Friday, December 31, 2004

New Year Revelations

Hey look, in a few hours comes New Year!!

Let me share wiv ya sum stuff in my head. (of course, it is full of crap and shit, plus the vomits of bad cabbage and carrots, Y.U.C.K)

Thoe shalt be...
1) A responsible exco member to MLDDS, and pledge loyalty to it (despite me being the "VIRUS" -buat cam Dr Evil tau, ngan jejari2 dier wakakakaka-, who doesnt respect others at all!! wakaka)
2) Responsible and caring brother and son to the family
3) Smiler who always and make fun of others (Y.E.S!!)
4) A charmer who will catch many fish in the pond (pakai recorder adeq aku, pi tiup pat satu korner pat Geylang Serai, wahaha, jgn lupe letak duit ha...)
5) Responsible student who NEVER skips lectures and tutorials and NEVER talk back to fellow teachers of AJC (like real, dis revelation is S.T.U.P.I.D -talk about being the top student for Spelling in primary 1, wakaka-)
6) A good friend to others who needs a friend, and not let the Beast inside me to go thrashing people's doors (haha, talk about privacy, wakaka)

Thou shalt do..
1)good deeds, and don't Kutok org lain (hahaha, dats an irony)
2)my homeworks, and go thru sessions for my cure with full of hopes and pride
3) Sajaks dat wud mesmerize any soul who reads them (haha, L.I.K.E-R.E.A.L)
4) Kutok org nyer pakaian, lebih2 lagik mats and minahs, and bebudak tak Original
5) not do, but TRY to dgr ckp org (im a Naughty Boi, wakakaka)
6) Dance Hip-Hop, and sway like Taufiq Batisah, ma IDOL!! *love him*
7) Love MIGHTY 6, *hope dat there's a space for sumone i knew long ago, but doesn't recognize dat huhuhuhu*
8) create a blog layout, out of my true self, dat says all bout me (gona design one soon, BIG PROJECT AHEAD!!)

Thou shalt NOT do..
1) anything S.T.U.P.I.D! (well, for starters, i have the apt to do stoopid idoistic things even a small mosquito wud never do-wads with the mosquito???)
2) and BEHAVE myself in public
3) fall in love dat easily, wakakakaka
4) masok skola lambat, abeh tipu OM wakaka
5) Easy temperement (easy there, Big Fella.. contain urself, cam kamal ckp, relek broda..)
6) scold others unneccasarily
7) scold or shout bad words dat easily, eg : Phuck, sial, knn, dan bebende sewaktu dgnnyer wakakaka

dats all, i think.. wahaha.. kalo ape2 i add again.. my brain is full of thoughts now..*winks*

PS: Hope ya like the song.. it makes me SWAY like wad say.. kuang kuang kuang!!!

Sad and Lost in the Shadow...

Why must ppl die, dear Lord? Why must this person go away, and leave me, in this cruel world? When can i join this person, Dear Lord? I noe my time will come soon.

Dear Lord, is it painful to die? Does it hurt? The Prophet says it hurts like a thousand blades striking the very skin of the person. Like fish skinned of its scales.

Dear Lord, where do i go after i die? Do i join the people who worships You, or do i suffer the horrendous torture wiv the people who disregarded You? haish.

Dear Lord, how would the angle of death look like when he comes to take my unforgived soul away from this impure body? Will he come wif mencaing face dat breathes fire dat would burn my flesh, or will he smile uncanningly wiv upmost happiness, inviting me to see You? haish.

Dear Lord, I finally realised, dat the reason to life here, is death. For death brings life. This, here, is not life, Lord. Its a test, an obstacle for me to move to the place of eternity. There, in HereAfter, lies Life itself. Where it is everlasting. Where noone wud die. Where i cud love a person FOREVER.

Hakikat hidup ialah mati, kata bapaku yg tersyg. Kerna disana letak Hidup yg sebenar-benarnya.

It brought to my senses, dat i am nothing here. All i cud do now, is to cherish wad i have now. And leave canny life wiv all the good deeds to go to Heaven. To see you, Dear Lord.

Death is nothing but a journey to Life itself. But Dear Lord, why i must live in fear of death itself? Perhaps it is laid before me, wen others were not. Others live happily in maksiat, but i am in confrontation to Death itself.

