MIGHTY 6, *hope dat there's a space for sumone i knew long ago, but doesn't recognize dat huhuhuhu*
8) create a blog layout, out of my true self, dat says all bout me (gona design one soon, BIG PROJECT AHEAD!!)
Thou shalt NOT do..
1) anything S.T.U.P.I.D! (well, for starters, i have the apt to do stoopid idoistic things even a small mosquito wud never do-wads with the mosquito???)
2) and BEHAVE myself in public
3) fall in love dat easily, wakakakaka
4) masok skola lambat, abeh tipu OM wakaka
5) Easy temperement (easy there, Big Fella.. contain urself, cam kamal ckp, relek broda..)
6) scold others unneccasarily
7) scold or shout bad words dat easily, eg : Phuck, sial, knn, dan bebende sewaktu dgnnyer wakakaka
dats all, i think.. wahaha.. kalo ape2 i add again.. my brain is full of thoughts now..*winks*
PS: Hope ya like the song.. it makes me SWAY like wad say.. kuang kuang kuang!!!
Friday, December 31, 2004
Sad and Lost in the Shadow...
Why must ppl die, dear Lord? Why must this person go away, and leave me, in this cruel world? When can i join this person, Dear Lord? I noe my time will come soon.
Dear Lord, is it painful to die? Does it hurt? The Prophet says it hurts like a thousand blades striking the very skin of the person. Like fish skinned of its scales.
Dear Lord, where do i go after i die? Do i join the people who worships You, or do i suffer the horrendous torture wiv the people who disregarded You? haish.
Dear Lord, how would the angle of death look like when he comes to take my unforgived soul away from this impure body? Will he come wif mencaing face dat breathes fire dat would burn my flesh, or will he smile uncanningly wiv upmost happiness, inviting me to see You? haish.
Dear Lord, I finally realised, dat the reason to life here, is death. For death brings life. This, here, is not life, Lord. Its a test, an obstacle for me to move to the place of eternity. There, in HereAfter, lies Life itself. Where it is everlasting. Where noone wud die. Where i cud love a person FOREVER.
Hakikat hidup ialah mati, kata bapaku yg tersyg. Kerna disana letak Hidup yg sebenar-benarnya.
It brought to my senses, dat i am nothing here. All i cud do now, is to cherish wad i have now. And leave canny life wiv all the good deeds to go to Heaven. To see you, Dear Lord.
Death is nothing but a journey to Life itself. But Dear Lord, why i must live in fear of death itself? Perhaps it is laid before me, wen others were not. Others live happily in maksiat, but i am in confrontation to Death itself.
Dear Lord, punish me for all my wrong doings! Take everything dat i have, cuz it belongs to You. You took my loved one, one at a time. And it hurts me, but i pray, Dear Lord, where others don't.
I know im, praying, for much to much
But cud you sent back, the only person i Loved
I noe, you don't do wad You usually
But Dear Lord, i am dying
to dance wiv my loved ones again...
Dear Lord, i still love this person, and i cudn't let this person go, i've learnt. It's a love so pure, thy God. For i always go to sleep in memories of this person, all the times i share wif the person You took away from me.
Dear Lord, take me away. Wen i have done all that i can here.
Dear Lord, is it painful to die? Does it hurt? The Prophet says it hurts like a thousand blades striking the very skin of the person. Like fish skinned of its scales.
Dear Lord, where do i go after i die? Do i join the people who worships You, or do i suffer the horrendous torture wiv the people who disregarded You? haish.
Dear Lord, how would the angle of death look like when he comes to take my unforgived soul away from this impure body? Will he come wif mencaing face dat breathes fire dat would burn my flesh, or will he smile uncanningly wiv upmost happiness, inviting me to see You? haish.
Dear Lord, I finally realised, dat the reason to life here, is death. For death brings life. This, here, is not life, Lord. Its a test, an obstacle for me to move to the place of eternity. There, in HereAfter, lies Life itself. Where it is everlasting. Where noone wud die. Where i cud love a person FOREVER.
Hakikat hidup ialah mati, kata bapaku yg tersyg. Kerna disana letak Hidup yg sebenar-benarnya.
It brought to my senses, dat i am nothing here. All i cud do now, is to cherish wad i have now. And leave canny life wiv all the good deeds to go to Heaven. To see you, Dear Lord.
Death is nothing but a journey to Life itself. But Dear Lord, why i must live in fear of death itself? Perhaps it is laid before me, wen others were not. Others live happily in maksiat, but i am in confrontation to Death itself.
Dear Lord, punish me for all my wrong doings! Take everything dat i have, cuz it belongs to You. You took my loved one, one at a time. And it hurts me, but i pray, Dear Lord, where others don't.
I know im, praying, for much to much
But cud you sent back, the only person i Loved
I noe, you don't do wad You usually
But Dear Lord, i am dying
to dance wiv my loved ones again...
Dear Lord, i still love this person, and i cudn't let this person go, i've learnt. It's a love so pure, thy God. For i always go to sleep in memories of this person, all the times i share wif the person You took away from me.
Dear Lord, take me away. Wen i have done all that i can here.
Monday, December 27, 2004
Saturday, December 25, 2004
DiS iS gReAt!!!
hey, i got sum shit news to tell ya!!!
I, Muhd Hazlami anak Zawawi anak Buang anak Sumadi, yg tinggal di Senja Rd, yg org dari bangse Jawer (bukan Boyan lar.. wahaha, nie kes kutok boyan nie, meskipon mak aku boyan wahaha), yg makan di pinggan, minum di cawan, telah at last menjadi jiwang, the haz yg aku tau, bukan budak punk cam sial kerana satu reason.. The Reason (nyanyi sikit, lagu hoobastank tu, ape kak?? Diamlah, ko disrupt lagu blog aku lar taik!! wahahaha)
AKU KLUAR NGAN SI BUDAK TU!!!
AND SIAK ARH!! DIER PAKAI CAM FULL DRESS GITU... aku???? Pakai baju skola steb budak ajc gitu (meskipon aku tak reti lagu anthem skola aku, dan aku suker kutok skola aku, dan slalu dtg lambat, dan slalu biadab ngan gengguru2 ku yg tercinta)..
Tapi...
Yg penting nyer...
Sumhow, aku tertarik ngan dier! Akhirnya, setelah satu bulan aku perang sakit di hati, luka yg padaku tidak dpt ku terima dan tidak dpt ku ubati, ahirnya.. THE ROCK HAS COME BACK!!!
Aku rase cam diriku ini di buayai oleh angin sepoi2 bahaser cenggitu.. and lebih2 lagik, dier manis mat.. aku ngok dier cair nak mampos.. cam mentega Planta di sapu atas periuk panas 400 degres celsius..!
Kiter gi ngok wayang cite KUNGFU HUSTLE (cite gerek mat.. walaupon tak ideal bawak pompuan gi on a first date, tapi cite dier klakar pe.. tunjukkan personality aku yg Lame nie lar, tapi tak seLAME budak BELO tu.. Tak klakar sak.. wahaha kutok member)
pastu, aku ngok dier ketawe, tetibe cam aku happy se happy happy nyerrrrrrrr (kene ikot tune Rindu lagu SPOON, yg penyanyi tu dah mampos, kesian).. siak, tak penah ku alami rase sebegini..
next, time balik, meskipon cam kekok (lar, kate org, cam tak kene gitu, yelah, baru aku kenal pe.. takyah nak expect aper2 dari aku.. kantoi nanti hahaha), tapi pas aku buat joke yg paling lame, pat bus, time aku nak kluar..
DIER KASI AKU SURAT NIE SAK.. abeh, yg teramat best to the max, dlm surat tu ader sajak.. serius, aku cair cam nak mati, mcm dlm kebakaran kat dlm hutan indonesia (sial nyer indon, haze pasal koranglar, sepak hidong baru tau! wahaha)
nak dgr??? yelah, aku kasik dgr ye..
Di kala takbir malam melabuh maya
Luputnya cahaya kencana
Berputik asmara di awangan kasmaran
tersentak lamunan dewi inderanila
Alunan bergema
Bisikan terdengar
Bayang menjelma
Arjun Rajawali bagai alamas berharga (sampok sikit ye, nie aku, kirekan aku nie arjun=satria, rajawali=burung, cam burong phoenix ler.. hahaha, abehk dier t dewi, inderanila=bidadari dari syurga)
Mengusik hati menusuk jiwa
Arkian akad dilafazkan
Sehati merentasi aral asmaraloka
Agar abadiah jua selamanya...
best tak?? haha.. aku tak tau ar.. tapi smcm perubahan dan bergolakan yg sedang berlaku di dlm atmaku ini.. smcm rasa yg pernah ku alami, tetapi dikecewakan dahulu.. tetapi, raser cam inilah dia.. Dia..
PS: If u're reading dis, i really love it.. Just wanna sae, u're special.. to me.. =)
I, Muhd Hazlami anak Zawawi anak Buang anak Sumadi, yg tinggal di Senja Rd, yg org dari bangse Jawer (bukan Boyan lar.. wahaha, nie kes kutok boyan nie, meskipon mak aku boyan wahaha), yg makan di pinggan, minum di cawan, telah at last menjadi jiwang, the haz yg aku tau, bukan budak punk cam sial kerana satu reason.. The Reason (nyanyi sikit, lagu hoobastank tu, ape kak?? Diamlah, ko disrupt lagu blog aku lar taik!! wahahaha)
AKU KLUAR NGAN SI BUDAK TU!!!
AND SIAK ARH!! DIER PAKAI CAM FULL DRESS GITU... aku???? Pakai baju skola steb budak ajc gitu (meskipon aku tak reti lagu anthem skola aku, dan aku suker kutok skola aku, dan slalu dtg lambat, dan slalu biadab ngan gengguru2 ku yg tercinta)..
Tapi...
Yg penting nyer...
Sumhow, aku tertarik ngan dier! Akhirnya, setelah satu bulan aku perang sakit di hati, luka yg padaku tidak dpt ku terima dan tidak dpt ku ubati, ahirnya.. THE ROCK HAS COME BACK!!!
Aku rase cam diriku ini di buayai oleh angin sepoi2 bahaser cenggitu.. and lebih2 lagik, dier manis mat.. aku ngok dier cair nak mampos.. cam mentega Planta di sapu atas periuk panas 400 degres celsius..!
Kiter gi ngok wayang cite KUNGFU HUSTLE (cite gerek mat.. walaupon tak ideal bawak pompuan gi on a first date, tapi cite dier klakar pe.. tunjukkan personality aku yg Lame nie lar, tapi tak seLAME budak BELO tu.. Tak klakar sak.. wahaha kutok member)
pastu, aku ngok dier ketawe, tetibe cam aku happy se happy happy nyerrrrrrrr (kene ikot tune Rindu lagu SPOON, yg penyanyi tu dah mampos, kesian).. siak, tak penah ku alami rase sebegini..
next, time balik, meskipon cam kekok (lar, kate org, cam tak kene gitu, yelah, baru aku kenal pe.. takyah nak expect aper2 dari aku.. kantoi nanti hahaha), tapi pas aku buat joke yg paling lame, pat bus, time aku nak kluar..
DIER KASI AKU SURAT NIE SAK.. abeh, yg teramat best to the max, dlm surat tu ader sajak.. serius, aku cair cam nak mati, mcm dlm kebakaran kat dlm hutan indonesia (sial nyer indon, haze pasal koranglar, sepak hidong baru tau! wahaha)
nak dgr??? yelah, aku kasik dgr ye..
Di kala takbir malam melabuh maya
Luputnya cahaya kencana
Berputik asmara di awangan kasmaran
tersentak lamunan dewi inderanila
Alunan bergema
Bisikan terdengar
Bayang menjelma
Arjun Rajawali bagai alamas berharga (sampok sikit ye, nie aku, kirekan aku nie arjun=satria, rajawali=burung, cam burong phoenix ler.. hahaha, abehk dier t dewi, inderanila=bidadari dari syurga)
Mengusik hati menusuk jiwa
Arkian akad dilafazkan
Sehati merentasi aral asmaraloka
Agar abadiah jua selamanya...
best tak?? haha.. aku tak tau ar.. tapi smcm perubahan dan bergolakan yg sedang berlaku di dlm atmaku ini.. smcm rasa yg pernah ku alami, tetapi dikecewakan dahulu.. tetapi, raser cam inilah dia.. Dia..
PS: If u're reading dis, i really love it.. Just wanna sae, u're special.. to me.. =)
Tuesday, December 21, 2004
tired lar dai..
PENAT
itu sahajalah yg boleh aku pikirkan skrg.
bukan itu sahaja.
TIDUR
itu pon salah satu yg pat dlm kepale hotak aku.
RAUDHAH
Pon dlm kepale hotak aku. Teringat jer senyuman dier.
LAPAR
itu konfirm. Lum makan.
LEE KUAN YEW
siak nyer org tua, ader ke dier ckp Palestinian-israeli conflict leh compromise dgn regime dier tu. Pemusnah bangsa dan agame aderlah. Si tua nie, haiyoo, biler lah ko nak mati!?! Smagat kalau ckp pasal bangser dier (dahlah koghang tak cebok, muahahaha *mean-), tapi slalu condemn bahase kiter.. Kalo larh adeer Hang Tuah.. Confirm dier tu kene sepak selat melaka.. hahahahaha
ADEQ AKU
buat spoil hari. Dahlarh aku cat banner balik penat, si siak tu ungkit pekare lamer. Balik jer kene lecture ngan mak bapak. Hampeh.
FINAL DESTINATION 2
Aku pinjam pat kedai pat Lot 1. Jap agi nak tengok.
TROY
terbuai mimpi nmpak aku? aku mimpi ikot Achilles pi perang (mermans lahr)
ADIB
Kawan baik aku yg teringinkan seorang kawan yg baik yg leh kasi dier happy. Mesti tolong.
BAPAK SULIYATI
Sedih dgr bapak dier masok hospital pasal kemalangan jalan raye. Dahlah pakcik aku 2 mati kerna kemalangan di jalan raye. Besok gi ngan BELOS lawat arh. (Bapak aku nak buat Air Sejuk kasi dier..)
CHOCOLATE
Teringin benar nak makan ferrero rochet yg mempunyai empu yg lazat cam makan coklat.
ROTI
Takde nutella. Confirm takde mood nak makan roti.
AKU
Kenaper aku cenggini, tetiber cam taik jer. Haha. Mungkin pasal dah mati mood kot. Hampehnyer, takleh tido aku.
slamatz... ... ...
itu sahajalah yg boleh aku pikirkan skrg.
bukan itu sahaja.
TIDUR
itu pon salah satu yg pat dlm kepale hotak aku.
RAUDHAH
Pon dlm kepale hotak aku. Teringat jer senyuman dier.
LAPAR
itu konfirm. Lum makan.
LEE KUAN YEW
siak nyer org tua, ader ke dier ckp Palestinian-israeli conflict leh compromise dgn regime dier tu. Pemusnah bangsa dan agame aderlah. Si tua nie, haiyoo, biler lah ko nak mati!?! Smagat kalau ckp pasal bangser dier (dahlah koghang tak cebok, muahahaha *mean-), tapi slalu condemn bahase kiter.. Kalo larh adeer Hang Tuah.. Confirm dier tu kene sepak selat melaka.. hahahahaha
ADEQ AKU
buat spoil hari. Dahlarh aku cat banner balik penat, si siak tu ungkit pekare lamer. Balik jer kene lecture ngan mak bapak. Hampeh.
FINAL DESTINATION 2
Aku pinjam pat kedai pat Lot 1. Jap agi nak tengok.
TROY
terbuai mimpi nmpak aku? aku mimpi ikot Achilles pi perang (mermans lahr)
ADIB
Kawan baik aku yg teringinkan seorang kawan yg baik yg leh kasi dier happy. Mesti tolong.
