Is it me??

Had a counselling session just now with beloved Mrs Josephine Liaw..

"Hazlami, i know deep inside the mess you are what i call a decent sweet person who likes to help others. But surely, you must know that sometimes your limits are limited, and learning to say NO shows true courage of a man."

That is sweet, more like too sweet.

Haha. Hazlami and his Merepekizm TM.

But what she say was quite true.

I never said NO to no one, no matter how tired or how sick or how bz or how shitty and crappy modaf*cka i am feelin', but still, lil haz took da heat.

But guess what?

I got into deep shit.

Tipah tertipu tertipu tipu tetipah.. .. (Tipah tertipu - RUFFEDGE!!! *Gua syg sam lu man!!*)

Muahahaz..

And to think of it, i do suck at helping ryte.

I help, but i get ppl into deep shit as well.

So, Hazlami Anak kepada Zawawi, keturunan JAWA will lika do a public apology..

Im sorry..

1) To those i've hurt with ma laser mouth or actions, cuz i wunt do any killin' and no bad intentions beb..

2) To those whom i've let yal down, especially my fellow classmates, EXCO's!! (I love yal!), Cikgu Jam, Ms Sab, my sub tutors, my friends out there whom i've disappointed..

3) To MAMA and PAPA.. I have let you down by not cherishing and see your unconditional love.. I thot u love ABANG more than me.. Cuz im slow and stupid and all.. But MAMA and PAPA syg amie lebih dari dorang, like MAMA ckp,

" Amie nak tau, mama rasa sedih sekali, macam kene panah, pasal amie tak nmpak kasih syg mama pat amie. Amie nak tau, mama syg amie lebih dari abg, dari adeq2.. Kaulah yang aku tatang bagai minyak yg penuh.. Pasal mama tau, amie SELALU tolong mama, walaupun bagaimana penat pun, amie tetap ringankan tangan untuk tolong mama.. Amielah yg mama boleh harap.. Adeq2 kau semua tengok kau sebagai abg besar dier org.. Kalau mama sakit ke, penat ke, amie nanti urut belakang mama, atau peluk mama untuk kasi semangat untuk mama teruskan menunaikan tanggungjawab mama sebagai isteri.. Bapak kau, syg kau lebih dari sesiapa.. DIer slalu ajak kau pegi maulid atau majlis zikir pasal dier tau, dengan berkat maulid atau zikir, dapat engkau menjadi seorang yg mampu teruskan keluarga kita.. Ingat tak, semasa engkau pengsan di luar rumah, bapak kau sakit2 sanggup pikul kau macam bayi, angkat kau ke klinik, angkat kau ke ambulance.. Walaupun dier dah tak kuat lagi.. Sanggup amie hancurkan hati mama.."

Oh im crying ryte now in the library.. Im not that strong, u c..

Haish.

Maafkan amie, mama. I want you to know that, no matter what happens, i'll pray fer ya so that we can live happily in Paradise in AFTERLIFE.. We together.. Just us..

WIth abang.. With Nasrun and Najiy.. It will be so happy.. Just us..

Tears still flow from my beady eyes.. Cannot control.. Ader budak india nie asek ngok aku, asal jer si Melayu nie menangis.. Muahaha..

=D, i fell better now..

Peace.