SICK!!

Its been like wad, 3 blardie days since i fell ill.

"Forgive me Oh MIGHTY LORD, for too much sins have i brought myself in.."

Dat means.. ARGH!!

I cannot go GEMA!!

Even cikgu jamilah insist me to rest.

Fuck

My temperature is like, 40.5*C??

I feel like im virtually flying around the world.

All thanks to my BROTHER, HASANUL ARIFIN.

OH.. LOOK WHAT YOU'VE DONE.. *from JET*

He brought back home dis contagious diseases what my family called it as the TEKONG VIRUS..

Now, even my mum is sick. My two lil brothers are also in high fever.

If my father fell ill, shit lar, one whole family sick.

Not dat i dun want them to be at home, but, ARGH!! Whose gonna clean the house?? Cook?? Wash the dishes and dirty laundry??

Summore, i miss a total of 3 days of pure mugging.

How wicked is that!!!

And even so, today im suppose to have SAFF CAMP (SAFF is a muslim organization i just joined. It brings me closer to the community and God)

ARGH!!

KK, fine, i'll keep the tension to myself.

Wanna say a few words to certain people.

Dear best friend,

Kan aku dah cakap, insyaAllah boleh settle nyer antara ko ngan matair ko. Despite the risks of being a middle man, bcoz of both if your trusts in me, i am able to help ya, one way or anothr. Remember my advice ya? And my 'Angelic Twin' (WHAT?? So im the evil twin ar? muahaha), sabar bebanyak lar aite. Me always dere to help ya both. It makes me happy to see couples end their fight because they really love each other. Not that im DR LOVE, but, i've been thru once and i can tell ya it damn sucks, farking painful lar. Banyak doa lar aite.

Dear brother,

Hey, you got STRAIGHT A's man!! Congrats!! Now at least imma motivated and wanna be just like you. I hope (doakan aite) i can get good results like you. Wah, nak jadik doctor sae?? Get a good scholarship and reach your goals aite. Hope i have the same determination as you!!

Looking forward to holidays. Wanna watch a movie. And shit, i haven buy the tix for the ice thingy shahraini wants me to go. Sorry ar beb, tunggu gaji ar. I go buy it today aite.

Gema is goona be the most exciting thing in my life. Summore, my watak is very much 'alienatic' as compared to the others (not ET ar.. hahaha, keep guessing..)

Got lotsa things to say, but i can't put it in words. So i guess,

"RAHSIA DI HATI, TIADA SIAPA YANG
TAHU.."

Peace.

Reminiscing

Shagged.

A word frequently used by me.

Tired.

Another word frequently used by lil me.

How bout, hmm.. Heart Broken??

Hmm.. Long time never see that word though..

But yes, will use that word today... ... ...

Im in the lab ryte now suppose to do GP stuff, but hey, Hazlami always liddat one ma, ppl ask to do sumting, he'll do sumting else, muahaha..

Haish.

I was checking my mail, when i came across this particular folder i've so long never did touch it..

It was called.. Ehm.

Stupid me go open the folder.

Opening the folder opened up the closed doors of a wonderful memory sought by many.

Love.

That's right folks. My first love. And to think of it, i thought i cud run away from it.

My answer?? No.

Diana says first love is always hard to forget. I put it in my pocket but lost it, uc.

But today changed my whole perception of it.

YOU CAN NEVER FORGET YOUR FIRST LOVE.

I agree. Haish.

Sadly, it has to end. Everything ends ryte, from life to death, from jobs to school, from happiness to sadness, from laughter to tears..

There's no such thing as eternity..

I thot love was eternity.. The love that i felt with her was truly a remarkable feat, a feeling so untouched by the mortals of the sinned.

But love ended. God put it to an end. I like to ask, Why?

Why must it end? Where it started off so beautiful.. But why has it to end in such horrible death?

Hasanul quote (my bro) : Eternal Love lies in God and Muhammad. Unconditional Love lies in Mum and Dad. Affectional Love lies in your family and friends. Pure Love??

Yep, where does Pure Love lie?

Does it lie in the One who would share your pain with? Such responsibilty is too difficult one cud ever see.

Where does Pure Love lie?

Is it in does you treasure most? Or is it in does who care for you?

My father once said, in life, everybody is alone. You cannot lie to yourself that you are not alone. Accept it that you are alone. Cuz you'll die alone. You'll be left in your grave alone. But accept this; You are never alone, IF, God is with you.

God, i am scared. Why do i feel this? Why can't it go away?

Why must i feel this? Why must i feel the pain everytime i reminisce the ol' book of memories?

Haish. I feel like shit now. Even the shit in the toilet holds some honour.

Im just nothing but a weak human.

But hey, at least i have something to cheer up.

To the person: I'll try my very very best to find ya, no matter wad! You have the bestest pair of eyes! hahah!

And my bro is taking his Alevel results today. Actually, im taking it fer him. Poor him, sick at home. Cheer up kae.

Peace.

WE ARE IN!!!!

Wanna know sumting?

Nah, not telling ya..

Haha..

WE ARE IN!!!

What?

We are IN!!

In what!?!?!

WE ARE GOING THRU THE FINALS!!

What finals??

GEMA PUISI!!!!!!!! YAHOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That's right folks.

Anderson JC has made it. Actually, not AJC, but AJCMLDDS has done the impossible.

A week of preparation.

A week of pain and utter madness.

But yet again, we triumph as the host announced " MAKTAB RENDAH ANDERSON" as teh 2nd jc to enter finals..!

How lucky we are??!!!

Anyways, there were a few skewls i will like to mention..

I will like to congratulate PASIR RIS SEC SCH for their outstanding performance, and their courtesy to us when we are hold up in the holding area.

And to CEDAR SEC for their good performance, but yet lost due to some blardie skewls whom i dun think deserve to go in.. *thinking really hard who the hell the school is..hmm*

And to the rest of the skewl, includimg PIONEER JC, cuz my frens (INDRA and erm, i forgot the name ar, but i think its Nur Shahida Rani??) were part of the team, but lost cuz the TECHNICAL stuff there at NYJC sucks really bad.

Kk. enuf of the crap. Wanna hear the story!

We reach AJC like, 9am, but it was raining! Shit fark!

We had our last rehearsal before going to NYJC at 11am.

Btw, there's this cute lil gurl haha. Just wanna say it. Muahaha. She asked fer my number, and i was like going, what the hell? She was damn blardie preety, but the fact remains, she cud be my adeq uc.. i mean, her size and her face looks so the immature muahaha! Like im so mature! Get a LIFE!

We went to the holding rooms, where we spent the next few hours waiting and rehearsing our lines.

We were confident, yet, my heart tells me that i wasn't gonna make it.

Haha. SEDIH!!

We talked to the Pasir Ris Sec peeps, (i must admit, that PR gurl was damn hot for her age! muahaha! but sori, not interested! *winks*) then we proceed on wearing our costumes.

Damn, personally, i felt like shit. Of course, for one small reason.
I looked like HANG NADIM yet wif PANGIRAN eyes!

They put too much make up on me sae. Wakao!!

1.50pm, the NYJC gurl came in to take us to the stage.

Damn, i was freakign nervous. I hadta put in this tissue paper inside my ear so that i cud hear myself when i am singing. (oh btw, my best fren said i sound nice, thanks!! *winks*)

The final moment came. Stupid NYJC flopped the blardie technical thing. So not closing the curtains.

We hadta virtually walk on stage to get to the other side of the stage. DAMN, that was humiliating!

Bukak panggung was the best. Especially the part i and SALIHIN fought with our Shadow Plays. IT was a total naik semangat ar! Catchy.

Then, i spoke. I felt a bit comfortable uc.. Heng ar!

When SALIHIN rap, people were surprised uc! Come on! Nobody rapped!! And it was funny, cuz SALIHIN is a religious guy and he wasnt into rapping and stuff liddat. So ya, he did sound funny! Muahaha!

I know it was my turn to sing. I look at the floor to see my microphone.

Wakao! No mic sae!! I was like, shit, im farking dead!

But hey, i saw dis mic on a stand. So lil me covered my face with the SHADOW PLAY and took the mic. I pulled. Shit!!

THe stand was gonna drop! I was like pacing. Salihin had just finished his rap. My turn!

I hadta bend down and to sing so that i wun pull the tension too much.

Bcuz of the commotion, i sang abit to high den expected. So it was kinda hard to control the melody, especially if it's a traditional malay song.

But hey, quite disappointed with ma singing, but hey! I think i was the ONNIE one singing in traditional song, and cud pull thru beautifully u noe.. Hahaha!

But they say there is this guy from SP who sang better. Not Taufik Batisah lar. But i was challenged by that idea. So now, im picking myself up and try to learn as much as i can, to improve my singing..

But we were doing good! The judge complimented us on our entertaining value,and our concept plus our fresh idea of putting a SHADOW PLAY cum MAK YONG as our skit. Hahaha! Go AJMLDDS!!

Wanna thank a few people from the bottom of my heart..
1) My GEMA PUISI team!! FARNA, SULI, MUNI, SHAHILAH, SHAHEEDA, SALIHINRIDHUAN, ZUK!! *muackz*

2)The helpers!! HAMIZAH and ATIQAH who were so sweet in making us lunch and snacks!! And thanks for the time guys!! *winks*

3) CIKGU JAM and EHM! For making it cum true!

4) My MLDDS peeps for all the support.

5) My bestfren, NADIAH ANAK BASIRON who touched me so much wen she came to see me perform!

6) To this special fren of mine who gave me the invisible support with just an sms! *winks* Study ya.. hehehe..