Dear Lord, punish me for all my wrong doings! Take everything dat i have, cuz it belongs to You. You took my loved one, one at a time. And it hurts me, but i pray, Dear Lord, where others don't.

I know im, praying, for much to much
But cud you sent back, the only person i Loved
I noe, you don't do wad You usually
But Dear Lord, i am dying
to dance wiv my loved ones again...

Dear Lord, i still love this person, and i cudn't let this person go, i've learnt. It's a love so pure, thy God. For i always go to sleep in memories of this person, all the times i share wif the person You took away from me.

Dear Lord, take me away. Wen i have done all that i can here.

Monday, December 27, 2004


kenapa tetiba hati berasa hiba.. dikala ufuk matahri terbenam jua.. aku berteduh bersedih merenung ia.. Ya Allah, tolong lah aku...=( Posted by Hello
hatiku di panah duka.. entah kenapa.. melihat bidadari mengusung jiwa.. harik nie raser cam taik sikit, entah kenape.. tadi nangis tak tentu pasal.. haish... takpelah... aku serah kepada Tuhan.. Posted by Hello

Saturday, December 25, 2004

DiS iS gReAt!!!

hey, i got sum shit news to tell ya!!!

I, Muhd Hazlami anak Zawawi anak Buang anak Sumadi, yg tinggal di Senja Rd, yg org dari bangse Jawer (bukan Boyan lar.. wahaha, nie kes kutok boyan nie, meskipon mak aku boyan wahaha), yg makan di pinggan, minum di cawan, telah at last menjadi jiwang, the haz yg aku tau, bukan budak punk cam sial kerana satu reason.. The Reason (nyanyi sikit, lagu hoobastank tu, ape kak?? Diamlah, ko disrupt lagu blog aku lar taik!! wahahaha)

AKU KLUAR NGAN SI BUDAK TU!!!

AND SIAK ARH!! DIER PAKAI CAM FULL DRESS GITU... aku???? Pakai baju skola steb budak ajc gitu (meskipon aku tak reti lagu anthem skola aku, dan aku suker kutok skola aku, dan slalu dtg lambat, dan slalu biadab ngan gengguru2 ku yg tercinta)..

Tapi...

Yg penting nyer...

Sumhow, aku tertarik ngan dier! Akhirnya, setelah satu bulan aku perang sakit di hati, luka yg padaku tidak dpt ku terima dan tidak dpt ku ubati, ahirnya.. THE ROCK HAS COME BACK!!!

Aku rase cam diriku ini di buayai oleh angin sepoi2 bahaser cenggitu.. and lebih2 lagik, dier manis mat.. aku ngok dier cair nak mampos.. cam mentega Planta di sapu atas periuk panas 400 degres celsius..!

Kiter gi ngok wayang cite KUNGFU HUSTLE (cite gerek mat.. walaupon tak ideal bawak pompuan gi on a first date, tapi cite dier klakar pe.. tunjukkan personality aku yg Lame nie lar, tapi tak seLAME budak BELO tu.. Tak klakar sak.. wahaha kutok member)

pastu, aku ngok dier ketawe, tetibe cam aku happy se happy happy nyerrrrrrrr (kene ikot tune Rindu lagu SPOON, yg penyanyi tu dah mampos, kesian).. siak, tak penah ku alami rase sebegini..

next, time balik, meskipon cam kekok (lar, kate org, cam tak kene gitu, yelah, baru aku kenal pe.. takyah nak expect aper2 dari aku.. kantoi nanti hahaha), tapi pas aku buat joke yg paling lame, pat bus, time aku nak kluar..

DIER KASI AKU SURAT NIE SAK.. abeh, yg teramat best to the max, dlm surat tu ader sajak.. serius, aku cair cam nak mati, mcm dlm kebakaran kat dlm hutan indonesia (sial nyer indon, haze pasal koranglar, sepak hidong baru tau! wahaha)

nak dgr??? yelah, aku kasik dgr ye..

