i may sound like a metrosexual, maybe i am, hmm..
but den again, i love shopping!!
oh, ade kondisi lar, dat is, keluar ngan pompuan TAK BENGAP lar.. haha..
yg knows wad to buy, and got her objectives ryte. If not, wah! total lost in stamina lar, hahaha.
But den again, im actually enjoying the fun i had wif my dearest sista, aIn*.
Met pat bugis dulu (eh, sori lambat ar.. tapi i made it up ryte? blanja makan kan? sedap? tak sedap pi balek eh, hahaha!) den jalan2 tu find..
AJ IDOL outfit..
Eh, i must wear nice2 u noe, to get support and votes hahaha. Hope i get enuf votes to get the status. Wan the prize soooooo much!!!
Anyways, bought dis nice shirt and belt, after dat go to TIMES Bookshop pat Suntec City. Beli buku untuk adek2 pat umah, tu burn my voucher i got from last year's Award's Day at CCKSS. So yah, bought lotsa stationeries. Haha.
It was fun lar, especially the parts where i tease my adek, haha. Aku sukenah kacau dier, tk tau apasal. Muke dier cam cute kalo aku kacau dier hahaha.
Klar. Nak buat hmwrk pastu nyanyi jap pastu makan obat, TIDO!!!!
To NoNi: Sori gurl for making u upset and making u wait. I hope u can forgive me. I'll make up fer ya aite!!! Cheers!!! SORI AGAIN..=\
Dear me,
Ok, take care of urslef aite.More things to come ur way. Hold on aite. Just hold on. Smile, and laugh, and pray to the Lord. He Loves you. Always. May u rest in peace someday.
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
Tuesday, April 26, 2005
Don't panic, start breathing..
AJ idols is very near. Its like, this friday??
And im like, not doing anything??
And im like, still sick??
And im like, coughing blood??
And im like, very tired??
Hahaha, reasons after reasons, but hey, its a big show.
Even LIME magazine is going to cover us, i think. On the day, we're gonna have REAL make-up artiste!! WTH!!??!!
Not to mention the prize winnings. I heard its a HANDPHONE.. WOOOOOOO...
Hahahaha, nt dat im bragging my voice is nice and like i can win, but im really starting to panic. There's gonna be like rehearsals and jammin's and stuff liddat. Hectic i tell you.
But the prize is worth it. So i'll try my very best and wun let my frens down.
"VOTE FOR ME, HAZLAMI, S3. AND REMEMBER, SWAY AND STAY HIP HOP COOL AND HAPPENING WITH ME, HAZLAMI."
Haha, my slogan for the publicity. Mcm taik, hahahaha, hey come on! Im jus a normal student, and i go onnie to entertain others, well, other than the glory and prize and fame, hahahahaha
Anyways, i was like in a rush to catch the train that was leaving the station. I was fumbling with my EZ LINK card, my notes and my shoe bag as i dashed up the escalator.
Without even choosing the doors, i entered the one most near me.
Guess wad? I saw this familiar face of a guy that has a particular resemblance of a dear fren i knew. It was aish's brother. Muke samer dok. I was shock shit lar, mcm kene struck by lightning gitu, dier tegur as in pull his eyebrows, and i was like smiling back with a tinge of tiredness and shock shittiness.
I thot i was abit sombong in a way i didnt talk to him. So i made up by bidding goodbye. Hahaha, idiot me. Always idiot me.
Dear me,
Suddenly a tsunami crashed on my head. I was like, not hurt nor happy nor pain. Just numb. Like even those happy moments we shared together came back to my stewpug head of mine, i just stared in blankness. I know, u still keep something in you that no one can ever imagine. Something no one can ever accept.
Defeat. And u accepted it with pride ad acknowledging your very flaws and weakness. And even so, i know you still blame yourself for wad had happened, despite wadever ppl mite say, i know you wud say, "Its my fault."
And you moved on. Not entirely. Moved on with the acceptance of defeat. You know you cannot forget her. Never cud. Never will. You didnt want to forget her.
"Even if you're not mine here, in Thereafter, you'll be mine. And God is All Merciful and Kind."
The fact still remains.
"I will be right here waiting for you..."
and you shall see..
"Dan di suatu masa.. Di hari yg indah.. Ku hulur tanganku.. Lalu kau, terima.."
Peace.
And im like, not doing anything??
And im like, still sick??
And im like, coughing blood??
And im like, very tired??
Hahaha, reasons after reasons, but hey, its a big show.
Even LIME magazine is going to cover us, i think. On the day, we're gonna have REAL make-up artiste!! WTH!!??!!
Not to mention the prize winnings. I heard its a HANDPHONE.. WOOOOOOO...
Hahahaha, nt dat im bragging my voice is nice and like i can win, but im really starting to panic. There's gonna be like rehearsals and jammin's and stuff liddat. Hectic i tell you.
But the prize is worth it. So i'll try my very best and wun let my frens down.
"VOTE FOR ME, HAZLAMI, S3. AND REMEMBER, SWAY AND STAY HIP HOP COOL AND HAPPENING WITH ME, HAZLAMI."
Haha, my slogan for the publicity. Mcm taik, hahahaha, hey come on! Im jus a normal student, and i go onnie to entertain others, well, other than the glory and prize and fame, hahahahaha
Anyways, i was like in a rush to catch the train that was leaving the station. I was fumbling with my EZ LINK card, my notes and my shoe bag as i dashed up the escalator.
Without even choosing the doors, i entered the one most near me.
Guess wad? I saw this familiar face of a guy that has a particular resemblance of a dear fren i knew. It was aish's brother. Muke samer dok. I was shock shit lar, mcm kene struck by lightning gitu, dier tegur as in pull his eyebrows, and i was like smiling back with a tinge of tiredness and shock shittiness.
I thot i was abit sombong in a way i didnt talk to him. So i made up by bidding goodbye. Hahaha, idiot me. Always idiot me.
Dear me,
Suddenly a tsunami crashed on my head. I was like, not hurt nor happy nor pain. Just numb. Like even those happy moments we shared together came back to my stewpug head of mine, i just stared in blankness. I know, u still keep something in you that no one can ever imagine. Something no one can ever accept.
Defeat. And u accepted it with pride ad acknowledging your very flaws and weakness. And even so, i know you still blame yourself for wad had happened, despite wadever ppl mite say, i know you wud say, "Its my fault."
And you moved on. Not entirely. Moved on with the acceptance of defeat. You know you cannot forget her. Never cud. Never will. You didnt want to forget her.
"Even if you're not mine here, in Thereafter, you'll be mine. And God is All Merciful and Kind."
The fact still remains.
"I will be right here waiting for you..."
and you shall see..
"Dan di suatu masa.. Di hari yg indah.. Ku hulur tanganku.. Lalu kau, terima.."
Peace.
Saturday, April 23, 2005
Differemce btwn LOVE and LIKE
Got this article from a source, very interesting:
Difference between the one you like
and the one you love
In front of the person you like, your heartbeats faster n goes crazy~
But in front of the person you love, you gethappy.
In front of the person you love, winter seems like spring.
But in front of the person you like, winter is just beautiful winter.
If you look into the eyes of the one you like,you blush.
But if you look into the eyes of the one youlove, you smile.
In front of the person you like, you can't say everything on your mind.
But in front of the person you love, you can.
In front of the person you like, you tend to getshy.
in front of the person you love, you can show your own self.
You can't look straight into the eyes of theone you like.
But you can always smile and stare into the eyes of the one you love.
When the one you like is crying, you end up comforting.
But when the one you love is crying, you cry with them.
The feeling of like starts from the ear.
But the feeling of love starts from the eye.
So if you stop liking a person you used to like, all you need to do is cover your ears.But if you try to close your eyes, love turns into a drop of tear and remains in your heartforever.
Dat touched me alot..
Difference between the one you like
and the one you love
In front of the person you like, your heartbeats faster n goes crazy~
But in front of the person you love, you gethappy.
In front of the person you love, winter seems like spring.
But in front of the person you like, winter is just beautiful winter.
If you look into the eyes of the one you like,you blush.
But if you look into the eyes of the one youlove, you smile.
In front of the person you like, you can't say everything on your mind.
But in front of the person you love, you can.
In front of the person you like, you tend to getshy.
in front of the person you love, you can show your own self.
You can't look straight into the eyes of theone you like.
But you can always smile and stare into the eyes of the one you love.
When the one you like is crying, you end up comforting.
But when the one you love is crying, you cry with them.
The feeling of like starts from the ear.
But the feeling of love starts from the eye.
So if you stop liking a person you used to like, all you need to do is cover your ears.But if you try to close your eyes, love turns into a drop of tear and remains in your heartforever.
Dat touched me alot..
Indispensible me..
Wad a heck week!!
First, i got my lil baby toe dislocated and broken.
Secondly, hmwork belambak nak mati
Thirdly, I HAD TO ACT IN AJC DRAMA!!! Wth!
Baru nak escape, skali si Hafiz tu ckp, "Eh haz, mane semuer budak laki? Pupus eh?"
Musibat benar.. Aku kenelar masok untuk kebahgiaan semuer org.. Harap2 dpt watak yg senang lar..
Niari ade QUIZ FAMSA di wdlands ar.. Hahaha, Hafizah ajak, aku pun cam, huh? ade ke? Tanye lar aku pat anak Zawawi lagi satu, dier ckp ade..
Pegi jelah, ckp abg aku.. Anyways, Hafizah ade pe, so hahahahahaha!
Oh ya, Kepada anda yg bermulut HAPAK dan BUSUK bagaikan bodek anda yg tak penah cukur rambut dan tk penah cuci, harap maklum bahawa kebolehan saya adalah dari ALLAH SWT dan dgn kebolehan inilah saya akan menghiburkan kawan2 saya yg saya hargai. Anda mempunyai hati yg busuk, kerana kata NABI MUHAMMAD, "orang yang dengki itu ALLAH akan memberikan sifat dengki yg meluak2 sampai dia tidak sedar akan sifat keburukan yg juga ada pada syaithan. Malahan, ALLAH akan tambah lagi sifat2 mahmumah, tetapi amat malangnya saya rasa anda tidak tahu maknanya kerana ceteknya ilmu pengetahuan, dan ini dapat saya tahu kerana akhlak anda yg lebih buruk dari haiwan dalam zoo. Seperti anda maklum, saya ingin mengucapkan jutaan terima kasih kerana telah mengisi kocek pahala saya.
Seperti kata seseorang filasafah, "Org yg dengki sebnarnya cemburu akan kebolehan, dan tidak dpt menerima kebenaran."
Anyways, insyaAllah, i'll perform during the finals, and like wad hafizah wud say, jgn kesah pasal ape org kata..
Hahahahahahahahahaha, I wun let my frens down, and i'll sing my very best, even if i look like a toad, as if?? hahaha, aku rase muke aku lebih hensem darik muke pengutuk tu, pasal aku rasekan, dier jelus, aku rase dier gemuk lar, pasal tulah dier nk badan yg slim.. Mat, relak sua ar!! muahahahaha!
Peace.
First, i got my lil baby toe dislocated and broken.
Secondly, hmwork belambak nak mati
Thirdly, I HAD TO ACT IN AJC DRAMA!!! Wth!
Baru nak escape, skali si Hafiz tu ckp, "Eh haz, mane semuer budak laki? Pupus eh?"
Musibat benar.. Aku kenelar masok untuk kebahgiaan semuer org.. Harap2 dpt watak yg senang lar..
Niari ade QUIZ FAMSA di wdlands ar.. Hahaha, Hafizah ajak, aku pun cam, huh? ade ke? Tanye lar aku pat anak Zawawi lagi satu, dier ckp ade..