BAPAK SULIYATI
Sedih dgr bapak dier masok hospital pasal kemalangan jalan raye. Dahlah pakcik aku 2 mati kerna kemalangan di jalan raye. Besok gi ngan BELOS lawat arh. (Bapak aku nak buat Air Sejuk kasi dier..)
CHOCOLATE
Teringin benar nak makan ferrero rochet yg mempunyai empu yg lazat cam makan coklat.
ROTI
Takde nutella. Confirm takde mood nak makan roti.
AKU
Kenaper aku cenggini, tetiber cam taik jer. Haha. Mungkin pasal dah mati mood kot. Hampehnyer, takleh tido aku.
slamatz... ... ...
Greeat news!!
Hey ya peeps! Sori lar aku lambat post.. Byk perkare mahu dibincangkan, tapi, as wad aku slalu buat, kiter atur secara formal in points lar ehk.. kk..
Sunday, 12 December 2004
1) Rewang pat majlis perkahwinan abg sedare aku, ABG NIZAM (sak, isteri lawa mat.. unutung ar dier)
2)bebual ngan kak nana pasal ehm ehm (takya explain lar ar.. cume untuk pengetahuan anda, kiter discuss pasal bgr, dimana aku dpt tahu aish bawak matair dier gi umah kak nana, yaitu cuzzie aku yg paling terdekat.. hahahaha.. merepek sae)
3)aku dpt meneroka skill aku sebagai stephen king (cameraman lar, wahahaha, best dok, ko amek in diff angle, abeh time gi sblah pompuan, aku jumpe kawan lamer.. dah jadi sedarelar kiter ehk, wahahaha)
4)Bermesra bersama cuzzie2 aku seperti ABG UDIN, ABG DAUS, ABG LI'IN dan sebagainyer
5) Nak carik ikan cantik, tapi tak berjaye pasal semuer muke cam makcik jual taugeh, wahahaha
Tuesday, 14 December 2004
1) pi ngok citer THE INCREDIBLES bersame kluarge, klakar dok (aku cam terattracted dgn Elastic Gurl, lawa dok wahahaha
2) kali pertame makan KFC SHAKERS wahahaha, sedap mat!
Wednesday, 15 December 2004
1) sekeluarge gi escape theme park
2) naik viking ngan abg aku cam 4 kali, naik yg pusing2 tu cam 4kali, hahaha, sampai bapak aku pening kepale abeh ckp nak muntah (hampeh benar!)
3) ngok budak2 diperbodohkan dlm sesi THE CLASH OF THE RUNES ke ape (luper arh, maap aku pinta).. mcm bodoh jer kene act hahaha.. ader satu budak tua nie, smagat sak nak act, time doghang lawan dgn muke2 dier.. sklai aku sepak dier maut
4) Aku memberanikan diri dgn menaiki VIKING dgn membawak skali video cam aku, abeh kiter naik aku record muke2 aku ngan abg aku, cam taik sak!! wahahaha (the trick fer a better thrill wen riding VIKING is dat, ko kene cam lepas semuer yg ko pegang, baik pompuan sblah ko atau railing, pastu ko cam lompat2 atau tap2 ko nyer feet time bende alah tu jatoh.. confirm ko raser cam air kencing temasok balik wahahahaha)
Sunday, 19 December 2004
1)gi umah kamarul nyer makcik nyer anak nyer perkahwinan pasal kene tolong rewang (gaji pon leh tahan! hahaha)
HOT NEWS matz..
Kk, aku start dari firstlar ehk, aku bangun lambat nak mati, walhal ko kene report in (cam askar gitu, wahaha) cam kul 9 pagi.. aku dtg stab superstar dlm kul 12 tengahari gitu, wahaha.. Sesampai saner je, kene kutok ngan member ML ANTI MATRIP AND MINAH GANG (aku nyer kakis lar.. gerek dok budak2 nie.. dari sec1 kiter bersamer.. hahaha, hidop semati), yg paling giler baba tu, pinggan byk siutt!! Sampai nasir dah cam nak gifup gitu.. Aku cam raser nak pi pukol si penyanyi dangdut ala karaoke tu pat depan majlis, rampas mic dier abeh ckp, " Tis is an announcement. Untok mereka yg makan tapi tak makan, kamu diwajibkan mendaftarkan diri dlm kelab MENCUCI PINGGAN SENDIRI, dan blah. Kpd yg mereka yg makan dan makan, tapi tak nk blah, sedia maklum bahawa majlis akan tutop tidak beberaper lamer lagi. And kpd pakcik2 dan makcik2 yg asek nyanyi lagu dangdut, saya harap anda leh pelankan itu volume pasal ia amat membingitkan telinga kami. Harap maklum"
Sap, stab garang plak aku.. Tapi, aku nak bilang ko satu story hebat nyer.. Time aku sampai jer, aku ternotice satu budak nie.. Lawa dan manis mat.. giler nyer manis, sampai aku leh cair kalo dier senyum.. so aku tau, "it is time..!" (sap, cam nak kiamat jer, wahaha)
Aku bilang kamarul and gang ngan adeq dier skali, tolong aku amek nombor budak nie, ko tau ape kamarul buat?!?!?! si syaithan bangang tu diri pastu gi pat mak budak pompuan tu abeh announce pat satu dunia (wah, exaggerating sak!!) yg aku nak berkenalan ngan anak dier!! Aku dah start suspens to the max nyer.. Raser cam nak masokkan semuer muke aku pat air bekas cuci pinggan yg berwarna jingga.. Time dier dah nak balik, aku dah start panik.. Fikiranku dah jadi cam makcik gaul rojak dlm periuk.. aku dah mula menyesal..
Aku nyer aku berkate (lar, belit plak budak nie), "Padan muke ko, hazlami anak zawawi.. Dah melepas dah.. Muahahahahahahaha"
Aku dah berserah pat Tuhan..
Skali, Tuhan lebih tahu, time dier pass, kawan dier (kiter panggil dier Misha Omar pasal dier nyanyi lagu BUNGA2 CINTA, and untok pengetahuan ramai, aku kene pauto nyanyi lagu SONATA MUSIM SALJU, mentang2 namer aku nak dekat samer ngan penyanyi tu, nasib baik okie jer.. nampak sah cam taik! Tak prepare langsung.. mampos ko hazlami.. camaner nak masok AJ TALENTIME.. asek gamam jer ko.. hey, bukan gamam mat.. MALU!!! wahahahaha) jalan pass kiter, skali satu si fulan nie bernama Rasyid (junior aku ler) pi pekik pat dier, "Ehk Misha, kawan aku nak kawan ngan kawan ko si baju hijau tu!"
Aku dah panik seminit.. Raser cam nak nazak gitu.. Tuhan kasi sak.. Si dier tu (taknak bilang namer dier, koghang nak tau kene blanjer aku minum SLURPEE atau belikan aku Roti Halia, muahahaha) kasi sae.. aku rase cam terhappy, hati aku cam melonjat, otak aku berpusing cam washing machine..
Budak tu baik mat.. Pandai gilerr, lai pandai dari aku.. Abeh baik plak tu.. Pandeh tulis sajak.. Nanti satu hari aku post sajak dier pat sini ehk.. hahaha.. Tapi, korang tau pe, aku ngok mata ngan senyum jer, nie dua ader dah lehk kasi aku cair bak butter atas kepala mak aku, wahahaha..
Bertuah nasib aku.. Dis friday agaknyer, aku bawak dier makan.. Gerek dok budak cenggini.. Sporting, tapi aku pemalu ar.. Time aku type nombor dier pat hp aku, aku menggigil cam vibrate hp aku gitu (mcm samsudin dlm cite SENIMAN BUJANG LAPOK, dier ckp ," angin senggugut baru masok operation", wahahahaha)
*aku dgr aish baru break.. sedih sak.. tak sangka aku terjadi sampai gitu.. tapi at least dier ok pe.. aku harap dier ok.. aku kawan baik dier (tak tau kalau dier treat aku cenggitu skrg, tapi, takmengapalah..) Ini suatu pelajaran, kalau nak carik kawan tu, carik lar betol2 takmo cepat2.. Aku kenal budak nie, mat.. Sifat playboy tu dlm atma dier.. takpe aish.. aku percaya dgn hukum karma.. kalo dier buat kamu sperti gitu, tuhan maha membalas.. Aku kalo nmpak dier pat SP, aku bantai dier, tengok jelah, hahahaha.. Aku byk kawan pat saner.. Abeh Taufiq Batisah pon dari saner (ader releven ke??? hahaha), takpe aish. Remember, dat i once said dat no matter wad, im always there fer ya.. U just hafta gimme a shout.. (pekik mcm tarzan tau, baru aku dgr)*
PS: Sedap tak lagu nie?? hahahaha.. Aku suke Tiara, tau joget sae detu.. Buat aku gelek2..
Slamatz...... ...... .....
Sunday, 12 December 2004
1) Rewang pat majlis perkahwinan abg sedare aku, ABG NIZAM (sak, isteri lawa mat.. unutung ar dier)
2)bebual ngan kak nana pasal ehm ehm (takya explain lar ar.. cume untuk pengetahuan anda, kiter discuss pasal bgr, dimana aku dpt tahu aish bawak matair dier gi umah kak nana, yaitu cuzzie aku yg paling terdekat.. hahahaha.. merepek sae)
3)aku dpt meneroka skill aku sebagai stephen king (cameraman lar, wahahaha, best dok, ko amek in diff angle, abeh time gi sblah pompuan, aku jumpe kawan lamer.. dah jadi sedarelar kiter ehk, wahahaha)
4)Bermesra bersama cuzzie2 aku seperti ABG UDIN, ABG DAUS, ABG LI'IN dan sebagainyer
5) Nak carik ikan cantik, tapi tak berjaye pasal semuer muke cam makcik jual taugeh, wahahaha
Tuesday, 14 December 2004
1) pi ngok citer THE INCREDIBLES bersame kluarge, klakar dok (aku cam terattracted dgn Elastic Gurl, lawa dok wahahaha
2) kali pertame makan KFC SHAKERS wahahaha, sedap mat!
Wednesday, 15 December 2004
1) sekeluarge gi escape theme park
2) naik viking ngan abg aku cam 4 kali, naik yg pusing2 tu cam 4kali, hahaha, sampai bapak aku pening kepale abeh ckp nak muntah (hampeh benar!)
3) ngok budak2 diperbodohkan dlm sesi THE CLASH OF THE RUNES ke ape (luper arh, maap aku pinta).. mcm bodoh jer kene act hahaha.. ader satu budak tua nie, smagat sak nak act, time doghang lawan dgn muke2 dier.. sklai aku sepak dier maut
4) Aku memberanikan diri dgn menaiki VIKING dgn membawak skali video cam aku, abeh kiter naik aku record muke2 aku ngan abg aku, cam taik sak!! wahahaha (the trick fer a better thrill wen riding VIKING is dat, ko kene cam lepas semuer yg ko pegang, baik pompuan sblah ko atau railing, pastu ko cam lompat2 atau tap2 ko nyer feet time bende alah tu jatoh.. confirm ko raser cam air kencing temasok balik wahahahaha)
Sunday, 19 December 2004
1)gi umah kamarul nyer makcik nyer anak nyer perkahwinan pasal kene tolong rewang (gaji pon leh tahan! hahaha)
HOT NEWS matz..
Kk, aku start dari firstlar ehk, aku bangun lambat nak mati, walhal ko kene report in (cam askar gitu, wahaha) cam kul 9 pagi.. aku dtg stab superstar dlm kul 12 tengahari gitu, wahaha.. Sesampai saner je, kene kutok ngan member ML ANTI MATRIP AND MINAH GANG (aku nyer kakis lar.. gerek dok budak2 nie.. dari sec1 kiter bersamer.. hahaha, hidop semati), yg paling giler baba tu, pinggan byk siutt!! Sampai nasir dah cam nak gifup gitu.. Aku cam raser nak pi pukol si penyanyi dangdut ala karaoke tu pat depan majlis, rampas mic dier abeh ckp, " Tis is an announcement. Untok mereka yg makan tapi tak makan, kamu diwajibkan mendaftarkan diri dlm kelab MENCUCI PINGGAN SENDIRI, dan blah. Kpd yg mereka yg makan dan makan, tapi tak nk blah, sedia maklum bahawa majlis akan tutop tidak beberaper lamer lagi. And kpd pakcik2 dan makcik2 yg asek nyanyi lagu dangdut, saya harap anda leh pelankan itu volume pasal ia amat membingitkan telinga kami. Harap maklum"
Sap, stab garang plak aku.. Tapi, aku nak bilang ko satu story hebat nyer.. Time aku sampai jer, aku ternotice satu budak nie.. Lawa dan manis mat.. giler nyer manis, sampai aku leh cair kalo dier senyum.. so aku tau, "it is time..!" (sap, cam nak kiamat jer, wahaha)
Aku bilang kamarul and gang ngan adeq dier skali, tolong aku amek nombor budak nie, ko tau ape kamarul buat?!?!?! si syaithan bangang tu diri pastu gi pat mak budak pompuan tu abeh announce pat satu dunia (wah, exaggerating sak!!) yg aku nak berkenalan ngan anak dier!! Aku dah start suspens to the max nyer.. Raser cam nak masokkan semuer muke aku pat air bekas cuci pinggan yg berwarna jingga.. Time dier dah nak balik, aku dah start panik.. Fikiranku dah jadi cam makcik gaul rojak dlm periuk.. aku dah mula menyesal..
Aku nyer aku berkate (lar, belit plak budak nie), "Padan muke ko, hazlami anak zawawi.. Dah melepas dah.. Muahahahahahahaha"
Aku dah berserah pat Tuhan..
Skali, Tuhan lebih tahu, time dier pass, kawan dier (kiter panggil dier Misha Omar pasal dier nyanyi lagu BUNGA2 CINTA, and untok pengetahuan ramai, aku kene pauto nyanyi lagu SONATA MUSIM SALJU, mentang2 namer aku nak dekat samer ngan penyanyi tu, nasib baik okie jer.. nampak sah cam taik! Tak prepare langsung.. mampos ko hazlami.. camaner nak masok AJ TALENTIME.. asek gamam jer ko.. hey, bukan gamam mat.. MALU!!! wahahahaha) jalan pass kiter, skali satu si fulan nie bernama Rasyid (junior aku ler) pi pekik pat dier, "Ehk Misha, kawan aku nak kawan ngan kawan ko si baju hijau tu!"
Aku dah panik seminit.. Raser cam nak nazak gitu.. Tuhan kasi sak.. Si dier tu (taknak bilang namer dier, koghang nak tau kene blanjer aku minum SLURPEE atau belikan aku Roti Halia, muahahaha) kasi sae.. aku rase cam terhappy, hati aku cam melonjat, otak aku berpusing cam washing machine..
Budak tu baik mat.. Pandai gilerr, lai pandai dari aku.. Abeh baik plak tu.. Pandeh tulis sajak.. Nanti satu hari aku post sajak dier pat sini ehk.. hahaha.. Tapi, korang tau pe, aku ngok mata ngan senyum jer, nie dua ader dah lehk kasi aku cair bak butter atas kepala mak aku, wahahaha..