Di kala takbir malam melabuh maya
Luputnya cahaya kencana
Berputik asmara di awangan kasmaran
tersentak lamunan dewi inderanila
Alunan bergema
Bisikan terdengar
Bayang menjelma
Arjun Rajawali bagai alamas berharga
(sampok sikit ye, nie aku, kirekan aku nie arjun=satria, rajawali=burung, cam burong phoenix ler.. hahaha, abehk dier t dewi, inderanila=bidadari dari syurga)
Mengusik hati menusuk jiwa
Arkian akad dilafazkan
Sehati merentasi aral asmaraloka
Agar abadiah jua selamanya...

best tak?? haha.. aku tak tau ar.. tapi smcm perubahan dan bergolakan yg sedang berlaku di dlm atmaku ini.. smcm rasa yg pernah ku alami, tetapi dikecewakan dahulu.. tetapi, raser cam inilah dia.. Dia..

PS: If u're reading dis, i really love it.. Just wanna sae, u're special.. to me.. =)

Tuesday, December 21, 2004

tired lar dai..

PENAT

itu sahajalah yg boleh aku pikirkan skrg.

bukan itu sahaja.

TIDUR

itu pon salah satu yg pat dlm kepale hotak aku.

RAUDHAH

Pon dlm kepale hotak aku. Teringat jer senyuman dier.

LAPAR

itu konfirm. Lum makan.

LEE KUAN YEW

siak nyer org tua, ader ke dier ckp Palestinian-israeli conflict leh compromise dgn regime dier tu. Pemusnah bangsa dan agame aderlah. Si tua nie, haiyoo, biler lah ko nak mati!?! Smagat kalau ckp pasal bangser dier (dahlah koghang tak cebok, muahahaha *mean-), tapi slalu condemn bahase kiter.. Kalo larh adeer Hang Tuah.. Confirm dier tu kene sepak selat melaka.. hahahahaha

ADEQ AKU

buat spoil hari. Dahlarh aku cat banner balik penat, si siak tu ungkit pekare lamer. Balik jer kene lecture ngan mak bapak. Hampeh.

FINAL DESTINATION 2

Aku pinjam pat kedai pat Lot 1. Jap agi nak tengok.

TROY

terbuai mimpi nmpak aku? aku mimpi ikot Achilles pi perang (mermans lahr)

ADIB

Kawan baik aku yg teringinkan seorang kawan yg baik yg leh kasi dier happy. Mesti tolong.

BAPAK SULIYATI

Sedih dgr bapak dier masok hospital pasal kemalangan jalan raye. Dahlah pakcik aku 2 mati kerna kemalangan di jalan raye. Besok gi ngan BELOS lawat arh. (Bapak aku nak buat Air Sejuk kasi dier..)

CHOCOLATE

Teringin benar nak makan ferrero rochet yg mempunyai empu yg lazat cam makan coklat.

ROTI

Takde nutella. Confirm takde mood nak makan roti.

AKU

Kenaper aku cenggini, tetiber cam taik jer. Haha. Mungkin pasal dah mati mood kot. Hampehnyer, takleh tido aku.

slamatz... ... ...

Greeat news!!

Hey ya peeps! Sori lar aku lambat post.. Byk perkare mahu dibincangkan, tapi, as wad aku slalu buat, kiter atur secara formal in points lar ehk.. kk..

Sunday, 12 December 2004

1) Rewang pat majlis perkahwinan abg sedare aku, ABG NIZAM (sak, isteri lawa mat.. unutung ar dier)
2)bebual ngan kak nana pasal ehm ehm (takya explain lar ar.. cume untuk pengetahuan anda, kiter discuss pasal bgr, dimana aku dpt tahu aish bawak matair dier gi umah kak nana, yaitu cuzzie aku yg paling terdekat.. hahahaha.. merepek sae)
3)aku dpt meneroka skill aku sebagai stephen king (cameraman lar, wahahaha, best dok, ko amek in diff angle, abeh time gi sblah pompuan, aku jumpe kawan lamer.. dah jadi sedarelar kiter ehk, wahahaha)
4)Bermesra bersama cuzzie2 aku seperti ABG UDIN, ABG DAUS, ABG LI'IN dan sebagainyer
5) Nak carik ikan cantik, tapi tak berjaye pasal semuer muke cam makcik jual taugeh, wahahaha

Tuesday, 14 December 2004

1) pi ngok citer THE INCREDIBLES bersame kluarge, klakar dok (aku cam terattracted dgn Elastic Gurl, lawa dok wahahaha
2) kali pertame makan KFC SHAKERS wahahaha, sedap mat!