Pegi jelah, ckp abg aku.. Anyways, Hafizah ade pe, so hahahahahaha!
Oh ya, Kepada anda yg bermulut HAPAK dan BUSUK bagaikan bodek anda yg tak penah cukur rambut dan tk penah cuci, harap maklum bahawa kebolehan saya adalah dari ALLAH SWT dan dgn kebolehan inilah saya akan menghiburkan kawan2 saya yg saya hargai. Anda mempunyai hati yg busuk, kerana kata NABI MUHAMMAD, "orang yang dengki itu ALLAH akan memberikan sifat dengki yg meluak2 sampai dia tidak sedar akan sifat keburukan yg juga ada pada syaithan. Malahan, ALLAH akan tambah lagi sifat2 mahmumah, tetapi amat malangnya saya rasa anda tidak tahu maknanya kerana ceteknya ilmu pengetahuan, dan ini dapat saya tahu kerana akhlak anda yg lebih buruk dari haiwan dalam zoo. Seperti anda maklum, saya ingin mengucapkan jutaan terima kasih kerana telah mengisi kocek pahala saya.
Seperti kata seseorang filasafah, "Org yg dengki sebnarnya cemburu akan kebolehan, dan tidak dpt menerima kebenaran."
Anyways, insyaAllah, i'll perform during the finals, and like wad hafizah wud say, jgn kesah pasal ape org kata..
Hahahahahahahahahaha, I wun let my frens down, and i'll sing my very best, even if i look like a toad, as if?? hahaha, aku rase muke aku lebih hensem darik muke pengutuk tu, pasal aku rasekan, dier jelus, aku rase dier gemuk lar, pasal tulah dier nk badan yg slim.. Mat, relak sua ar!! muahahahaha!
Peace.
Wednesday, April 20, 2005
I was told today dat the AJ Idol finalist are required to sing two songs each of different genres.
Wad the hell????
Im in band too...!
Let's do a bot of maths aite.
Band=2 songs.
Solo=2 songs + 1song for finale which is I DREAM by Taufik.
Hafizah's prediction of me singing I DREAM really do come true. Bohohohohohohoho.
Im gonna be like so tired, so shagged. SO many rehearsals.
And i just have the worst week in my life. Not gonaa write anything here though.
Im still sick and i think its gonna be a v long way to recovery. (HELP ME BEST FREN!!!)
Most probbaly i'll be singing a ballad - Unbreakable by Westlife and an RNB solo I Swear. But i was thinking of singing An Jing, dat shud drive the Chinese gurls mad, muahaha.
Den not to count the band performance. More jamming i can predict. More shouting and screaming. Hope Ambrish choose a less straining song for me to sing say.
Erm, then got dry run this tuesday sae. Tmr je kene gif song and lyrics to sing. Pelan2 kayuh lar ehk, student council. I really need the time off.
Hmm, wad else ehk?
Oh ya, i got a few dates dis week. Bohoho.
Suppose to enjoy dates rite, but hey, im A GUY!!! I'll be the one who pays the shit..!
Saturday ngan Blue-Eyed White gurl (hahaha, i manage to get hold of her muahaha.. skill tak??)
Thursday nite ngan budak cine nie darik skola aku tknk bilang muahaha.
Friday nite ngan budak melayu nie yg dari JC lain, mampos!
Seriously, nasib baik i have a LOVING BROTHER whom i can ask for HELP. You know, financial help, hahaha. Hey, his earning shit ma, so muz share wimme. Next time i earning shit, i share wiv him oso lar, hahaha. Cumone, his my BIG BROTHER, and the BEST one lar, hahaha. Untong aku dpt abg cam dier.
And im realli interested wiv this gurl in my skewl. In fact, there's two of them. One, my dear fren DIANA knows bout it, another a ML J1 gurl. She very the sweet lar, muke dier cute satu mcm ar. Walaupon like Khairul says, ima PAEDAPHILLE (spelling ok?? hmm..), but WADEVER!! Budak tu nk gi umrah lagik plak tu! Baik giler. Dah lar alim, baik lagi, cute lagi, abang aku pon ckp dier cute, dier pon nak angkat dier, tapi sori ehk, aku dulu ar, pi buat bende army dulu muahahaha!
Hmm, wad else to blog ar? Ya, actually i dun like to kutok org di blog, itupon i'll not do it to the extend of being insensitive to others or wad. But im really sori to you-know-who aite, i hafto say wad i gotta say. Its a must. Lagi baik bilang dari making it go to bad waters ryte?
Sori. Sepuloh jari menadah meminta kemaafan.
K, wanna study liao. Imma in the library ryte now. Doing hmwork hahaha, sedih!
Dear me,
Yesterday was a horrible day. Its a good thing a gd fren is there to lend ya a listening ear. The thought of those words that she wrote down in the letter, and how you read them out loud to nad, it was a very brave and noble thing to do. You fought wad nobody cud do. Where nobody cud accept the fact dat you actually didnt moved on.
Those words still lingers in my head. Her picture, the most beautiful piece i sketched, is still in my drawer. It doesnt belong to me anymore. SHud i give it back to her??
Peace.
Wad the hell????
Im in band too...!
Let's do a bot of maths aite.
Band=2 songs.
Solo=2 songs + 1song for finale which is I DREAM by Taufik.
Hafizah's prediction of me singing I DREAM really do come true. Bohohohohohohoho.
Im gonna be like so tired, so shagged. SO many rehearsals.
And i just have the worst week in my life. Not gonaa write anything here though.
Im still sick and i think its gonna be a v long way to recovery. (HELP ME BEST FREN!!!)
Most probbaly i'll be singing a ballad - Unbreakable by Westlife and an RNB solo I Swear. But i was thinking of singing An Jing, dat shud drive the Chinese gurls mad, muahaha.
Den not to count the band performance. More jamming i can predict. More shouting and screaming. Hope Ambrish choose a less straining song for me to sing say.
Erm, then got dry run this tuesday sae. Tmr je kene gif song and lyrics to sing. Pelan2 kayuh lar ehk, student council. I really need the time off.
Hmm, wad else ehk?
Oh ya, i got a few dates dis week. Bohoho.
Suppose to enjoy dates rite, but hey, im A GUY!!! I'll be the one who pays the shit..!
Saturday ngan Blue-Eyed White gurl (hahaha, i manage to get hold of her muahaha.. skill tak??)
Thursday nite ngan budak cine nie darik skola aku tknk bilang muahaha.
Friday nite ngan budak melayu nie yg dari JC lain, mampos!
Seriously, nasib baik i have a LOVING BROTHER whom i can ask for HELP. You know, financial help, hahaha. Hey, his earning shit ma, so muz share wimme. Next time i earning shit, i share wiv him oso lar, hahaha. Cumone, his my BIG BROTHER, and the BEST one lar, hahaha. Untong aku dpt abg cam dier.
And im realli interested wiv this gurl in my skewl. In fact, there's two of them. One, my dear fren DIANA knows bout it, another a ML J1 gurl. She very the sweet lar, muke dier cute satu mcm ar. Walaupon like Khairul says, ima PAEDAPHILLE (spelling ok?? hmm..), but WADEVER!! Budak tu nk gi umrah lagik plak tu! Baik giler. Dah lar alim, baik lagi, cute lagi, abang aku pon ckp dier cute, dier pon nak angkat dier, tapi sori ehk, aku dulu ar, pi buat bende army dulu muahahaha!
Hmm, wad else to blog ar? Ya, actually i dun like to kutok org di blog, itupon i'll not do it to the extend of being insensitive to others or wad. But im really sori to you-know-who aite, i hafto say wad i gotta say. Its a must. Lagi baik bilang dari making it go to bad waters ryte?
Sori. Sepuloh jari menadah meminta kemaafan.
K, wanna study liao. Imma in the library ryte now. Doing hmwork hahaha, sedih!
Dear me,
Yesterday was a horrible day. Its a good thing a gd fren is there to lend ya a listening ear. The thought of those words that she wrote down in the letter, and how you read them out loud to nad, it was a very brave and noble thing to do. You fought wad nobody cud do. Where nobody cud accept the fact dat you actually didnt moved on.
Those words still lingers in my head. Her picture, the most beautiful piece i sketched, is still in my drawer. It doesnt belong to me anymore. SHud i give it back to her??
Peace.
Sunday, April 17, 2005
HAZ= AJ IDOL???
He walks in as the song was played on the system..
His heart beat franatically as the crowd goes wild..
"HAZ!!! HAZ!!!! WOOOO!!!"
He smiled, and sang.
Wild applauses, screamings, and lots of encouragement filled the air. The house was crazy. He brought the house down, apparently. Even he couldnt hear himself. The judges were shocked. Some are smiling, others awed by his charismatic approach.
He sang, "Everday i love you" by Boyzone.
The part came when he sang, "If i ask will you, say yes.."
The crowd went, " Yes!!! YES!!!! YES HAZ!!!!"
There's this gurl apparently jumped up to her feet and gave lots of flying kissess.
The banner writing H.A.Z floated about in the crowd.
Time has come. Judges comments.
"When, you came in and sang, the first thought that come in my mind was, is it played from a record??"
"You are wonderful."
"The way you moved about the stage somehow plays well with your coat. You are a charmer."
And the crowd went wild. He smiled, said thank you, waved the crowd and went off the stage.
I forgot.
"Haz, you are the AJ IDOL!"
That was the one comment i would say, FOOOSHIOOOO!!
Am i happy?
Of course man. I even got 2 roses, one from my beloved 'fan club', and from this anonymous person muahahaha.
Tried to find her after the show, but haiya, left early ma, so nvm!!
Haha. It was a night to remember!!
Saturday afternoon: An sms was received.
It reads: "Im glad to say that you are in the finals."
WOHOOOO!!
To my fans and supporters, i wun let you down.
Smile with the grove guy. =)
His heart beat franatically as the crowd goes wild..
"HAZ!!! HAZ!!!! WOOOO!!!"
He smiled, and sang.
Wild applauses, screamings, and lots of encouragement filled the air. The house was crazy. He brought the house down, apparently. Even he couldnt hear himself. The judges were shocked. Some are smiling, others awed by his charismatic approach.
He sang, "Everday i love you" by Boyzone.
The part came when he sang, "If i ask will you, say yes.."
The crowd went, " Yes!!! YES!!!! YES HAZ!!!!"
There's this gurl apparently jumped up to her feet and gave lots of flying kissess.
The banner writing H.A.Z floated about in the crowd.
Time has come. Judges comments.
"When, you came in and sang, the first thought that come in my mind was, is it played from a record??"
"You are wonderful."
"The way you moved about the stage somehow plays well with your coat. You are a charmer."
And the crowd went wild. He smiled, said thank you, waved the crowd and went off the stage.
I forgot.
"Haz, you are the AJ IDOL!"
That was the one comment i would say, FOOOSHIOOOO!!
Am i happy?
Of course man. I even got 2 roses, one from my beloved 'fan club', and from this anonymous person muahahaha.
Tried to find her after the show, but haiya, left early ma, so nvm!!
Haha. It was a night to remember!!
Saturday afternoon: An sms was received.
It reads: "Im glad to say that you are in the finals."
WOHOOOO!!
To my fans and supporters, i wun let you down.
Smile with the grove guy. =)
Wednesday, April 06, 2005
up for some waffles anybody?
Wad a waffer..
Today seriously is the most slackiest day in my life.
Tak bersmgt langsung sae. Old habits dah dtg balik ni. Shit
My whole body is aching due to NAPFA test yesterday. ANd i was like half dead lar by the time i met up with my lil sisters at Causeway Point. Nasib baik pass, takyah masok NS siang2 muahahaha. Summore, no Afternoon PE and its gonna be games!! Woohoo..