7) To all frens and my family for their understanding and support!

And to my adeqs!! GOOD LUCK FOR TMR!!! OLEVELS!!

I LOVE YAL!! I will doa you all aite.. I'll try to be there with yal aite..!

Peace!! =)

He's still preety occupied, with Gema, Gema, Gema Puisi.. Muahaha!

I have 7minutes to say wad i wanna say not because im going to DIE or what but i'll be seeing my Maths teacher MR SIAO (dunno how to spell your name lar, cher, but muahaha, u rawk!)..

He'll be teaching me some Maths hahaha. See how pathetix i am.

Got lotsa things to say. But dunno how to put it in words.

One word can sum it all.

STRESS.

Yupz. Modafarking stress.

Tired. Damn. My head is like spinning like washing machine. I dunno whether i can survive this. Muahaha.

Tadi pagi jer dah kene marah ngan cikgu chem sial kepala babi nan chib*i suntet anat kuntet jolok kambing!

Isap gua nyer lolipop TM ar, muahaha.

Kk. Just wanna say, i miss ma adeqs. MIRA, AIN, NONI.

Miss my BROTHER, MUHD HASANUL ARIFIN.

Miss my best friends. NAD, KAMARUL, NAS, BREN

Miss my beloved cuzzie, FARHANAH MULIADI.

Miss my soccer peeps.

Miss my lil friends at the Social Group.

Miss MAMA and PAPA.

Miss you. (who?? muahahaha. Like Real. This is just for fun ar hahaha. Buat scandal sikit.)


Hey, at least im enjoying myself.

To adib, take care aite. Ko jgn jalan byk2. Siak je, nanti patah lagi mampos aku muahaha.

Erm, what else ar..?

Oh ya, PLEASE DO COME AND SUPPORT ANDERSON JUNIOR COLLEGE MLDDS in GEMA PUISI ARTISTIK!!

Cuz i'll be... erm.. not suppose to say aniting, muahaha!

*tired, but today is very nice cuz sumting nice yet simple happen*

ps: Senyap je org tu, dah tak msg aku.. Sedih..

Is it me??

Had a counselling session just now with beloved Mrs Josephine Liaw..

"Hazlami, i know deep inside the mess you are what i call a decent sweet person who likes to help others. But surely, you must know that sometimes your limits are limited, and learning to say NO shows true courage of a man."

That is sweet, more like too sweet.

Haha. Hazlami and his Merepekizm TM.

But what she say was quite true.

I never said NO to no one, no matter how tired or how sick or how bz or how shitty and crappy modaf*cka i am feelin', but still, lil haz took da heat.

But guess what?

I got into deep shit.

Tipah tertipu tertipu tipu tetipah.. .. (Tipah tertipu - RUFFEDGE!!! *Gua syg sam lu man!!*)

Muahahaz..

And to think of it, i do suck at helping ryte.

I help, but i get ppl into deep shit as well.

So, Hazlami Anak kepada Zawawi, keturunan JAWA will lika do a public apology..

Im sorry..

1) To those i've hurt with ma laser mouth or actions, cuz i wunt do any killin' and no bad intentions beb..

2) To those whom i've let yal down, especially my fellow classmates, EXCO's!! (I love yal!), Cikgu Jam, Ms Sab, my sub tutors, my friends out there whom i've disappointed..

3) To MAMA and PAPA.. I have let you down by not cherishing and see your unconditional love.. I thot u love ABANG more than me.. Cuz im slow and stupid and all.. But MAMA and PAPA syg amie lebih dari dorang, like MAMA ckp,

" Amie nak tau, mama rasa sedih sekali, macam kene panah, pasal amie tak nmpak kasih syg mama pat amie. Amie nak tau, mama syg amie lebih dari abg, dari adeq2.. Kaulah yang aku tatang bagai minyak yg penuh.. Pasal mama tau, amie SELALU tolong mama, walaupun bagaimana penat pun, amie tetap ringankan tangan untuk tolong mama.. Amielah yg mama boleh harap.. Adeq2 kau semua tengok kau sebagai abg besar dier org.. Kalau mama sakit ke, penat ke, amie nanti urut belakang mama, atau peluk mama untuk kasi semangat untuk mama teruskan menunaikan tanggungjawab mama sebagai isteri.. Bapak kau, syg kau lebih dari sesiapa.. DIer slalu ajak kau pegi maulid atau majlis zikir pasal dier tau, dengan berkat maulid atau zikir, dapat engkau menjadi seorang yg mampu teruskan keluarga kita.. Ingat tak, semasa engkau pengsan di luar rumah, bapak kau sakit2 sanggup pikul kau macam bayi, angkat kau ke klinik, angkat kau ke ambulance.. Walaupun dier dah tak kuat lagi.. Sanggup amie hancurkan hati mama.."

Oh im crying ryte now in the library.. Im not that strong, u c..

Haish.

Maafkan amie, mama. I want you to know that, no matter what happens, i'll pray fer ya so that we can live happily in Paradise in AFTERLIFE.. We together.. Just us..

WIth abang.. With Nasrun and Najiy.. It will be so happy.. Just us..

Tears still flow from my beady eyes.. Cannot control.. Ader budak india nie asek ngok aku, asal jer si Melayu nie menangis.. Muahaha..

=D, i fell better now..

Peace.

GeMa PuIsI, HeRe ComEs hAz-Laaaaaa-Mi!!

Haish.

GemA is taking a toll outta me.

At first it was kinda fun.

Now its stress.

After the "THING" (Not gonna mention here, there mite be sum jacko poopers here, muahaha) happened, im in constant stress and pressure.

Ni salah lah. Tak sedaplah. Apelah. WAD THE FUCK!!

haiyo. Useta let go of my frust to close people. But they too seem to disappear.

Haz, sumtimes you cannot rely on people too much.

Geuss i'll hafta 'walk alone' (Boulevard of Broken Dreams)

Haish.

Dear phoenix,

The pain is growing. I now my time is coming. Soon, later, not sure. Im not fearing it, man, but waiting at the edge of sumitng terrible is more scary. I can still feel the pain in me. Everytime must go toilet. Haish.

Hey, but i think let;s just put it aside and help others, shall we??

Make them happy, make them cheer up, lend a listening ear, make jokes and laugh..

WHo knows? Kal ho naa ho..

HAHAHA.. That was a joke phoenix, now come on and laugh!

Haish. I now dis suck.

Amie sayang mak. Amie sayang bapak. AMie sayang Abang. Amie sayang adiks. Amie sayang semua.

Cuma, waktu berputaran. Bimbang tak berkesempatan.

Haish.

I'll see ya in heaven, i hope.

Metamorfosis di dalam tubuh yang gersang..

Heya muh niggers! Wassup!

I feel a change in me, after the counselilling session today..

It changed and realised me of an awareness i shud be aware of last year..

Im not who i am..

Not last year, not yesterday.. But Today, i am myself..

No longer the stoopid sunnoffabitch i usedta be..

No longer the big egoistical airhole i was..

No longer the show off guy..

But today, im just me..

Hanging out wiv ma frens..

Laughing, smiling.. Even Farna NOW noticed my sweet smile..

My sweet smile has come back!! For heavens sake!! I am back!!

The old hazlami, the one dulu2 time cckss tu..

Onnie in a diff package now.. hahaha.. if u get what i mean..

Tried to adopt many styles, but now, i finally see myself as the original me..

Original Me.. BIG WORDS you know..

And.. Not only that..

There was a catalyst to it.. That further enhanced the process of reverse osmosis..

There's this person whom i saw on Monday. Jeng Jeng Jeng!!!!

She was sitting beside me, yanoe. During Mass Civics.

This preety gurl. She kept looking at me, you see.

So lil shitty pissy me locked eyes wif her.

AND..

Today, when i was practising on stage, and she was practising badminton in the Hall, she looked at me and gave this..

this..

AWESOME BLARDY SMILE THAT MELTED THE SHIT OUTTA ME!!

Hahahaks.. I dunno..

But i think im virtually floating in air ryte now..

Imma asking my chinese best buddy, lil John ta help me..

Coz "Usher" has the voice to make your booty go 'THOMP!'.. muahaha..

Miss my bro, my cuzzie,my bestfren, my adeqz, my CCKSS gang bola man..

And, thank you guys.. For all the support.. I noe i let you down last time.. Now, i won't, cuz i'll try my very best to do it yar..

And to that special person.. Hope ya tak berjahitan ar.. hahahaha..

Peace.

Vday..!

This is fer my frenz who undoubtly are my "Fan Club" (hahaha, weird huh?)..

Open the sound system aite, my speaker like fark ar..

I dedicate this song to yal.. This is fer ya..

Remember, that i'll always appreaciate ya..

And dun forget, im joining this year's Talentime, so be there aite..

ENJOY!!

Manager
Hazlami Pte Ltd


And not to forget, this is to my good bestest frens in my life.. and to you too, my beloved cuzzie! Muaksz!

Lamer siut dah tak blog.. Things at heart..

Wassup man!

Siallah. Com masih rosak so immat AJ library typing beside Khairul Azhar Bin Khalid.

Haha.. Kiter ngah slacking sambil menikmati keindahan tuhan,

Ape dia kak??

Ngah ngok friendster lah, ader satu minah JAMBU TAHAP MAKSIMUM SIOT!! Namer dier aku tak tau ah. Tapi nanti gua post pat blog ar ehk? Kahkahkah!

Haha. Tu Khai nyer..

Haish.

Penat siak. Lepas nie ader Gema Puisi. But guess what????

Got Great NEWS beb..!

Last Thursday, 3 February 2005, was a turn in my life. At last, somethings that made my day.