Wednesday, 15 December 2004

1) sekeluarge gi escape theme park
2) naik viking ngan abg aku cam 4 kali, naik yg pusing2 tu cam 4kali, hahaha, sampai bapak aku pening kepale abeh ckp nak muntah (hampeh benar!)
3) ngok budak2 diperbodohkan dlm sesi THE CLASH OF THE RUNES ke ape (luper arh, maap aku pinta).. mcm bodoh jer kene act hahaha.. ader satu budak tua nie, smagat sak nak act, time doghang lawan dgn muke2 dier.. sklai aku sepak dier maut
4) Aku memberanikan diri dgn menaiki VIKING dgn membawak skali video cam aku, abeh kiter naik aku record muke2 aku ngan abg aku, cam taik sak!! wahahaha (the trick fer a better thrill wen riding VIKING is dat, ko kene cam lepas semuer yg ko pegang, baik pompuan sblah ko atau railing, pastu ko cam lompat2 atau tap2 ko nyer feet time bende alah tu jatoh.. confirm ko raser cam air kencing temasok balik wahahahaha)

Sunday, 19 December 2004

1)gi umah kamarul nyer makcik nyer anak nyer perkahwinan pasal kene tolong rewang (gaji pon leh tahan! hahaha)

HOT NEWS matz..

Kk, aku start dari firstlar ehk, aku bangun lambat nak mati, walhal ko kene report in (cam askar gitu, wahaha) cam kul 9 pagi.. aku dtg stab superstar dlm kul 12 tengahari gitu, wahaha.. Sesampai saner je, kene kutok ngan member ML ANTI MATRIP AND MINAH GANG (aku nyer kakis lar.. gerek dok budak2 nie.. dari sec1 kiter bersamer.. hahaha, hidop semati), yg paling giler baba tu, pinggan byk siutt!! Sampai nasir dah cam nak gifup gitu.. Aku cam raser nak pi pukol si penyanyi dangdut ala karaoke tu pat depan majlis, rampas mic dier abeh ckp, " Tis is an announcement. Untok mereka yg makan tapi tak makan, kamu diwajibkan mendaftarkan diri dlm kelab MENCUCI PINGGAN SENDIRI, dan blah. Kpd yg mereka yg makan dan makan, tapi tak nk blah, sedia maklum bahawa majlis akan tutop tidak beberaper lamer lagi. And kpd pakcik2 dan makcik2 yg asek nyanyi lagu dangdut, saya harap anda leh pelankan itu volume pasal ia amat membingitkan telinga kami. Harap maklum"

Sap, stab garang plak aku.. Tapi, aku nak bilang ko satu story hebat nyer.. Time aku sampai jer, aku ternotice satu budak nie.. Lawa dan manis mat.. giler nyer manis, sampai aku leh cair kalo dier senyum.. so aku tau, "it is time..!" (sap, cam nak kiamat jer, wahaha)

Aku bilang kamarul and gang ngan adeq dier skali, tolong aku amek nombor budak nie, ko tau ape kamarul buat?!?!?! si syaithan bangang tu diri pastu gi pat mak budak pompuan tu abeh announce pat satu dunia (wah, exaggerating sak!!) yg aku nak berkenalan ngan anak dier!! Aku dah start suspens to the max nyer.. Raser cam nak masokkan semuer muke aku pat air bekas cuci pinggan yg berwarna jingga.. Time dier dah nak balik, aku dah start panik.. Fikiranku dah jadi cam makcik gaul rojak dlm periuk.. aku dah mula menyesal..

Aku nyer aku berkate (lar, belit plak budak nie), "Padan muke ko, hazlami anak zawawi.. Dah melepas dah.. Muahahahahahahaha"

Aku dah berserah pat Tuhan..