Bertuah nasib aku.. Dis friday agaknyer, aku bawak dier makan.. Gerek dok budak cenggini.. Sporting, tapi aku pemalu ar.. Time aku type nombor dier pat hp aku, aku menggigil cam vibrate hp aku gitu (mcm samsudin dlm cite SENIMAN BUJANG LAPOK, dier ckp ," angin senggugut baru masok operation", wahahahaha)
*aku dgr aish baru break.. sedih sak.. tak sangka aku terjadi sampai gitu.. tapi at least dier ok pe.. aku harap dier ok.. aku kawan baik dier (tak tau kalau dier treat aku cenggitu skrg, tapi, takmengapalah..) Ini suatu pelajaran, kalau nak carik kawan tu, carik lar betol2 takmo cepat2.. Aku kenal budak nie, mat.. Sifat playboy tu dlm atma dier.. takpe aish.. aku percaya dgn hukum karma.. kalo dier buat kamu sperti gitu, tuhan maha membalas.. Aku kalo nmpak dier pat SP, aku bantai dier, tengok jelah, hahahaha.. Aku byk kawan pat saner.. Abeh Taufiq Batisah pon dari saner (ader releven ke??? hahaha), takpe aish. Remember, dat i once said dat no matter wad, im always there fer ya.. U just hafta gimme a shout.. (pekik mcm tarzan tau, baru aku dgr)*
PS: Sedap tak lagu nie?? hahahaha.. Aku suke Tiara, tau joget sae detu.. Buat aku gelek2..
Slamatz...... ...... .....
Wednesday, December 08, 2004
[BoReD, sAd..]
dis suck man.. sitting like a duck at home.. hearing PUTERI GUNUNG LEDANG song, the one MNASIR sing feat SITI NURHALIZA..
makes me sad.. dunno why.. i share the lyrics of the song wif ya.. hmm..
Cinta datang
Tanpa diundang
Seumur masa tercipta
Dia datang bagai sakti Bagai menyaksi mekar
Kembang pagi ooooohhh
Cinta datang
Dengan senyuman
Panasnya membakar mentari
Wajah yg tergambar
Tak akan terpudar
Dari hati insan yg fana ini
Fana ini...
Tak mungkin mentari
Akan terus sembunyi
Tiada sempadan
Tak bisa kulewati
Jika ini hakikatnya
Aku serahkan jiwa & ragaku
Menantimu walau sengsara
Jika ini ketentuannya
Jika ini hakikatnya
Aku serahkan jiwa & raga
Jika ini ketentuannya
Kau kan jadi milikku
Jua...
see the lyrics.. haish.. its like, the love btwn HANG TUAH and legendary PUTRI GUNUNG LEDANG is so unconditional.. so love.. so much.. so deep.. why can't i have such fate.. maybe im facing the same thing.. but the other party isn't willing.. its like 'Menantimu walau sengsara
Jika ini ketentuannya', just f*ckin wait.. haish..
i dun deserve such deep love.. where in the blue hell wud sumone love me dat much, till she was willing to die, to receive the curse, where any person wud die if he shud see her.. even the lover cudnt see her, like how HANG TUAH experienced.. haish.. it makes me feel like shit.. like a born loser..
i hope, i pray, dat wen i close my eyes.. i see the person who wud bring the curse out of me.. the love so willingly.. so unconditionally given..
yupz.. dats the thing im seeking in life.. unconditional love.. haish...
i dun deserve a thing..
hate myself..
burn, just die..
my poem.....
Life is short, time is precious..
Treasure the stars wif upmost intentions
the heart that beats so fine, may finally end
in ppl's glory, shall it stand
the heart that beats, may soon end
just like the wind blows the sand
the heart that beats, shall sleep in slumber
excruciating, in pain, in hunger
of sumting, no one cud ponder
life is short, time is running
once the last sands trickles out, melt away the tears
for angles have come, never shall you fear
Light up the darkness, has she not done
for the heart datbeats, shall never come
smile and laugh, puts the heart in silent bliss
and wad there is, the love cud give
is the trust and friendship, dire of thy warmth
the art of giving is wad the heart shall question
to itself, for it grows reckless in thirst
of thee sincere, pure love, fellowship and care
wad's there is there, tink again
there might be no tomorrow...
bubyee...=(
dis suck man.. sitting like a duck at home.. hearing PUTERI GUNUNG LEDANG song, the one MNASIR sing feat SITI NURHALIZA..
makes me sad.. dunno why.. i share the lyrics of the song wif ya.. hmm..
Cinta datang
Tanpa diundang
Seumur masa tercipta
Dia datang bagai sakti Bagai menyaksi mekar
Kembang pagi ooooohhh
Cinta datang
Dengan senyuman
Panasnya membakar mentari
Wajah yg tergambar
Tak akan terpudar
Dari hati insan yg fana ini
Fana ini...
Tak mungkin mentari
Akan terus sembunyi
Tiada sempadan
Tak bisa kulewati
Jika ini hakikatnya
Aku serahkan jiwa & ragaku
Menantimu walau sengsara
Jika ini ketentuannya
Jika ini hakikatnya
Aku serahkan jiwa & raga
Jika ini ketentuannya
Kau kan jadi milikku
Jua...
see the lyrics.. haish.. its like, the love btwn HANG TUAH and legendary PUTRI GUNUNG LEDANG is so unconditional.. so love.. so much.. so deep.. why can't i have such fate.. maybe im facing the same thing.. but the other party isn't willing.. its like 'Menantimu walau sengsara
Jika ini ketentuannya', just f*ckin wait.. haish..
i dun deserve such deep love.. where in the blue hell wud sumone love me dat much, till she was willing to die, to receive the curse, where any person wud die if he shud see her.. even the lover cudnt see her, like how HANG TUAH experienced.. haish.. it makes me feel like shit.. like a born loser..
i hope, i pray, dat wen i close my eyes.. i see the person who wud bring the curse out of me.. the love so willingly.. so unconditionally given..
yupz.. dats the thing im seeking in life.. unconditional love.. haish...
i dun deserve a thing..
hate myself..
burn, just die..
my poem.....
Life is short, time is precious..
Treasure the stars wif upmost intentions
the heart that beats so fine, may finally end
in ppl's glory, shall it stand
the heart that beats, may soon end
just like the wind blows the sand
the heart that beats, shall sleep in slumber
excruciating, in pain, in hunger
of sumting, no one cud ponder
life is short, time is running
once the last sands trickles out, melt away the tears
for angles have come, never shall you fear
Light up the darkness, has she not done
for the heart datbeats, shall never come
smile and laugh, puts the heart in silent bliss
and wad there is, the love cud give
is the trust and friendship, dire of thy warmth
the art of giving is wad the heart shall question
to itself, for it grows reckless in thirst
of thee sincere, pure love, fellowship and care
wad's there is there, tink again
there might be no tomorrow...
bubyee...=(
Tuesday, December 07, 2004
[JuSt TiNkIn..HmM..]
putting a post now.. dunno wad to say man.. dammit!! like my brain got clog up or sumting.. haha.. like REAL..
okok.. i read aish blog and she say sumting bout ppl change very fast or so.. hmm.. am i suppose to rebute and share my opinion or just shuttup? haha.. u guys noe me ryte, always wanna share and give like SANTA CLAUSE (and i hate tis particular santa clause appearing in this commercial on channel 5- damn Santa, he was f*ckin horny man! the girl whip 'sumting', then that bastard pulls his damn bushy eyebrows.. YUCK u piece of old shit.. dah tua tu buat hal tua.. aku tau ko buat amal jariah nie, tapi aper nie pompuan sebat pantat ko huh? aku sebat nak? kasi sebat kude kepang kang bau tau.. muahaha), LIKE REAL gitu.. haha..
anyways, like KEANE says in his song, Everybody's Changing :
So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same
You're gone from here
And soon you will disappear
Cause everybody's changing
And I don't feel right
so, wad im trying to tink is dat, ppl change, yes, even God says we hafta BERUBAH, betol tak guys?? (lebih baik korang agree, kalo tak, na'as ko..) but hey, i still the person i am..
take a metoforic example, take me as a plasticine (i noe i spell it wrong, so wad? nak kene bantai? muahaha).. it doenst matter how u mold me.. cuz im still a plasticine, the same substance ryte.. u can mold me to be a MATRIP or aper2 ar.. but still, inside, which is more impt, im still wad i am..
ppl must understand.. haish.. leceh ar nak kasi org paham.. pasal tulah aku simpan alasan jer.. hmm..kk
u must understand how weak i am before, the weak hazlami who tends to depend on others, and after dat, he will release the full blow of his beast.. and the shit part, I CAN'T CONTROL IT!!! its like, total annihilation, only ma closest frens noe dat.. and i noe, during the period of onslaught, i wud hurt ppl so much.. haish.. for dat, im really sorie..
now u noe why i need to change.. to put sumting to contain my beast inside me.. sumting like the beast itself.. only a nice beast.. a friendly beast.. the image u c and wad im potraying now is the nice beast itself.. so dat the beast inside me wun hurt nobody.. i noe, i suck at everything dat i do.. im a loser, a hater, a shithole, and all the shit piece modaf*ucking substance in the whole galaxy.. im a jerk, btw.. but im trying not to.. i dun backstab ppl.. and i hate it wen i hurt ppl.. i wud feel so shitly guilty.. so i'll ask God if the person wud forgive me, and that person wun achive all his or her dreams to the fullest.. im not the type dat wud just forget everything.. i do remember, the time i got hurt, the time i felt love for the first time in my life.. and hey, first love never leaves ur skin, u noe..
i've been dreaming of u lately.. sumtimes u're so far away, sumtimes ur depress.. i can feel it in my soul.. but wad am i suppose to do? i can't even contact u, nor wud i noe whether u still treat me as a close fren.. i dunno wads goin on, but do u wanna noe sumting? eversince day1, i've been putting ur name in my prayers, my DOA's, dat u wud be happy always, wherever u are, and ur safe DUNIA and AKHIRAT.. dat ur healthy nd safe.. dun believe me? i tink u dun.. but hey, ask God if u dun believe.. he wun tell u straight away (we are not prophets, u noe.. kiter cam setan gitu, malaikat pon benci hahahha), though.. but u'll noe, sooner or later.. dat im very sincere in wadever i do.. and i only ask for forgiveness and understanding.. im feeling pain now, btw.. but im trying ever so hard to come to my senses, "Hey haz, be urself ok? be strong wo.. i noe ur hurt.. but try ok? i noe ppl will never understand u, never will.. they may say they understand, but they dun.. but, yepz, they did try rite.. and u shud appreciate.." i noe, i suck.. but i just need chances.. everybody makes mistakes, and i hope ppl wud forgive me..
and yes, nice talkin to ya, best fren, on the phone.. it was like, 3hours???? from 11.30 to 2.30am?? siak ar.. lagi terok dari matair hahaha.. (tak semestinyer ko leh angkat aku ar? pi pi pi pimampos!! hahaha...!
and one more thing.. phoenix, i feel i lost ma vigour.. help!!!! :(
here and back again... love ya
putting a post now.. dunno wad to say man.. dammit!! like my brain got clog up or sumting.. haha.. like REAL..
okok.. i read aish blog and she say sumting bout ppl change very fast or so.. hmm.. am i suppose to rebute and share my opinion or just shuttup? haha.. u guys noe me ryte, always wanna share and give like SANTA CLAUSE (and i hate tis particular santa clause appearing in this commercial on channel 5- damn Santa, he was f*ckin horny man! the girl whip 'sumting', then that bastard pulls his damn bushy eyebrows.. YUCK u piece of old shit.. dah tua tu buat hal tua.. aku tau ko buat amal jariah nie, tapi aper nie pompuan sebat pantat ko huh? aku sebat nak? kasi sebat kude kepang kang bau tau.. muahaha), LIKE REAL gitu.. haha..
anyways, like KEANE says in his song, Everybody's Changing :
So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same
You're gone from here
And soon you will disappear
Cause everybody's changing
And I don't feel right
so, wad im trying to tink is dat, ppl change, yes, even God says we hafta BERUBAH, betol tak guys?? (lebih baik korang agree, kalo tak, na'as ko..) but hey, i still the person i am..
take a metoforic example, take me as a plasticine (i noe i spell it wrong, so wad? nak kene bantai? muahaha).. it doenst matter how u mold me.. cuz im still a plasticine, the same substance ryte.. u can mold me to be a MATRIP or aper2 ar.. but still, inside, which is more impt, im still wad i am..
ppl must understand.. haish.. leceh ar nak kasi org paham.. pasal tulah aku simpan alasan jer.. hmm..kk
u must understand how weak i am before, the weak hazlami who tends to depend on others, and after dat, he will release the full blow of his beast.. and the shit part, I CAN'T CONTROL IT!!! its like, total annihilation, only ma closest frens noe dat.. and i noe, during the period of onslaught, i wud hurt ppl so much.. haish.. for dat, im really sorie..
now u noe why i need to change.. to put sumting to contain my beast inside me.. sumting like the beast itself.. only a nice beast.. a friendly beast.. the image u c and wad im potraying now is the nice beast itself.. so dat the beast inside me wun hurt nobody.. i noe, i suck at everything dat i do.. im a loser, a hater, a shithole, and all the shit piece modaf*ucking substance in the whole galaxy.. im a jerk, btw.. but im trying not to.. i dun backstab ppl.. and i hate it wen i hurt ppl.. i wud feel so shitly guilty.. so i'll ask God if the person wud forgive me, and that person wun achive all his or her dreams to the fullest.. im not the type dat wud just forget everything.. i do remember, the time i got hurt, the time i felt love for the first time in my life.. and hey, first love never leaves ur skin, u noe..
i've been dreaming of u lately.. sumtimes u're so far away, sumtimes ur depress.. i can feel it in my soul.. but wad am i suppose to do? i can't even contact u, nor wud i noe whether u still treat me as a close fren.. i dunno wads goin on, but do u wanna noe sumting? eversince day1, i've been putting ur name in my prayers, my DOA's, dat u wud be happy always, wherever u are, and ur safe DUNIA and AKHIRAT.. dat ur healthy nd safe.. dun believe me? i tink u dun.. but hey, ask God if u dun believe.. he wun tell u straight away (we are not prophets, u noe.. kiter cam setan gitu, malaikat pon benci hahahha), though.. but u'll noe, sooner or later.. dat im very sincere in wadever i do.. and i only ask for forgiveness and understanding.. im feeling pain now, btw.. but im trying ever so hard to come to my senses, "Hey haz, be urself ok? be strong wo.. i noe ur hurt.. but try ok? i noe ppl will never understand u, never will.. they may say they understand, but they dun.. but, yepz, they did try rite.. and u shud appreciate.." i noe, i suck.. but i just need chances.. everybody makes mistakes, and i hope ppl wud forgive me..
and yes, nice talkin to ya, best fren, on the phone.. it was like, 3hours???? from 11.30 to 2.30am?? siak ar.. lagi terok dari matair hahaha.. (tak semestinyer ko leh angkat aku ar? pi pi pi pimampos!! hahaha...!
and one more thing.. phoenix, i feel i lost ma vigour.. help!!!! :(
here and back again... love ya
Saturday, December 04, 2004
almost forgot... JAY CHOU!! YOU'RE THE BEST!!!!
i think i'll be singing QI LI XIANG on chinese new year on the guitar.. check me out guys.. and yes, ma promos suck.. but i'll get my A's.. All of them.. insyaAllah.. i'll work hard, mama and papa, i wun let u guys down, no matter wad im facing rite now.. i noe, u guys love me and want the best out of me.. i promise you, dat i'll work the best i can be.. be a responsible son, student and make u proud.. wanna hear my dreams, my fellow dOgs??
1) Get all A's for A'level, dun care wad ppl say, but i will work hard, insyaAllah
2) NS, be an officer or sumting, then be a lieutenant, the one with the sword..so cool! (Alevel student easy to be officer, so u polytechnic shitholes, im gonna make u pump till u shit in ur pants and say, "MUMMY, HELP ME??!?!!?!"
3) Work out and get a NICE BODY, so can join SPORE IDOLS(hahaha, like real? my face like fark)
4) Work hard and get lotsa money
5) Get a motor license, get a nice cool bike, and ride with SHAHEEDA.. haha.. ko lek satu korner in a circular room sua.. haha.. lol
6) Have a fan club, so ma fishes wun run out.. but oso want a low profilic life
7) Get a simple gurl dat loves me more than herself (not now though.. im thru wiv love games.. always lose, like playing monopoly.. hahaha.. but play TAITI better.. always win.. hahaha
8) Get a big house and get married at the age of 28, i think..
