God-conscious

Past few days were a bitch.

With all the commotion of Logistics doing more than they are supposed to, I wonder why I even sign up for this.

Although I must admit I went in with only God as a purpose of salvation.

I remember overhearing my mum advising her students while I was on the com yesterday.

"God will test the ones He deem to be God-Conscious."

and

"Sedangkan orang mukmin akan berkata, Ya Allah, kenapa dikau tidak memberiku ujian? Adakah kau tidak mencintaiku lagi?"

I try to place my heart among the mukmins who are not scared of the likes of dunia.

It was a peaceful retreat.

And soon after Allah gave me solutions, hopes, and strength. I was red-eyed nearly the whole day at work upon seeing His undying Love for those who are patient. I placed all my fingers and pointed it back at me, and told God, that I do not deserve all this for I am sinned.

I love you ma.

I still remember the words you whispered in my ear before I left to work with a restored spiritual uplift.

"Setiap ujian ada hikmahnyer. Sebagai keluarga kita harus mengahdapi semua dengan hati yang ikhlas dan reda. Hanya dengan ujian Allah, kita mampu tahu bahwa Allah tetap mencintai kita. Mama doa agar semua anak2 mama mendapat kesenangan dalam menghadapi ujian Allah."

Alquran, surah Al-Insyirah, verse 4-5.

"So indeed with hardship is ease. Indeed with hardship is ease."

God himself has promised that. It is up to me to believe. And I believe you, oh God of the universe and beyond.

Something for me to ponder..



Here's a thought for every man
Who tries to understand what is in his hands
He walks along the open road of Love & Life
surviving if he can

Bound with all the weight of all the words he tried to say
Chained to all the places that he never wished to say
Bound with all the weight of all the words he tried to say
and as faced the sun he cast no shadow

As they took his soul they stole his pride
As they took his soul they stole his pride
As they took his soul they stole his pride

Here's a thought for every man
Who tries to understand what is in his hands
He walks along the open road of Love & Life
surviving if he can

Bound with all the weight of all the words he tried to say
Chained to all the places that he never wished to say
Bound with all the weight of all the words he tried to say
and as faced the sun he cast no shadow

As they took his soul they stole his pride
As they took his soul they stole his pride
As they took his soul they stole his pride

And as he faced the sun he cast no shadow