Thursday, if you ask, suck lar. Long periods. Go home like 6.30pm. Ader GP remedial. Merepek siot. Tapi, darlink aku Kak Nana brightened up my day when she sent me a message thru friendster. Love ya!!

K ah, aku ngah line up makan ar. Si khairul ckp, "Eh, aku nak tu satu." He was pointing at the macaroni dishes (Cik tu masak dah muak siot! Kahkahkah. Brani aku kutok dier pat sini. Imagine dier tau pasal blog2 nie). So, lil did hazlami the great know that he presumes Khai wanted the macaroni.

I bought TWO farking plates. Si bengap tu ckp, "Aku nak fillet lah, bukan mee tu setan!"

Siallah.

Tu dah buat aku cam nak snap. $1 burn bodoh!

Takpe ah. Ade hikmah.... Meh aku citekan..

Ngah aku line up, si makcik kantin asked me to sing. I say, i got know mood ar, cik. Haiyo. I noe i sing nice lar, haha. Jual mahal plak.

Den suddenly, a group of chinese gurls (Year 2 lar) went to join the queue, led by none other than MS DIANA, (You understand what i say or not? Im writing in English for your sake you know? Thank me later.. Kahkahkah *fer ya info, she cannot speak Melayu*)

She menyampuk (or intervene the dialogue session). "Eh, haz can sing An Jing! Sing lah." (btw, An JIng means shut up, in chinese, a song sang by Jay Chou)

The group of gurls were like, in disbelief kinda look. How in a blue hell can a Malay guy sing Chinese??

Then i open my big mouth and let out a few nodes and antinodes (Superposition, stab Physics hahaha).

Guess what? They were starstruck. They gasped. Their eyes shined like the twilight.

And guess the result?

Hazlami has found himself a fan club.

Tak kelakar lah setan!

Tak bedeklah setan!

You think i want it ar? Im humble you know.. Chey.. (in his heart he yearns for more.. hahaha)

Got this gurl say, "I am the president of Haz fan club." ANd they argue over me. Yessa!!!! (Sekali sekaler pompuan gaduh pasal i orait you!)

However.. .. .. ..

There was ONE. THe ONE. THe ONly ONE. (You are my only, my only one... *Only one- Yellowcard*)

This gurl. HOT! SUPER HOT! Suara steam kodok macam nak kene isap lolipop AJ aku yang limited edition.

HOT! Thats the only word i can express. ANd she say... "Eh guys, look over there..! That's my boyfriend!" And with that cutiest smile she got, wiht those preeety dimples, she flashed me this sweet smile that turned my stomach over and out!!!

God! Habis aku!

Im going nuts man. And to think of it, im just this stoopid jerk with stoopid ugly hair. And stoopid shoe, with stoopid face.

Hey, once in a lifetime man. Tak penah bender cenggini terhappen di dalam hidop gua.

Updates on her?? *Hush* Not telling hahahahaahahahahaahahahaahahahaahha...

________________________________________________________________


Next!

She gave me this red band, PLAYER dok!

Haish, im so like going nuts..!

This is fer ya.. .. ..

Day after day, time pass away..
And i just can't, get you out my mind.
Nobody knows. I hide it inside.
I keep on searching, but i can't find..

The courage to show..
To lettin' you know..
I never felt so much love before..
And once again, i thinking about..
Taking the easy way out..

But if i let you go, i will never know
What my life would be, holding you close to me..
Would i ever see, you smiling back at me...
How would i know..

If i let you go.. .. ..

Hahaha, thot of singing this to ya. Im singing it in library with Khairul know. Hahaha.

Kaez, gotta go now.. Miss ya my best frenz. Kak nana too! And yes, not to forget, Ain! =D

NOTE: My bro just came back from NS. He got lotsa GHOST stories to tell.. Wooooo (haha, like im scared, hahaha) Later i tell yal aite!

In my deepest thoughts, shall the Phoenix Reborn..NOT!!!

Haha.. its me again..

Blog pat skola siak, my com kena screw by bloodhounds, worms, shit, airholes and stuff liddat..

So dah kire 3 FARKING weeks i never chat wiv no one at all.

Yups, laddies and gentlemen, 3 weeks of no chatting.

Juz sittin' in my room doing homework, tutorials, assignment, TYS, self study and stuff liddat.

Fuck.

I am beginning to feel a change in me.

A sudden surge of metamorfosis that will change my life forever.

A sudden spur of everlasting complex movement that will revolutionised the world around me.

Yes folks, the truth must be told and retold.

Im a mugger!!

Shit man, where is the slacking shit airhole hazlami???

Skrg, aku blajar cam siak. Dulu, haha, lect pon. Now, tak gi lect cam tak berak satu minggu.

Imagine keeping your shit in your arse for a week.

Damn.

No life man.

Okaylar, perhaps a couple of me frenz like Khairul wud change the crowd abit, talking bout gurls (dun wanna giv yal any example, its confidential cuz onnie we boys wud understand) and how hot they are (shit ryte, im becoming a farking airhole, can sumbody beat the shit out of me???) and stuff liddat.

And ya, im doing fine now wiv my work, kinda happy bout it cuz finally, THE ROCK HAS COME BACK.. .. .. (stop it lar, perasaan the rock plak. Badan cam chopstick nak perasaan batu. Muahaha)

haish. I miss my frenz. Tak lupa, kawan baik aku, nadiah anak basiron, wahahaha.

Dah lamer tak jumpe. Maner tak, always hang out at skewl. GO home late around 5 to 6pm. Straight go home, eat, talk to parents, play game, sms gdnite to 'certain people (not gonna mention, muahaha, but seriously, nuting much lar.. no surprises.. hahaha), then do homework, watch tv, sleep, wake up, read lect, bath, shit, eat, go skewl (nie part best sikit..)

You wanna noe why i like the part of going skewl but dread the return??

Firstly, my SWEEEEEEEETTTTTT MUMMY (I LOVE YOU!!!!!) will say ," Blajar baik2 tau sayang.. Mama doakan kamu aite??" So sweet..

Next, i'll like, do a huff and puff and run all the way to the lrt cuz late.

Then, i'll see along the way this CUTE gurl, (i think sec 2 ar, my cckss jr) walk past me, and i wud usually smile at her for no reason whatsover!!?!! But she smile back lar. (suspens jugak, ingatkan dier ingat aku nie stalker ke ape..). Her eyes are SOO GORGEOUS!

Then, as i take the lrt, i'll see this funny looking chap nak stab hip hop tapi kasot rabakz! (chey, riak ar, nak tunjuk kasut limited edition LAKAI dier)

Then, as i walk towards the mrt, the moment has come..

Budak swiss tu.

Tak jambu, tak jumbu, tapi entah knapa budak sehensem (muahaha, muka cam tongsampah aderlah) aku nie nak angkat budak cenggitu. Tapik abg aku ckp she is nice ma. Farna pon cakap gitu. So aku go wifda flow ler. haha.

Dah sampai skola, slalu stab action ngan Khairul, salah satu kengkawan aku yang GEREK.

Pastu, ngok Si "Minah Tak mandi" (taknak reveal dier, hahaha, tapi dier cinoneh tau). Yang stab minah melayu tapi cam tak mandi, hahaha.

Mcm Khairul ckp, "Ee! Geli sial! Mcm sial. Confirm belum mandi. Dari jauh aku dapat raser kebusukan dier. Chey!! Hahaha"

Den i'll say, " Siak jer kau nie. Dier suker kau kot. ASek pandang kau jer. Nak lalu cakap ngan aku excuse me, tapi lalu kau pegang bahu kau, haha, confirm suker kau"

Like always, he'll flip the birdie (Maki lar, or shud i say, gimme the middle universal finger)

And you noe what???

Fark. I have this freakin stalker in skewl.

Ade kebende aku nampak namer aku "I Love HAzlami forever" pat table luar library.

Ade kebende aku nampak surat cinta pat dlm TYS aku, semasa aku letak my books outside library.

Is this a prank!!?!?! Siallah.

Haish. TO the gurl, fat hope mate, cuz hazlami has just told you to kiss his black ass (not black eh, brown, muahahaha)

To my adeq2, gua rindu samer lu ar!!!

To my mummy and daddy, thanks for understanding me. You guys are GREAT!!. (for your info, my parents had met up wiv ma principal. Dey discuss a few issues, turns out to be better!! Yipee!)

To my ehm, may god bless you (cuz one fine day you'll fine haz on your doorsteps saying, Hi, do you wanna buy a cup of milk??)

To my bro, hey, be strong aite. Look on the bright side. You get to shit in the forest. You get to talk dirty. Hahahahaha.

Oh ya, not to forget.

Wanna say sumting close to my heart.

"Never cud imagine, life without you. From the moment you walk into my world. Never knew how aloving flame cud burn. But losing you has forced me to learn. That we can't change the way we feel inside. And every try at love never turns out right. We both know, its better if we just let it go.."

And yes, i know that i have to let go of my past. But still, hazlami tetap hazlami.

And nothing except the Almighty cud change that.

And that remains.

Love, fate, destiny.

Im not fated for them.

For i am hazlami.

And that is the way it is.

Somethings at heart..

We both know, its better if we just let it go.. (Taufik's single, ONE LAST)

Guess i just have to be honest. Like how my principal commended on how honest and open i am cause he never ever come across such student like me.

That was a different story. I tell ya later.

Im telling you the things i have in my heart.

Something i wud never tell to people.