9) Get ma doctorate or sumting.. haha.. think big, tok big, fer a small puny guy like me.. (like my life is gonna reach there.. hahaha)
10) Sing and entertain ppl and touch plus inspire ppl
11) BE LIKE TAUFIQ BATISAH!! HE IS DAMN COOL!!
PS: Suli, you look preety jambu gilerrr in tudong u noe.. sweet like honey, fresh like roses.. but still, ur a belo.. hahaha.. meeting u up tmr fer exco meeting ryte..
dah, wanna sleep liao.. waking up early later to design stuff fer MLDDS.. GO MELAYU!!!
i think i'll be singing QI LI XIANG on chinese new year on the guitar.. check me out guys.. and yes, ma promos suck.. but i'll get my A's.. All of them.. insyaAllah.. i'll work hard, mama and papa, i wun let u guys down, no matter wad im facing rite now.. i noe, u guys love me and want the best out of me.. i promise you, dat i'll work the best i can be.. be a responsible son, student and make u proud.. wanna hear my dreams, my fellow dOgs??
1) Get all A's for A'level, dun care wad ppl say, but i will work hard, insyaAllah
2) NS, be an officer or sumting, then be a lieutenant, the one with the sword..so cool! (Alevel student easy to be officer, so u polytechnic shitholes, im gonna make u pump till u shit in ur pants and say, "MUMMY, HELP ME??!?!!?!"
3) Work out and get a NICE BODY, so can join SPORE IDOLS(hahaha, like real? my face like fark)
4) Work hard and get lotsa money
5) Get a motor license, get a nice cool bike, and ride with SHAHEEDA.. haha.. ko lek satu korner in a circular room sua.. haha.. lol
6) Have a fan club, so ma fishes wun run out.. but oso want a low profilic life
7) Get a simple gurl dat loves me more than herself (not now though.. im thru wiv love games.. always lose, like playing monopoly.. hahaha.. but play TAITI better.. always win.. hahaha
8) Get a big house and get married at the age of 28, i think..
9) Get ma doctorate or sumting.. haha.. think big, tok big, fer a small puny guy like me.. (like my life is gonna reach there.. hahaha)
10) Sing and entertain ppl and touch plus inspire ppl
11) BE LIKE TAUFIQ BATISAH!! HE IS DAMN COOL!!
PS: Suli, you look preety jambu gilerrr in tudong u noe.. sweet like honey, fresh like roses.. but still, ur a belo.. hahaha.. meeting u up tmr fer exco meeting ryte..
dah, wanna sleep liao.. waking up early later to design stuff fer MLDDS.. GO MELAYU!!!
[ ThAts wHy tHey cAll mUa, HAZLAMI!! IMMA BACK, BABE!!]
hey ya horsy??? wads the f*ck up? ima doin fine now.. step punk skrg dok.. dah pakai baju nak ader consept mat.. leh jadi MATRIP, SKA, RUDDIES and bebende sewaktu dgnnyer haha.. and.......
TAUFIQ!!!!!!! YOU'RE MA F*UCKIN IDOL!!!!! WANNA BE JUST LIKE YOU!!!!!
and to think of it, dat ma best blood brother NASIR said during the chalet, which was CRAZY HOOKY, " SAK, HAZ, KO CAM TAUFIQ ANAK BATISAH SAK..!" cuz i wear dis denim jeans with white tees in side, wif ma DOG TAGGY dangling out like ma balls. so it was kinda crazy shit wahahahahha
Pukimeks, wanna share sumting...
To the person= gif me sum time to think about it ya.. it's been a month since the dark period. And now im enjoying every bit of ma life, wads left of my life actually.. not dat i dun love u or wad, but gimme sum time to fish sum fishes wif this cool hair of mine..
PS: btw, i have a new hairstyle.. and this song in ma blog is farking shit! change it!!!
To ma 5 best frens= Thanks man.. ALL OF YA ROCK!!! and ya, nas, aper2 bilang aku dok.. nadiah cam senyap jer.. dah ader laki cam gitu ar.. steb jambu konon.. porah! makan belacan lagi baloi.. bren, watch it lar.. relek beb.. member dah cam suar beb.. lek ar.. hahahaha.. eh kamarul, biler nak main CS???? aku dah addicted sak.. itulah, bunoh korang 47 kali, mati 8 kali jer.. hahaha.. cam betol jer..
To ma bro= hey, thanks dude.. kiter kene beli byk2 baju steb concept giler pukimek to da meks!! and, gdluck wif da NS thingy.. wahahaha
and imma building up ma body, see wad i can do bout it.. wanna be just like my BELOVED TAUFIQ BATISAH!!!
and i promise you guys imma sing at the AJ TALENTIME YOZ.. wad song?? erm, gd qn.. THE REASON? I SWEAR? alah, nyanyi dondang sayang sua.. hahahaha
kaez.. dah lamer plak tak blog in.. com rosak cam sial gitu.. and yes, i did had fun wif the jalan rayer guys.. will upload pics ones i get them.. i recorded two songs, one wiv ma bro singing KAU PERGI JUA, and TWIST AND SHOUT wiv the 4 brothers including me.. haha.. nice sak, tak caye nanti kasi dgr pat koghang.. LEMAH korang tau...
haish, ma heart is still bleeding, but not gona say a word, time is short fer me, so wanna make ppl happy as much as i can.. AND SORI MIRA, NONI, SITI SULAIMA.. cudnt go promnite due to sum unforeseen circumstances.. love ya guys, u are my little sisters yanoe.. sms aku lar, dah rindu aku pat koghang.. haha.. gi wayang ke, ape ke, steb PIMP sae..
farkin goofballs! gota go now.. my bro just came back from his MIQ meeting (wanna go wiv him, he say got lotsa madrasah gurls, untap area beb!) tmr go makan lunch wiv MENTORS!!! LOVE YOU GUYS!! And fark you, to those modaf*ckers who try to fark me, especially MATRIPS!! you guys suck to the max! dah miskin, pi pakai baju steb concept konon.. blah sua.. HATE YOU YOU LOSERS!!!
hey ya horsy??? wads the f*ck up? ima doin fine now.. step punk skrg dok.. dah pakai baju nak ader consept mat.. leh jadi MATRIP, SKA, RUDDIES and bebende sewaktu dgnnyer haha.. and.......
TAUFIQ!!!!!!! YOU'RE MA F*UCKIN IDOL!!!!! WANNA BE JUST LIKE YOU!!!!!
and to think of it, dat ma best blood brother NASIR said during the chalet, which was CRAZY HOOKY, " SAK, HAZ, KO CAM TAUFIQ ANAK BATISAH SAK..!" cuz i wear dis denim jeans with white tees in side, wif ma DOG TAGGY dangling out like ma balls. so it was kinda crazy shit wahahahahha
Pukimeks, wanna share sumting...
To the person= gif me sum time to think about it ya.. it's been a month since the dark period. And now im enjoying every bit of ma life, wads left of my life actually.. not dat i dun love u or wad, but gimme sum time to fish sum fishes wif this cool hair of mine..
PS: btw, i have a new hairstyle.. and this song in ma blog is farking shit! change it!!!
To ma 5 best frens= Thanks man.. ALL OF YA ROCK!!! and ya, nas, aper2 bilang aku dok.. nadiah cam senyap jer.. dah ader laki cam gitu ar.. steb jambu konon.. porah! makan belacan lagi baloi.. bren, watch it lar.. relek beb.. member dah cam suar beb.. lek ar.. hahahaha.. eh kamarul, biler nak main CS???? aku dah addicted sak.. itulah, bunoh korang 47 kali, mati 8 kali jer.. hahaha.. cam betol jer..
To ma bro= hey, thanks dude.. kiter kene beli byk2 baju steb concept giler pukimek to da meks!! and, gdluck wif da NS thingy.. wahahaha
and imma building up ma body, see wad i can do bout it.. wanna be just like my BELOVED TAUFIQ BATISAH!!!
and i promise you guys imma sing at the AJ TALENTIME YOZ.. wad song?? erm, gd qn.. THE REASON? I SWEAR? alah, nyanyi dondang sayang sua.. hahahaha
kaez.. dah lamer plak tak blog in.. com rosak cam sial gitu.. and yes, i did had fun wif the jalan rayer guys.. will upload pics ones i get them.. i recorded two songs, one wiv ma bro singing KAU PERGI JUA, and TWIST AND SHOUT wiv the 4 brothers including me.. haha.. nice sak, tak caye nanti kasi dgr pat koghang.. LEMAH korang tau...
haish, ma heart is still bleeding, but not gona say a word, time is short fer me, so wanna make ppl happy as much as i can.. AND SORI MIRA, NONI, SITI SULAIMA.. cudnt go promnite due to sum unforeseen circumstances.. love ya guys, u are my little sisters yanoe.. sms aku lar, dah rindu aku pat koghang.. haha.. gi wayang ke, ape ke, steb PIMP sae..
farkin goofballs! gota go now.. my bro just came back from his MIQ meeting (wanna go wiv him, he say got lotsa madrasah gurls, untap area beb!) tmr go makan lunch wiv MENTORS!!! LOVE YOU GUYS!! And fark you, to those modaf*ckers who try to fark me, especially MATRIPS!! you guys suck to the max! dah miskin, pi pakai baju steb concept konon.. blah sua.. HATE YOU YOU LOSERS!!!
Tuesday, November 09, 2004
[sum things to say at heart..]
hi. how are u? im fine. life sux ryte. ppl here and there, bullshiting bout other ppl, backstabbing other ppl. haish. i feel as though im used, well taken into advantage. yup, promise made, promises taken aback
God, wad did i do wrong in this life? uu gave me a very big test, but ppl dun seem to see it. dun seem to believe it. dun seem to accept it. accept me. ppl say sweet words just to loosen things up, but after dat, they went the other direction.
this heart hurts, god. it really hurts. and it pains and burdens me. not to mention wad im going thru, or, has been going thru.
This is to aish, if u are hearing this. im a beast. go away from me. i bite, tear ppl apart. ppl abandon me. put me away to a far place. isolated area. where im left with nuting but ruins and pieces of my life. thot Beauty cums by and brings back the prince. but she too abandon him. heard she's happy now wif sum1 else, wen beast has already fall in love wiv her. Beauty say sumting interesting though. made lotsa reasons to leave, promises to be kept. but wen she was finaaly freed, she left those words to the wind. gone wif the wind. haish. tears are streaming down my eyes rite now. i noe u can never accept me. for wad i am. for who i am. wen i was so sincere in everything i do, u left me for sum1 else. its ok. i noe, perhaps, this guy loves u more than me. more sincere than me. and u left. with reasons. lotsa them. still ringing in my pitiful ears. hurts me so bad. didnt mean to hurt u. never did, cuz i love u wif all my heart. gave u my heart. now i can't feel my heart. its gone. so pitiful, so pathetic i am.
pain is the only word i can describe. all my life, god, i was merely used by ppl, taken by their sweet words, but were poison. god, help me. help me. ples god. i put my trust on the line, now its all gone.
Promisies made and promises taken aback
i haf grown numb of it
my life, so full of those
lies
unsincerity
promises, made to be swee, turn out to be poison
killing me
slowly
these are ur very words, which i kept at heart. but now it seems unrealistically implausibly ironic.
God, forgive me. all i ask from u is forgiveness, and time. time had been a problem for me. if only i had the time, i may haf been smeelling the sweet smell of life.
u may not be mine here, but God, everyday i pray, i my sllep, in my prayers, after breakfast : Oh mighty god, let her be happy always. its her happiness that makes me happy. if she's not mine now, i'll wait till the day u bring all humans together to face ur judgement. dat day where i wud see her at the doors of paradise. if she is not mine now, let she be mine there, where it is eternity. God, forgive me, and those who took advantage of me, for they do not see ur Will, donot see the truth. God, i put my faith in u. that'll u will end my pain.
perhaps my death wud be a day u wud be convince. the day of my death wud be the day of ur happiness. its ok. trying to smile.
love u abg. nas, nad, bren, kamal. my four pillars of strength. my parents, the persons who love me purely. my jnrs, who made me laugh and cry wif me. share my pain, saw my pain there. u guys will always be in my heart. and i'll see u there, at Judgement day. where it is everlasting. insyaallah
Alevels, here i cum. still wearing my depression band. despiteit being broken twice, i still wear it. dunno y.
here and back again.
hi. how are u? im fine. life sux ryte. ppl here and there, bullshiting bout other ppl, backstabbing other ppl. haish. i feel as though im used, well taken into advantage. yup, promise made, promises taken aback
God, wad did i do wrong in this life? uu gave me a very big test, but ppl dun seem to see it. dun seem to believe it. dun seem to accept it. accept me. ppl say sweet words just to loosen things up, but after dat, they went the other direction.
this heart hurts, god. it really hurts. and it pains and burdens me. not to mention wad im going thru, or, has been going thru.
This is to aish, if u are hearing this. im a beast. go away from me. i bite, tear ppl apart. ppl abandon me. put me away to a far place. isolated area. where im left with nuting but ruins and pieces of my life. thot Beauty cums by and brings back the prince. but she too abandon him. heard she's happy now wif sum1 else, wen beast has already fall in love wiv her. Beauty say sumting interesting though. made lotsa reasons to leave, promises to be kept. but wen she was finaaly freed, she left those words to the wind. gone wif the wind. haish. tears are streaming down my eyes rite now. i noe u can never accept me. for wad i am. for who i am. wen i was so sincere in everything i do, u left me for sum1 else. its ok. i noe, perhaps, this guy loves u more than me. more sincere than me. and u left. with reasons. lotsa them. still ringing in my pitiful ears. hurts me so bad. didnt mean to hurt u. never did, cuz i love u wif all my heart. gave u my heart. now i can't feel my heart. its gone. so pitiful, so pathetic i am.
pain is the only word i can describe. all my life, god, i was merely used by ppl, taken by their sweet words, but were poison. god, help me. help me. ples god. i put my trust on the line, now its all gone.
Promisies made and promises taken aback
i haf grown numb of it
my life, so full of those
lies
unsincerity
promises, made to be swee, turn out to be poison
killing me
slowly
these are ur very words, which i kept at heart. but now it seems unrealistically implausibly ironic.
God, forgive me. all i ask from u is forgiveness, and time. time had been a problem for me. if only i had the time, i may haf been smeelling the sweet smell of life.
u may not be mine here, but God, everyday i pray, i my sllep, in my prayers, after breakfast : Oh mighty god, let her be happy always. its her happiness that makes me happy. if she's not mine now, i'll wait till the day u bring all humans together to face ur judgement. dat day where i wud see her at the doors of paradise. if she is not mine now, let she be mine there, where it is eternity. God, forgive me, and those who took advantage of me, for they do not see ur Will, donot see the truth. God, i put my faith in u. that'll u will end my pain.
perhaps my death wud be a day u wud be convince. the day of my death wud be the day of ur happiness. its ok. trying to smile.
love u abg. nas, nad, bren, kamal. my four pillars of strength. my parents, the persons who love me purely. my jnrs, who made me laugh and cry wif me. share my pain, saw my pain there. u guys will always be in my heart. and i'll see u there, at Judgement day. where it is everlasting. insyaallah
Alevels, here i cum. still wearing my depression band. despiteit being broken twice, i still wear it. dunno y.
here and back again.