Skali, Tuhan lebih tahu, time dier pass, kawan dier (kiter panggil dier Misha Omar pasal dier nyanyi lagu BUNGA2 CINTA, and untok pengetahuan ramai, aku kene pauto nyanyi lagu SONATA MUSIM SALJU, mentang2 namer aku nak dekat samer ngan penyanyi tu, nasib baik okie jer.. nampak sah cam taik! Tak prepare langsung.. mampos ko hazlami.. camaner nak masok AJ TALENTIME.. asek gamam jer ko.. hey, bukan gamam mat.. MALU!!! wahahahaha) jalan pass kiter, skali satu si fulan nie bernama Rasyid (junior aku ler) pi pekik pat dier, "Ehk Misha, kawan aku nak kawan ngan kawan ko si baju hijau tu!"

Aku dah panik seminit.. Raser cam nak nazak gitu.. Tuhan kasi sak.. Si dier tu (taknak bilang namer dier, koghang nak tau kene blanjer aku minum SLURPEE atau belikan aku Roti Halia, muahahaha) kasi sae.. aku rase cam terhappy, hati aku cam melonjat, otak aku berpusing cam washing machine..

Budak tu baik mat.. Pandai gilerr, lai pandai dari aku.. Abeh baik plak tu.. Pandeh tulis sajak.. Nanti satu hari aku post sajak dier pat sini ehk.. hahaha.. Tapi, korang tau pe, aku ngok mata ngan senyum jer, nie dua ader dah lehk kasi aku cair bak butter atas kepala mak aku, wahahaha..

Bertuah nasib aku.. Dis friday agaknyer, aku bawak dier makan.. Gerek dok budak cenggini.. Sporting, tapi aku pemalu ar.. Time aku type nombor dier pat hp aku, aku menggigil cam vibrate hp aku gitu (mcm samsudin dlm cite SENIMAN BUJANG LAPOK, dier ckp ," angin senggugut baru masok operation", wahahahaha)

*aku dgr aish baru break.. sedih sak.. tak sangka aku terjadi sampai gitu.. tapi at least dier ok pe.. aku harap dier ok.. aku kawan baik dier (tak tau kalau dier treat aku cenggitu skrg, tapi, takmengapalah..) Ini suatu pelajaran, kalau nak carik kawan tu, carik lar betol2 takmo cepat2.. Aku kenal budak nie, mat.. Sifat playboy tu dlm atma dier.. takpe aish.. aku percaya dgn hukum karma.. kalo dier buat kamu sperti gitu, tuhan maha membalas.. Aku kalo nmpak dier pat SP, aku bantai dier, tengok jelah, hahahaha.. Aku byk kawan pat saner.. Abeh Taufiq Batisah pon dari saner (ader releven ke??? hahaha), takpe aish. Remember, dat i once said dat no matter wad, im always there fer ya.. U just hafta gimme a shout.. (pekik mcm tarzan tau, baru aku dgr)*

PS: Sedap tak lagu nie?? hahahaha.. Aku suke Tiara, tau joget sae detu.. Buat aku gelek2..

Slamatz...... ...... .....

Wednesday, December 08, 2004

[BoReD, sAd..]

dis suck man.. sitting like a duck at home.. hearing PUTERI GUNUNG LEDANG song, the one MNASIR sing feat SITI NURHALIZA..

makes me sad.. dunno why.. i share the lyrics of the song wif ya.. hmm..

Cinta datang
Tanpa diundang
Seumur masa tercipta

Dia datang bagai sakti Bagai menyaksi mekar
Kembang pagi ooooohhh

Cinta datang
Dengan senyuman
Panasnya membakar mentari

Wajah yg tergambar
Tak akan terpudar
Dari hati insan yg fana ini
Fana ini...

Tak mungkin mentari
Akan terus sembunyi

Tiada sempadan
Tak bisa kulewati

Jika ini hakikatnya
Aku serahkan jiwa & ragaku
Menantimu walau sengsara
Jika ini ketentuannya
Jika ini hakikatnya
Aku serahkan jiwa & raga
Jika ini ketentuannya
Kau kan jadi milikku
Jua...

see the lyrics.. haish.. its like, the love btwn HANG TUAH and legendary PUTRI GUNUNG LEDANG is so unconditional.. so love.. so much.. so deep.. why can't i have such fate.. maybe im facing the same thing.. but the other party isn't willing.. its like 'Menantimu walau sengsara
Jika ini ketentuannya', just f*ckin wait.. haish..


i dun deserve such deep love.. where in the blue hell wud sumone love me dat much, till she was willing to die, to receive the curse, where any person wud die if he shud see her.. even the lover cudnt see her, like how HANG TUAH experienced.. haish.. it makes me feel like shit.. like a born loser..

i hope, i pray, dat wen i close my eyes.. i see the person who wud bring the curse out of me.. the love so willingly.. so unconditionally given..

yupz.. dats the thing im seeking in life.. unconditional love.. haish...

i dun deserve a thing..

hate myself..

burn, just die..

my poem.....