My principal's voice still lingers in my heart.. "Hazlami, sometimes we have to share our problems with the world. Share it with others. Share it with your friends. What you say is true, that we cannot trust people so easily, but look at us. You are telling me all that u have kept in you. Is this a trust between a teacher and a student? I believe so. Then comes another question. Why me? Why must it be the Principal you trust when even your bestfrend you cud share it with? I must answer that. For i am older than you, and u know that i have come across a lot in life. I know what you are facing, and i acknowledge your bravery on that. But believe me, even sometimes heros need comfort."

That was it.

I am inspired by his words.

He was like a father to me, and he even arranged to have lunch with me in term 2 when i'll show him my good grades for common test.

Then again, somehow i realised something.

I am Hazlami.

Anak kepada Zawawi.

And i must be proud of the bearer who gave me that name.

Not to let you down.

So i must say, "Fuck chemistry. Fuck Physics. Fuck Maths. And of course, FUCK MALAY!!! (aku dabis pon kene buat melayu, bodoh siak!!).


WHy do i say this??

Coz i have to learn to "LOVE" them.

Wahlau.

Chem oklar, tapi MATHS??!?!?!?!?!

Mampos aku. Mesti kene screw ngan mak bapak. Fucklar. Tapik, aku think that i have to think skewl as " A POINT OF INTEREST"???

What the hell????

Oklar, hazlami, aku raser you can do it.

Mr Tan (my principal) says "I hope that wen you get your A's, you'll remember this time, our dialogue. Then you'll know how it feels like."

And yes, i promised him i'll study hard.

Mcm lagu Taufik Batisah : In my mind, i can climb, all the mountains that surrounds me..
My spirits there, where eagles dare to fly.. In my heart, there's a spark, that can light the world around me.. An open door where i am sure dreams are.."

Oh ya, telupa tipah tetipu aku.

Sebenarnya, aku kene jumpe Pengetua bcoz i always pon skola hahaha..

Yelah, im naughty ryte.. haha.. so naughty till i caught in my own shit haha..

Summore si Mickey Tan tu nak jumpe mak bapak aku, confirm mati.. so takpe, aku kene tabah..

Counselling pon ok.. Tadi kene jumpe Ms Josephine Liao bebual batang ngan dier.. Ckp pasal masalah aku.. Turut accompany diri yang fana ini ialah air mata yang bercucuran.. Sedih.. Tak penah aku nangis depan seorang counsellor.. haha..

Anyways, ader lagik satu aku nak berbincang..

WHAT IS LOVE??

Piar dosti hai, kata Shah Rukh Khan. Hahaha, memang benar kata2nya..

Tapi, pada diri ini..

Cinta itu sesuatu yang indah, yang perit. Sesuatu yang sukar untuk dicari. Jika ia hilang, maka susah unutk hati itu dikembalikan.

I know you are reading dis, dearie.

Do you know that you are so special, coz i can't deny that you would go to the extent to wait fer me till i find my heart that was broken..

Indeed, i must admit, that since Hazlami is honest, i'll tell you..

When i found love for the first time in my life, i never felt so much happier. First love is always hard to forget. A love so unconditional, i dared say. Betul tak best fren??

Love made me go crazy. I did a terrible thing. I hurt the person who loved me so much. I didnt appreaciated her love. I was drowned by my selfishness and self-esteem, till i forgot how much does it take to love someone. I was wrong. I guessed the beginning. But i didnt expected the ending.

Now she is far away from me. So far that i know, the once love we both cherished was gone with time. And to tell you the truth, i felt so hurt. Betul tak nadiah? I called my bestfren even, to tell her how i feel, how hurt i was. I wanted to end the pain. The thorn in my heart. Not thorn, but actually the emptiness in the place that once stood a pice of me- my heart.

However, some part of me didnt want to end it. The emptiness yearns for the heart to come back. I picked up a few pieces of it, but i guess some of it is left with her.

And do you know what was it that was left with her? It was her teardrop. Yes. Her teardrop. Her teardrop when i hurt her. The teardrop when i was in ill-spoken situation. The same teardrop that warmed my very soul. And that teardrop carries one thing. Love.

Asmaradana. Kemuncak cinta. Haish.

Love is great. But i did a mistake which i didnt intend to repeat it.

What i need is time to find the pieces of my heart back so as to continue my journey.

That's why i am a phoenix.

Arjun rajawali.

The legendary bird.

Who flies here and there, in search of something that can soothe its soul.

That can stop it from singing somber serenades.

Love it is.

Pure love.

My abang say, "Pure love is where you love someone without asking the return favour."

Piar. So complex. Not for a person as complex and sophisticated as me.

Piar. So beautiful. Not for a person as ugly and beastly as me.

Piar. So painful. Not for a person as weak as me.

[Dan niat suciku takkan disiakan.. Dan di suatu masa.. Di hari yang indah.. Kuhulurkan tanganku.. Lalu kau, terima..] (Suatu masa from MNASIR)

Long time never post.. Sure lotsa stuff to be discussed..

Heyya peeps! Sori i didnt update my blog. Im at skewl now, supposed to do ML stuff, but guess wad?? F*ck it man. I need to loosen up, yal. Its been a creepy but enlighting kinda week fer me.. Wanna share it wiv yal aite..

Monday, 10 January 2005

I received the FIRST call from my brother. I totally miss him, u noe. Not that im gay or wad lar (dun get the wrong idea lar, dok.) Its just that i miss the so-called 'brotherly' affection (this includes the frequent fights, arguments, curses and things liddat, muahaha) he usually give me. I miss his jokes, his curses, his KUTOK's, and most importantly, his view over an issue. He always gives satisfying kind of opinion on a certain problem i face (but i disagree that a good friend of mine is a bitch. Cuz in fact, i feel that it's just fate. But we are still frens, close frens, i think. And letting her go was an essential part cuz i think that she deserves a better person than me, for im too complicated for simple life)

He called, saying that, "Siallah. This place sucks. My frens ok lar, lots of them nerdy. I couldnt pray my morning prayers cuz damn sergeant asked for a fall in at 5.45am?? (f*ck man, damn blardy early.. CONFIRM takleh bangun wakakaka)"

I took control of the room, but despite that, i feel a certain emptiness in me i have never experienced in my life at all. Imagine, living with a person for your whole life, sticked to him like glue, than suddenly, he left. Shit ryte.

Wednesday, 12 January 2005

It was CCA CARNIVAL. It was fun though. Siang2 kena put up the displays and all. Our banner was like f*ck. Damn seriously like mini-me, if u noe wad i mean. Then, as i was walking ard fishing for live and new breeds of fishes, i walked pass the hall and guess wad?? There was a live band performing.

I got three words to describe them.

"Shut up, suckers!"

Seriously, it is a commen sense thing that you choose a song suitable for your pitch range, not of the crowds favourites. Dahlah nyanyi cam topekong bawah blok aku (ade org mati bawah blok, mira msg me and freak the shit out of me. They were praying BUddhist stuff, mcm Gregorian gitu, wahahaha), abeh nak stab nyanyi SUM 41?!?!?! Ape siak. Balek nyanyi pat dlm jamban lagik baguih, muahaha!

Saw this nice-looking gurl (she is from swiss, i think) who caught my attention all of the sudden. Invited a few ml students to join MLDDS, and stuff liddat. And finally, balek lambat pasal pi joget BORIKITO mass dance ngan EXCO.. muahaha.

After that kene ajar tuision, pastu carik rezeki sikit baru balek lambat giler tahap maksimum.

Friday, 14 January 2005

MLDDS ORIENTATION was F.U.N!!! The only reason is that i bastard this particular group when we were playing the Treasure Hunt thingy. I was farkin fed-up when my group cudnt find our clue, so when i saw this group's clue, i threw it in the bin, muahahaha!!! Pantat sae, haz!

Abeh, ingat dapat balek sesame budak swiss tu, skali si SALIHIN tu nak pi make-up plak. Bodoh nyer budak, wahahaha. Cume nak buat kawan je kan kan. Tapi seriously, i talked to my BES FREN (you noe who u are) and she herself agree i haf lost my MOJO. Singlity (no such word, but wad the fark?) is my nature, i daresay, and i cudnt make up my mind to making gurls in my life ryte now.

Saturday, 15 January 2005

A slackish day, i daresay. Had a date with my dear fren aishah- she blanja me @ Coffeebean sae. Mahal nak mati. Serious nyer. Makan Brownie ngan chocolate drink, i tink. Sedap tahap maksimum. Dahlah sedap, kiter bebual punyelah panjang (kalo koghang keluar ngan aku, confirm aku leh bebual panjang, pasal aku creative mat.. hahaha, bedek sae..) Macam dah lamer tak jumpe gitu. Muka dia masih samer, cume rambut dier tukar je. Ok pe, aku tak kesah mat. Mcm china doll gitu. And u noe wad??? Ade hati dier ckp aku mcm MAT!?!?! AKU=MAT???!??!!? Tak mungkin.. Siak je.. Den we walked ard Westmall, den went to cwp where she went shopping and i hadta leave her cuz i had to go for this wedding thingy, which was a total stupid thing cuz i wasted my time there. So ya, everything was SUPER COOL. Hope that it'll continue that way.. Dun wanna lose a person like her, u see..

Sunday, 16 January 2005

SINGAPORE v/s Indonesia.

Battle of the Century.

We Won.

Finally.

Lions R.O.A.R!

Proud to be a SPOREAN!!

TO bad cudnt watched it for real. boohoo, no tix ma. Fark man.

But nvm, watched the battle, with my windows shut cuz sum eerie Buddhist people praying downstairs, that freak both me and Mira. Cudnt sleep man.