They wanted to eat waffles, so i go lar. Sedap jugak sae, and they were crapping about how i couldn't eat properly due to the fact that im born without table manners. Muahaha.
But still, i was half dead. Seriously. I do crapped abit, but heck it, i was like a zombie floating amongst the delicious people i cud gorge upon.
Sheesh, summore the hmwork is piling, yet none effort is made to counter such threat.
Blardie. Im sick.
Summore, tmr is my auditions!!! Both band and solo!! Shit lar.
I dun have any karaoke song for EVERYTHING I DO, I DO IT FOR YOU sae, confirm unimpressive to bait the judges in letting me in.
Haish. SOS!!!
Very the anxious ar. And i think im going to be sick. Ni mesti mira nyer pasal, hmph! (hehehe, main2 jer, muahaha..)
Im blogging in the library, and people ard me seem to do some work..
ME???
Playing solitaire is one of the hobbies i wud do to kill time.
Oh ya, cuz i'll be having lunch wif the BLUE-EYE-WHITE Dragon, muahaha. But fuckit. She brought along the mat lar. Nak meramai2 kan majlis kate org gitu. Shit.
Hmm, so i must be myself and the gentleman sweet hazlami. If she likes it, then heck it. If she doesnt and go for the mat, den heck it too, coz i dun gif a f*ck. Hahahaha, attitude rabakz nyer.
Miss playing soccer. Miss watching movie. Miss mugging. Anybody up to gif me a tight chalengging kick up my ass?? Den pls call, 1800-Kickmepleasehazlami aite.
Hahaha. Crap.
Peace.
Today seriously is the most slackiest day in my life.
Tak bersmgt langsung sae. Old habits dah dtg balik ni. Shit
My whole body is aching due to NAPFA test yesterday. ANd i was like half dead lar by the time i met up with my lil sisters at Causeway Point. Nasib baik pass, takyah masok NS siang2 muahahaha. Summore, no Afternoon PE and its gonna be games!! Woohoo..
They wanted to eat waffles, so i go lar. Sedap jugak sae, and they were crapping about how i couldn't eat properly due to the fact that im born without table manners. Muahaha.
But still, i was half dead. Seriously. I do crapped abit, but heck it, i was like a zombie floating amongst the delicious people i cud gorge upon.
Sheesh, summore the hmwork is piling, yet none effort is made to counter such threat.
Blardie. Im sick.
Summore, tmr is my auditions!!! Both band and solo!! Shit lar.
I dun have any karaoke song for EVERYTHING I DO, I DO IT FOR YOU sae, confirm unimpressive to bait the judges in letting me in.
Haish. SOS!!!
Very the anxious ar. And i think im going to be sick. Ni mesti mira nyer pasal, hmph! (hehehe, main2 jer, muahaha..)
Im blogging in the library, and people ard me seem to do some work..
ME???
Playing solitaire is one of the hobbies i wud do to kill time.
Oh ya, cuz i'll be having lunch wif the BLUE-EYE-WHITE Dragon, muahaha. But fuckit. She brought along the mat lar. Nak meramai2 kan majlis kate org gitu. Shit.
Hmm, so i must be myself and the gentleman sweet hazlami. If she likes it, then heck it. If she doesnt and go for the mat, den heck it too, coz i dun gif a f*ck. Hahahaha, attitude rabakz nyer.
Miss playing soccer. Miss watching movie. Miss mugging. Anybody up to gif me a tight chalengging kick up my ass?? Den pls call, 1800-Kickmepleasehazlami aite.
Hahaha. Crap.
Peace.
Tuesday, April 05, 2005
We're THE CHAMPAGNES and will sing for you STAND BY ME by OASIS..
Haha.. yesterday was really fun..
Never had such fun for like wad? SInce Gema??
Oh yeah, for those lil shitholes who dunno or blur cock, Anderson Junior College MLDDS lost gallantly in the Gema Puisi Artistik 2005 organised by some modaf*ckin organisers who just can't organise an event.
Take an example, having QUALIFIED and PROFESSIONAL judges who HAVE SUFFICIENT EXPERIENCE in the area is very significant, coz i'll determine the best winner of all. But what the fuck?
We lost not because of our script, but cuz the farking judges dunno how to choose. Instead, they asked for an opinion from an MI instructor, and his suggestions were taken into account.
THey you go, the winners are : WEST SPRING, SP, and TPJC. Fucklar. Bullshitlar.
Mite as well put GEMA TALENTIME, cuz SP was doing like some Rock Band shows. OR should i say, GEMA BROADWAY, cuz most of them follow Broadway style. No Malay THeatre. Haiyo.
So i'll shall say sori to all that i have offended on Saturday. That was so childish of me. But wad the heck? haha.
Went for Band Practice yesterday, cuz our auditions wud be like, erm, Thursday?? So i brought along my darlink Ain wimme.
After singing, it really felt much better. Onnie my voice starts going zoinky. Shitlar, i have my solo category on Thursday too!
I'll be singing, "Everything i do, i do it for you" by Brian Adams. Cool huh?
So after that, since my sweetie pie followed, i treated her by going town!
WAH, so long never go town sae. We walked here and there, haha.
Had snacks from the OLD CHANG KEE, which i seriously think the foods there are super nice lar. (maybe still got pig essence?? hahahaha, thats y it's nice..)
Hoho, so shud i ask, did i enjoy myself?
Of course! I was myself lar, and long time i've never keep in touch with myself. Somehow she keeps myself in me, hahaha.
There's this gurl who wants to recruit models uc. So she saw us, and she APPROACHED ME (not you Ain, muahaha). She asked whether we're interested to join the model agency. SHe declined quickly. But me??
Goodness. I got MODEL SUBSTANCE!! (cam betol je, muahahahaha)
So, yes, to couple it of, i had the fun of my life.
You're the best, Ain.
Peace.
(the Blue-Eye-White gurl just talked to me, and omigod, im like going bonkers!! muahahaha. Damn, her eyes are like so cute.)
:D
Never had such fun for like wad? SInce Gema??
Oh yeah, for those lil shitholes who dunno or blur cock, Anderson Junior College MLDDS lost gallantly in the Gema Puisi Artistik 2005 organised by some modaf*ckin organisers who just can't organise an event.
Take an example, having QUALIFIED and PROFESSIONAL judges who HAVE SUFFICIENT EXPERIENCE in the area is very significant, coz i'll determine the best winner of all. But what the fuck?
We lost not because of our script, but cuz the farking judges dunno how to choose. Instead, they asked for an opinion from an MI instructor, and his suggestions were taken into account.
THey you go, the winners are : WEST SPRING, SP, and TPJC. Fucklar. Bullshitlar.
Mite as well put GEMA TALENTIME, cuz SP was doing like some Rock Band shows. OR should i say, GEMA BROADWAY, cuz most of them follow Broadway style. No Malay THeatre. Haiyo.
So i'll shall say sori to all that i have offended on Saturday. That was so childish of me. But wad the heck? haha.
Went for Band Practice yesterday, cuz our auditions wud be like, erm, Thursday?? So i brought along my darlink Ain wimme.
After singing, it really felt much better. Onnie my voice starts going zoinky. Shitlar, i have my solo category on Thursday too!
I'll be singing, "Everything i do, i do it for you" by Brian Adams. Cool huh?
So after that, since my sweetie pie followed, i treated her by going town!
WAH, so long never go town sae. We walked here and there, haha.
Had snacks from the OLD CHANG KEE, which i seriously think the foods there are super nice lar. (maybe still got pig essence?? hahahaha, thats y it's nice..)
Hoho, so shud i ask, did i enjoy myself?
Of course! I was myself lar, and long time i've never keep in touch with myself. Somehow she keeps myself in me, hahaha.
There's this gurl who wants to recruit models uc. So she saw us, and she APPROACHED ME (not you Ain, muahaha). She asked whether we're interested to join the model agency. SHe declined quickly. But me??
Goodness. I got MODEL SUBSTANCE!! (cam betol je, muahahahaha)
So, yes, to couple it of, i had the fun of my life.
You're the best, Ain.
Peace.
(the Blue-Eye-White gurl just talked to me, and omigod, im like going bonkers!! muahahaha. Damn, her eyes are like so cute.)
:D
Sunday, April 03, 2005
Numb
iHateMyself
Disappointed and tired.
Both in love and the things i do.
Wanna say sori to all for letting my team down.
It was me. I didnt put enough effort.
The confidence level was high, but after what happened last night, i finally realise that my dreams can never come true.
Cried my eyes thru the journey home. When i passed the mama shop, i saw cans of Mocha Coffee Nestle.
Drank like 12 cans of them at the garden near my block. Vomited myself thru the process. Felt so high. Den i went home.
Couldnt sleep at all. The thought of being a monkey that failed to come true haunted my sleep. I went down to 7 Eleven at 3am in the morning to buy another 6 cans of Mocha Coffee. Was screaming my lungs farking out afterwards.
Pretended to sleep after that.
Moral of the story? Fuck me. Hate me.
Coz im hazlami. Loser.
Sori. Peace
Disappointed and tired.
Both in love and the things i do.
Wanna say sori to all for letting my team down.
It was me. I didnt put enough effort.
The confidence level was high, but after what happened last night, i finally realise that my dreams can never come true.
Cried my eyes thru the journey home. When i passed the mama shop, i saw cans of Mocha Coffee Nestle.
Drank like 12 cans of them at the garden near my block. Vomited myself thru the process. Felt so high. Den i went home.
Couldnt sleep at all. The thought of being a monkey that failed to come true haunted my sleep. I went down to 7 Eleven at 3am in the morning to buy another 6 cans of Mocha Coffee. Was screaming my lungs farking out afterwards.
Pretended to sleep after that.
Moral of the story? Fuck me. Hate me.
Coz im hazlami. Loser.
Sori. Peace
Thursday, March 31, 2005
Im loving angels instead..
Robbie Williams song ANGELS blew me off the hook today..
Got so emo you know, muahahaha..
But yeah, still haven recover from PMS season, so ya, you'll be seeing lotsa shit this few days. But i hope i recover soon.
MEDIC!!!!! MEDIC!!!!!! IM DYING!!!!!!
(Goodness me, if my brother reads this, he's gonna soo screw me till i shit all over the house, muahahaha)
I have lotsa things to catch up! My maths, GP, PHY, and my fav sub, CHEM sae..
Wahseh, summore 2 more days to GEMA PUISI, sheeesh, dats so goona drain me out.
And wads more farked up is AJ IDOL.
I need to find some songs to sing for auditons, which is next week.
Some solid song that suits my style. My voice. Simple and feasible to make a rendition of your own. Need help here!!??!!
And ya, homewrok is piling up like mad.
But hey, at least there's 'SOMETHING' to smile about, muahahaha..
Wanna noe wad? Kk, i'll narrate the story.
Once upon a time, a student name Hazamio was working hard to put up the MLDDS banner and logistic stuffs to be settled before DRAMA 2005. He was on his ladder, and was busily tying up the ends of the string when in the reflection of the window, he saw this CHIOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOBU girl. Not so tall, not so short, but ok2.
But ladies and gentlemen, SHE HAS BIG GORGEGOUS EYES!!! WTH?!
It took a shock shit out of Hazamio till he realises he is about to fall of the ladder. Good lord he regain his composure.
After setting up the booth for the CCA carnival, he and his frens slacked like MALAYS always do (hey, im a JAVANESE, so go and crap shit about Malays, i dun gif a fark? hahaha, pardon the strong vocab ya..)
His 'mat' fren, this JC1, came round the corner and told his adventure about how he escape from being slashed and cornered by a gang with 'PARANGS'. Lil did he know the mat knew the BLUE-EYE-WHITE gurl..