Monday, November 01, 2004
[to my students]
this is dedicated to my two students who will be in the battlefield tomorrow for the Social Studies paper.. Haf faith in ya all.. i got sick becuz of u two... hahaha... just remember, stay cool and relax.. think of God, for He makes ppl the most cleverest creatures.. u can do it.. PS: NURUL AIN!!! DUN LET CARELESS MISTAKES PULL YOU DOWN!!! IF I SEE A SINGLE MISTAKE ON DAT PAPER IM SUCH GONNA KILLLLLLL YOU.. muahahhaha.. lek ar...smile=)
and for mira, try and focus ya? dun let other stuffs bother u.. i haf confidence u get A1 for ur amaths, just like me.. remember, Power Law is the multiple of the function not the addition, always make the same mistakes.. bite baru tau.. muahaha.. (as long no rabbies sua muahahha).. go in the exam hall, bace doa byk2.. i'll be praying for ya both at home.. so far, it works lah.. (thank u God.. U haf been my friend wen i need u.. gif me the happiness i truly seek in life..)
and to ah bao, ey, im ok lah.. i'll try and cum tmr (if im ok..haish) and do clean up of GPF + OP ryte?
phoenix, gotta tell u sumting.. The whiteman say sumting wrong with my *****, very scared ar.. =(..
smile??
this is dedicated to my two students who will be in the battlefield tomorrow for the Social Studies paper.. Haf faith in ya all.. i got sick becuz of u two... hahaha... just remember, stay cool and relax.. think of God, for He makes ppl the most cleverest creatures.. u can do it.. PS: NURUL AIN!!! DUN LET CARELESS MISTAKES PULL YOU DOWN!!! IF I SEE A SINGLE MISTAKE ON DAT PAPER IM SUCH GONNA KILLLLLLL YOU.. muahahhaha.. lek ar...smile=)
and for mira, try and focus ya? dun let other stuffs bother u.. i haf confidence u get A1 for ur amaths, just like me.. remember, Power Law is the multiple of the function not the addition, always make the same mistakes.. bite baru tau.. muahaha.. (as long no rabbies sua muahahha).. go in the exam hall, bace doa byk2.. i'll be praying for ya both at home.. so far, it works lah.. (thank u God.. U haf been my friend wen i need u.. gif me the happiness i truly seek in life..)
and to ah bao, ey, im ok lah.. i'll try and cum tmr (if im ok..haish) and do clean up of GPF + OP ryte?
phoenix, gotta tell u sumting.. The whiteman say sumting wrong with my *****, very scared ar.. =(..
smile??
When there's trouble, you know who to call
(TEEN TITANS!)
From their tower, they can see it all
(TEEN TITANS!)
When there's evil on the attack
You can rest knowing they got your back
'Cause when the world needs heroes on patrol
TEEN TITANS, GO!
TEEN TITANS, GO!
With their super powers, they unite
(TEEN TITANS!)
Never met a villain that they liked
(TEEN TITANS!)
They got the bad guys on the run
They never stop until the job gets done
'Cause when the world is losing all control
TEEN TITANS, GO!
TEEN TITANS, GO!
If your heart is black, you better watch out
You cannot escape the team
When they catch you, there won't be any doubt
You've been beaten by the teens
beaten by the teens
T-E-E-N! T-I-T-A-N-S! TEEN TITANS! LET'S GO!
T-E-E-N! T-I-T-A-N-S! TEEN TITANS! LET'S GO!
T-E-E-N! T-I-T-A-N-S! TEEN TITANS! LET'S GO!
T-E-E-N! T-I-T-A-N-S! TEEN TITANS! LET'S GO!
One, two, three, four, GO! TEEN TITANS!
[things to put in here..]
not feeling dat fantastic yeah.. but ok2 lah.. hey people, listen up! haz tak sakit lah! dier ikot bulan jer.. (cam bocor gitu hahaha.. oppsss!!) siting like a duck here nuting to do.. i downloaded songs , i mean, sttooooopppiddd songs lah.. imagine hazlami shaking his ass to TEEN TITANS THEME SONG( by the way, for those idiots who dunno wad tis means, its not about BIG GIANT TEENS SHAKING THEIR BALLS, but a cartoon show lar.. muahahaha..) fun lah the song.. miss all those childhood shit..
wanna noe bout my childhood life.. oh cumon! i noe ur waiting for it.. okok.. i tell ya k.. ps: as long as u all dun sleep sua.. if not, im goona gif u one power ranger nyer slap muahaha
i spent most of my time playing at home wif my brother.. not those like, sega sets or wad lah.. u noe, toys like lego and stuff (muahaha.. i nuilt better robots den my brother.. but f*** man, he always gets to be leader hahaha).. den u noe, one cute thing dat happen is dat we got workde up in books until we actually 'PLAYED' them out.. we put and aligned pillows to make a bridge, then we acted as billy goats whilst my muma be the great ugly orc (no offence mama, ur not ugly lar.. haha.. u still look young despite going 43 hahaha.. bedek2..=p) then my bro will go like ," Dun eat me, i haf a big brother name BIG BILLY GOAT GRUFF.. He is FATTER and BIGGER than me.." so my muma will say, " ok then, u can pass to the meadow.."
my turn will be wen the BIG GOAT GRUFF ( like real sae.. my body like one piece onie, wind blow become human kite muahahaha) ram its head to the *** of the troll, or orc, or wadever.. so once again, the day is safe! thanks to, the POWER PUFF GURLS.. YIPPE!! muahaha...
but my bro was the weaker species.. for me, i went out to catch spiders, frogs, tadpole, and more.. love to get dirty, i dare say.. (but im clean, yeah.. smell nice too hahaha =p) so off i go and play play..
and OH YES!!! lupe plak..! the BEDAK INCIDENT WAHAHAHA!! this involves the GREAT DEVIL HIMSELF (for those who dunno who is the devil, den i suggest u go and knock ur head or sumting.. muahaha), kak nana and my angelic bro (LIKE REAL!! BUAT BODOH!!) . We started off wen i had this AMAZING IDEA i learn from SESAME'S STREET (love ernie, muack!! hehehe) i saw this guy skating across the ice platform.. thoughts run thru my head (like jimmy neutron, the brain like goes whoosssh and bang..! hahaha) and SUDDENLY!! (all the trouble seems so far away.. oo yesterday, leave silently.. hahha.. smangat beatles plak..!) had this GREEEAAAAT idea! took my JOHNSON&JOHNSON baby powder, and thought, "hmm.. to reduce the force applied by fricton, the surface of the jagged floor must be either polished or replaced by a smooth surface.. hence, this creates a smooth laminar plane that ables the foot of a human to slide on the surface, creating a temporary ice platform.. The more the powder, the better..." (wah, small2 like einstein aready ar? power!!) So i poured almost half the bottle of powder, smooth it with ma feet, and just did a Moon Walk hahaha.. Lil did i realise dat it attracted the attention of kak nana, my beloved cuzzin.. so she herself slide off the floor.. ma brother, looking bored, thought of not joining the party, but god noes how he manage to bring up his fat a** and join us muahaha.. EVIL, AM I???
thought i was a cowboy, took a rafia string, circle it high above me, and threw it in the air.. it flew like a UFO (UFO??? NOT RELEVANT LAH!!) and landed itself on the chandelier (did i spelt it rite?) and i slipped.. God! it pulld edown a few diamonds (fake ones lah.. can get it from groceires near u, put in 50cent, turn the knob, and hey presto, the diamond cum out muahaha) wimme.. hahaha.. got screwed up lah later.. wif kak nana skali isk isk isk.. the devil at work.. muahaha!
enuf of the childhood crap lah haz..
okok, yesterday was SUPER COOL!! ok, morn, wake up for sahur, wash face, sleep, wake up, pray subur, study AKIDAH and TAFSIRAN (its religous subjects lah.. one about faith, the other the understanding of the HOLY QURAN), went to AR RAUDHAH, meet RAHIM and SALIHIN (eh mat, cum AJC ar.. we here like stoopid ppl lacking malays... HIDOP MELAYU!! leh jugak aku main kompang ), did the test (freaking easy lah.. except the part where they gif u an excerpt of the Quran, and ask u to intreprete it.. Tougher than Malay literature sae..! But either than dat, eazy ar..), watch the ARRAUDHAH DIKIR BARAT (sux like shit.. shud haf let me sing instead of dat guy.. he sounds like a hound dog! AUOOOO..) , went home and took my ol' amaths textbk, gif it to RAHIM, then went out wif him play CS (for those , sigh, dumbs one, the Great One reluctantly explains dat CS is Counterstrike, a lan-gaming army tactical warfare game..), then went home, watch Farenheit 911 on tv (padan muke Bush, Babi Bush Kasi Bomb hahahaha), den received a call from a fren, then went out wif her (kirekan accompany her to GreenRidge beli nasi ayam pasal berat... LOGIK??? tapi takpe.. student aku pe.. takmo hampe dier hehehe), bebual nak mati, after dat, break fast (my lil bro got all nasty and wanted to eat the whole packet of chicken rice, despite his small stomach hahaha..) den prayed terawih at home ngan family, den taught my lil bor (apparently, this annoying kiddo hadta be taught a lesson.. i always 'enjoy' teaching him.. muahaha.. if u get wad i mean) den talked to my dear best fren BRENNAN!!! (ey, thanks for ur help man! ) on the phone, watched tv abit more, then went to sleep.. after dat, at 3 freaking mornin shahraini smsed me just to ask whether i had the mood to go fer ml A klass ?? wad the hell?? hahaha.. sorie mate.. =)
now still shaking my a** to the beat of TEEN TITANS THEME SONG (hopefully, u guys get the pic how childish and naive i am hehehehehe).. T.E.E.N T.I.T.A.NS, TEEN TITANS, lets go!!!!!
a snippet to include...
LOVE A PERSON THY HIS STRENGTH, NOT HATE HIM BY HIS FLAWS...
here and back again...
still thinking of u...
not feeling dat fantastic yeah.. but ok2 lah.. hey people, listen up! haz tak sakit lah! dier ikot bulan jer.. (cam bocor gitu hahaha.. oppsss!!) siting like a duck here nuting to do.. i downloaded songs , i mean, sttooooopppiddd songs lah.. imagine hazlami shaking his ass to TEEN TITANS THEME SONG( by the way, for those idiots who dunno wad tis means, its not about BIG GIANT TEENS SHAKING THEIR BALLS, but a cartoon show lar.. muahahaha..) fun lah the song.. miss all those childhood shit..
wanna noe bout my childhood life.. oh cumon! i noe ur waiting for it.. okok.. i tell ya k.. ps: as long as u all dun sleep sua.. if not, im goona gif u one power ranger nyer slap muahaha
i spent most of my time playing at home wif my brother.. not those like, sega sets or wad lah.. u noe, toys like lego and stuff (muahaha.. i nuilt better robots den my brother.. but f*** man, he always gets to be leader hahaha).. den u noe, one cute thing dat happen is dat we got workde up in books until we actually 'PLAYED' them out.. we put and aligned pillows to make a bridge, then we acted as billy goats whilst my muma be the great ugly orc (no offence mama, ur not ugly lar.. haha.. u still look young despite going 43 hahaha.. bedek2..=p) then my bro will go like ," Dun eat me, i haf a big brother name BIG BILLY GOAT GRUFF.. He is FATTER and BIGGER than me.." so my muma will say, " ok then, u can pass to the meadow.."
my turn will be wen the BIG GOAT GRUFF ( like real sae.. my body like one piece onie, wind blow become human kite muahahaha) ram its head to the *** of the troll, or orc, or wadever.. so once again, the day is safe! thanks to, the POWER PUFF GURLS.. YIPPE!! muahaha...
but my bro was the weaker species.. for me, i went out to catch spiders, frogs, tadpole, and more.. love to get dirty, i dare say.. (but im clean, yeah.. smell nice too hahaha =p) so off i go and play play..
and OH YES!!! lupe plak..! the BEDAK INCIDENT WAHAHAHA!! this involves the GREAT DEVIL HIMSELF (for those who dunno who is the devil, den i suggest u go and knock ur head or sumting.. muahaha), kak nana and my angelic bro (LIKE REAL!! BUAT BODOH!!) . We started off wen i had this AMAZING IDEA i learn from SESAME'S STREET (love ernie, muack!! hehehe) i saw this guy skating across the ice platform.. thoughts run thru my head (like jimmy neutron, the brain like goes whoosssh and bang..! hahaha) and SUDDENLY!! (all the trouble seems so far away.. oo yesterday, leave silently.. hahha.. smangat beatles plak..!) had this GREEEAAAAT idea! took my JOHNSON&JOHNSON baby powder, and thought, "hmm.. to reduce the force applied by fricton, the surface of the jagged floor must be either polished or replaced by a smooth surface.. hence, this creates a smooth laminar plane that ables the foot of a human to slide on the surface, creating a temporary ice platform.. The more the powder, the better..." (wah, small2 like einstein aready ar? power!!) So i poured almost half the bottle of powder, smooth it with ma feet, and just did a Moon Walk hahaha.. Lil did i realise dat it attracted the attention of kak nana, my beloved cuzzin.. so she herself slide off the floor.. ma brother, looking bored, thought of not joining the party, but god noes how he manage to bring up his fat a** and join us muahaha.. EVIL, AM I???
thought i was a cowboy, took a rafia string, circle it high above me, and threw it in the air.. it flew like a UFO (UFO??? NOT RELEVANT LAH!!) and landed itself on the chandelier (did i spelt it rite?) and i slipped.. God! it pulld edown a few diamonds (fake ones lah.. can get it from groceires near u, put in 50cent, turn the knob, and hey presto, the diamond cum out muahaha) wimme.. hahaha.. got screwed up lah later.. wif kak nana skali isk isk isk.. the devil at work.. muahaha!
enuf of the childhood crap lah haz..
okok, yesterday was SUPER COOL!! ok, morn, wake up for sahur, wash face, sleep, wake up, pray subur, study AKIDAH and TAFSIRAN (its religous subjects lah.. one about faith, the other the understanding of the HOLY QURAN), went to AR RAUDHAH, meet RAHIM and SALIHIN (eh mat, cum AJC ar.. we here like stoopid ppl lacking malays... HIDOP MELAYU!! leh jugak aku main kompang ), did the test (freaking easy lah.. except the part where they gif u an excerpt of the Quran, and ask u to intreprete it.. Tougher than Malay literature sae..! But either than dat, eazy ar..), watch the ARRAUDHAH DIKIR BARAT (sux like shit.. shud haf let me sing instead of dat guy.. he sounds like a hound dog! AUOOOO..) , went home and took my ol' amaths textbk, gif it to RAHIM, then went out wif him play CS (for those , sigh, dumbs one, the Great One reluctantly explains dat CS is Counterstrike, a lan-gaming army tactical warfare game..), then went home, watch Farenheit 911 on tv (padan muke Bush, Babi Bush Kasi Bomb hahahaha), den received a call from a fren, then went out wif her (kirekan accompany her to GreenRidge beli nasi ayam pasal berat... LOGIK??? tapi takpe.. student aku pe.. takmo hampe dier hehehe), bebual nak mati, after dat, break fast (my lil bro got all nasty and wanted to eat the whole packet of chicken rice, despite his small stomach hahaha..) den prayed terawih at home ngan family, den taught my lil bor (apparently, this annoying kiddo hadta be taught a lesson.. i always 'enjoy' teaching him.. muahaha.. if u get wad i mean) den talked to my dear best fren BRENNAN!!! (ey, thanks for ur help man! ) on the phone, watched tv abit more, then went to sleep.. after dat, at 3 freaking mornin shahraini smsed me just to ask whether i had the mood to go fer ml A klass ?? wad the hell?? hahaha.. sorie mate.. =)
now still shaking my a** to the beat of TEEN TITANS THEME SONG (hopefully, u guys get the pic how childish and naive i am hehehehehe).. T.E.E.N T.I.T.A.NS, TEEN TITANS, lets go!!!!!
a snippet to include...