Monday, 17 January 2005

Lotsa stuff to do. Homeworks, tut, projects. But shit man. My COM SPOIL!!! Damn blardy viruses. Once i finish my project, i'll reformat the damn whole shit and reinstall NORTON ANTIVIRUS 2005 (takleh pinjam, aku beli original tau, nak pinjam tolong blah, kahkahkah. Kak nana nak pinjam boleh, tapi i think u already have once Cik Fadlon dah reformatkan ur com)

Hot News.

For those bastards who keep on tagging stupid shit on my blog, let it be known that Hazlami dislikes the fact that personal stuff is being discyssed here cuz lots of people is viewing my blog. Im pissed of at this particular person, who dun haf the right mind to RESPECT people. Yeah, the word RESPECT should be emphasized. And yet, it seems that the Wise One thinks she is the right person. Nah, forget it right, kan Ain? (Ain CCKSS tau haha) You know me 'well' enuf that im a forgiver and not sum bastard guy rite. You 'know me well' enuf to expect that Hazlami forgives, but will never forget. Hazlami, yeah, sumtimes 'CAN' be a jerk, he accepts that, he juts need the RESPECT, if you noe wad i mean, from 'certain' people who claims, "I Noe YOU!!" but actually doesnt noe the fact that HAZLAMI is unique in a way he has a COMPLICATED LIFE and only his CLOSEST ONES (MIGHTY 7) would know. For he trust nobody better than them himself. So Hazlami pleads to yal to kiss his ass and RESPECTS "WHO" he is, not
WHAT he is, right kak nana???

Bored nak mati, tired like f*ck!!

Heya punkers and airholes!!

Damn tired sia. F*ck man. So many hmwork!! Been doing like house elves here. Maybe im in need of SOS more than the tsunami victims, hehe.. JUST A JOKE AITE???

Bless me, u noe wad??

My brother, MUHD HASANUL ARIFIN BIN ZAWAWI left spore to answer the call of NATIONAL SERVICE.. Thats GREAT!!!

Not that i hate him or wad, i tink its good for him, to learn to be a man, while im still a small fry still shitting in ma pants!!

And u noe wad?? I cried in front of the computer in MLDDS room in AJC in front of the BELO'S when i read my brother's post for me and my family.

Its been so long since i ever cried.

And to think that his advices was just "Adeq, dun go look after gurls and study" was the most LAMEST shit i eva heard, really, it touch my very soul, to think that he do care for me after all. I always respected him, never did hated him. Only pissed of, for sum unplanned moments lar. BUt cum of it man, i DO LOVE HIM u see..

My best fren needs my help, i dare say. She cudnt adapt to wad she is in now. My advice??

Stay where u are man, and try to think straight.

I got into that kind of shit before, and i wish it never did happen to anyone though. But then again, duncha worie aite. Anything call me. I can make or carve a smile on ya face, make jokes or kill myself. That shud do it, wahahahaha

Next, yesterday...

was...

the MOST...

BESTEST CIP..

I ever experience..

bcoz...

I TOOK A PICTURE WITH NORALIZA OSMAN!!!!

THE MISS UNIVERSE!!!

AND..!!

SHE TOUCHED MY ARSE WHEN I TOOK PICTURES WITH HER!!!

NOT ONLY THAT!!!!

I DID TOO!!! (sikit jer, tak sex maniac ar, wahaha, tapi i just put my hand behind her, kene sikit lar.. hish, dosa dosa..)

WAHAHAHAHAH!!

And..!

I tink i look like my IDOL yesterday, COOL!!

I went to orchard with the guys, then i went home, i felt kinda chilly, so i took out my black coat, and wear them. To think that my dog tag slipped out, i saw lotsa ppl kept looking at me. I thot., hey, i did zip my pants ryte?

i double checked them, and yup, coffe shop close liao

but.. They are looking at me still. Shit ryte

But when i enterd 190, i look into the bus mirror and, wahsey, a new star is born (cam betol je wakakakaka)..

I look like Taufiq, not exactly, but like a follow up to wad he usedta wear..

NOT A MAT, but, a hiphop RnB soulman..

i talked to HAZRUL NIZAM, by the way, the singer who sang KAULAH SEGALANYA at the MENDAKI CLUB TEA CEREMONY yesterday at Sheriton Hotel. Talked to him in the toilet. And i told him i love to sing. So he gave me a couple of tips.

Come on, gimme some tips, i say. I'll prepare myself for TALENTIME in feb.

Lastly, to my bro, take care and love ya always..

I very bzlar, gotta go.. i'll post the pics i took later k, bubyee!!!

Piss off, god damned airholes!!

Totally confused to the max!!

here i am typing my shit away...

Some things do have change, but some things can never ever change..

Wad's there is there, and i'll keep it all the way...

The promises i've made, shall be kept in a safe box

I dunno why i feel like tis, i thot it wud go away...

But my big broder (love you) once told me, "I love her, deq, and there is nothing u or i can do about it. Even if i try as hard as i can to forget her, but i can never ever do that. Is this pure love, deq? Abg dunno, and it still hurts no matter wad. I'll leave it to ALMIGHTY GOD for He knows what is best for me. Till then, i shall keep this feeling and persevere on..."

Wad does he meant by 'persevere on'??

I dun understand...

Confuse i remain..

Why is dis feeling so overwhelming..?

Must call nadiah, my good friend, she understands me like my own sister...

Must tell my dear fren kamarul, nasir and brennan..

Must ask my beloved brother...

Must ask... ....

Mighty six...

i dun understand.. totally feeling as numb as ice..

But one things for sure...

Muhd Hazlami Bin Zawawi: He can never forget..........

peace out.

New Year Revelations

Hey look, in a few hours comes New Year!!

Let me share wiv ya sum stuff in my head. (of course, it is full of crap and shit, plus the vomits of bad cabbage and carrots, Y.U.C.K)

Thoe shalt be...
1) A responsible exco member to MLDDS, and pledge loyalty to it (despite me being the "VIRUS" -buat cam Dr Evil tau, ngan jejari2 dier wakakakaka-, who doesnt respect others at all!! wakaka)
2) Responsible and caring brother and son to the family
3) Smiler who always and make fun of others (Y.E.S!!)
4) A charmer who will catch many fish in the pond (pakai recorder adeq aku, pi tiup pat satu korner pat Geylang Serai, wahaha, jgn lupe letak duit ha...)
5) Responsible student who NEVER skips lectures and tutorials and NEVER talk back to fellow teachers of AJC (like real, dis revelation is S.T.U.P.I.D -talk about being the top student for Spelling in primary 1, wakaka-)
6) A good friend to others who needs a friend, and not let the Beast inside me to go thrashing people's doors (haha, talk about privacy, wakaka)

Thou shalt do..
1)good deeds, and don't Kutok org lain (hahaha, dats an irony)
2)my homeworks, and go thru sessions for my cure with full of hopes and pride
3) Sajaks dat wud mesmerize any soul who reads them (haha, L.I.K.E-R.E.A.L)
4) Kutok org nyer pakaian, lebih2 lagik mats and minahs, and bebudak tak Original
5) not do, but TRY to dgr ckp org (im a Naughty Boi, wakakaka)
6) Dance Hip-Hop, and sway like Taufiq Batisah, ma IDOL!! *love him*
7) Love MIGHTY 6, *hope dat there's a space for sumone i knew long ago, but doesn't recognize dat huhuhuhu*
8) create a blog layout, out of my true self, dat says all bout me (gona design one soon, BIG PROJECT AHEAD!!)

Thou shalt NOT do..
1) anything S.T.U.P.I.D! (well, for starters, i have the apt to do stoopid idoistic things even a small mosquito wud never do-wads with the mosquito???)
2) and BEHAVE myself in public
3) fall in love dat easily, wakakakaka
4) masok skola lambat, abeh tipu OM wakaka
5) Easy temperement (easy there, Big Fella.. contain urself, cam kamal ckp, relek broda..)
6) scold others unneccasarily
7) scold or shout bad words dat easily, eg : Phuck, sial, knn, dan bebende sewaktu dgnnyer wakakaka

dats all, i think.. wahaha.. kalo ape2 i add again.. my brain is full of thoughts now..*winks*

PS: Hope ya like the song.. it makes me SWAY like wad say.. kuang kuang kuang!!!

Sad and Lost in the Shadow...

Why must ppl die, dear Lord? Why must this person go away, and leave me, in this cruel world? When can i join this person, Dear Lord? I noe my time will come soon.

Dear Lord, is it painful to die? Does it hurt? The Prophet says it hurts like a thousand blades striking the very skin of the person. Like fish skinned of its scales.

Dear Lord, where do i go after i die? Do i join the people who worships You, or do i suffer the horrendous torture wiv the people who disregarded You? haish.

Dear Lord, how would the angle of death look like when he comes to take my unforgived soul away from this impure body? Will he come wif mencaing face dat breathes fire dat would burn my flesh, or will he smile uncanningly wiv upmost happiness, inviting me to see You? haish.

Dear Lord, I finally realised, dat the reason to life here, is death. For death brings life. This, here, is not life, Lord. Its a test, an obstacle for me to move to the place of eternity. There, in HereAfter, lies Life itself. Where it is everlasting. Where noone wud die. Where i cud love a person FOREVER.

Hakikat hidup ialah mati, kata bapaku yg tersyg. Kerna disana letak Hidup yg sebenar-benarnya.

It brought to my senses, dat i am nothing here. All i cud do now, is to cherish wad i have now. And leave canny life wiv all the good deeds to go to Heaven. To see you, Dear Lord.

Death is nothing but a journey to Life itself. But Dear Lord, why i must live in fear of death itself? Perhaps it is laid before me, wen others were not. Others live happily in maksiat, but i am in confrontation to Death itself.