The mat suddenly busied himself into msging a fren of his. And when he was done, he say he's gonna fetch 'Someone', whom i believe is a fren of his.
Then when he saw the gurl walking down the path, he got all flimsy like a tower of cards ready to be blown away by the wind.
THe girl sat down. Her eyes fixed on him. Then she continued talking to the mat and farna, but neither that interest me.
THe air went quiet and warm. My ears suddenly went hush. All i could remember was her eyes. It was the most ASTRO-LIKE eyes i've ever seen.
My heart beated. "Look at her smile, see if she got the smile!!" said his excited soul.
SHe flashed a smile.
God. Transfixed. Spelled. Haz was stunned.
I'm swept away by love
Baby I can't help it
You keep me drowning in your love (DROWNING-BACKSTREET BOYS)
hahaha, serious! Tak bedek.
Den we talked alot lar. Tapi si mat ni menunjuk2 kot, menonjolkan kepervertannyer dan bende2 alah yg sewaktu dgnnyer, yg aku plak, i just keep cool and be myself.
That's my principle. Be myself. the Gentle man me, muahahaha. Mybae shahraini mite disagree wifdat (sori bout the locker thingy, muahaha, i did it ON PURPOSE *evil grionz* hahaha, just main2 jelah)
Then time doghang nk balik, si mat tu balik ngan dier.
Siallah. Argh. Habislah aku. BUt nvm. If she seek a gentleman and not some TAKE-ADVANTAGE kinda guy, then i got chance lar, haha. But kalo tak, dier akan aku kategorikan di kalangan POMPUAN2 BENGAP yg hanya membuang MASA DI MEJA PERUNDINGAN dan MEROSAKKAN HATI DAN KEBAHGIAAN HIDUP ORG LAIN.
BUt today, i saw he sitting outside the audi with her frens. SHe look at me then stab tak nmpk gitu. Menyampah, hahaha. Then you know me, act tak kenal ar.
Summore, i was walking with this classmate of mine whom the school really sees her as the HOT BABE, hahaha, so, menambah2kan keCOOL aku hahahaha, cam betol je budak berok nie.
But its been a very long time since i felt this way. You know, like the jealous kinda feeling and heart beating fast shit. Hahaha. Not piar though. Just suka2 lar. hahaha.
Kk, im actually blogging in school. Gotta clean up my stuff cuz there's gonna be like PE and BRIDGE program and GEMA practice later, haish.
I have no life. So gurl, dun take me away, hahaha, cam real je.
Dear me,
Why the emo2 nie huh? Pls lar, sudahlar, takmo cenggini ar, haha. Mengharapkan sesuatu yg tak mungkin akan kembali itu sudah tidak realistic ar. Pls lar.
But hey, at least, you have another try in life ryte? But i scared if things do work out, then how bout my ALEVEL???
I know its hard, your parents also are being insensitive towards you. And it really feels sick if you hope for a support, then that person instead spits you out.
Alone. Smile.
Peace.
Got so emo you know, muahahaha..
But yeah, still haven recover from PMS season, so ya, you'll be seeing lotsa shit this few days. But i hope i recover soon.
MEDIC!!!!! MEDIC!!!!!! IM DYING!!!!!!
(Goodness me, if my brother reads this, he's gonna soo screw me till i shit all over the house, muahahaha)
I have lotsa things to catch up! My maths, GP, PHY, and my fav sub, CHEM sae..
Wahseh, summore 2 more days to GEMA PUISI, sheeesh, dats so goona drain me out.
And wads more farked up is AJ IDOL.
I need to find some songs to sing for auditons, which is next week.
Some solid song that suits my style. My voice. Simple and feasible to make a rendition of your own. Need help here!!??!!
And ya, homewrok is piling up like mad.
But hey, at least there's 'SOMETHING' to smile about, muahahaha..
Wanna noe wad? Kk, i'll narrate the story.
Once upon a time, a student name Hazamio was working hard to put up the MLDDS banner and logistic stuffs to be settled before DRAMA 2005. He was on his ladder, and was busily tying up the ends of the string when in the reflection of the window, he saw this CHIOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOBU girl. Not so tall, not so short, but ok2.
But ladies and gentlemen, SHE HAS BIG GORGEGOUS EYES!!! WTH?!
It took a shock shit out of Hazamio till he realises he is about to fall of the ladder. Good lord he regain his composure.
After setting up the booth for the CCA carnival, he and his frens slacked like MALAYS always do (hey, im a JAVANESE, so go and crap shit about Malays, i dun gif a fark? hahaha, pardon the strong vocab ya..)
His 'mat' fren, this JC1, came round the corner and told his adventure about how he escape from being slashed and cornered by a gang with 'PARANGS'. Lil did he know the mat knew the BLUE-EYE-WHITE gurl..
The mat suddenly busied himself into msging a fren of his. And when he was done, he say he's gonna fetch 'Someone', whom i believe is a fren of his.
Then when he saw the gurl walking down the path, he got all flimsy like a tower of cards ready to be blown away by the wind.
THe girl sat down. Her eyes fixed on him. Then she continued talking to the mat and farna, but neither that interest me.
THe air went quiet and warm. My ears suddenly went hush. All i could remember was her eyes. It was the most ASTRO-LIKE eyes i've ever seen.
My heart beated. "Look at her smile, see if she got the smile!!" said his excited soul.
SHe flashed a smile.
God. Transfixed. Spelled. Haz was stunned.
I'm swept away by love
Baby I can't help it
You keep me drowning in your love (DROWNING-BACKSTREET BOYS)
hahaha, serious! Tak bedek.
Den we talked alot lar. Tapi si mat ni menunjuk2 kot, menonjolkan kepervertannyer dan bende2 alah yg sewaktu dgnnyer, yg aku plak, i just keep cool and be myself.
That's my principle. Be myself. the Gentle man me, muahahaha. Mybae shahraini mite disagree wifdat (sori bout the locker thingy, muahaha, i did it ON PURPOSE *evil grionz* hahaha, just main2 jelah)
Then time doghang nk balik, si mat tu balik ngan dier.
Siallah. Argh. Habislah aku. BUt nvm. If she seek a gentleman and not some TAKE-ADVANTAGE kinda guy, then i got chance lar, haha. But kalo tak, dier akan aku kategorikan di kalangan POMPUAN2 BENGAP yg hanya membuang MASA DI MEJA PERUNDINGAN dan MEROSAKKAN HATI DAN KEBAHGIAAN HIDUP ORG LAIN.
BUt today, i saw he sitting outside the audi with her frens. SHe look at me then stab tak nmpk gitu. Menyampah, hahaha. Then you know me, act tak kenal ar.
Summore, i was walking with this classmate of mine whom the school really sees her as the HOT BABE, hahaha, so, menambah2kan keCOOL aku hahahaha, cam betol je budak berok nie.
But its been a very long time since i felt this way. You know, like the jealous kinda feeling and heart beating fast shit. Hahaha. Not piar though. Just suka2 lar. hahaha.
Kk, im actually blogging in school. Gotta clean up my stuff cuz there's gonna be like PE and BRIDGE program and GEMA practice later, haish.
I have no life. So gurl, dun take me away, hahaha, cam real je.
Dear me,
Why the emo2 nie huh? Pls lar, sudahlar, takmo cenggini ar, haha. Mengharapkan sesuatu yg tak mungkin akan kembali itu sudah tidak realistic ar. Pls lar.
But hey, at least, you have another try in life ryte? But i scared if things do work out, then how bout my ALEVEL???
I know its hard, your parents also are being insensitive towards you. And it really feels sick if you hope for a support, then that person instead spits you out.
Alone. Smile.
Peace.
Tuesday, March 29, 2005
If i give you 3 wishes, what will you wish?
3 wishes huh?
How bout, the first wish i ask for another 1000 wishes hahahahaha..
Not farnie ler, kk.
Hmm, maybe the first would be,
WE WIN GEMA PUISI!
Yeah, the whole GPA shit is killing me, even mentally, physically, my studies and etc. Its a whole crap lar. Not that im giving up though, but fark, its just too tiring and hectic and not enjoyable as before. Perhaps, the pressure to beat other institutes like TOP FAVOURITES, SINGAPORE POLY, SERANGOON JC, and finally, ANDERSON JUNIOR COLLEGE!!
I cannot believe we are the among top favourites. Thats why we are working like house elves. Hahaha. But shitlar, always come back home so late.
Then cannot do homework because too tired. Sedih.
Second wish??
Hmm, perhaps a day off??
Im kinda tired and very stress. I just had a word with Ms Sab on how to improve my GP. And the kind of work i have to do in order to get the A1 needs way lotsa commitment to it. My other subjects are ok though.
Summore, im really scared. Can't say it here though. Sori.
And i miss doing sketching, doing poems, and stuff liddat.
Third wish??
Hmm, maybe how bout, be happy?
I dunno, lately, im kinda not happy with everything that is happening. I dunno why i attract nonsense. Nonsense people, nonsense problems and stuff liddat.
Looks like im a magnet of all nonsense. Haha.
If you're reading this, im really sori i had to say it to ya face, not that i dun like you or what you know, or you ugly or what, in fact, you are beautiful cuz you have BIG EYES!!! hahaha, exaggerate sikit.
But, its just that, im scared to face the reality you c. My past haunts me like a dog biting and barking madly at you, and once you got bitten by it, you'll hate that canine for life. Total life imprisonment.
You're very nice and pretty, and i know that you'll do well for your ALevel like me. (haha, cam betol je aku dapat gd marks gitu, muahaha). ANd im sure you'll get a better kindof guy. And seriously, i didn't LEAD you or what, im just being the caring fren i am, so if you have the wrong idea, pls put it away. I dun hate giving false hope to people.
Im a heartbroken guy. Not a heartbreaker aite.
People break my heart or hurt me, not i hurt them.
Seriously, in my life, i really do feel you are the perfect person for me. You're smart (not study lar, not generalising anything, but just not the POMPUAN BENGAP type muahahaha), steady, friendly, helpful, loyal, attractive (GOD, seriously you DO have beautiful eyes, and smile hahahaha.) and etc..
But its just, hmm, how to say ar?
Ah! KUCH KUCH HOTA HAI, sometimes it just happens so aite.
I follow my heart. Follow my soul. Follow God. So, i guess that, to sum it all up, i'll take it as 'Frens now' kinda thing aite.. CHEERS!!
So, am im done with all 3 wishes?? Haha.. Idiot.
Miss my frens, especially my lil sisters (muacks) and soccer.
HEY, thx for the cheesy notes on my notebk. It totally made my day. Hehehe =)
Good news lads.
Im entering the AJ IDOL. Haha, serious tak farnie lar.
And the best part is? Im entering two categories.
1)Soloist
2)Band
Haha. I have a band. No name. But we're cool, and we're singing slow rock kinda music cuz i can only sing RnB and slow rock, haha. Most prob during auditions we'll sing STAND BY ME by OASIS.
And ya, i joined the SOLO cat cuz i feel my potential is not furthered enuf. Haha, chey, like real jer. And ya, got lotsa support from frens and fans, (my fan club lar, haha, like got liddat).
Hey, im no farking TAUFIK poser aite. I sing my style, ok.
And yes, the finals are seriously gonna be like the SPORE IDOL.
2 solo, 2 bands, 2 groupies.
Shees, dats gotta be pressurizing. But hey, i'll try my luck and see how aite. Haha, maybe there's other people who can sing better than me in school.
But im keeping my faith. The auditions are nxt week, i think. GPA over, IDOL here i come..
Peace.
Dear me,
Got, her face is like all over my brain. Help me. SOS.
How bout, the first wish i ask for another 1000 wishes hahahahaha..
Not farnie ler, kk.