LOVE A PERSON THY HIS STRENGTH, NOT HATE HIM BY HIS FLAWS...
here and back again...
still thinking of u...
Saturday, October 30, 2004
[heyz..=) good mood ya!!]
firstly, i wud like to extend an apology to bren (he complain i wrote in ml too much..muahaha.. mcm aku kesah gitu?) but then again, since his my best mate, from now i shall write in "PURE" english..muahahaha
secondly, i wanna extend an apology to dearie, for all my wrongdoings, my bad mouths, my unintentional crap, and etc.. all those words realli hurt u, and haish.. i hope i cud lift the pain away.. and change it.. with beautiful words and poems.. i will.. and i'll make up to u.. not goin to argue, say bad words, say crap things and most impt, not going to let my feelings run wild.. that's my beast, yeah.. im goin to contain him in me and not let him run lose.. i hope u forgive me, if u read this.. im sorie, from the bottom of my heart.. and i hope, that we cud be close friends like before.. hazlami will be back, i promise.. and he is in me now.. typing away.. i noe its sound hard to rebuilt the house of sand, but i wun ever gif up.. never will.. =) and wadever it is, i know noe the true meaning of love.. where u love sum1 without asking the favour in return.. thats it.. yupz.. ppl say im crazy, but i dun care.. i love u, before, now, forever.. i miss u, every step i take, two steps go closer to u.. every second ticks away, forever cums by.. my feelings never change, and i dun care whether ur feelings for me change.. cuz i remember, my bro said to me.. if u realli love her, u dun ask her aniting.. her safety, her happiness, her life.. is more impt than repaying back.. even if it hurts, it is worth it.. i wun gif up.. never.. and i'll pray hard..
thirdly, i wanna extend a hand of appreaction to my frens and family members (dat includes kak nana too..hehehe) for their support and encouragement.. especially bren! my bestfren! linla! ml ppl @ajc like adib n diana!my beloved brother! my sweetheart father n mummy syg! my two satanic but yes, beloved (with great heaviness) lil brothers najiy n nasrun (sigh! hahaha) my two students! my two adoring grandfather and mother! my bantal busok(in case bren doenst noe, it is ur smelly pillow hahaha) JC2 kompang guys! NWO! can't miss isz next bash!VJ and the tl gang!haha also not to forget, hmm.. dearie.. for showing me the meaning of love and care.. for giving me the happiness and miracles in my life.. and great special memories.. wud u be my special fren?
lastly..hmm.. wanna sleep liao haha.. cudnt sleep lar.. had taught my student today.. tmr dae say got pw and project wadevers @ tan tock seng.. not sure MONSTER wud let me go (this means, bren, sigh, my father hahaha) surely security guard (again, my mum sigh) wud let me go.. but due to sum unavoidable stuff im unable to convince them lar.. shithead ryte..
haha..in good mood.. dunno why.. maybe cuz of my student's unintentional anti-depresant pills haha.. she kept laughing lah.. now contagius sae.. haha.. muke cute plak tu ketawe.. haha.. but muz teach lah, they got exams.. ALAMAK! i forgot! i got religiois test f*** hahah..
hey VJ, sorie dei.. we still bros ryte.. one day we dance mahive want want!?! haha.. cam betol jer (again bren, very lazy to translate duh!)
promnite cumin liao.. tmr signig up for the alumni idol.. gonna sing liao.. any suggestion of any songs?? (btw, i heard shaheeda drug sae my voice 'punyerlah sedap' wen i sing the hari raya song. Compliment>?? hell yeah!! hahahahaha) planning to go shop2 with dearie, or bren.. kene smart2 kan, haha.. still hafta wear suitable suits match2 one ar..
sick?? am i?? no lah!! im okie now..! will be, i tink! but no worries man! im okie, serious! im as healthy as the lil birds in the sky (excluding big bird from sesame's street cuz she's too freaking big hahaha..GIANT?) love ernie and rubber ducky..
no relevance?? haha.. BUAT BODOH!! THIS IS MY BLOG GOD HEAVENS! I CAN SAY WADEVER I WANT HAHAHAHAHHA( like evil king liddat haha)
hey, stop lah haz.. i tink its enuf.. go sleep lar.. need to tc of urself..
here and back again..
love u, miss u, need u..
firstly, i wud like to extend an apology to bren (he complain i wrote in ml too much..muahaha.. mcm aku kesah gitu?) but then again, since his my best mate, from now i shall write in "PURE" english..muahahaha
secondly, i wanna extend an apology to dearie, for all my wrongdoings, my bad mouths, my unintentional crap, and etc.. all those words realli hurt u, and haish.. i hope i cud lift the pain away.. and change it.. with beautiful words and poems.. i will.. and i'll make up to u.. not goin to argue, say bad words, say crap things and most impt, not going to let my feelings run wild.. that's my beast, yeah.. im goin to contain him in me and not let him run lose.. i hope u forgive me, if u read this.. im sorie, from the bottom of my heart.. and i hope, that we cud be close friends like before.. hazlami will be back, i promise.. and he is in me now.. typing away.. i noe its sound hard to rebuilt the house of sand, but i wun ever gif up.. never will.. =) and wadever it is, i know noe the true meaning of love.. where u love sum1 without asking the favour in return.. thats it.. yupz.. ppl say im crazy, but i dun care.. i love u, before, now, forever.. i miss u, every step i take, two steps go closer to u.. every second ticks away, forever cums by.. my feelings never change, and i dun care whether ur feelings for me change.. cuz i remember, my bro said to me.. if u realli love her, u dun ask her aniting.. her safety, her happiness, her life.. is more impt than repaying back.. even if it hurts, it is worth it.. i wun gif up.. never.. and i'll pray hard..
thirdly, i wanna extend a hand of appreaction to my frens and family members (dat includes kak nana too..hehehe) for their support and encouragement.. especially bren! my bestfren! linla! ml ppl @ajc like adib n diana!my beloved brother! my sweetheart father n mummy syg! my two satanic but yes, beloved (with great heaviness) lil brothers najiy n nasrun (sigh! hahaha) my two students! my two adoring grandfather and mother! my bantal busok(in case bren doenst noe, it is ur smelly pillow hahaha) JC2 kompang guys! NWO! can't miss isz next bash!VJ and the tl gang!haha also not to forget, hmm.. dearie.. for showing me the meaning of love and care.. for giving me the happiness and miracles in my life.. and great special memories.. wud u be my special fren?
lastly..hmm.. wanna sleep liao haha.. cudnt sleep lar.. had taught my student today.. tmr dae say got pw and project wadevers @ tan tock seng.. not sure MONSTER wud let me go (this means, bren, sigh, my father hahaha) surely security guard (again, my mum sigh) wud let me go.. but due to sum unavoidable stuff im unable to convince them lar.. shithead ryte..
haha..in good mood.. dunno why.. maybe cuz of my student's unintentional anti-depresant pills haha.. she kept laughing lah.. now contagius sae.. haha.. muke cute plak tu ketawe.. haha.. but muz teach lah, they got exams.. ALAMAK! i forgot! i got religiois test f*** hahah..
hey VJ, sorie dei.. we still bros ryte.. one day we dance mahive want want!?! haha.. cam betol jer (again bren, very lazy to translate duh!)
promnite cumin liao.. tmr signig up for the alumni idol.. gonna sing liao.. any suggestion of any songs?? (btw, i heard shaheeda drug sae my voice 'punyerlah sedap' wen i sing the hari raya song. Compliment>?? hell yeah!! hahahahaha) planning to go shop2 with dearie, or bren.. kene smart2 kan, haha.. still hafta wear suitable suits match2 one ar..
sick?? am i?? no lah!! im okie now..! will be, i tink! but no worries man! im okie, serious! im as healthy as the lil birds in the sky (excluding big bird from sesame's street cuz she's too freaking big hahaha..GIANT?) love ernie and rubber ducky..
no relevance?? haha.. BUAT BODOH!! THIS IS MY BLOG GOD HEAVENS! I CAN SAY WADEVER I WANT HAHAHAHAHHA( like evil king liddat haha)
hey, stop lah haz.. i tink its enuf.. go sleep lar.. need to tc of urself..
here and back again..
love u, miss u, need u..
Wednesday, October 27, 2004
[WALK OUT FROM A BATTLE, be brave haz..]
im back phoenix.. miss ya soo much.. i hate there.. its quiet, dark, and more.. i want to be wif u.. flying high up in the sky.. with flames trailing the air.. with songs of pure love..
very weak now.. felt bad i didnt told ma parents i went back skewl immediately i was discharged.. i need to go.. i must go.. i've been the one from the scratch.. i spent alot of time setting up this event wif tldds.. my hardwork and sweat.. all those times i practiced.. haish.. but now, i cant dance.. at least i cud sing ryte.. i hope..
im sick phoenix.. back to where im started.. all those times i thot i cud be ok, but its back.. evil is back.. and im weaken by this onslaught.. too tired ar..
fainted ya noe, after i taught tuision at Ain's house.. i woke up feeling dizzy and confused.. my father was there.. my mum was hugging me.. the time i was away in slumberland.. i was soo happy.. i was wif u.. flying here and there.. no pain in the heart.. no pain in my body.. my soul was a free kite.. i was wif an angel.. instead of darkness, i saw light.. an angel was wif me.. mummy says went i was semiconscious, i kept saying "ALLAH, ALLAH, ALLAH.." i wanted to be wif Him.. to be wif Him in a place of nowhere, where there's love.. happiness.. tears was pouring my eyes wen i was unconscious.. God, why didnt u take my life.. why did u put me back to this weak body facing cruelty.. not tat i want to gif upm God.. but i want to be wif u.. where i'll be loved by ur angels..
she wun forsake me..im loving angels instead..
i woke up, feeling so freaking weak.. in the morn, i saw myself in the same place 3years ago.. wif the same things on my mind.. same things in my heart.. haish.. here and back again, i dare say..
so it was the usual stuff.. not gonna tell ya wad happen.. my secret.. no1 must noe now.. my trust is gone.. and im back where i started phoenix.. so i say now, like i say 3years ago.. ~i'll be ok, i wun tell anyone, make ppl smile, make ppl laugh, and i'll be happy..pour out my love and care to others, and hide my pain and sorrow for others.. freedom will be gained soon, and i'll be strong, alone.. ppl die alone, so this is my path.. thorns here and there.. but i'll be walking it alone.. to God.. where He wud gif me blessings there..~
walking in a path of thorns alone is better, cuz angels will be there wif me.. holding my hand as i walk towards God.. Everything that is created, will return to God.. God, if tis is wad u give me, the pain.. I'll accept it.. Love me God, and dun hate me, cuz i haf no frens here in this world who wud love me more than u do.. u wun break ur promise, ryte God.. Love me pls, God, for im really weak and need ur love for me to continue my story.. protect me God, from the pain im feeling now.. make me strong God, for u're the only one who cud.. God, help me pls.. help me pls..
I'll be fine, phoenix.. and thanks to those who came and visited me.. so noce of all of u.. aish, noni, mira, ain, bik ita, cuzzie aizud and atiqah, and of corse, mama, papa, adeq najiy and nasrun.. and of course, abang anul.. i love u, abg.. i promise u i'll be a good brother.. i think its in pur blood that we receive pain and thorns.. we can make it, abg.. kat sini tak kekal, abg.. kat sane abadi, abg.. kat saner, kite ngan Tuhan.. tak perlu sedih nor sakit.. we'll be bless wif love we need.. we can do it, we're together in this.. u're always there for me.. remember, dat day wen sum1 took my bus card, but u took it back and gave it tome.. i was so priud to haf a brother like u, who cared bout me, but never say it.. but ur actions say it all.. words can be just words, abg.. but actions says it all, kan.. we can make it, abg.. wen u touch my head before u left me at that place, i was so happy.. cuz u really meant it.. saw the sincerity and love of a brother to a brother.. =) im crying now, im sori i was weak.. i wun let u down, kae..
and yes, thanks everyone for ur msges and tapping-shoulders.. i really need them.. bestfren, u'll always be my best fren...=)
im singing tmr.. lalala.. no mood to sing.. and yes, diana, if ur reading this, thank u.. thank u for giving me those hands to pull me up.. and ml boys nad gurls, especially adib, who is a very caring fren..
dearie, she came.. it was great fun, cuz i hafnt seen her for like decades.. tok like 2hrs, =).. i hope u now realise and believe wad im going thru.. and im nw eating ur biscuits.. hehe.. thanks for cumin.. really appreciate it.. still loving u and missing u.....
need to sleep now.. getting tired and weak.. bubyyee..
here and back again
i love u, dearie... forever...
im back phoenix.. miss ya soo much.. i hate there.. its quiet, dark, and more.. i want to be wif u.. flying high up in the sky.. with flames trailing the air.. with songs of pure love..
very weak now.. felt bad i didnt told ma parents i went back skewl immediately i was discharged.. i need to go.. i must go.. i've been the one from the scratch.. i spent alot of time setting up this event wif tldds.. my hardwork and sweat.. all those times i practiced.. haish.. but now, i cant dance.. at least i cud sing ryte.. i hope..
im sick phoenix.. back to where im started.. all those times i thot i cud be ok, but its back.. evil is back.. and im weaken by this onslaught.. too tired ar..
fainted ya noe, after i taught tuision at Ain's house.. i woke up feeling dizzy and confused.. my father was there.. my mum was hugging me.. the time i was away in slumberland.. i was soo happy.. i was wif u.. flying here and there.. no pain in the heart.. no pain in my body.. my soul was a free kite.. i was wif an angel.. instead of darkness, i saw light.. an angel was wif me.. mummy says went i was semiconscious, i kept saying "ALLAH, ALLAH, ALLAH.." i wanted to be wif Him.. to be wif Him in a place of nowhere, where there's love.. happiness.. tears was pouring my eyes wen i was unconscious.. God, why didnt u take my life.. why did u put me back to this weak body facing cruelty.. not tat i want to gif upm God.. but i want to be wif u.. where i'll be loved by ur angels..
she wun forsake me..im loving angels instead..
i woke up, feeling so freaking weak.. in the morn, i saw myself in the same place 3years ago.. wif the same things on my mind.. same things in my heart.. haish.. here and back again, i dare say..
so it was the usual stuff.. not gonna tell ya wad happen.. my secret.. no1 must noe now.. my trust is gone.. and im back where i started phoenix.. so i say now, like i say 3years ago.. ~i'll be ok, i wun tell anyone, make ppl smile, make ppl laugh, and i'll be happy..pour out my love and care to others, and hide my pain and sorrow for others.. freedom will be gained soon, and i'll be strong, alone.. ppl die alone, so this is my path.. thorns here and there.. but i'll be walking it alone.. to God.. where He wud gif me blessings there..~
walking in a path of thorns alone is better, cuz angels will be there wif me.. holding my hand as i walk towards God.. Everything that is created, will return to God.. God, if tis is wad u give me, the pain.. I'll accept it.. Love me God, and dun hate me, cuz i haf no frens here in this world who wud love me more than u do.. u wun break ur promise, ryte God.. Love me pls, God, for im really weak and need ur love for me to continue my story.. protect me God, from the pain im feeling now.. make me strong God, for u're the only one who cud.. God, help me pls.. help me pls..