Dear Lord, punish me for all my wrong doings! Take everything dat i have, cuz it belongs to You. You took my loved one, one at a time. And it hurts me, but i pray, Dear Lord, where others don't.

I know im, praying, for much to much
But cud you sent back, the only person i Loved
I noe, you don't do wad You usually
But Dear Lord, i am dying
to dance wiv my loved ones again...

Dear Lord, i still love this person, and i cudn't let this person go, i've learnt. It's a love so pure, thy God. For i always go to sleep in memories of this person, all the times i share wif the person You took away from me.

Dear Lord, take me away. Wen i have done all that i can here.

kenapa tetiba hati berasa hiba.. dikala ufuk matahri terbenam jua.. aku berteduh bersedih merenung ia.. Ya Allah, tolong lah aku...=( 

hatiku di panah duka.. entah kenapa.. melihat bidadari mengusung jiwa.. harik nie raser cam taik sikit, entah kenape.. tadi nangis tak tentu pasal.. haish... takpelah... aku serah kepada Tuhan.. 

DiS iS gReAt!!!

hey, i got sum shit news to tell ya!!!

I, Muhd Hazlami anak Zawawi anak Buang anak Sumadi, yg tinggal di Senja Rd, yg org dari bangse Jawer (bukan Boyan lar.. wahaha, nie kes kutok boyan nie, meskipon mak aku boyan wahaha), yg makan di pinggan, minum di cawan, telah at last menjadi jiwang, the haz yg aku tau, bukan budak punk cam sial kerana satu reason.. The Reason (nyanyi sikit, lagu hoobastank tu, ape kak?? Diamlah, ko disrupt lagu blog aku lar taik!! wahahaha)

AKU KLUAR NGAN SI BUDAK TU!!!

AND SIAK ARH!! DIER PAKAI CAM FULL DRESS GITU... aku???? Pakai baju skola steb budak ajc gitu (meskipon aku tak reti lagu anthem skola aku, dan aku suker kutok skola aku, dan slalu dtg lambat, dan slalu biadab ngan gengguru2 ku yg tercinta)..

Tapi...

Yg penting nyer...

Sumhow, aku tertarik ngan dier! Akhirnya, setelah satu bulan aku perang sakit di hati, luka yg padaku tidak dpt ku terima dan tidak dpt ku ubati, ahirnya.. THE ROCK HAS COME BACK!!!

Aku rase cam diriku ini di buayai oleh angin sepoi2 bahaser cenggitu.. and lebih2 lagik, dier manis mat.. aku ngok dier cair nak mampos.. cam mentega Planta di sapu atas periuk panas 400 degres celsius..!

Kiter gi ngok wayang cite KUNGFU HUSTLE (cite gerek mat.. walaupon tak ideal bawak pompuan gi on a first date, tapi cite dier klakar pe.. tunjukkan personality aku yg Lame nie lar, tapi tak seLAME budak BELO tu.. Tak klakar sak.. wahaha kutok member)

pastu, aku ngok dier ketawe, tetibe cam aku happy se happy happy nyerrrrrrrr (kene ikot tune Rindu lagu SPOON, yg penyanyi tu dah mampos, kesian).. siak, tak penah ku alami rase sebegini..

next, time balik, meskipon cam kekok (lar, kate org, cam tak kene gitu, yelah, baru aku kenal pe.. takyah nak expect aper2 dari aku.. kantoi nanti hahaha), tapi pas aku buat joke yg paling lame, pat bus, time aku nak kluar..

DIER KASI AKU SURAT NIE SAK.. abeh, yg teramat best to the max, dlm surat tu ader sajak.. serius, aku cair cam nak mati, mcm dlm kebakaran kat dlm hutan indonesia (sial nyer indon, haze pasal koranglar, sepak hidong baru tau! wahaha)

nak dgr??? yelah, aku kasik dgr ye..

Di kala takbir malam melabuh maya
Luputnya cahaya kencana
Berputik asmara di awangan kasmaran
tersentak lamunan dewi inderanila
Alunan bergema
Bisikan terdengar
Bayang menjelma
Arjun Rajawali bagai alamas berharga (sampok sikit ye, nie aku, kirekan aku nie arjun=satria, rajawali=burung, cam burong phoenix ler.. hahaha, abehk dier t dewi, inderanila=bidadari dari syurga)
Mengusik hati menusuk jiwa
Arkian akad dilafazkan
Sehati merentasi aral asmaraloka
Agar abadiah jua selamanya...

best tak?? haha.. aku tak tau ar.. tapi smcm perubahan dan bergolakan yg sedang berlaku di dlm atmaku ini.. smcm rasa yg pernah ku alami, tetapi dikecewakan dahulu.. tetapi, raser cam inilah dia.. Dia..

PS: If u're reading dis, i really love it.. Just wanna sae, u're special.. to me.. =)

tired lar dai..

PENAT

itu sahajalah yg boleh aku pikirkan skrg.

bukan itu sahaja.

TIDUR

itu pon salah satu yg pat dlm kepale hotak aku.

RAUDHAH

Pon dlm kepale hotak aku. Teringat jer senyuman dier.

LAPAR

itu konfirm. Lum makan.

LEE KUAN YEW

siak nyer org tua, ader ke dier ckp Palestinian-israeli conflict leh compromise dgn regime dier tu. Pemusnah bangsa dan agame aderlah. Si tua nie, haiyoo, biler lah ko nak mati!?! Smagat kalau ckp pasal bangser dier (dahlah koghang tak cebok, muahahaha *mean-), tapi slalu condemn bahase kiter.. Kalo larh adeer Hang Tuah.. Confirm dier tu kene sepak selat melaka.. hahahahaha

ADEQ AKU

buat spoil hari. Dahlarh aku cat banner balik penat, si siak tu ungkit pekare lamer. Balik jer kene lecture ngan mak bapak. Hampeh.

FINAL DESTINATION 2

Aku pinjam pat kedai pat Lot 1. Jap agi nak tengok.

TROY

terbuai mimpi nmpak aku? aku mimpi ikot Achilles pi perang (mermans lahr)

ADIB

Kawan baik aku yg teringinkan seorang kawan yg baik yg leh kasi dier happy. Mesti tolong.

BAPAK SULIYATI

Sedih dgr bapak dier masok hospital pasal kemalangan jalan raye. Dahlah pakcik aku 2 mati kerna kemalangan di jalan raye. Besok gi ngan BELOS lawat arh. (Bapak aku nak buat Air Sejuk kasi dier..)

CHOCOLATE

Teringin benar nak makan ferrero rochet yg mempunyai empu yg lazat cam makan coklat.

ROTI

Takde nutella. Confirm takde mood nak makan roti.

AKU

Kenaper aku cenggini, tetiber cam taik jer. Haha. Mungkin pasal dah mati mood kot. Hampehnyer, takleh tido aku.

slamatz... ... ...

Greeat news!!

Hey ya peeps! Sori lar aku lambat post.. Byk perkare mahu dibincangkan, tapi, as wad aku slalu buat, kiter atur secara formal in points lar ehk.. kk..

Sunday, 12 December 2004

1) Rewang pat majlis perkahwinan abg sedare aku, ABG NIZAM (sak, isteri lawa mat.. unutung ar dier)
2)bebual ngan kak nana pasal ehm ehm (takya explain lar ar.. cume untuk pengetahuan anda, kiter discuss pasal bgr, dimana aku dpt tahu aish bawak matair dier gi umah kak nana, yaitu cuzzie aku yg paling terdekat.. hahahaha.. merepek sae)
3)aku dpt meneroka skill aku sebagai stephen king (cameraman lar, wahahaha, best dok, ko amek in diff angle, abeh time gi sblah pompuan, aku jumpe kawan lamer.. dah jadi sedarelar kiter ehk, wahahaha)
4)Bermesra bersama cuzzie2 aku seperti ABG UDIN, ABG DAUS, ABG LI'IN dan sebagainyer
5) Nak carik ikan cantik, tapi tak berjaye pasal semuer muke cam makcik jual taugeh, wahahaha

Tuesday, 14 December 2004

1) pi ngok citer THE INCREDIBLES bersame kluarge, klakar dok (aku cam terattracted dgn Elastic Gurl, lawa dok wahahaha
2) kali pertame makan KFC SHAKERS wahahaha, sedap mat!

Wednesday, 15 December 2004

1) sekeluarge gi escape theme park
2) naik viking ngan abg aku cam 4 kali, naik yg pusing2 tu cam 4kali, hahaha, sampai bapak aku pening kepale abeh ckp nak muntah (hampeh benar!)
3) ngok budak2 diperbodohkan dlm sesi THE CLASH OF THE RUNES ke ape (luper arh, maap aku pinta).. mcm bodoh jer kene act hahaha.. ader satu budak tua nie, smagat sak nak act, time doghang lawan dgn muke2 dier.. sklai aku sepak dier maut
4) Aku memberanikan diri dgn menaiki VIKING dgn membawak skali video cam aku, abeh kiter naik aku record muke2 aku ngan abg aku, cam taik sak!! wahahaha (the trick fer a better thrill wen riding VIKING is dat, ko kene cam lepas semuer yg ko pegang, baik pompuan sblah ko atau railing, pastu ko cam lompat2 atau tap2 ko nyer feet time bende alah tu jatoh.. confirm ko raser cam air kencing temasok balik wahahahaha)

Sunday, 19 December 2004

1)gi umah kamarul nyer makcik nyer anak nyer perkahwinan pasal kene tolong rewang (gaji pon leh tahan! hahaha)

HOT NEWS matz..