Hmm, maybe the first would be,
WE WIN GEMA PUISI!
Yeah, the whole GPA shit is killing me, even mentally, physically, my studies and etc. Its a whole crap lar. Not that im giving up though, but fark, its just too tiring and hectic and not enjoyable as before. Perhaps, the pressure to beat other institutes like TOP FAVOURITES, SINGAPORE POLY, SERANGOON JC, and finally, ANDERSON JUNIOR COLLEGE!!
I cannot believe we are the among top favourites. Thats why we are working like house elves. Hahaha. But shitlar, always come back home so late.
Then cannot do homework because too tired. Sedih.
Second wish??
Hmm, perhaps a day off??
Im kinda tired and very stress. I just had a word with Ms Sab on how to improve my GP. And the kind of work i have to do in order to get the A1 needs way lotsa commitment to it. My other subjects are ok though.
Summore, im really scared. Can't say it here though. Sori.
And i miss doing sketching, doing poems, and stuff liddat.
Third wish??
Hmm, maybe how bout, be happy?
I dunno, lately, im kinda not happy with everything that is happening. I dunno why i attract nonsense. Nonsense people, nonsense problems and stuff liddat.
Looks like im a magnet of all nonsense. Haha.
If you're reading this, im really sori i had to say it to ya face, not that i dun like you or what you know, or you ugly or what, in fact, you are beautiful cuz you have BIG EYES!!! hahaha, exaggerate sikit.
But, its just that, im scared to face the reality you c. My past haunts me like a dog biting and barking madly at you, and once you got bitten by it, you'll hate that canine for life. Total life imprisonment.
You're very nice and pretty, and i know that you'll do well for your ALevel like me. (haha, cam betol je aku dapat gd marks gitu, muahaha). ANd im sure you'll get a better kindof guy. And seriously, i didn't LEAD you or what, im just being the caring fren i am, so if you have the wrong idea, pls put it away. I dun hate giving false hope to people.
Im a heartbroken guy. Not a heartbreaker aite.
People break my heart or hurt me, not i hurt them.
Seriously, in my life, i really do feel you are the perfect person for me. You're smart (not study lar, not generalising anything, but just not the POMPUAN BENGAP type muahahaha), steady, friendly, helpful, loyal, attractive (GOD, seriously you DO have beautiful eyes, and smile hahahaha.) and etc..
But its just, hmm, how to say ar?
Ah! KUCH KUCH HOTA HAI, sometimes it just happens so aite.
I follow my heart. Follow my soul. Follow God. So, i guess that, to sum it all up, i'll take it as 'Frens now' kinda thing aite.. CHEERS!!
So, am im done with all 3 wishes?? Haha.. Idiot.
Miss my frens, especially my lil sisters (muacks) and soccer.
HEY, thx for the cheesy notes on my notebk. It totally made my day. Hehehe =)
Good news lads.
Im entering the AJ IDOL. Haha, serious tak farnie lar.
And the best part is? Im entering two categories.
1)Soloist
2)Band
Haha. I have a band. No name. But we're cool, and we're singing slow rock kinda music cuz i can only sing RnB and slow rock, haha. Most prob during auditions we'll sing STAND BY ME by OASIS.
And ya, i joined the SOLO cat cuz i feel my potential is not furthered enuf. Haha, chey, like real jer. And ya, got lotsa support from frens and fans, (my fan club lar, haha, like got liddat).
Hey, im no farking TAUFIK poser aite. I sing my style, ok.
And yes, the finals are seriously gonna be like the SPORE IDOL.
2 solo, 2 bands, 2 groupies.
Shees, dats gotta be pressurizing. But hey, i'll try my luck and see how aite. Haha, maybe there's other people who can sing better than me in school.
But im keeping my faith. The auditions are nxt week, i think. GPA over, IDOL here i come..
Peace.
Dear me,
Got, her face is like all over my brain. Help me. SOS.
Friday, March 25, 2005
hear dis.. toya, my beloved..
click on dis to hear me and my bro..
Speacially for you..
smile.
http://www.geocities.com/haz_pho3nix/kita.mp3.mp3
Speacially for you..
smile.
http://www.geocities.com/haz_pho3nix/kita.mp3.mp3
blargh...................again.
Tired. Confuse. No matter.
Life has always spat me, kicked me.
And neither you nor I understand dat.
People say, nah, everybody feels dat too.
But, let me ask u a qn.
How do you know its the same feeling, if, God creates us differently?
Where some people laugh, others cry in pain.
Where some people smile, others weep softly in their sleep.
No such thing as, " I know you, alah, its normal lah, i feel it too yanoe."
Describe it then, i challenge you.
I wun list all the shit i've been thru, its btwn me and God, for He puts me in this for a REASON.
Yes mira, finally i use your Wise Words, haha.
And i know the reason.. ... ...
Dear me,
You use to say, that love is for everyone, happiness is for everyone, and the need to share the love and care is greater than the satisfaction you need to fill in ur heart. Well, I think its a total crap.
Why?
Bcoz i dun feel the happiness. And in my eyes, i saw many whom i love fall in pain and sufferring.
Bcoz i dun feel love. When you say, everlasting true love exist, well, it doesn't.
Think about it, time is short, dere is no such thing as everlasting love.
Except... ... Love to Almighty God, parents, and TRUE frends.
A husband can be your true friend. But looking at the divorce rates, i dun see it appearing often.
People suffer from heartbreaking. I suffer it too. Does that make us similar?
No. The situation is same, but the feeling will always be different.
Cuz pain in the heart can never be describe by people. Give it a thousand philosophers. But none cud ever define the feeling of pain.
You felt it too, u know. You saw and fall in love for the first time in your lofe a girl, who was eating her way thru her lunch.
You saw her, and the you heard the first time ever the heartbeat of a human.
You fell for her, you tried every means to be with her, but, pity pity.
She left. And when you gave your heart to her, she left.
Oh, it feels like such fun until you lose what you have won. Your fav song ryte? Haha.
And now, you are empty.. E.M.P.T.Y
Like a hollow stone. Like an apple without a seed.
How can you love? And i saw you, fidgeting in your sleep, crying like a baby, boohoo. Foooyeee. Cry baby.
You cried in the toilet. At school. You smiled at others, yet meekly inside you felt so empty. You felt pain. Excruciating pain.
Where's the love, when you yourself say that, what, oh, "Love is when you love someone and never ask the return favour." What crap. Stupid.
But look at you, empty nutshell. Yet you still went thru the pain, along with the other pains you suffer all these years. And strong as can be, you stood up one morning in the toilet in the YOU-KNOW-WHERE, and said, "Hazlami, stand up please. Come on, you can do it."
And what did you do? When you felt so weak, you stood up and walked towards the counter and told the nursey "Im ready to go home."
You are strong, brother. But weak you'll still be, cuz you are empty, now you gave that woman your heart. Not that i blame her. Its life ryte, like you say. And she deserve a 'better' man than you.
Haish.
Listen to me, my dearest sister. The pain you feel is killing you. You are still walking on the boulevard of broken dreams. You still are in the realm of pain. And its hard to forget, let alone hate the person you really loved most. Let me tell you something, Love is beautiful, but it is also a monster.
You have to be strong. You must tell yourself, "I dun need him. Im me. I have lots of other loved ones to think about. Ya, you played me. But why must i need you, when you don't need me? Why must i feel this way? Is this me?"
Then smile, syg. Smile. Never underestimate a smile. Even if you crying, smile. It makes you stronger. Stronger than the person you are in now.
When he's ard you, yeah, you'll feel the pain again. But think again, he's not worth the tears. You keep those tears when you clutch your dreams in your very own hands.
And i'll be saving my tears for that occasion. And i'll walk away from the commotion, when you are jumping in tears, i'll walk away.
Why? Cuz i'll be crying and smiling, and thinking that hey, i feel your happiness, and im happy for you, and the thought of that will prompt me to walk away from the scene.
Just like an angel, who protects you, but when his job is done, he'll fly away, but still, his wings will shelter you from the rain.
Like what i did when you got your results. I left. I left when you are feeling the highest among the clouds. But i left not to disappoint you. But to make you even happier. Coz by the time you look ard and saw that im not there, it'll make you realise something. That the person that cares you the most walks away, but he still putting his love on you, and you dun feel the pain at all.
Instead, you feel happy.
Now that's love. The love for God, parents and frens that never dies. When the leave you, they put you in their hearts. And you dun feel the pain. Instead, you feel happy.
And then you'll cry.
Laugh, smile, cry, who knows, there's no tommorrow.
If you feel lost, ring me a bell, and the fireman will save you.
Yours Sincerely.
Mr Fireman.
PS: just wanna say, im glad i have people like Nadiah, Brennan Buddy!!, Nas blood brother, My lil sweetie pies Mira, Noni and Ain, and kamarul bro. You make me smile.
Life has always spat me, kicked me.
And neither you nor I understand dat.
People say, nah, everybody feels dat too.
But, let me ask u a qn.
How do you know its the same feeling, if, God creates us differently?
Where some people laugh, others cry in pain.
Where some people smile, others weep softly in their sleep.
No such thing as, " I know you, alah, its normal lah, i feel it too yanoe."
Describe it then, i challenge you.
I wun list all the shit i've been thru, its btwn me and God, for He puts me in this for a REASON.
Yes mira, finally i use your Wise Words, haha.
And i know the reason.. ... ...
Dear me,
You use to say, that love is for everyone, happiness is for everyone, and the need to share the love and care is greater than the satisfaction you need to fill in ur heart. Well, I think its a total crap.
Why?
Bcoz i dun feel the happiness. And in my eyes, i saw many whom i love fall in pain and sufferring.
Bcoz i dun feel love. When you say, everlasting true love exist, well, it doesn't.
Think about it, time is short, dere is no such thing as everlasting love.
Except... ... Love to Almighty God, parents, and TRUE frends.
A husband can be your true friend. But looking at the divorce rates, i dun see it appearing often.
People suffer from heartbreaking. I suffer it too. Does that make us similar?
No. The situation is same, but the feeling will always be different.
Cuz pain in the heart can never be describe by people. Give it a thousand philosophers. But none cud ever define the feeling of pain.
You felt it too, u know. You saw and fall in love for the first time in your lofe a girl, who was eating her way thru her lunch.
You saw her, and the you heard the first time ever the heartbeat of a human.
You fell for her, you tried every means to be with her, but, pity pity.
She left. And when you gave your heart to her, she left.
Oh, it feels like such fun until you lose what you have won. Your fav song ryte? Haha.
And now, you are empty.. E.M.P.T.Y
Like a hollow stone. Like an apple without a seed.
How can you love? And i saw you, fidgeting in your sleep, crying like a baby, boohoo. Foooyeee. Cry baby.
You cried in the toilet. At school. You smiled at others, yet meekly inside you felt so empty. You felt pain. Excruciating pain.
Where's the love, when you yourself say that, what, oh, "Love is when you love someone and never ask the return favour." What crap. Stupid.
But look at you, empty nutshell. Yet you still went thru the pain, along with the other pains you suffer all these years. And strong as can be, you stood up one morning in the toilet in the YOU-KNOW-WHERE, and said, "Hazlami, stand up please. Come on, you can do it."
And what did you do? When you felt so weak, you stood up and walked towards the counter and told the nursey "Im ready to go home."
You are strong, brother. But weak you'll still be, cuz you are empty, now you gave that woman your heart. Not that i blame her. Its life ryte, like you say. And she deserve a 'better' man than you.
Haish.
Listen to me, my dearest sister. The pain you feel is killing you. You are still walking on the boulevard of broken dreams. You still are in the realm of pain. And its hard to forget, let alone hate the person you really loved most. Let me tell you something, Love is beautiful, but it is also a monster.