Life is short, time is precious..
Treasure the stars wif upmost intentions
the heart that beats so fine, may finally end
in ppl's glory, shall it stand

the heart that beats, may soon end
just like the wind blows the sand

the heart that beats, shall sleep in slumber
excruciating, in pain, in hunger
of sumting, no one cud ponder
life is short, time is running
once the last sands trickles out, melt away the tears
for angles have come, never shall you fear

Light up the darkness, has she not done
for the heart datbeats, shall never come
smile and laugh, puts the heart in silent bliss
and wad there is, the love cud give
is the trust and friendship, dire of thy warmth
the art of giving is wad the heart shall question
to itself, for it grows reckless in thirst
of thee sincere, pure love, fellowship and care
wad's there is there, tink again
there might be no tomorrow...

bubyee...=(

Tuesday, December 07, 2004

[JuSt TiNkIn..HmM..]

putting a post now.. dunno wad to say man.. dammit!! like my brain got clog up or sumting.. haha.. like REAL..

okok.. i read aish blog and she say sumting bout ppl change very fast or so.. hmm.. am i suppose to rebute and share my opinion or just shuttup? haha.. u guys noe me ryte, always wanna share and give like SANTA CLAUSE (and i hate tis particular santa clause appearing in this commercial on channel 5- damn Santa, he was f*ckin horny man! the girl whip 'sumting', then that bastard pulls his damn bushy eyebrows.. YUCK u piece of old shit.. dah tua tu buat hal tua.. aku tau ko buat amal jariah nie, tapi aper nie pompuan sebat pantat ko huh? aku sebat nak? kasi sebat kude kepang kang bau tau.. muahaha), LIKE REAL gitu.. haha..

anyways, like KEANE says in his song, Everybody's Changing :

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same

You're gone from here
And soon you will disappear
Cause everybody's changing
And I don't feel right

so, wad im trying to tink is dat, ppl change, yes, even God says we hafta BERUBAH, betol tak guys?? (lebih baik korang agree, kalo tak, na'as ko..) but hey, i still the person i am..

take a metoforic example, take me as a plasticine (i noe i spell it wrong, so wad? nak kene bantai? muahaha).. it doenst matter how u mold me.. cuz im still a plasticine, the same substance ryte.. u can mold me to be a MATRIP or aper2 ar.. but still, inside, which is more impt, im still wad i am..

ppl must understand.. haish.. leceh ar nak kasi org paham.. pasal tulah aku simpan alasan jer.. hmm..kk

u must understand how weak i am before, the weak hazlami who tends to depend on others, and after dat, he will release the full blow of his beast.. and the shit part, I CAN'T CONTROL IT!!! its like, total annihilation, only ma closest frens noe dat.. and i noe, during the period of onslaught, i wud hurt ppl so much.. haish.. for dat, im really sorie..

now u noe why i need to change.. to put sumting to contain my beast inside me.. sumting like the beast itself.. only a nice beast.. a friendly beast.. the image u c and wad im potraying now is the nice beast itself.. so dat the beast inside me wun hurt nobody.. i noe, i suck at everything dat i do.. im a loser, a hater, a shithole, and all the shit piece modaf*ucking substance in the whole galaxy.. im a jerk, btw.. but im trying not to.. i dun backstab ppl.. and i hate it wen i hurt ppl.. i wud feel so shitly guilty.. so i'll ask God if the person wud forgive me, and that person wun achive all his or her dreams to the fullest.. im not the type dat wud just forget everything.. i do remember, the time i got hurt, the time i felt love for the first time in my life.. and hey, first love never leaves ur skin, u noe..