Kk, aku start dari firstlar ehk, aku bangun lambat nak mati, walhal ko kene report in (cam askar gitu, wahaha) cam kul 9 pagi.. aku dtg stab superstar dlm kul 12 tengahari gitu, wahaha.. Sesampai saner je, kene kutok ngan member ML ANTI MATRIP AND MINAH GANG (aku nyer kakis lar.. gerek dok budak2 nie.. dari sec1 kiter bersamer.. hahaha, hidop semati), yg paling giler baba tu, pinggan byk siutt!! Sampai nasir dah cam nak gifup gitu.. Aku cam raser nak pi pukol si penyanyi dangdut ala karaoke tu pat depan majlis, rampas mic dier abeh ckp, " Tis is an announcement. Untok mereka yg makan tapi tak makan, kamu diwajibkan mendaftarkan diri dlm kelab MENCUCI PINGGAN SENDIRI, dan blah. Kpd yg mereka yg makan dan makan, tapi tak nk blah, sedia maklum bahawa majlis akan tutop tidak beberaper lamer lagi. And kpd pakcik2 dan makcik2 yg asek nyanyi lagu dangdut, saya harap anda leh pelankan itu volume pasal ia amat membingitkan telinga kami. Harap maklum"

Sap, stab garang plak aku.. Tapi, aku nak bilang ko satu story hebat nyer.. Time aku sampai jer, aku ternotice satu budak nie.. Lawa dan manis mat.. giler nyer manis, sampai aku leh cair kalo dier senyum.. so aku tau, "it is time..!" (sap, cam nak kiamat jer, wahaha)

Aku bilang kamarul and gang ngan adeq dier skali, tolong aku amek nombor budak nie, ko tau ape kamarul buat?!?!?! si syaithan bangang tu diri pastu gi pat mak budak pompuan tu abeh announce pat satu dunia (wah, exaggerating sak!!) yg aku nak berkenalan ngan anak dier!! Aku dah start suspens to the max nyer.. Raser cam nak masokkan semuer muke aku pat air bekas cuci pinggan yg berwarna jingga.. Time dier dah nak balik, aku dah start panik.. Fikiranku dah jadi cam makcik gaul rojak dlm periuk.. aku dah mula menyesal..

Aku nyer aku berkate (lar, belit plak budak nie), "Padan muke ko, hazlami anak zawawi.. Dah melepas dah.. Muahahahahahahaha"

Aku dah berserah pat Tuhan..

Skali, Tuhan lebih tahu, time dier pass, kawan dier (kiter panggil dier Misha Omar pasal dier nyanyi lagu BUNGA2 CINTA, and untok pengetahuan ramai, aku kene pauto nyanyi lagu SONATA MUSIM SALJU, mentang2 namer aku nak dekat samer ngan penyanyi tu, nasib baik okie jer.. nampak sah cam taik! Tak prepare langsung.. mampos ko hazlami.. camaner nak masok AJ TALENTIME.. asek gamam jer ko.. hey, bukan gamam mat.. MALU!!! wahahahaha) jalan pass kiter, skali satu si fulan nie bernama Rasyid (junior aku ler) pi pekik pat dier, "Ehk Misha, kawan aku nak kawan ngan kawan ko si baju hijau tu!"

Aku dah panik seminit.. Raser cam nak nazak gitu.. Tuhan kasi sak.. Si dier tu (taknak bilang namer dier, koghang nak tau kene blanjer aku minum SLURPEE atau belikan aku Roti Halia, muahahaha) kasi sae.. aku rase cam terhappy, hati aku cam melonjat, otak aku berpusing cam washing machine..

Budak tu baik mat.. Pandai gilerr, lai pandai dari aku.. Abeh baik plak tu.. Pandeh tulis sajak.. Nanti satu hari aku post sajak dier pat sini ehk.. hahaha.. Tapi, korang tau pe, aku ngok mata ngan senyum jer, nie dua ader dah lehk kasi aku cair bak butter atas kepala mak aku, wahahaha..

Bertuah nasib aku.. Dis friday agaknyer, aku bawak dier makan.. Gerek dok budak cenggini.. Sporting, tapi aku pemalu ar.. Time aku type nombor dier pat hp aku, aku menggigil cam vibrate hp aku gitu (mcm samsudin dlm cite SENIMAN BUJANG LAPOK, dier ckp ," angin senggugut baru masok operation", wahahahaha)

*aku dgr aish baru break.. sedih sak.. tak sangka aku terjadi sampai gitu.. tapi at least dier ok pe.. aku harap dier ok.. aku kawan baik dier (tak tau kalau dier treat aku cenggitu skrg, tapi, takmengapalah..) Ini suatu pelajaran, kalau nak carik kawan tu, carik lar betol2 takmo cepat2.. Aku kenal budak nie, mat.. Sifat playboy tu dlm atma dier.. takpe aish.. aku percaya dgn hukum karma.. kalo dier buat kamu sperti gitu, tuhan maha membalas.. Aku kalo nmpak dier pat SP, aku bantai dier, tengok jelah, hahahaha.. Aku byk kawan pat saner.. Abeh Taufiq Batisah pon dari saner (ader releven ke??? hahaha), takpe aish. Remember, dat i once said dat no matter wad, im always there fer ya.. U just hafta gimme a shout.. (pekik mcm tarzan tau, baru aku dgr)*

PS: Sedap tak lagu nie?? hahahaha.. Aku suke Tiara, tau joget sae detu.. Buat aku gelek2..

Slamatz...... ...... .....

[BoReD, sAd..]

dis suck man.. sitting like a duck at home.. hearing PUTERI GUNUNG LEDANG song, the one MNASIR sing feat SITI NURHALIZA..

makes me sad.. dunno why.. i share the lyrics of the song wif ya.. hmm..

Cinta datang
Tanpa diundang
Seumur masa tercipta

Dia datang bagai sakti Bagai menyaksi mekar
Kembang pagi ooooohhh

Cinta datang
Dengan senyuman
Panasnya membakar mentari

Wajah yg tergambar
Tak akan terpudar
Dari hati insan yg fana ini
Fana ini...

Tak mungkin mentari
Akan terus sembunyi

Tiada sempadan
Tak bisa kulewati

Jika ini hakikatnya
Aku serahkan jiwa & ragaku
Menantimu walau sengsara
Jika ini ketentuannya
Jika ini hakikatnya
Aku serahkan jiwa & raga
Jika ini ketentuannya
Kau kan jadi milikku
Jua...

see the lyrics.. haish.. its like, the love btwn HANG TUAH and legendary PUTRI GUNUNG LEDANG is so unconditional.. so love.. so much.. so deep.. why can't i have such fate.. maybe im facing the same thing.. but the other party isn't willing.. its like 'Menantimu walau sengsara
Jika ini ketentuannya', just f*ckin wait.. haish..

i dun deserve such deep love.. where in the blue hell wud sumone love me dat much, till she was willing to die, to receive the curse, where any person wud die if he shud see her.. even the lover cudnt see her, like how HANG TUAH experienced.. haish.. it makes me feel like shit.. like a born loser..

i hope, i pray, dat wen i close my eyes.. i see the person who wud bring the curse out of me.. the love so willingly.. so unconditionally given..

yupz.. dats the thing im seeking in life.. unconditional love.. haish...

i dun deserve a thing..

hate myself..

burn, just die..

my poem.....

Life is short, time is precious..
Treasure the stars wif upmost intentions
the heart that beats so fine, may finally end
in ppl's glory, shall it stand

the heart that beats, may soon end
just like the wind blows the sand

the heart that beats, shall sleep in slumber
excruciating, in pain, in hunger
of sumting, no one cud ponder
life is short, time is running
once the last sands trickles out, melt away the tears
for angles have come, never shall you fear

Light up the darkness, has she not done
for the heart datbeats, shall never come
smile and laugh, puts the heart in silent bliss
and wad there is, the love cud give
is the trust and friendship, dire of thy warmth
the art of giving is wad the heart shall question
to itself, for it grows reckless in thirst
of thee sincere, pure love, fellowship and care
wad's there is there, tink again
there might be no tomorrow...

bubyee...=(

[JuSt TiNkIn..HmM..]

putting a post now.. dunno wad to say man.. dammit!! like my brain got clog up or sumting.. haha.. like REAL..

okok.. i read aish blog and she say sumting bout ppl change very fast or so.. hmm.. am i suppose to rebute and share my opinion or just shuttup? haha.. u guys noe me ryte, always wanna share and give like SANTA CLAUSE (and i hate tis particular santa clause appearing in this commercial on channel 5- damn Santa, he was f*ckin horny man! the girl whip 'sumting', then that bastard pulls his damn bushy eyebrows.. YUCK u piece of old shit.. dah tua tu buat hal tua.. aku tau ko buat amal jariah nie, tapi aper nie pompuan sebat pantat ko huh? aku sebat nak? kasi sebat kude kepang kang bau tau.. muahaha), LIKE REAL gitu.. haha..

anyways, like KEANE says in his song, Everybody's Changing :

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same

You're gone from here
And soon you will disappear
Cause everybody's changing
And I don't feel right

so, wad im trying to tink is dat, ppl change, yes, even God says we hafta BERUBAH, betol tak guys?? (lebih baik korang agree, kalo tak, na'as ko..) but hey, i still the person i am..

take a metoforic example, take me as a plasticine (i noe i spell it wrong, so wad? nak kene bantai? muahaha).. it doenst matter how u mold me.. cuz im still a plasticine, the same substance ryte.. u can mold me to be a MATRIP or aper2 ar.. but still, inside, which is more impt, im still wad i am..