I'll be fine, phoenix.. and thanks to those who came and visited me.. so noce of all of u.. aish, noni, mira, ain, bik ita, cuzzie aizud and atiqah, and of corse, mama, papa, adeq najiy and nasrun.. and of course, abang anul.. i love u, abg.. i promise u i'll be a good brother.. i think its in pur blood that we receive pain and thorns.. we can make it, abg.. kat sini tak kekal, abg.. kat sane abadi, abg.. kat saner, kite ngan Tuhan.. tak perlu sedih nor sakit.. we'll be bless wif love we need.. we can do it, we're together in this.. u're always there for me.. remember, dat day wen sum1 took my bus card, but u took it back and gave it tome.. i was so priud to haf a brother like u, who cared bout me, but never say it.. but ur actions say it all.. words can be just words, abg.. but actions says it all, kan.. we can make it, abg.. wen u touch my head before u left me at that place, i was so happy.. cuz u really meant it.. saw the sincerity and love of a brother to a brother.. =) im crying now, im sori i was weak.. i wun let u down, kae..
and yes, thanks everyone for ur msges and tapping-shoulders.. i really need them.. bestfren, u'll always be my best fren...=)
im singing tmr.. lalala.. no mood to sing.. and yes, diana, if ur reading this, thank u.. thank u for giving me those hands to pull me up.. and ml boys nad gurls, especially adib, who is a very caring fren..
dearie, she came.. it was great fun, cuz i hafnt seen her for like decades.. tok like 2hrs, =).. i hope u now realise and believe wad im going thru.. and im nw eating ur biscuits.. hehe.. thanks for cumin.. really appreciate it.. still loving u and missing u.....
need to sleep now.. getting tired and weak.. bubyyee..
here and back again
i love u, dearie... forever...
Monday, October 25, 2004
I sit and wait
Does an angel contemplate my faith?
And do they know
The places where we go
When we're gray and old?
'Cause I've been told
That salvation lets their wings unfold
So when I'm lying in my bed
Thoughts running through my head
And I feel the love is dead
I'm loving angels instead
And through it all she offers me protection
A lot of love and affection
Whether I'm right or wrong
And down the waterfall
Wherever it may take me
I know that life won't break me
When I come to call
She won't forsake me
I'm loving angels instead
When I'm feeling weak
And my pain walks down a one way street
I look above
And I know I'll always be blessed with love
And as the feeling grows
She breathes flesh to my bones
And when love is dead
I'm loving angels instead
And through it all she offers me protection
A lot of love and affection
Whether I'm right or wrong
And down the waterfall
Wherever it may take me
I know that life won't break me
When I come to call
She won't forsake me
I'm loving angels instead
And through it all she offers me protection
A lot of love and affection
Whether I'm right or wrong
And down the waterfall
Wherever it may take me
I know that life won't break me
When I come to call
She won't forsake me
I'm loving angels instead
still loving u....
Saturday, October 23, 2004
[hAte pw..][v tired, nervous, scared..??]
pagi2 im at my com typing to ya, phoenix.. shitlah, the stoopid pw.. ade rehearsal jap agi.. report kul 8am, but my frens haven pass me the pp yet to me sae.. they tink i wad, skill ar?? BUAT BODOH!!
Bingit sae.. sabar2.. dahlah smlm tak mengajar, got msg ORANG TU, tapi tak jawab sae.. adelah org pat sini tunggu cam buah nak jatuh.. haish..
still depress though.. doc recommend me taking a few anti-depressant pills, those like chill pills.. mampos sae liddat.. haish.. mcm aku depress sgt.. memang aku depress, tapi wad the heck?? nowadays, i dun care wad ppl say, tink, hear, smell, taste and bebende sewaktu dgnnya.. mampos lah.. im so freaking tired, let alone all the shit must do, at home kene buat, my personal stuff (not gonna tell this, this is mmy fight, not urs), this pain in the heart.. damn lah.. shud i care wen i really hurts? wen others are happy but im sad? hell lah.
i dun care anymore lah. the toot lah. aku anak melayu, darah kersani mengalirnya darah laksmana melayu. aku anak lelaki, tak mudah goyah. Semua serangan yg mendatang ku tangkis.. tapi, kenapa aku ini tidak sedemikian?? kan pantat namer tu? haish. Bingit2!
abeh kene bastard ngan member sendiri, skarag kene pilih joget, drama ngan nyanyi.. mati lah gini sae.. dahlah rumah jauh, puase plak tu, ade keje luar plak tu..
dan hati ini masih blom pulih kembali.. juga badan yg kian daus, lemah setiap hari.. ingat perang dunia ketiga baru habis, tapi ade lagi plak tu. Tambah pla ade tsunami besar 2ooo gajah import dari india hempas pantat aku. Haish.
Aku harap sesiapa yg tau akan rahsiaku, dun tell anyone. If so, well.. im a person who puts trust first on the line. Dun trust anyone rite now. Y shud i? wen ppl dun believe a shit of me? guess i just hafta trust myself. Hidup kembara. Seorang diri. Lebih bagos. Tak sakit hati. Kalau mati pon sorang pe.
Ade promnite pat skola cck aku. Byk plak tu jr2 aku nak aku gi ngan dorang. BUAT BODOH!! aku mungkin..mungkin.. pegi sorang buat muke steam kodok sua.. lagi bagus.. nyanyi jap, layan brennan, pastu balik lah.. leceh, kene bayar 45 bucks. pakai kene formal plak tu. Nak bergaya? ples lah, aku takde mood nak buat nie semuer..
And, thanks ain (budak aj kite ar), aku ngah depress ko kasi aku senyuman sebesar..erm..besarnya? hahaha... kasi aku happy sikit ar.. abeh maner tak, asek buat aku ketawe jer.. hahaha.. intellectual konon, oh pls.. haha.. tetibe kite bebual serious talk haha.. ape saje.. takpe, at least dier buat aku senyum, btol tak phoenix..
masih tak dapt msg dier. tu memang dah takleh ar. nak contact camaner kan. haish. kalau dikau pergi, tak apelah. Hanya ku tunggu dikau di pintu syurga.. (mcm aku gi syurga gitu, solat lum pass nie masok neraka lagi best muahaha..)
klah, ngah bingit nie. Cao.
hati ini berdegup seganti
tiada bunyi, kian pudar disebalik pepohon
bagai matahari menghilang di ufuk barat
hati ini
di gigit sekali lagi
tiada bunyi
hilang rentak rebana akwali..
still loving u..
here and back again..=(
pagi2 im at my com typing to ya, phoenix.. shitlah, the stoopid pw.. ade rehearsal jap agi.. report kul 8am, but my frens haven pass me the pp yet to me sae.. they tink i wad, skill ar?? BUAT BODOH!!
Bingit sae.. sabar2.. dahlah smlm tak mengajar, got msg ORANG TU, tapi tak jawab sae.. adelah org pat sini tunggu cam buah nak jatuh.. haish..
still depress though.. doc recommend me taking a few anti-depressant pills, those like chill pills.. mampos sae liddat.. haish.. mcm aku depress sgt.. memang aku depress, tapi wad the heck?? nowadays, i dun care wad ppl say, tink, hear, smell, taste and bebende sewaktu dgnnya.. mampos lah.. im so freaking tired, let alone all the shit must do, at home kene buat, my personal stuff (not gonna tell this, this is mmy fight, not urs), this pain in the heart.. damn lah.. shud i care wen i really hurts? wen others are happy but im sad? hell lah.
i dun care anymore lah. the toot lah. aku anak melayu, darah kersani mengalirnya darah laksmana melayu. aku anak lelaki, tak mudah goyah. Semua serangan yg mendatang ku tangkis.. tapi, kenapa aku ini tidak sedemikian?? kan pantat namer tu? haish. Bingit2!
abeh kene bastard ngan member sendiri, skarag kene pilih joget, drama ngan nyanyi.. mati lah gini sae.. dahlah rumah jauh, puase plak tu, ade keje luar plak tu..
dan hati ini masih blom pulih kembali.. juga badan yg kian daus, lemah setiap hari.. ingat perang dunia ketiga baru habis, tapi ade lagi plak tu. Tambah pla ade tsunami besar 2ooo gajah import dari india hempas pantat aku. Haish.
Aku harap sesiapa yg tau akan rahsiaku, dun tell anyone. If so, well.. im a person who puts trust first on the line. Dun trust anyone rite now. Y shud i? wen ppl dun believe a shit of me? guess i just hafta trust myself. Hidup kembara. Seorang diri. Lebih bagos. Tak sakit hati. Kalau mati pon sorang pe.
Ade promnite pat skola cck aku. Byk plak tu jr2 aku nak aku gi ngan dorang. BUAT BODOH!! aku mungkin..mungkin.. pegi sorang buat muke steam kodok sua.. lagi bagus.. nyanyi jap, layan brennan, pastu balik lah.. leceh, kene bayar 45 bucks. pakai kene formal plak tu. Nak bergaya? ples lah, aku takde mood nak buat nie semuer..
And, thanks ain (budak aj kite ar), aku ngah depress ko kasi aku senyuman sebesar..erm..besarnya? hahaha... kasi aku happy sikit ar.. abeh maner tak, asek buat aku ketawe jer.. hahaha.. intellectual konon, oh pls.. haha.. tetibe kite bebual serious talk haha.. ape saje.. takpe, at least dier buat aku senyum, btol tak phoenix..
masih tak dapt msg dier. tu memang dah takleh ar. nak contact camaner kan. haish. kalau dikau pergi, tak apelah. Hanya ku tunggu dikau di pintu syurga.. (mcm aku gi syurga gitu, solat lum pass nie masok neraka lagi best muahaha..)
klah, ngah bingit nie. Cao.
hati ini berdegup seganti
tiada bunyi, kian pudar disebalik pepohon
bagai matahari menghilang di ufuk barat
hati ini
di gigit sekali lagi
tiada bunyi
hilang rentak rebana akwali..
still loving u..
here and back again..=(
Thursday, October 21, 2004
[very tIRED!!! haish. Damn PW ar.]
haish. yep, phoenix, im depress now. been like, sleeping for 8hrs in 3days only. too many things to think about. too many things to do. ML performance drain my energy. PW makes me feel like shit- rush here, rush there, summore got op on sat and haven start anything except finish the slides. Pain in the heart still goes on.. Pain in the head grows. My results like toot. haish.
haish. Thats all i cud say. Tadi pon joget zapin penat nak mati, byk sgt steps tu remember. Summore, PW ruins the whole day lah. haish. Ppl bitch her and there ard me (my PW member lah). BUAT BODOH! ingat aku babu ka?
Abeh skrg ngah tunggu si Khairul tu hantar file dier pasal tolong dier print. Lamer sae tunggu, dari tadi. Ingat aku babuka? BUAT BODOH!
If everyday like tis, Ramadhan dah tak seSPECIAL seperti yg lamer ar. Dulu can pray like 247. Now bz sgt. haish. Semoga Tuhan ampunkan dosaku.
Now cannot msg her liao. Really depressing lah. Haish. Thot i cud help by lending money, but kene tolak suggestion sae. Padahal aku yg bersalah, asek dier jer pakai hp tok aku. Screw u, hazlami. Padan muke kau. Gasaklah, hukuman ko dpt hati yg sakit nie berbaloi betol. Padan muke. Guess its adios-astalavista-say-bubyee for me lah. Haish. Not giving up, but it'll be harder than ever. Haish. Korang ckp mcm senang try lupekan, tapi tak senanglah. Tiap kali im alone, mesti feeling nie dtg kembali, and just ripped me off th hook. Tiap kali rest2, atau duduk borak ngan member budak ml laki, setakat ketawe2 jer, tapi tetap perasaan ini menghantuiku. Guilt, itulah perkataan yg inginku gunakan. Guilt. Haish. Nvm. If tis is it, parting nampak sah menyakiti hati. Tu memang lumrah, phoenix. Aku rasekan, aku lebih baik angkat kaki blah so tak kacau hidup dier. Dier pon, aku rase, dah ok pon, dah dpt terime. Asal aku tak dpt terime? mungkin cinta tulus ini tidak dibalas kembali, atau mungkin aku sygkan dier terlalu byk sehingga aku amek risiko yg dangerous. Ini perasaan takleh aku explain, entah lah. Haish
Sudahlah hazlami. Pijaklah kamu dibumi yg nyata. Terima sahajalah yg dia bukan milikmu disini. Terima sahajalah yg dia hanya seorang manusia dan cinta abadi miliki Tuhan dan Rasul. Haish. Susah lah.
Sudahlah. haish
Its okie, kae haz. Like ade org tu ckp, be strong, and im here, just try and smile byk2..
Here and Back again, again...
still loving u still..
haish. yep, phoenix, im depress now. been like, sleeping for 8hrs in 3days only. too many things to think about. too many things to do. ML performance drain my energy. PW makes me feel like shit- rush here, rush there, summore got op on sat and haven start anything except finish the slides. Pain in the heart still goes on.. Pain in the head grows. My results like toot. haish.
haish. Thats all i cud say. Tadi pon joget zapin penat nak mati, byk sgt steps tu remember. Summore, PW ruins the whole day lah. haish. Ppl bitch her and there ard me (my PW member lah). BUAT BODOH! ingat aku babu ka?
Abeh skrg ngah tunggu si Khairul tu hantar file dier pasal tolong dier print. Lamer sae tunggu, dari tadi. Ingat aku babuka? BUAT BODOH!
If everyday like tis, Ramadhan dah tak seSPECIAL seperti yg lamer ar. Dulu can pray like 247. Now bz sgt. haish. Semoga Tuhan ampunkan dosaku.
Now cannot msg her liao. Really depressing lah. Haish. Thot i cud help by lending money, but kene tolak suggestion sae. Padahal aku yg bersalah, asek dier jer pakai hp tok aku. Screw u, hazlami. Padan muke kau. Gasaklah, hukuman ko dpt hati yg sakit nie berbaloi betol. Padan muke. Guess its adios-astalavista-say-bubyee for me lah. Haish. Not giving up, but it'll be harder than ever. Haish. Korang ckp mcm senang try lupekan, tapi tak senanglah. Tiap kali im alone, mesti feeling nie dtg kembali, and just ripped me off th hook. Tiap kali rest2, atau duduk borak ngan member budak ml laki, setakat ketawe2 jer, tapi tetap perasaan ini menghantuiku. Guilt, itulah perkataan yg inginku gunakan. Guilt. Haish. Nvm. If tis is it, parting nampak sah menyakiti hati. Tu memang lumrah, phoenix. Aku rasekan, aku lebih baik angkat kaki blah so tak kacau hidup dier. Dier pon, aku rase, dah ok pon, dah dpt terime. Asal aku tak dpt terime? mungkin cinta tulus ini tidak dibalas kembali, atau mungkin aku sygkan dier terlalu byk sehingga aku amek risiko yg dangerous. Ini perasaan takleh aku explain, entah lah. Haish
Sudahlah hazlami. Pijaklah kamu dibumi yg nyata. Terima sahajalah yg dia bukan milikmu disini. Terima sahajalah yg dia hanya seorang manusia dan cinta abadi miliki Tuhan dan Rasul. Haish. Susah lah.
Sudahlah. haish
Its okie, kae haz. Like ade org tu ckp, be strong, and im here, just try and smile byk2..