You have to be strong. You must tell yourself, "I dun need him. Im me. I have lots of other loved ones to think about. Ya, you played me. But why must i need you, when you don't need me? Why must i feel this way? Is this me?"
Then smile, syg. Smile. Never underestimate a smile. Even if you crying, smile. It makes you stronger. Stronger than the person you are in now.
When he's ard you, yeah, you'll feel the pain again. But think again, he's not worth the tears. You keep those tears when you clutch your dreams in your very own hands.
And i'll be saving my tears for that occasion. And i'll walk away from the commotion, when you are jumping in tears, i'll walk away.
Why? Cuz i'll be crying and smiling, and thinking that hey, i feel your happiness, and im happy for you, and the thought of that will prompt me to walk away from the scene.
Just like an angel, who protects you, but when his job is done, he'll fly away, but still, his wings will shelter you from the rain.
Like what i did when you got your results. I left. I left when you are feeling the highest among the clouds. But i left not to disappoint you. But to make you even happier. Coz by the time you look ard and saw that im not there, it'll make you realise something. That the person that cares you the most walks away, but he still putting his love on you, and you dun feel the pain at all.
Instead, you feel happy.
Now that's love. The love for God, parents and frens that never dies. When the leave you, they put you in their hearts. And you dun feel the pain. Instead, you feel happy.
And then you'll cry.
Laugh, smile, cry, who knows, there's no tommorrow.
If you feel lost, ring me a bell, and the fireman will save you.
Yours Sincerely.
Mr Fireman.
PS: just wanna say, im glad i have people like Nadiah, Brennan Buddy!!, Nas blood brother, My lil sweetie pies Mira, Noni and Ain, and kamarul bro. You make me smile.
Wednesday, March 23, 2005
Tuesday, March 22, 2005
At last, something worth a smile from me..
it's been a bad week for me..
but hey, sometimes God loves us through the cares, laughter, love and smiles from people..
I was kinda fed-up with myself mainly due to these reasons:
1) Not doing good in studies
2) Slacking
3) Urge of spitting vulgarities coming really loud
4) Tired and lethargic cuz this really is a bad month for me
5) Sick of being behind others
6) Can't 'mendalami watak' a monkey to be HANUMAN
7) Homework piling like shit constanly coming out of your ass due to diarrhoe
8) Not doing a good job as a son and student
But hey, like i said, im like soo TOUCHED to have my SIXERS around me..
Now now, hazlami, dun go into emo shimo..
but hey, surprise surprise, im crying ryte now..
Today was like shit, and during PE, when i was running my fifth round the track, I look up to the sky..
Never seen such marvelous beauty in life..
The clouds were chalky white, the sky periwinkle blue, it was such a beauty worth watching..
Then i remembered Him, so i asked thy Lord to give me a miracle today..
He granted my wish..
I was down tipsy topsy, but guess what?
My adeq NURULAIN msged me, and then i decided to go and meet them.
Support MIRA since she is going for her interview at NIE for a scholarship..
So lil me took mrt to buona vista and saw them there at MOE building.
All of us were there. Made the day already like almost the perfect.
So we kept mira calm before her interview, it went well i guess, and she was jumpy and in bliss after that..
but i think she was keeping a specific dilemma in herself, in a way that she cannot choose whether she wants to go to NIE or polytechnic first then go NIE..
well, my advise? Solat istikharah, ask around for info and advice, and think VERY VERY thourougly. Not to burden ya sweets, but the fact remains, THIS IS YOUT FUTURE, make good decisions.. i know its tough to make one, but i believe you can come out with a resolution aite.. smile!!
then we went to eat!! yum yum! Went ta BURGER KING @ Westmall, den we like walk around and talk crap and laugh and lotsa fun lar!
Haha.. that really really blardie tooty cheered me up lar! and their care and laughter and crap really put me to smileys and more smileys..
Now, i never felt so much care and concern and love today..
haha, and hey, im happy back again!
im like so over the moon lar, haha.. you guys really study me, ryte? like a subject, imagine, "hey, i still have homework to do. Wassit? Got HAZLINGLISH to do," muahahahahahaha..
Thanks guys, you rawks.. Seriously you are my lil cutey mushy tooty sushi juicy lushy gosshy sweetie puny sisters!!
Haha, too bad it lasted onnie for awhile..
before life plunges me back in cold waters..
but hey, as what a fwen of my say bout me:
"Haz, you're the type who smiles at life even when it spits ya, kicks ya, drowns ya, shit at ya.."
Smiling ryte now.. =)
Smile, laugh, who knows? Kal ho naa ho..
Dear me,
Oh, look what you've done, you made a
fool of everyone..
There's a lot of things I understand
And there's a lot of things that
I don't want to know
But you're the only face I recognize
It's so damn sweet of you
to look me in the eyes
It's alright, I'm O.K. I think God can explain
I believe I'm the sameI get caried away
It's alright, I'm O.K. I think God can explain
I'm relieved I'm relaxed
I'll get over it yet
Bakawali hampir mekar, namun
Tiada kelihatan si rajawali
berterbangan
bermain hayunan ombak angin jawi
Mungkin tiada mentari lagi
Akur sudah bakawali senja
tenggelam di ufuk sengsara
Harapan menanti, putus bagai temu ajal
Tiada ketemuan kesinambungan erti
Hikayat Bakawali..
Rajawali hampir sergah disaluti sakti
Namun tiada kelihatan si bakawali y
ang mekar senyap dikala pagi
adakah terdiam harapan mentari
bagi rajawali, tiada lagi
Suram menerkam, menerkah sengsara
kerna dihantui putusnya kesinambungan abadi
Namun, tetap rajawali mencari-cari
Bakawali yg mekar tenggelam di ufuk
jeremus karam ditelan lautan armada
usah menanti, kata diri
Rajawali hampir mengusap berkali-kali
Penuh titisan darah dan air mata
Mencari bakawali yg mendiam sudah
Hilang arah menakluk diri bagai dirasuk
si rawana durjana abadi
hati tetap berdegup namun, bilakah ia ditemui?
kembali?
Hampeh.
Peace.
but hey, sometimes God loves us through the cares, laughter, love and smiles from people..
I was kinda fed-up with myself mainly due to these reasons:
1) Not doing good in studies
2) Slacking
3) Urge of spitting vulgarities coming really loud
4) Tired and lethargic cuz this really is a bad month for me
5) Sick of being behind others
6) Can't 'mendalami watak' a monkey to be HANUMAN
7) Homework piling like shit constanly coming out of your ass due to diarrhoe
8) Not doing a good job as a son and student
But hey, like i said, im like soo TOUCHED to have my SIXERS around me..
Now now, hazlami, dun go into emo shimo..
but hey, surprise surprise, im crying ryte now..
Today was like shit, and during PE, when i was running my fifth round the track, I look up to the sky..
Never seen such marvelous beauty in life..
The clouds were chalky white, the sky periwinkle blue, it was such a beauty worth watching..
Then i remembered Him, so i asked thy Lord to give me a miracle today..
He granted my wish..
I was down tipsy topsy, but guess what?
My adeq NURULAIN msged me, and then i decided to go and meet them.
Support MIRA since she is going for her interview at NIE for a scholarship..
So lil me took mrt to buona vista and saw them there at MOE building.
All of us were there. Made the day already like almost the perfect.
So we kept mira calm before her interview, it went well i guess, and she was jumpy and in bliss after that..
but i think she was keeping a specific dilemma in herself, in a way that she cannot choose whether she wants to go to NIE or polytechnic first then go NIE..
well, my advise? Solat istikharah, ask around for info and advice, and think VERY VERY thourougly. Not to burden ya sweets, but the fact remains, THIS IS YOUT FUTURE, make good decisions.. i know its tough to make one, but i believe you can come out with a resolution aite.. smile!!
then we went to eat!! yum yum! Went ta BURGER KING @ Westmall, den we like walk around and talk crap and laugh and lotsa fun lar!
Haha.. that really really blardie tooty cheered me up lar! and their care and laughter and crap really put me to smileys and more smileys..
Now, i never felt so much care and concern and love today..
haha, and hey, im happy back again!
im like so over the moon lar, haha.. you guys really study me, ryte? like a subject, imagine, "hey, i still have homework to do. Wassit? Got HAZLINGLISH to do," muahahahahahaha..
Thanks guys, you rawks.. Seriously you are my lil cutey mushy tooty sushi juicy lushy gosshy sweetie puny sisters!!
Haha, too bad it lasted onnie for awhile..
before life plunges me back in cold waters..
but hey, as what a fwen of my say bout me:
"Haz, you're the type who smiles at life even when it spits ya, kicks ya, drowns ya, shit at ya.."
Smiling ryte now.. =)
Smile, laugh, who knows? Kal ho naa ho..
Dear me,
Oh, look what you've done, you made a
fool of everyone..
There's a lot of things I understand
And there's a lot of things that
I don't want to know
But you're the only face I recognize
It's so damn sweet of you
to look me in the eyes
It's alright, I'm O.K. I think God can explain
I believe I'm the sameI get caried away
It's alright, I'm O.K. I think God can explain
I'm relieved I'm relaxed
I'll get over it yet
Bakawali hampir mekar, namun
Tiada kelihatan si rajawali
berterbangan
bermain hayunan ombak angin jawi
Mungkin tiada mentari lagi
Akur sudah bakawali senja
tenggelam di ufuk sengsara
Harapan menanti, putus bagai temu ajal
Tiada ketemuan kesinambungan erti
Hikayat Bakawali..
Rajawali hampir sergah disaluti sakti
Namun tiada kelihatan si bakawali y
ang mekar senyap dikala pagi
adakah terdiam harapan mentari
bagi rajawali, tiada lagi
Suram menerkam, menerkah sengsara
kerna dihantui putusnya kesinambungan abadi
Namun, tetap rajawali mencari-cari
Bakawali yg mekar tenggelam di ufuk
jeremus karam ditelan lautan armada
usah menanti, kata diri
Rajawali hampir mengusap berkali-kali
Penuh titisan darah dan air mata
Mencari bakawali yg mendiam sudah
Hilang arah menakluk diri bagai dirasuk
si rawana durjana abadi
hati tetap berdegup namun, bilakah ia ditemui?
kembali?
Hampeh.
Peace.
Monday, March 21, 2005
Bad day, bad month, bad year, what else can go wrong??
Hey.
Damn.
Today sucks. 2 words. Sum it all up.
Gema practice was fun, but not animore. I got scolded for like a few times, and like, i wasn't disheartened by it but, was very pained to see my fellow friends like FARHANA and ADIB got scolded preety bad.
Haish. It pains me to see others sad. I dun care bout myself, if u wanna noe. Its just that people affect me soo much.
I read my adeq's blog. I guess we share the same period. PMS in March.
Dun worie aite, im here aite, always there if you fall..
Damn lar, im soooo like emo these days.
Summore, the song KHNH is like making me nuts!
It makes me realise how short life is, and how much time i have to help others.
Not that i help THAT mush ryte. Must have been paining others more than helping them.
Haish, there goes haz again.. emo modaf*ckin airhole.
Summore, today i thot things wud go the ryte way.
Maths= complete flop despite the easiness in doing the vectors test. Damn easy lar, but cudnt concentrate dunno y.
Lotsa in ma mind, im damn scared of what i mite expect these few days.
Not gonna put it on blog, sedih.
Just summing up, not a good time fer me this year.
Gotta sleep now, hmwrk waiting inside me lil bag. Tmr morning must wake up early to finish up tutorial. Haish.
And also 'mendalami' watak of a monkey (damn lar u cock! like i got experience to jump here and there like a monkey. suck my lolipop lar!)