ppl must understand.. haish.. leceh ar nak kasi org paham.. pasal tulah aku simpan alasan jer.. hmm..kk

u must understand how weak i am before, the weak hazlami who tends to depend on others, and after dat, he will release the full blow of his beast.. and the shit part, I CAN'T CONTROL IT!!! its like, total annihilation, only ma closest frens noe dat.. and i noe, during the period of onslaught, i wud hurt ppl so much.. haish.. for dat, im really sorie..

now u noe why i need to change.. to put sumting to contain my beast inside me.. sumting like the beast itself.. only a nice beast.. a friendly beast.. the image u c and wad im potraying now is the nice beast itself.. so dat the beast inside me wun hurt nobody.. i noe, i suck at everything dat i do.. im a loser, a hater, a shithole, and all the shit piece modaf*ucking substance in the whole galaxy.. im a jerk, btw.. but im trying not to.. i dun backstab ppl.. and i hate it wen i hurt ppl.. i wud feel so shitly guilty.. so i'll ask God if the person wud forgive me, and that person wun achive all his or her dreams to the fullest.. im not the type dat wud just forget everything.. i do remember, the time i got hurt, the time i felt love for the first time in my life.. and hey, first love never leaves ur skin, u noe..

i've been dreaming of u lately.. sumtimes u're so far away, sumtimes ur depress.. i can feel it in my soul.. but wad am i suppose to do? i can't even contact u, nor wud i noe whether u still treat me as a close fren.. i dunno wads goin on, but do u wanna noe sumting? eversince day1, i've been putting ur name in my prayers, my DOA's, dat u wud be happy always, wherever u are, and ur safe DUNIA and AKHIRAT.. dat ur healthy nd safe.. dun believe me? i tink u dun.. but hey, ask God if u dun believe.. he wun tell u straight away (we are not prophets, u noe.. kiter cam setan gitu, malaikat pon benci hahahha), though.. but u'll noe, sooner or later.. dat im very sincere in wadever i do.. and i only ask for forgiveness and understanding.. im feeling pain now, btw.. but im trying ever so hard to come to my senses, "Hey haz, be urself ok? be strong wo.. i noe ur hurt.. but try ok? i noe ppl will never understand u, never will.. they may say they understand, but they dun.. but, yepz, they did try rite.. and u shud appreciate.." i noe, i suck.. but i just need chances.. everybody makes mistakes, and i hope ppl wud forgive me..

and yes, nice talkin to ya, best fren, on the phone.. it was like, 3hours???? from 11.30 to 2.30am?? siak ar.. lagi terok dari matair hahaha.. (tak semestinyer ko leh angkat aku ar? pi pi pi pimampos!! hahaha...!

and one more thing.. phoenix, i feel i lost ma vigour.. help!!!! :(

here and back again... love ya

almost forgot... JAY CHOU!! YOU'RE THE BEST!!!!

i think i'll be singing QI LI XIANG on chinese new year on the guitar.. check me out guys.. and yes, ma promos suck.. but i'll get my A's.. All of them.. insyaAllah.. i'll work hard, mama and papa, i wun let u guys down, no matter wad im facing rite now.. i noe, u guys love me and want the best out of me.. i promise you, dat i'll work the best i can be.. be a responsible son, student and make u proud.. wanna hear my dreams, my fellow dOgs??

1) Get all A's for A'level, dun care wad ppl say, but i will work hard, insyaAllah
2) NS, be an officer or sumting, then be a lieutenant, the one with the sword..so cool! (Alevel student easy to be officer, so u polytechnic shitholes, im gonna make u pump till u shit in ur pants and say, "MUMMY, HELP ME??!?!!?!"
3) Work out and get a NICE BODY, so can join SPORE IDOLS(hahaha, like real? my face like fark)
4) Work hard and get lotsa money
5) Get a motor license, get a nice cool bike, and ride with SHAHEEDA.. haha.. ko lek satu korner in a circular room sua.. haha.. lol
6) Have a fan club, so ma fishes wun run out.. but oso want a low profilic life
7) Get a simple gurl dat loves me more than herself (not now though.. im thru wiv love games.. always lose, like playing monopoly.. hahaha.. but play TAITI better.. always win.. hahaha
8) Get a big house and get married at the age of 28, i think..
9) Get ma doctorate or sumting.. haha.. think big, tok big, fer a small puny guy like me.. (like my life is gonna reach there.. hahaha)
10) Sing and entertain ppl and touch plus inspire ppl
11) BE LIKE TAUFIQ BATISAH!! HE IS DAMN COOL!!

PS: Suli, you look preety jambu gilerrr in tudong u noe.. sweet like honey, fresh like roses.. but still, ur a belo.. hahaha.. meeting u up tmr fer exco meeting ryte..

dah, wanna sleep liao.. waking up early later to design stuff fer MLDDS.. GO MELAYU!!!

[ ThAts wHy tHey cAll mUa, HAZLAMI!! IMMA BACK, BABE!!]

hey ya horsy??? wads the f*ck up? ima doin fine now.. step punk skrg dok.. dah pakai baju nak ader consept mat.. leh jadi MATRIP, SKA, RUDDIES and bebende sewaktu dgnnyer haha.. and.......

TAUFIQ!!!!!!! YOU'RE MA F*UCKIN IDOL!!!!! WANNA BE JUST LIKE YOU!!!!!

and to think of it, dat ma best blood brother NASIR said during the chalet, which was CRAZY HOOKY, " SAK, HAZ, KO CAM TAUFIQ ANAK BATISAH SAK..!" cuz i wear dis denim jeans with white tees in side, wif ma DOG TAGGY dangling out like ma balls. so it was kinda crazy shit wahahahahha

Pukimeks, wanna share sumting...

To the person= gif me sum time to think about it ya.. it's been a month since the dark period. And now im enjoying every bit of ma life, wads left of my life actually.. not dat i dun love u or wad, but gimme sum time to fish sum fishes wif this cool hair of mine..

PS: btw, i have a new hairstyle.. and this song in ma blog is farking shit! change it!!!

To ma 5 best frens= Thanks man.. ALL OF YA ROCK!!! and ya, nas, aper2 bilang aku dok.. nadiah cam senyap jer.. dah ader laki cam gitu ar.. steb jambu konon.. porah! makan belacan lagi baloi.. bren, watch it lar.. relek beb.. member dah cam suar beb.. lek ar.. hahahaha.. eh kamarul, biler nak main CS???? aku dah addicted sak.. itulah, bunoh korang 47 kali, mati 8 kali jer.. hahaha.. cam betol jer..

To ma bro= hey, thanks dude.. kiter kene beli byk2 baju steb concept giler pukimek to da meks!! and, gdluck wif da NS thingy.. wahahaha

and imma building up ma body, see wad i can do bout it.. wanna be just like my BELOVED TAUFIQ BATISAH!!!

and i promise you guys imma sing at the AJ TALENTIME YOZ.. wad song?? erm, gd qn.. THE REASON? I SWEAR? alah, nyanyi dondang sayang sua.. hahahaha

kaez.. dah lamer plak tak blog in.. com rosak cam sial gitu.. and yes, i did had fun wif the jalan rayer guys.. will upload pics ones i get them.. i recorded two songs, one wiv ma bro singing KAU PERGI JUA, and TWIST AND SHOUT wiv the 4 brothers including me.. haha.. nice sak, tak caye nanti kasi dgr pat koghang.. LEMAH korang tau...

haish, ma heart is still bleeding, but not gona say a word, time is short fer me, so wanna make ppl happy as much as i can.. AND SORI MIRA, NONI, SITI SULAIMA.. cudnt go promnite due to sum unforeseen circumstances.. love ya guys, u are my little sisters yanoe.. sms aku lar, dah rindu aku pat koghang.. haha.. gi wayang ke, ape ke, steb PIMP sae..

farkin goofballs! gota go now.. my bro just came back from his MIQ meeting (wanna go wiv him, he say got lotsa madrasah gurls, untap area beb!) tmr go makan lunch wiv MENTORS!!! LOVE YOU GUYS!! And fark you, to those modaf*ckers who try to fark me, especially MATRIPS!! you guys suck to the max! dah miskin, pi pakai baju steb concept konon.. blah sua.. HATE YOU YOU LOSERS!!!

my two syg parents.. i love you.. i thot, wen i lost her, i wud lose everyone.. but u guys turn up, and cared me more.. i love you so much.. gosh, there is tears in my eyes.. 

us again.. at ma house, yanoe..from the left : HERMAN, ANUAR, THE GREAT, RAPPIE, FARIZ (ma twin brother, kiter steb bapok sak), BLOOD BROTHER NASIR, KHAIRI, BEST FREN KAMARUL.. 

listen up!! this are my gang! budak ml bawah block anti-makrip.. haha.. 

sweet tak cuzzie2 aku? the one wiv the little brat on the laps is KAKAK NANA!! MA MOST BELOVED CUZZIE!!! HAHAHA.. hope u see this.. muke patot di tag as SWEET-LOOKING.. hahah.. takmo kembang ar.. 

mua.. haha.. just had a hair cut.. like shitlar, i ask fer bob haircut, dat farking idiot go cut till i like no hair.. so i tried ma best to navigate him to get a spiked-up hair.. this is the resultant.. move away hazlami.. Hazlami is taking over.. hahahahahaha.. belit sak! 

this is mua wiv ma one of ma favourite cuzzie, ABG NAJIP!! (fer ya info, he was the one who suggested me riding a bike, and the educational tour to deskar rd.. haha) kiter pat umah dier.. blkg ma 3rd bro..