Here and Back again, again...
still loving u still..
im goin to be ok..love u
[the aftermath..but hey, now im back on track, i tink..]
heyz.. just finish pw.. damn pw ar.. dahlah kene buat lastmin biblio pasal si bangang tu (taknak bilang namer, tu mengumpat kan kan.. muahaha) gi hilangkan disket aku penat2 gi buat.. nak marah, nasib baik dearie aku buat aku happy.. and guess wad? i still love her!!! hehehe..
masih tak gif up eh ko nie haz.. haiya.. tapi tu memang cinta tulus kau.. kalau tak diterima, tak kesah.. aku rase, kau sayang dier hingga akhir hayat ko, lagi baik.. pasal ikhlaskan kan..
mesti ar.. not gona gif up, mate.. cuz i love her wif all my heart...
abg bodoh gi bilang semuer.. cheh, pi ns sua.. bagoos jugak, dier masok ns jadi askar (kononnyer jadi laksmana melayu lah tu.. PEGI MAMPOS).. dier masok bulan satu nxt year, tak silap. Ah, padan muke, irritating wart dah blah, hidop aku pon bebas (mcm tauhid rubben ckp, im FLYING WITHOUT BULU) Klakar ar tu.. ko pon leh jalanda.. nak komen suare aku plak tu.. suare dah cam **** (taknak ngumpat, pas bolan posa baru leh kek??!!) pi nyanyi lagu 3 little pigs lah.. muahahaha... abg aku takde pon, gerek jugak.. dier slalu kasi aku antiklimaks nyer smagat.. nak berbaik ngan dearie, pon dier ckp tulah, nilah.. AH!! tak CAYE!!! aku tetap sayang dier, ape ko leh buat huh huh huh? skali nyer lempang hidung sememek baru tau (nie bukan ngumpat, nie FAKTA!!!) muahahaha...
hari nie went back ta skool, teros kene marah.. sedih sae.. tapi at least pass kan phoenix.. ckp aku pemalas, si suare monyet tu (nie chem tutor aku, SERIOUS BENAR suare dier cam AH meng pat mandai zoo@spura) ceh, nanti kau, i will prove melayu tak bodoh!! (macam ye jer, eh phoenix, nanti tak berjaye, koreklah lobang sendiri..)
blahblahblah..pastu buat pw sikit.. pastu dgr CIKGU MAIL!!!! nyer merepek marhaban taik apek(nie hafiz aku ckpkan muahaha) buat sarapan.. entah nape dorang panggil dier apek.. muke apek kot.. haha.. like people say, IN DA BLOOD katelah.. hahaha..
blahblahblah.. den go to ml room go thru article wif suli, (thanks man..!!=) pastu buat dialog sikit.. skali si ain, zawiah, ngan shazeea (tetap akan diriku memanggilmu shazeea kerna nama azra tu buat ko cam lompat tekial2 gitu hahaha) join si garang, drug ngan mak lah.. opps, telupe nak include muni.. ASAL AKU NIE SLALU NGAN POMPUAN!!!! SEDDDDDDIIIIIIIIIHHHHHH!!! kirekan cam khairul ckp, konon2 P.I.M.P, namun, takdaptku terima muka2 korang yg...********* continue lah ar..
pastu nyanyi practice lagu raye.. hmm.. kene nyanyi ngan giant.. pastu tetibe jer ain pon nyanyi haha.. klakar nak mati.. orait jugak ar, aku rase..
si maklah plak sebok ajar drug, garang ngan suli joget zapin..(cam taik jer...muahaha) kene drill sae.. SEEEDDDDDIIIIIIHHHH!!!! hahaha.. muke si garang tu dah hot jer.. sabar, bulan posa dok..
pastukan phoenixz, balik tak sempat gi makan buke pat ang mo kio ngan NIZAR, ADIB (baru gerek kan, kluar ngan laki, ni tak, ngan pompuan jer kekekekekek) ngan ain, zawiah ngan shazeea.. makan teros aku balik..
balik on da way dgr plak lagu jiwang.. den suddenly, i hear the song 'Evergreen' by west;ife (bagi mereka yg tak tau lagu nie, nanti aku nyanyikan kae..BUAT BODOH>>!!!!) teringat jugak dearie aku.. aku tetap syg dier, phoenix.. still love her.. for now, i must be strong and bring back the HAZLAMI u knew to u, dearie.. so that everything will be like before.. now, friends u are to me is truly the best thing i haf in ma life.. and thanks for giving me the wake up call.. haish.. i shud be given a true JITAK di kepale siang2 so dearie tak sedih2.. i broke her heart, haish.. why must i do tis to her?? such a zalim kind-firaun-like me.. haish.. i was screwed at that moment, dearie.. im sorie.. the pain and the heavy guilt in ma heart still lingers, and i believe it wun go away.. i hope we wud be fine, like before, the closest fren u r in my life..
kae.. must go sleep liao.. tmr ade bebende bodoh lagi.. malas nak gi skola.. haish.. takde mood.. summore, ms sab nak ckp ngan aku.. phoeniz, harap2 tak kene marah ar..
now that im in the process of being the lost-but-found hazlami, i'll be back, i promise sha.. and my promise to u still will i keep.. tat is.. im always there if u need me.. juz gimme a call ya..
nak poem?? aku ade ar.. tapi nanti bilang haha.. *i just finish sketching the last tpuch up of my drawing.. hope dearie wud like it..* wanna see her smile to me again.. SMILE????
here and back again..
i love u, dearie..=*
heyz.. just finish pw.. damn pw ar.. dahlah kene buat lastmin biblio pasal si bangang tu (taknak bilang namer, tu mengumpat kan kan.. muahaha) gi hilangkan disket aku penat2 gi buat.. nak marah, nasib baik dearie aku buat aku happy.. and guess wad? i still love her!!! hehehe..
masih tak gif up eh ko nie haz.. haiya.. tapi tu memang cinta tulus kau.. kalau tak diterima, tak kesah.. aku rase, kau sayang dier hingga akhir hayat ko, lagi baik.. pasal ikhlaskan kan..
mesti ar.. not gona gif up, mate.. cuz i love her wif all my heart...
abg bodoh gi bilang semuer.. cheh, pi ns sua.. bagoos jugak, dier masok ns jadi askar (kononnyer jadi laksmana melayu lah tu.. PEGI MAMPOS).. dier masok bulan satu nxt year, tak silap. Ah, padan muke, irritating wart dah blah, hidop aku pon bebas (mcm tauhid rubben ckp, im FLYING WITHOUT BULU) Klakar ar tu.. ko pon leh jalanda.. nak komen suare aku plak tu.. suare dah cam **** (taknak ngumpat, pas bolan posa baru leh kek??!!) pi nyanyi lagu 3 little pigs lah.. muahahaha... abg aku takde pon, gerek jugak.. dier slalu kasi aku antiklimaks nyer smagat.. nak berbaik ngan dearie, pon dier ckp tulah, nilah.. AH!! tak CAYE!!! aku tetap sayang dier, ape ko leh buat huh huh huh? skali nyer lempang hidung sememek baru tau (nie bukan ngumpat, nie FAKTA!!!) muahahaha...
hari nie went back ta skool, teros kene marah.. sedih sae.. tapi at least pass kan phoenix.. ckp aku pemalas, si suare monyet tu (nie chem tutor aku, SERIOUS BENAR suare dier cam AH meng pat mandai zoo@spura) ceh, nanti kau, i will prove melayu tak bodoh!! (macam ye jer, eh phoenix, nanti tak berjaye, koreklah lobang sendiri..)
blahblahblah..pastu buat pw sikit.. pastu dgr CIKGU MAIL!!!! nyer merepek marhaban taik apek(nie hafiz aku ckpkan muahaha) buat sarapan.. entah nape dorang panggil dier apek.. muke apek kot.. haha.. like people say, IN DA BLOOD katelah.. hahaha..
blahblahblah.. den go to ml room go thru article wif suli, (thanks man..!!=) pastu buat dialog sikit.. skali si ain, zawiah, ngan shazeea (tetap akan diriku memanggilmu shazeea kerna nama azra tu buat ko cam lompat tekial2 gitu hahaha) join si garang, drug ngan mak lah.. opps, telupe nak include muni.. ASAL AKU NIE SLALU NGAN POMPUAN!!!! SEDDDDDDIIIIIIIIIHHHHHH!!! kirekan cam khairul ckp, konon2 P.I.M.P, namun, takdaptku terima muka2 korang yg...********* continue lah ar..
pastu nyanyi practice lagu raye.. hmm.. kene nyanyi ngan giant.. pastu tetibe jer ain pon nyanyi haha.. klakar nak mati.. orait jugak ar, aku rase..
si maklah plak sebok ajar drug, garang ngan suli joget zapin..(cam taik jer...muahaha) kene drill sae.. SEEEDDDDDIIIIIIHHHH!!!! hahaha.. muke si garang tu dah hot jer.. sabar, bulan posa dok..
pastukan phoenixz, balik tak sempat gi makan buke pat ang mo kio ngan NIZAR, ADIB (baru gerek kan, kluar ngan laki, ni tak, ngan pompuan jer kekekekekek) ngan ain, zawiah ngan shazeea.. makan teros aku balik..
balik on da way dgr plak lagu jiwang.. den suddenly, i hear the song 'Evergreen' by west;ife (bagi mereka yg tak tau lagu nie, nanti aku nyanyikan kae..BUAT BODOH>>!!!!) teringat jugak dearie aku.. aku tetap syg dier, phoenix.. still love her.. for now, i must be strong and bring back the HAZLAMI u knew to u, dearie.. so that everything will be like before.. now, friends u are to me is truly the best thing i haf in ma life.. and thanks for giving me the wake up call.. haish.. i shud be given a true JITAK di kepale siang2 so dearie tak sedih2.. i broke her heart, haish.. why must i do tis to her?? such a zalim kind-firaun-like me.. haish.. i was screwed at that moment, dearie.. im sorie.. the pain and the heavy guilt in ma heart still lingers, and i believe it wun go away.. i hope we wud be fine, like before, the closest fren u r in my life..
kae.. must go sleep liao.. tmr ade bebende bodoh lagi.. malas nak gi skola.. haish.. takde mood.. summore, ms sab nak ckp ngan aku.. phoeniz, harap2 tak kene marah ar..
now that im in the process of being the lost-but-found hazlami, i'll be back, i promise sha.. and my promise to u still will i keep.. tat is.. im always there if u need me.. juz gimme a call ya..
nak poem?? aku ade ar.. tapi nanti bilang haha.. *i just finish sketching the last tpuch up of my drawing.. hope dearie wud like it..* wanna see her smile to me again.. SMILE????
here and back again..
i love u, dearie..=*
Tuesday, October 19, 2004
[kaulah segalanya: hazrul nizam]
Kau mahu bak segala
Cinta yang ku dahaga
Kehadiran dirimu
Menyinari maka semua hatiku
Kaulah segalanya
Yang menyinari hidupku kasih
Hanya satunya
Yang kucintai
Hulur tanganmu kasih
Sambut cintaku
Jangan tinggalkan daku
Seorang diri
Tak sanggup lagi dilukai oh..
Maafkan daku
Jika salahku
Peristiwa yang pernah ku alami dulu
Aku tahu betapa pahit
Mu menerima sejarah hidupku oh..
Kaulah segalanya
Yang menyinari hidupku kasih
Hanya satunyaYang kucintai
Sambutlah cintaku
Jangan kau pergi dari sisiku
Cintaku padamu
Ikhlas sejati
Cintaku padamu
Ikhlas sejati....
Kau mahu bak segala
Cinta yang ku dahaga
Kehadiran dirimu
Menyinari maka semua hatiku
Kaulah segalanya
Yang menyinari hidupku kasih
Hanya satunya
Yang kucintai
Hulur tanganmu kasih
Sambut cintaku
Jangan tinggalkan daku
Seorang diri
Tak sanggup lagi dilukai oh..
Maafkan daku
Jika salahku
Peristiwa yang pernah ku alami dulu
Aku tahu betapa pahit
Mu menerima sejarah hidupku oh..
Kaulah segalanya
Yang menyinari hidupku kasih
Hanya satunyaYang kucintai
Sambutlah cintaku
Jangan kau pergi dari sisiku
Cintaku padamu
Ikhlas sejati
Cintaku padamu
Ikhlas sejati....
[this is for u, sweetheart..i still love u..]
Mulanya hanya teman biasa
Tiada cinta tiada duka
Hanya senyuman petanya khabar
Hanya gurauan tandanya rakan
Hatiku muskil hingga ke dini hari
Soalan di sanubari belum terhurai lagi
Dari dulu hingga dini
Jawapan dicari masih tersembunyi
"Siapakah dia kepada diriku?"
"Kenapakah dia menjadi teman rapatku?"
Seketika dulu pernah tertanya
Adakah mungkin terpikat sudah
Kepadamu saudara Islamku
Kepadamu teman karibku
Kini jelas dihadapan mata
Jawapan yang kudahaga terbentang jua
Mungkin sudah kujangkaui
Mungkin jua tidak kuakui
Kau hadir dalam gelapku
Menyinari indah kamar sepiku
Bak cahaya menerangi hatiku
Menyuluh jalan yang daku tempuhi
Jika bumi berbelah dua
Andai lautan jadinya bara
Akan ku genggam mu semana daya
Tidak ku tinggalkanmu selagi bernyawa
Kerana kamu insan istimewa
Kerana kamu bernama Aishah
Mulanya hanya teman biasa
Tiada cinta tiada duka
Hanya senyuman petanya khabar
Hanya gurauan tandanya rakan
Hatiku muskil hingga ke dini hari
Soalan di sanubari belum terhurai lagi
Dari dulu hingga dini
Jawapan dicari masih tersembunyi
"Siapakah dia kepada diriku?"
"Kenapakah dia menjadi teman rapatku?"
Seketika dulu pernah tertanya
Adakah mungkin terpikat sudah
Kepadamu saudara Islamku
Kepadamu teman karibku
Kini jelas dihadapan mata
Jawapan yang kudahaga terbentang jua
Mungkin sudah kujangkaui
Mungkin jua tidak kuakui
Kau hadir dalam gelapku
Menyinari indah kamar sepiku
Bak cahaya menerangi hatiku
Menyuluh jalan yang daku tempuhi
Jika bumi berbelah dua
Andai lautan jadinya bara
Akan ku genggam mu semana daya
Tidak ku tinggalkanmu selagi bernyawa
Kerana kamu insan istimewa
Kerana kamu bernama Aishah
Thursday, October 14, 2004
[im sIngIng tOmOrrOw....!!!!! cUm aNd sWay wImme!! Ladies, no photographs ya...hahaha...]
dah lamer tak update aku nie eh.. juz came back from working.. i work, u see.. tuision teacher.. haish.. stress job, but i LOVE to T.E.A.C.H - Talk and Eat but coach Amaths, plus Controlling the Hunger for... hahaha... leave it for u to find out..
tadi ajar gerek jugak.. smlm ajar LAGI GEREK...! i hope all of ma students do well for their respective exams.. i'll be sooo blooody freeeekin proooooud if ya all got good grades ar... just remember ma motto : 'BELIEVE...!?!?!' hahahaha.. mcm betol jer.. i'll continue teaching ya...
im depressed.... .... ....
u can never expect anyone to repay ur kindness back
haish... v tired ar....
im still holding on to you... still thinking of you... fighting for you...
here and back again...
dah lamer tak update aku nie eh.. juz came back from working.. i work, u see.. tuision teacher.. haish.. stress job, but i LOVE to T.E.A.C.H - Talk and Eat but coach Amaths, plus Controlling the Hunger for... hahaha... leave it for u to find out..
tadi ajar gerek jugak.. smlm ajar LAGI GEREK...! i hope all of ma students do well for their respective exams.. i'll be sooo blooody freeeekin proooooud if ya all got good grades ar... just remember ma motto : 'BELIEVE...!?!?!' hahahaha.. mcm betol jer.. i'll continue teaching ya...
im depressed.... .... ....
u can never expect anyone to repay ur kindness back
haish... v tired ar....
im still holding on to you... still thinking of you... fighting for you...
here and back again...
Wednesday, October 13, 2004
If We Hold On Together
Don't lose your way
With each passing day
You've come so far
Don't throw it away
Live believing
Dreams are for weaving
Wonders are waiting to start
Live your story
Faith hope and glory
Hold to the truth in your heart
If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through through tomorrow
Where clouds roll by
For you and I
Souls in the wind
Must learn how to bend
Seek out a star
Hold on to the end
Valley mountain
There is a fountain
Washes our tears all away
Worlds are swaying
Someone is praying
Please let us come home to stay
If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and I
When we are out there in the dark
We dream about the sun
In the dark we'll feel the light
Warm our hearts everyone
If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
As high as souls can fly
The clouds roll by
For you and I ....=)
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