And to my friend, SALIHIN of 26/04, welcome welcome to our class, hope ya like it yar..
Peace.
Day after day.
Time pass away.
And i just can't get you on my mine.
Nobody knows, i hide it inside.
I keep on searching, but i can't find.
The courage to show, to lettin you know
I never felt so much love before
And once again im thinking about
taking the easy way out
If i let you go, i will never know
what my life would be, holding you close to me
if i ever see, you smiling back at me
How would i know..
If i let you go..
Damn.
Today sucks. 2 words. Sum it all up.
Gema practice was fun, but not animore. I got scolded for like a few times, and like, i wasn't disheartened by it but, was very pained to see my fellow friends like FARHANA and ADIB got scolded preety bad.
Haish. It pains me to see others sad. I dun care bout myself, if u wanna noe. Its just that people affect me soo much.
I read my adeq's blog. I guess we share the same period. PMS in March.
Dun worie aite, im here aite, always there if you fall..
Damn lar, im soooo like emo these days.
Summore, the song KHNH is like making me nuts!
It makes me realise how short life is, and how much time i have to help others.
Not that i help THAT mush ryte. Must have been paining others more than helping them.
Haish, there goes haz again.. emo modaf*ckin airhole.
Summore, today i thot things wud go the ryte way.
Maths= complete flop despite the easiness in doing the vectors test. Damn easy lar, but cudnt concentrate dunno y.
Lotsa in ma mind, im damn scared of what i mite expect these few days.
Not gonna put it on blog, sedih.
Just summing up, not a good time fer me this year.
Gotta sleep now, hmwrk waiting inside me lil bag. Tmr morning must wake up early to finish up tutorial. Haish.
And also 'mendalami' watak of a monkey (damn lar u cock! like i got experience to jump here and there like a monkey. suck my lolipop lar!)
And to my friend, SALIHIN of 26/04, welcome welcome to our class, hope ya like it yar..
Peace.
Day after day.
Time pass away.
And i just can't get you on my mine.
Nobody knows, i hide it inside.
I keep on searching, but i can't find.
The courage to show, to lettin you know
I never felt so much love before
And once again im thinking about
taking the easy way out
If i let you go, i will never know
what my life would be, holding you close to me
if i ever see, you smiling back at me
How would i know..
If i let you go..
Friday, March 18, 2005
Why is this happening to us????
No offence boys and gurls, but hazlami has gotta say what's in his head.
Damn.
It is really hard for Malay Muslim Singaporeans here to get a job.
Thats a darn hard fact. Sensitive, but i shall brave the torn waves and discuss it.
It is a reality that it takes alot for a malay muslim to get a job, in the past and also presently. Usually, the same piss-off kind of excuse would be,
"Sir, do you speak chinese?"
Wtf! No offence, my chinese friends, but that is reality. Cold hard fact.
Why? I must ask why. Everyday when we go to school we say the pledge, "...REGARDLESS OF RACE, LANGUAGE OR RELIGION..", but yet, implimenting it to daily life is seen as 'not-a-norm' thing.
I always respected my fellow chinese mates, and truly enuf, till this very moment i still do. But the fact remains, once they join the workforce, the situation would be different. There is a possible 70:30 ratio that a chinese will get employed as compared to other races.
What has happen to our education system? What has happen to our governmental policies? Where is the meritocracy?
It is shown, statistically, that we MALAYS are not stupid. More than 40% of our students are most likely becoming professionals, only that since we are the minority race, the statistics against the overall majority shrinks our percentage weightage.
But the mindset of MALAY=LAZY is still there. People still picture us as the 'race who only knows how to play dum and talk crap in coffee shops'.
This might have been sparked off eversince way back to raffles time. Raffles, unknowingly famous for rebuilding Singapore, has placed a fair stereotype on we Malays. The implimentation of Chinese hawkers as "Managers" and Malay hawkers as "Dum Players" instill a so-called mindset of Malays being unable to surpass responsibility in contributing to the economy.
My view? Farking wrong.
Why? During the Malaya Empire in Melaka, Malays are well-known to be excellant merchants who travel to every corners of the world to learn and trade. Legendary Hang Tuah even accompanied the Sultan to China. The Sultan himself had contacts with India. Until the Portugese came and destroyed it, Malays are well known as Explorers, who travel to diff parts of the world to trade. It is inevitable to accept that Melaka during that time was economically powerful as they control the Malay Archipelago and the Straits. It was, a golden age for the malays.
However, the coming of raffles brought about other forthcomings. Take for example, yes, singapore became a famous fishing port and that contributed significantly to the rise of our economy. But hey, he separated each race from each other, and brought in chinese merchants. No wonder SM LEE was kicked out from Malaysia during the MERGER- he brought a threat to the Malays Malaysian. He promoted a Self-Progressed Meritocratical society.
Now, Malaysia is called Malaysia bcoz it is a MALAY state. So it is understandable that the prospect of 'anak jati negara' or pioneer's of the land is accepted and truly enough, Malays there receive help, either financially or socially. He didnt like it, cuz he believe that everybody must receive equal share. But wait a sec. If he practice all equality here, it doesnt seem to appear that way. We malays here are suffering. Recently, my brother was posted to be COMBAT MEDIC, and to think that he is an ALEVEL graduate. Goodness me. ANd most of his chinese colleagues get Officer post. Only one of his Muslim mate got in, and he is an Arab, mind you.
Where is the equality??
And there's more. I talked to a good friend of mine on the phone yesterday, and guess wad? Her cousin went to apply for a job, u c. As expected, they wanted CHINESE SPEAKING. So she went to take a course on it. After that, she went back to apply the same job. Guess what? She got pushed off cuz she cudnt WRITE CHINESE. HOW WICKED IS THAT??
Equality seems to be a far-fetched reality. There can never be equality, i daresay. Even in USA, the Blacks still do receive unequal treatment. So i must say that, HUMANS are wicked in a way they are SELFISH and only think about their gain and not others.
There goes our sins. And for that, GOD punished us by kill thousands of people.
Humans. Can they resist GOD's STRENGTH and POWER?
While they can make nuclear bombs and sharp-shooting weapons, it is easily said that they can never fight or resist God's power. Even a tsunami, we HUMANS cannot save ourselves.
Talk about politics.
Dis make me sick.
Peace.
Even if she doesnt know, I'll still wait no matter what.. I dunno why i say that, but i just do. The feeling is intense, and i tried to fight it, but i can't. Kiahoa??
Damn.
It is really hard for Malay Muslim Singaporeans here to get a job.
Thats a darn hard fact. Sensitive, but i shall brave the torn waves and discuss it.
It is a reality that it takes alot for a malay muslim to get a job, in the past and also presently. Usually, the same piss-off kind of excuse would be,
"Sir, do you speak chinese?"
Wtf! No offence, my chinese friends, but that is reality. Cold hard fact.
Why? I must ask why. Everyday when we go to school we say the pledge, "...REGARDLESS OF RACE, LANGUAGE OR RELIGION..", but yet, implimenting it to daily life is seen as 'not-a-norm' thing.
I always respected my fellow chinese mates, and truly enuf, till this very moment i still do. But the fact remains, once they join the workforce, the situation would be different. There is a possible 70:30 ratio that a chinese will get employed as compared to other races.
What has happen to our education system? What has happen to our governmental policies? Where is the meritocracy?
It is shown, statistically, that we MALAYS are not stupid. More than 40% of our students are most likely becoming professionals, only that since we are the minority race, the statistics against the overall majority shrinks our percentage weightage.
But the mindset of MALAY=LAZY is still there. People still picture us as the 'race who only knows how to play dum and talk crap in coffee shops'.
This might have been sparked off eversince way back to raffles time. Raffles, unknowingly famous for rebuilding Singapore, has placed a fair stereotype on we Malays. The implimentation of Chinese hawkers as "Managers" and Malay hawkers as "Dum Players" instill a so-called mindset of Malays being unable to surpass responsibility in contributing to the economy.
My view? Farking wrong.
Why? During the Malaya Empire in Melaka, Malays are well-known to be excellant merchants who travel to every corners of the world to learn and trade. Legendary Hang Tuah even accompanied the Sultan to China. The Sultan himself had contacts with India. Until the Portugese came and destroyed it, Malays are well known as Explorers, who travel to diff parts of the world to trade. It is inevitable to accept that Melaka during that time was economically powerful as they control the Malay Archipelago and the Straits. It was, a golden age for the malays.
However, the coming of raffles brought about other forthcomings. Take for example, yes, singapore became a famous fishing port and that contributed significantly to the rise of our economy. But hey, he separated each race from each other, and brought in chinese merchants. No wonder SM LEE was kicked out from Malaysia during the MERGER- he brought a threat to the Malays Malaysian. He promoted a Self-Progressed Meritocratical society.
Now, Malaysia is called Malaysia bcoz it is a MALAY state. So it is understandable that the prospect of 'anak jati negara' or pioneer's of the land is accepted and truly enough, Malays there receive help, either financially or socially. He didnt like it, cuz he believe that everybody must receive equal share. But wait a sec. If he practice all equality here, it doesnt seem to appear that way. We malays here are suffering. Recently, my brother was posted to be COMBAT MEDIC, and to think that he is an ALEVEL graduate. Goodness me. ANd most of his chinese colleagues get Officer post. Only one of his Muslim mate got in, and he is an Arab, mind you.
Where is the equality??
And there's more. I talked to a good friend of mine on the phone yesterday, and guess wad? Her cousin went to apply for a job, u c. As expected, they wanted CHINESE SPEAKING. So she went to take a course on it. After that, she went back to apply the same job. Guess what? She got pushed off cuz she cudnt WRITE CHINESE. HOW WICKED IS THAT??
Equality seems to be a far-fetched reality. There can never be equality, i daresay. Even in USA, the Blacks still do receive unequal treatment. So i must say that, HUMANS are wicked in a way they are SELFISH and only think about their gain and not others.
There goes our sins. And for that, GOD punished us by kill thousands of people.
Humans. Can they resist GOD's STRENGTH and POWER?
While they can make nuclear bombs and sharp-shooting weapons, it is easily said that they can never fight or resist God's power. Even a tsunami, we HUMANS cannot save ourselves.
Talk about politics.
Dis make me sick.
Peace.
Even if she doesnt know, I'll still wait no matter what.. I dunno why i say that, but i just do. The feeling is intense, and i tried to fight it, but i can't. Kiahoa??
*LiFe Is LiKe pLaYiNg TaiTee..* quote of the day
yup. Life is just like playing taitee.
haha. I love playing taitee, but does that mean i love playing with life??
gd qn.
btw, im at sp ryte now blogging. I went to visit my friends and study with them. (They're having a bad time studying, their exams are up, haha. Sedih.)
So far, i've never complain about how tough life is. I was studying chemistry in the SP Library, and i look at the faces of young men and women, all poly students, and suddenly, something hit me.
Life is like playing taitee. Quote of the day. How cool is that?
Let me justify.
1) Taitee is game where risk is at stake, and sometimes, you have to be lucky to win. Get a house of ace or sumting, then win thru with a six or five.
2) Taitee is a game of strategy, where you sumtimes liase with frens to beat others. Like backstabbing or helping others liddat.
3) Taitee is a game of concentration. In life, sumtimes you have to focus on your strength, keep your twos before using them to beat others.
Stupid ryte? Haha. LOL
Wanna share something.
I am..
EYE WATCHER
Yes, thats me.. I look at eyes onnie.. Nice and beautiful eyes always captures my heart and make me swirl like smooth mocha in a cup. I always like those exotic kind of eyes, mysterious ones too. They say, beauty is in the eye of the beholder. Haha. That's ryte, that one. Dun have nice pair of eyes?? You can try..