i've been dreaming of u lately.. sumtimes u're so far away, sumtimes ur depress.. i can feel it in my soul.. but wad am i suppose to do? i can't even contact u, nor wud i noe whether u still treat me as a close fren.. i dunno wads goin on, but do u wanna noe sumting? eversince day1, i've been putting ur name in my prayers, my DOA's, dat u wud be happy always, wherever u are, and ur safe DUNIA and AKHIRAT.. dat ur healthy nd safe.. dun believe me? i tink u dun.. but hey, ask God if u dun believe.. he wun tell u straight away (we are not prophets, u noe.. kiter cam setan gitu, malaikat pon benci hahahha), though.. but u'll noe, sooner or later.. dat im very sincere in wadever i do.. and i only ask for forgiveness and understanding.. im feeling pain now, btw.. but im trying ever so hard to come to my senses, "Hey haz, be urself ok? be strong wo.. i noe ur hurt.. but try ok? i noe ppl will never understand u, never will.. they may say they understand, but they dun.. but, yepz, they did try rite.. and u shud appreciate.." i noe, i suck.. but i just need chances.. everybody makes mistakes, and i hope ppl wud forgive me..

and yes, nice talkin to ya, best fren, on the phone.. it was like, 3hours???? from 11.30 to 2.30am?? siak ar.. lagi terok dari matair hahaha.. (tak semestinyer ko leh angkat aku ar? pi pi pi pimampos!! hahaha...!

and one more thing.. phoenix, i feel i lost ma vigour.. help!!!! :(

here and back again... love ya

Saturday, December 04, 2004

almost forgot... JAY CHOU!! YOU'RE THE BEST!!!!

i think i'll be singing QI LI XIANG on chinese new year on the guitar.. check me out guys.. and yes, ma promos suck.. but i'll get my A's.. All of them.. insyaAllah.. i'll work hard, mama and papa, i wun let u guys down, no matter wad im facing rite now.. i noe, u guys love me and want the best out of me.. i promise you, dat i'll work the best i can be.. be a responsible son, student and make u proud.. wanna hear my dreams, my fellow dOgs??

1) Get all A's for A'level, dun care wad ppl say, but i will work hard, insyaAllah
2) NS, be an officer or sumting, then be a lieutenant, the one with the sword..so cool! (Alevel student easy to be officer, so u polytechnic shitholes, im gonna make u pump till u shit in ur pants and say, "MUMMY, HELP ME??!?!!?!"
3) Work out and get a NICE BODY, so can join SPORE IDOLS(hahaha, like real? my face like fark)
4) Work hard and get lotsa money
5) Get a motor license, get a nice cool bike, and ride with SHAHEEDA.. haha.. ko lek satu korner in a circular room sua.. haha.. lol
6) Have a fan club, so ma fishes wun run out.. but oso want a low profilic life
7) Get a simple gurl dat loves me more than herself (not now though.. im thru wiv love games.. always lose, like playing monopoly.. hahaha.. but play TAITI better.. always win.. hahaha
8) Get a big house and get married at the age of 28, i think..
9) Get ma doctorate or sumting.. haha.. think big, tok big, fer a small puny guy like me.. (like my life is gonna reach there.. hahaha)
10) Sing and entertain ppl and touch plus inspire ppl
11) BE LIKE TAUFIQ BATISAH!! HE IS DAMN COOL!!

PS: Suli, you look preety jambu gilerrr in tudong u noe.. sweet like honey, fresh like roses.. but still, ur a belo.. hahaha.. meeting u up tmr fer exco meeting ryte..

dah, wanna sleep liao.. waking up early later to design stuff fer MLDDS.. GO MELAYU!!!

[ ThAts wHy tHey cAll mUa, HAZLAMI!! IMMA BACK, BABE!!]

hey ya horsy??? wads the f*ck up? ima doin fine now.. step punk skrg dok.. dah pakai baju nak ader consept mat.. leh jadi MATRIP, SKA, RUDDIES and bebende sewaktu dgnnyer haha.. and.......

TAUFIQ!!!!!!! YOU'RE MA F*UCKIN IDOL!!!!! WANNA BE JUST LIKE YOU!!!!!

and to think of it, dat ma best blood brother NASIR said during the chalet, which was CRAZY HOOKY, " SAK, HAZ, KO CAM TAUFIQ ANAK BATISAH SAK..!" cuz i wear dis denim jeans with white tees in side, wif ma DOG TAGGY dangling out like ma balls. so it was kinda crazy shit wahahahahha

Pukimeks, wanna share sumting...

To the person= gif me sum time to think about it ya.. it's been a month since the dark period. And now im enjoying every bit of ma life, wads left of my life actually.. not dat i dun love u or wad, but gimme sum time to fish sum fishes wif this cool hair of mine..

PS: btw, i have a new hairstyle.. and this song in ma blog is farking shit! change it!!!

To ma 5 best frens= Thanks man.. ALL OF YA ROCK!!! and ya, nas, aper2 bilang aku dok.. nadiah cam senyap jer.. dah ader laki cam gitu ar.. steb jambu konon.. porah! makan belacan lagi baloi.. bren, watch it lar.. relek beb.. member dah cam suar beb.. lek ar.. hahahaha.. eh kamarul, biler nak main CS???? aku dah addicted sak.. itulah, bunoh korang 47 kali, mati 8 kali jer.. hahaha.. cam betol jer..

To ma bro= hey, thanks dude.. kiter kene beli byk2 baju steb concept giler pukimek to da meks!! and, gdluck wif da NS thingy.. wahahaha

and imma building up ma body, see wad i can do bout it.. wanna be just like my BELOVED TAUFIQ BATISAH!!!

and i promise you guys imma sing at the AJ TALENTIME YOZ.. wad song?? erm, gd qn.. THE REASON? I SWEAR? alah, nyanyi dondang sayang sua.. hahahaha

kaez.. dah lamer plak tak blog in.. com rosak cam sial gitu.. and yes, i did had fun wif the jalan rayer guys.. will upload pics ones i get them.. i recorded two songs, one wiv ma bro singing KAU PERGI JUA, and TWIST AND SHOUT wiv the 4 brothers including me.. haha.. nice sak, tak caye nanti kasi dgr pat koghang.. LEMAH korang tau...

haish, ma heart is still bleeding, but not gona say a word, time is short fer me, so wanna make ppl happy as much as i can.. AND SORI MIRA, NONI, SITI SULAIMA.. cudnt go promnite due to sum unforeseen circumstances.. love ya guys, u are my little sisters yanoe.. sms aku lar, dah rindu aku pat koghang.. haha.. gi wayang ke, ape ke, steb PIMP sae..

farkin goofballs! gota go now.. my bro just came back from his MIQ meeting (wanna go wiv him, he say got lotsa madrasah gurls, untap area beb!) tmr go makan lunch wiv MENTORS!!! LOVE YOU GUYS!! And fark you, to those modaf*ckers who try to fark me, especially MATRIPS!! you guys suck to the max! dah miskin, pi pakai baju steb concept konon.. blah sua.. HATE YOU YOU LOSERS!!!



my two syg parents.. i love you.. i thot, wen i lost her, i wud lose everyone.. but u guys turn up, and cared me more.. i love you so much.. gosh, there is tears in my eyes.. Posted by Hello

us again.. at ma house, yanoe..from the left : HERMAN, ANUAR, THE GREAT, RAPPIE, FARIZ (ma twin brother, kiter steb bapok sak), BLOOD BROTHER NASIR, KHAIRI, BEST FREN KAMARUL.. Posted by Hello

listen up!! this are my gang! budak ml bawah block anti-makrip.. haha.. Posted by Hello

sweet tak cuzzie2 aku? the one wiv the little brat on the laps is KAKAK NANA!! MA MOST BELOVED CUZZIE!!! HAHAHA.. hope u see this.. muke patot di tag as SWEET-LOOKING.. hahah.. takmo kembang ar.. Posted by Hello

mua.. haha.. just had a hair cut.. like shitlar, i ask fer bob haircut, dat farking idiot go cut till i like no hair.. so i tried ma best to navigate him to get a spiked-up hair.. this is the resultant.. move away hazlami.. Hazlami is taking over.. hahahahahaha.. belit sak! Posted by Hello

this is mua wiv ma one of ma favourite cuzzie, ABG NAJIP!! (fer ya info, he was the one who suggested me riding a bike, and the educational tour to deskar rd.. haha) kiter pat umah dier.. blkg ma 3rd bro..  Posted by Hello