SMILING
Yes, totally agree with that. Gosh, i can melt whenever gurls give me those kind of smile. Playful, yet sincere and lovely. With a tinge of sarcism and sweet. Its like a fusion, you see. If you possess it, GOD, GOODNESS GRACIOUS ME.. You have the POWER babe! Always fall for that one.. Got one time, there's this gurl whom i know. She was sad, u c. Then i smile at her, ask her whether she is ok or not. She suddenly wipe her tears, gave me this smile that totally drowned me. God. I was like drowing in the arabian seas. Made my day too. If im sad, and a gurl smile at me, im happy already. See, the power if a smile, totally potentially powerful tool. Dun have it? Keep trying aite.. How about..
LAUGHING
That shud do the trick. This is a tip fer ya gurlies. If your laughing is contagious, and after you laugh, you smile at him, god i tell you, the guy wud simply fall for you. Serious. Take it from me. Got lotsa experience, call me DR LOVE hahaha (stoopid name, dun call me that aite!) There's this once, this particular gurl keep laughing her head of, and that attracted me too cuz guys simply like gurls who are very warm and jovial. hahaha, really, tak caye sua. If you dun have tis too, goodness, i'll recommend..
BODY LANGUAGE
Take a course on this, it'll help alot, really. If you're hold this aura of mystery, complex yet showing that you're a simple gurl outside, but hard-to-get inside, you're PERFECT!! Sometimes, even a quiet session, but maintaining eye contact shows it all. I LURVE this kind, very hard to find u see. Hahaha, rare! You dun have this? Nvm, try this.. An alternative..
SELF IMAGE
This really works. You gurls shud dress not following others, but be urself. Be original. DUn follow stoopid ppl who wears slippers, or minahs wearing tight stuff. Come on, everybody is special man! (count me out, that one, haha) Where something nice. If you're the outgoing type, wear rugged. Dun act Ms Sweetie-wannabe-but-a-fake-inside-that-makes-others-go-YUCKY.
Be urself. Like my beloved cuzzie would say, be oRiGiNaL, LurVe YouRsELF. But really, guys like me like those kind who wears pink and stuff liddat. Oh! and Black! that shud make ya mysterious. Hahaha. I love pink, mcm pompuan plak. hahaha. It does not look gd on me, but damn it looks good on others! hahaha!
Conclusion?
Be urself. Work on those talking skills. I know some people who possess all naturally. They're special people. But hey, like i say, EVERYBODY is SPECIAL!!! Work on them, im sure you'll get the person you want most.
A bit of advice here. Usually, gurls nowadays like to go after those 'cool, hip, hop and happening' guys or matrips and stuff liddat. Look, LOOKS CAN BE DECEIVING. I know guys who looks cool, but yucky inside.
Advice? Get a good guy, outside relax and simple, inside heart of gold and cool, hip hop and happening. Its the inside that matters. Personality over image. Yupz, total agreement on that one.
Happy holidays. Gonna mug till i drop! hahaha. Peace.
Dear you,
I know you possess all.. But i know its hard to get ya.. but will try my best aite.. i dunno whether you'll read this or wad, or if u read this, you know that its you.. but trust me, you're the best! Totally awesome. The perfect gurl for me. Maybe fate isnt by my side right now.
haha. I love playing taitee, but does that mean i love playing with life??
gd qn.
btw, im at sp ryte now blogging. I went to visit my friends and study with them. (They're having a bad time studying, their exams are up, haha. Sedih.)
So far, i've never complain about how tough life is. I was studying chemistry in the SP Library, and i look at the faces of young men and women, all poly students, and suddenly, something hit me.
Life is like playing taitee. Quote of the day. How cool is that?
Let me justify.
1) Taitee is game where risk is at stake, and sometimes, you have to be lucky to win. Get a house of ace or sumting, then win thru with a six or five.
2) Taitee is a game of strategy, where you sumtimes liase with frens to beat others. Like backstabbing or helping others liddat.
3) Taitee is a game of concentration. In life, sumtimes you have to focus on your strength, keep your twos before using them to beat others.
Stupid ryte? Haha. LOL
Wanna share something.
I am..
EYE WATCHER
Yes, thats me.. I look at eyes onnie.. Nice and beautiful eyes always captures my heart and make me swirl like smooth mocha in a cup. I always like those exotic kind of eyes, mysterious ones too. They say, beauty is in the eye of the beholder. Haha. That's ryte, that one. Dun have nice pair of eyes?? You can try..
SMILING
Yes, totally agree with that. Gosh, i can melt whenever gurls give me those kind of smile. Playful, yet sincere and lovely. With a tinge of sarcism and sweet. Its like a fusion, you see. If you possess it, GOD, GOODNESS GRACIOUS ME.. You have the POWER babe! Always fall for that one.. Got one time, there's this gurl whom i know. She was sad, u c. Then i smile at her, ask her whether she is ok or not. She suddenly wipe her tears, gave me this smile that totally drowned me. God. I was like drowing in the arabian seas. Made my day too. If im sad, and a gurl smile at me, im happy already. See, the power if a smile, totally potentially powerful tool. Dun have it? Keep trying aite.. How about..
LAUGHING
That shud do the trick. This is a tip fer ya gurlies. If your laughing is contagious, and after you laugh, you smile at him, god i tell you, the guy wud simply fall for you. Serious. Take it from me. Got lotsa experience, call me DR LOVE hahaha (stoopid name, dun call me that aite!) There's this once, this particular gurl keep laughing her head of, and that attracted me too cuz guys simply like gurls who are very warm and jovial. hahaha, really, tak caye sua. If you dun have tis too, goodness, i'll recommend..
BODY LANGUAGE
Take a course on this, it'll help alot, really. If you're hold this aura of mystery, complex yet showing that you're a simple gurl outside, but hard-to-get inside, you're PERFECT!! Sometimes, even a quiet session, but maintaining eye contact shows it all. I LURVE this kind, very hard to find u see. Hahaha, rare! You dun have this? Nvm, try this.. An alternative..
SELF IMAGE
This really works. You gurls shud dress not following others, but be urself. Be original. DUn follow stoopid ppl who wears slippers, or minahs wearing tight stuff. Come on, everybody is special man! (count me out, that one, haha) Where something nice. If you're the outgoing type, wear rugged. Dun act Ms Sweetie-wannabe-but-a-fake-inside-that-makes-others-go-YUCKY.
Be urself. Like my beloved cuzzie would say, be oRiGiNaL, LurVe YouRsELF. But really, guys like me like those kind who wears pink and stuff liddat. Oh! and Black! that shud make ya mysterious. Hahaha. I love pink, mcm pompuan plak. hahaha. It does not look gd on me, but damn it looks good on others! hahaha!
Conclusion?
Be urself. Work on those talking skills. I know some people who possess all naturally. They're special people. But hey, like i say, EVERYBODY is SPECIAL!!! Work on them, im sure you'll get the person you want most.
A bit of advice here. Usually, gurls nowadays like to go after those 'cool, hip, hop and happening' guys or matrips and stuff liddat. Look, LOOKS CAN BE DECEIVING. I know guys who looks cool, but yucky inside.
Advice? Get a good guy, outside relax and simple, inside heart of gold and cool, hip hop and happening. Its the inside that matters. Personality over image. Yupz, total agreement on that one.
Happy holidays. Gonna mug till i drop! hahaha. Peace.
Dear you,
I know you possess all.. But i know its hard to get ya.. but will try my best aite.. i dunno whether you'll read this or wad, or if u read this, you know that its you.. but trust me, you're the best! Totally awesome. The perfect gurl for me. Maybe fate isnt by my side right now.
Thursday, March 17, 2005
Kal Ho Naa Ho
Har ghadi badal rahi hai roop zindagi
Life changes its beauty all the time
Chhaaon hai kabhi kabhi hai dhoop zindagi
Sometimes it's a shade, sometimes life is sunlight
Har pal yahan jeebhar jiyo
Live every moment here to your heart's content
Jo hai sama kal ho naa ho
The time that is here may not be tomorrow
Chaahe jo tumhe poore dil se
One who loves you whole-heartedly
Milta hai voh mushkil se
It is difficult meet that person
Aisa jo koi kahin hai
If there is someone like that somewhere
Bas vohi sab se haseen hai
That person is more beautiful than all
Us haath ko tum thaam lo
Grab onto that (person's) hand
Voh meherbaan kal ho naa ho
He or she may not be so gracious tomorrow
Har pal yahan jeebhar jiyo
Live every moment here to your heart's content
Jo hai sama kal ho naa ho
The time that is here may not be tomorrow
Ho, palkon ke leke saaye paas koi jo aaye
Taking the shadow of your eyelashes, when someone comes near
Laakh sambhaalo paagal dil ko
You try to reason with your crazy heart
Dil dhadke hi jaaye
Your heart just goes on beating
Par soch lo is pal hai jo
But think, that which is here now
Voh daastaan kal ho naa ho
That story may not be here tomorrow
Har ghadi badal rahi hai roop zindagi
Life changes its beauty all the time
Chhaaon hai kabhi kabhi hai dhoop zindagi
Sometimes it's a shade, sometimes life is sunlight
Har pal yahan jeebhar jiyo
Live every moment here to your heart's content
Jo hai sama kal ho naa ho
The time that is here may not be tomorrow
Jo hai sama kal ho naa ho
The time that is here may not be tomorrow
Dedicated to anonymous, and to my beloved frens..
PS: I can't stop thinking about you ryte now.. I've been waiting for you all my life.. And i know that i can never get you.. Is this piar? To love someone without receiving it back? I dreamt of you, think of you all day long.. And i tried as much as i can to put the feeling away, but God forbids it. There must be a meaning to it, i know there is. Love is beautiful, but the reality, i can never get it. I've been waiting for you eversince i saw you there a couple of years back. Told ya best fren, im being stupid to wait for something not mine.. help me man! haish..
Monday, March 14, 2005
Slacking..
im keeping in touch wif myself lately.. and im feeling much better now, with all my friends and family helping out to help me grow.
I've been thru alot, and i cannot go on without angelic help from these people..
1) Mummy and Daddy
2) Big Brother
3) Best fren, Nadiah Binte Basiron
4) Best Buddy, Brennan
5) Best Pal, Kamarulzaman
6) My lil adeqs, Nurulain, Mira, and Nuraini
Notice the number six? Yeah, tat's them man.. My Great Sixers.. So far, my life has been a very long journey.. Thru ups and downs, from i meet love, till i lost it, from pain to health, and from health to pain.. from sadness to happiness, and from happiness to sadness.. This song is dedicated to your hardwork and pure friendship, care, trust, fellowship, and most of all, love.. I love you all so much, and only my heart can tell you how much all of you meant in me.. My journey will end soon, and perhaps, will meet again someday.. But the freindship will live thru strong till the heavens.. Smile..
Yours Truly
Hazlami Bin Zawawi
I've been thru alot, and i cannot go on without angelic help from these people..
1) Mummy and Daddy
2) Big Brother
3) Best fren, Nadiah Binte Basiron
4) Best Buddy, Brennan
5) Best Pal, Kamarulzaman
6) My lil adeqs, Nurulain, Mira, and Nuraini
Notice the number six? Yeah, tat's them man.. My Great Sixers.. So far, my life has been a very long journey.. Thru ups and downs, from i meet love, till i lost it, from pain to health, and from health to pain.. from sadness to happiness, and from happiness to sadness.. This song is dedicated to your hardwork and pure friendship, care, trust, fellowship, and most of all, love.. I love you all so much, and only my heart can tell you how much all of you meant in me.. My journey will end soon, and perhaps, will meet again someday.. But the freindship will live thru strong till the heavens.. Smile..
Yours Truly
Hazlami Bin Zawawi
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